Deepening Souls Vol. 2, Page 2

  The Beauty Within

  Beauty is within,

  Not without.

  From what

  I heard,

  Beauty is

  The example

  Of mother nature,

  The soul of a

  Human being.

  Beauty stands

  For love, kindness,

  You in which makes

  Me feel the beauty

  Of your soul.

  Beauty stands

  For beautiful in

  Which God made us.

  Finding Happiness

  Visual signs

  Of happiness

  Appeals slowly

  To me.

  It is

  Something

  I can’t explain.

  I learn to work

  At it, so maybe I

  Can feel what others

  Feel.

  Chilling vibes

  Race through my veins

  As I daydream of

  Never having to go back

  To this sinful place.

  I feel alone,

  Like I need help

  Finding my way back

  To where I should

  Be.

  But there’s

  No one here

  But me so I’m

  Afraid I have to

  Search for happiness

  Myself.

  Darkness’ Sin

  Darkness takes

  Me hostage into

  A cage where life

  Doesn’t exist.

  Smells of vicious

  Souls poison me with

  Its heartless ways.

  Sin is reality,

  It’s not a lie,

  It’s not fake.

  I live in fear,

  Afraid to never

  Be let go.

  I’m imprisoned,

  I’m a slave

  To its unforgiving

  Sin.

  I wish

  To finally

  Be saved soon

  Into the light,

  Never to revisit

  That nightmare

  Again.

  Silhouette Of A Woman

  Whispers of life

  Silently enters my ears,

  Wondering if I am

  Listening and miraculously,

  I am.

  The silhouette of

  A young woman comes

  Close to me,

  Her sincerity and dignity

  Is stronger than

  Life itself.

  I can see

  Through her

  That she has walked

  Miles for daylight

  To come,

  Never stopping,

  I only hope she would

  Put that strength in me.

  Liveliness is a prize

  You are rewarded with,

  Not something you

  Just take.

  This woman

  Is always here,

  It’s as if she’s

  Bringing me to

  A place I’ve never been,

  Like a guardian angel.

  Voices of life

  Whispers to me

  To never give up

  Or I’ll fail.

  The silhouette

  Of a young woman

  Comes close to me

  And guides me to the

  Daylight of life.

  Pain Is Like A War

  Pain is like

  A war.

  It is a

  Crisis that

  Cannot be

  Healed.

  It’s the way

  Of life that

  Is suicidal.

  As I walk on

  My own,

  I wonder, can

  I survive?

  I go into

  The ocean

  And drown in

  My own hurt

  And lifelessness.

  Life isn’t

  Supposed to

  Be like this,

  I think to myself.

  It’s supposed to

  Be wonderful,

  But instead, all

  I can see is darkness.

  Pain is like

  A war,

  It can’t be

  Changed.

  Emotions explode

  As I can’t take no more,

  No more pain,

  No more hurt.

  Hoping it would

  Go away,

  I pray, I pray

  To never feel like

  This again, because

  Pain is like a war,

  It is a crisis that can’t

  Be healed.

  Painful Crime

  I am sore

  From the pain

  That you have

  Purposely put

  Inside me.

  With your

  Violent, harsh

  Choice of words

  That slowly consumes

  Me, I feel stuck.

  Stuck to the

  Point that I am

  A prisoner for life,

  But sometimes,

  I wish I was sentenced

  To death so I wouldn’t

  Have to suffer.

  My Baby Called Nature

  My baby is called

  Nature for its beauty-

  Everything I want

  Walk Of Pain Relief

  You’ve built

  Anger inside of me,

  So much anger

  That it feels

  Like I’m about

  To go on a

  Psychedelic rage,

  Hoping that no one

  Will catch me and

  Lock me in a cage

  So that I will not continue

  My self-centered walk

  Of pain relief.

  Pain relief,

  Being that I

  Want someone

  Else to feel this pain,

  Feel this hurt,

  And feel backstabbed

  Just like me and then

  Maybe they’ll

  Realize what I mean

  By self-centered

  Walk of relief.

  Realistic

  Let’s be realistic,

  We were never true,

  We were just playing

  Careless games with

  Eachother.

  No matter

  How many times

  We’ve tried,

  It would be destroyed,

  Destroyed by our

  Careless,

  Unforgiving,

  Non-negotiable,

  Unhappy selves.

  You may say

  This is unrealistic,

  But it’s not

  And it never

  Will be.

  Life Complications

  As I look outside,

  It’s just like life,

  Beautiful, but wild

  And uncontrolled.

  I wonder why,

  Why it has to be

  Like that,

  Why it’s so hard,

  But it’s hard because

  We make it hard

  By the things we do.

  I’m not saying

  Life can’t be

  Easy, but how

  Can it be when

  We don’t think outside

  Of our selves,

  Outside of us.

  Love Loss = Nothing

  The feeling of

  Love coming down

  Like rain,

  Transferring from

  You to me like

  A person giving

  A heart to someone

  Else is like never

  Before.

  Have you ever

  Wondered why

  Love exists,

  Why it gets to

  Everyone it exposes?

  I have, because without

  It, nothing exists.

  Love
Phobia

  Yes, I have

  A Love phobia,

  The phobia in which

  Makes me think I’m

  Not worth it,

  The phobia that

  Makes me wonder

  If I’ll ever be unafraid

  To love again.

  I’m scared,

  I’m scared that

  I’ll end up making

  A mistake with love

  And never being

  Able to love or to

  Be loved again.

  People say,

  “Oh, you’ll find

  That perfect person”,

  But what if that

  Doesn’t work for me?

  What if it’s just a myth?

  I want to be loved,

  But I’m scared.

  Life (Like An Equation)

  She was born

  An angel that never

  Hid herself from

  Who she really was.

  Never in her life

  Did she want to feel

  Pain, because if she did,

  She would be weak.

  Dreams of how

  She could be was

  Never a concern,

  But dreams of how

  She wanted to

  Be was always

  A concern.

  Bad feelings

  Consumed her,

  Feelings that were

  Never meant to be felt.

  Peer pressure

  Was her weakest link,

  She would always

  Get high on the pain

  That she felt,

  So much that it didn’t

  Feel like pain,

  It was just something

  She got used to.

  Words that

  Came out of her

  Mouth were

  Unordinary and

  Unusual,

  Negative and

  Wrong.

  She would

  Go to the wishing

  Well,

  Close her eyes,

  And drop

  the penny In hopes

  that She would

  get what She wanted,

  light without darkness,

  happiness without sadness.

  Life is like

  An equation,

  Hard to solve,

  Never easy,

  Always hard.

  She built this

  Wall up to protect

  Herself from

  Pain until she

  Realized that in

  Order to be happy,

  She has to feel pain.

  We Both Found Life

  My body is

  On this earth

  For a reason.

  My soul is

  Crawling to

  Reach the depths

  Of my mouth

  To speak on behalf

  Of my heart.

  Freedom vibrates

  My physical body

  And seduces my

  Mental mind.

  Cries of passion

  Comes down

  My face as I cry

  Tears of the living,

  Of this realm,

  And this island

  That grabs my whole

  Self, consuming me

  With uncontrollable

  Feelings, making

  Me claustrophobic

  To these emotions.

  Not so much

  For me to die out,

  I gain the strength

  To open myself

  To ones emotion

  And cry passionate

  Tears with them.

  Spiritual emotions

  Lifts us up as we

  Are seduced by one

  Another’s souls.

  My body is

  On this earth

  For a reason.

  My soul is

  Crawling to

  Reach the depths

  Of you.

  Where You Are

  Feelings of soulful

  Cries mysteriously

  Comes down like raindrops

  From outside.

  Invisible clouds

  Appear as I realize

  You’re gone.

  I drop my

  Head in misery,

  Wanting to feel his

  Hands touching me,

  Feeling me,

  But I then realize

  That what I want

  Is not real.

  I then realize

  That my feelings

  Weren’t enough

  For him to stay.

  Where you are,

  I cannot come

  To stay.

  This world

  You’re in is

  Sucking up my

  Reality and who

  I am.

  Maybe we were

  Never meant to be

  If this, you see

  Is not wrong.

  Where you are

  Is where you are

  And where I am is

  Where I want to stay.

  Beauty Of Life ( Human Nature )

  The beauty of life

  Is beautifully like you-

  In human nature

  Garden Of Life

  I went into

  This garden

  Of life,

  The beauty

  Of it was like

  The beauty

  Of nature.

  The smell

  Was like the

  Smell of

  A girl’s sweet

  Citrus perfume.

  The garden

  Of life is like

  Nothing you’ve

  Ever seen.

  Face Beauty

  How your

  Face shines

  Like the

  Brightness

  Of the sun.

  Why, I wish

  That my

  Facial features

  Were as golden

  As yours.

  ……

  Beautiful

  Masterpiece.

  Survivor’s Life

  I’m crawling

  Up the balcony

  Of life trying

  To learn to go on

  My own,

  Into the wilderness

  Of experiences,

  Feelings of unordinary

  Life that can’t be

  Defined.

  Therefore,

  Portions of little

  Demons that follow

  Me frightens me,

  It makes me afraid

  To live.

  The paths that

  I’ll walk on

  Threatens my

  Ability of strength.

  Life is like

  A rollercoaster,

  It has its ups and downs,

  But when the downs

  Go lower, I panic.

  I panic

  Because that

  Makes me feel

  Like a failure,

  Like I’m doomed

  In this world.

  Chills come upon

  Me as I lift my

  Arms to soar because,

  What if I fall?

  Will I ever get up?

  Thoughts consume

  My mind,

  It blocks positivity,

  The thing I need

  To survive.

  But I’m

  Not a survivor,

  Because if I was,

  I could soar right

  Now with all the

  Negativity gone

  And fear unknown.

  But it’s

  Getting close

  To time and

  I’m scared,

  But if I close

  My eyes and lift

  My wings and fly

  And soar on my own,

  I’m a survivor.

  Stars Shining

  The stars are shining


  In the night sky with beauty-

  Twinkling in ones sight

  Those Are The Days That I Miss

  Like the brightest

  Of days when the sun

  Comes out and

  There’s no darkness.

  Those are the days

  That I miss when you

  Were here and not

  Extinct out of my life.

  Like the sounds

  Of the birds

  Communicating

  By their chirps.

  Those are the days

  That I miss when

  We would communicate,

  Except with us,

  Our communication

  Was by a kiss.

  How a beautiful

  Flower blooms like

  The beginning

  Of our relationship.

  Those are the days

  That I miss…

  Stuck In Nowhere

  I’m in a dark

  Covered room,

  I have nowhere

  To go.

  I have no one here,

  I am nowhere near

  Where I should be.

  I feel like

  I’m stuck and

  I can’t get out,

  I just want to go

  Somewhere where

  There’s an out,

  I just want to get out.

  Memories Blinded

  The memories

  I have of you are

  Like a big explosion.

  The gasoline

  Was me being

  Blinded by who

  You really were,

  Blinded by the

  Face of a guy that

  Never existed.

  The fire was

  You burning me

  With undeniable

  Pain that you put

  Me through.

  I sit and say

  “Your loss”,

  But it’s really

  My loss too

  Because I lost

  Something special

  To me, trust and love.

  Addicted

  As I insert

  This drug of you

  Into my vein,

  Up Into my heart

  and soul,

  I can’t stop.

  They say go

  To rehab but still,

  I can’t let it go,

  I can’t let you go.

  I sometimes

  Wish I was never

  Introduced,

  Because when people

  Ask if they can use,

  I say “No,

  He’s mine”,

  And when they do,

  I get jealous.

  Everybody

  Says that you’re

  Bad for me,

  All I say is I’m

  In love with you

  And I’m addicted.

  The Pain In My Heart

  My chest

  Feels like pins

  Is sticking through

  With your sharp knife.

  As I see my

  Blood dripping