OPEN MIC: Reflections of the Street part 1, Page 3

  ‘Cause a state appointed attorney don’t’ give a fuck if you rot in jail for the rest of your life,

  They ain’t gon defend you too tough - you don’t control their salary - they ain’t puttin’ up no real fight

  So if you haven’t started yet - start stashin’ your money up in the shoebox tonight!!!

 

  POETIC INSPIRATION

  This piece was inspired by an individual I heard say “I won’t get knocked, I don’t have the look”. I was astonished to hear someone even think like that… at that moment I was thinking “you’re black… you already have the look.” Some hustle for material gain while others hustle just to survive. Whatever your reason or excuse, make sure you save should the day ever arise that you get arrested. Yeah, you’re entitled to a free defense attorney however what you don’t pay usually ends up costing you your freedom. Do I condone selling drugs? No, however I know and understand the circumstances and situations which can lead up to that decision. Politicians/the government are more concerned with treating the symptoms while neglecting the root cause. What does that mean? It means that politicians and the government will put more police on patrol instead of creating facilities and opportunities that can assist and uplift the people. There are not enough positive and uplifting things for the youth to do, so what happens? They roam the streets with no destination which leads to mischievous behavior and sometimes illegal acts. Even with that being said we must not always seek the government to help us succeed. We must take the initiative as individuals to create better conditions for our people.

  WHY YOU LEAVE?

  I miss you so

  Why’d you leave me? Why’d you go?

  Was it something I did or said?

  Didn’t cook well enough? Wasn’t good enough in bed?

  If there was a problem, all you had to do was open your mouth

  You didn’t have to pack up your things and re-locate Down South

  That shit astonished me

  Bullshit ass note along side my house keys

  We’ve experienced so much. You’ve become my best friend

  You couldn’t express how you felt? Couldn’t tell me this was the end?

  It had to end on a piece of paper?

  I had to read the words “I can’t stay” you knew I was on my way - Couldn’t wait ‘till I got home just a few minutes later?

  Bitched up?

  Didn’t wanna look me in my face? Didn’t wanna start chokin’ up?

  Yeah well - alls well and fine

  You do your thing - have no choice but to do mine

  Just something I’ll have to accept

  Though coming from you, it wasn’t something I’d ever expect

  But life ain’t about what you expect

  Rarely the things you most want in your life do you ever tend to get

  Had you for a minute

  Guess my fun is up now, time for the next chick to get and be wit’ it

  You have nothin’ but my best wishes

  It’s her turn to get all your fondles while she’s trying to cook, talk on the phone, get ready for work or wash the dishes

  Although extremely saddened, I can’t be mad

  She may have you now but I’ve already had

  And before me was the other chick

  I knew before I got involved with you - you was famous for the switch

  Shouldn’t have opened my heart so wide

  Now I feel like you slammed the door in my face - left me standing in the cold outside

  HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?

  BABY I HAD TO

  Baby I had to leave, it wasn’t you - it was all me

  You know I been in a lot of dangerous circles since I been flippin’ these keys

  Please don’t ever question or doubt my love for you

  I hope you’re not beating yourself up thinking it was something you did or did not do

  Because baby you’re perfect, I thought women like you no longer existed

  The first week with you I was glad as fuck I was persistent - dropped all them other broads - stopped all that dumb shit

  Why? Because we actually conversed

  Never once questioned my doe schemin’ on how to get it in your purse

  Baby you are my treasure - my grand prize

  I melt like a hot fudge sundae with one look in them sexy ass eyes

  We both know I used to be a playa, the one on the go

  You know money attracts the most grimy and freakiest hoes

  Then I met you… paid me absolutely no mind

  A nigga had to smile, bag you and make your fine ass mine

  That alone showed me how different you are

  Ain’t give two fucks about my jewels, doe, customized car or how much doe I dropped for my mans at the bar

  And although you stay dipped, you’re far from materialistic

  Always encouraged me to go legit because you ain’t wanna see your man dead or locked up doin’ no bid

  And as much as I hope you are, I hope you’re not pregnant

  I don’t need my child growing up without me feeling all fucked up and neglected

  Because to be honest baby, I may never return, you may never see me again… you may never hear my voice

  Had to body that nigga - He thought I was pussy - Thought I was a nigga he could burn. I know I did - but it felt like I ain’t had no choice

  It’s not safe in these streets, so just in case I left you a piece

  Keep it off safety. If a nigga ever approach you aim high, aim right, breathe and release

  And I’m mad as fuck right now ‘cause you told me not to get involved wit’ this dumb shit

  You told me that nigga was a snake and couldn’t be trusted

  I thought my experience outweighed your intuition

  Now I’m sittin’ here with the woulda, coulda, shoulda’s… but didn’t.

  I’M SORRY BABY. I LOVE YOU

  BROKEN HEART DAME

  I saw you today

  On the Ave. wit’ a bitch wearin’ black and gray

  Following you? Not even

  Don’t try to put this on me because you got caught wit’ the heathen

  I had to go handle some business for work

  Hopped out the car and boy did I feel like the jerk

  Was going to approach you - but for what? What’s that going do?

  Prove that you’re eating me and that bitch too

  Fuck it. It’s a feeling - I’ll get over it

  Forgot about work - Came right home and took the liberty of packin’ up all your shit

  Couldn’t believe what I had seen

  Felt like a movie - like I was in a dream

  You ain’t never do shit for me

  I gave you everything. A crib with live in pussy

  I bought you that shit on your back

  I’m the one who supplied you wit’ the money to re-up for them cracks

  You don’t give a fuck about me

  Out there banging these others chicks but callin’ me wifee

  Look how long we’ve been together

  I never thought this fucked up shit you’d ever endeavor

  But hey - that’s the breaks

  Thought I wouldn’t find out? I ain’t stupid. I knew why you were coming in late

  “Boo I had to handle some business wit’ Julio uptown at the studio”

  Do I look like a dick? Is asshole written on my forehead yo?

 

  You and your mans go fuck ‘till your dicks fall

  I know how ya’ll do. All for one. One for all

  Ya’ll a buncha nasty muh-fuckas

  Look at your feet - I bought you them chuckas

  And you go profile around your friends like you livin’ large

  When that shit is on my account - I used my charge card

  That’s what I get for being so blind

  Even your mother told me I’m waisting my time - a better man she knew
I could find

  Always said “he is a no good man

  Betta play like the gingerbread man and run run as fast as you can”

  Dumb bitch to myself is all I can say

  You can’t rest here no longer - You gotta boat today

  I don’t know why the fuck I stopped poppin’ my pills

  ‘Cause you don’t never like wearin’ nothin on that dills

  “Look at all the times we’ve share”?

  Ahhh! Stop with the stories my hearings impaired

  I’ma be by myself for awhile

  Forget a marriage. Forget a nigga. Forget a child

  A new man will definitely be found

  But it ain’t gon last anyway. The next relationship’s gon be rebound

  All the things I did

  The only thing I didn’t do was have your fuckin’ kid

  Tried to trap me

  Fuck you our relationship wasn’t all that happy

  Oh and I’m pregnant right this minute

  Not for long though. You fucked up. I’m headed for the clinic

  POETIC REFLECTION

  Damn, the clinic? She ain’t have to do that! Don’t kill your baby because your “heart” (mind/emotions) were wounded. But that is one of many ways a Broken Heart Dame will seek gratification and revenge from feeling violated, especially if she’s gone the distance in the relationship. If ya’ll made an agreement that it’s going to be a you and I, me and you thing be disciplined enough to resist the enticement. 85% of the population reveal their body wearing something tight, short and/or see through. So if you’re not mentally strong enough to back off of a big butt or big breasted woman, don’t commit to anyone. But if you do… be prepared to deal with all consequences that will transpire, because it’s 100% worse when feelings are involved. Crimes of passion ain’t no joke!

  And most of all you could be losing your best friend. Appreciate what you have while you still have it. And for those who have lost someone of great worth and value I hope you have learned from the lesson.

  WHAT NEXT

  It’s over - I got him

  Was her favorite phrase when she went out club hoppin’

  * * * *

  She went to the club and met a cutie last week

  But a fight broke out, got separated before they exchanged contact info so at a more convenient time they could speak

  She was determined to get this guys number

  Fantasizing about rolling around with him passionately into a deep slumber

  It’s been a whole week but off she go to the club like what

  Doubting he’ll be there, but testing her luck

  Up in the club you’d think she was a talent scout

  Or F.B.I. looking for a Black Man strong enough to stand up and speak out

  Turned around and lo’ and behold

  Duke from last week lookin’ even better and more swole

  Quick surprise

  Followed by a big smile and seductively slanted bedroom eyes

  Followed by a hand hold and “what up boo,

  Thought about you all week - Kinda thrown back though - didn’t think you’d come through”

  Followed by a tilted and seemingly bashful smile

  Because she don’t wanna seem so fast - but she thought about him too - graphic images type wild

  They sittin’, conversin’, sippin’ on somethin’

  They sizin’ each other up - nothin’ but hee-hee, ha-ha’s and much flirtin’

  He thinkin’ “damn shortie is fine

  Should I one night stand her or try to make her mine?”

  She’s thinkin’ “damn he is gorgeous. Look at those eyes and his teeth are beautiful

  That’s baby father material right there. I’m fertile - we could be fruitful”.

  They end up leavin’ the club together- so what should the next scene be?

  Them usin’ protection or contracting a sexually transmitted disease?

  CAUGHT

  Bitch I done caught you

  Fuck out my crib - gimme back all the shit I done bought you

  I love you to death but our times are now antiquated

  You know - ancient, old, behind the times, two tone pants out dated

  Bitch don’t badger me - no you can’t stay

  I ain’t fuck up - you made it this way

  Thought I wasn’t gon see you?

  Surprise for that ass bitch - Here I am - Peak a boo

  I don’t even wanna know how long it’s been goin’ on

  ‘Cause wit’ you seein’ someone else, your feelings for me can’t be too strong

  Ahhh - what you mean you don’t care about him?

  Shut the fuck up - you lettin’ that nigga bend up your limbs

  I can’t believe this shit

  Fuckin’ me - suckin’ that nigga dick

  My respect for you is kinda gone

  How I’m feelin’ now can’t be expressed in words - it’s way beyond.

  Shit hurts too bad - You know the type of nigga I am - I can’t let this go

  What your friends say about the situation? Probably hooked you up wit’ that nigga. Buncha mangy ass hoes.

  Just go now - Just leave

  I bought it - but you can go wit’ the clothes on your back - But on the table put your jewels and my keys

  Don’t explain now - totally unnecessary

  You ain’t got no place to stay? When you was wit’ that nigga you wasn’t worried

  Call that nigga, maybe he’ll shack you up

  Oh, he got a wife. Fucked up baby girl - Tough luck

  Go back to your moms crib

  Tell her how you fucked up - tell her the foul shit you did

  I was the best thing you ever had

  Moms lovin’ me too – she’s going to be disgusted - I know she gon be mad

  I go through on the humble - even without you

  “I was in the neighborhood Ma and I figured it’s about your lunch time. So here - I bought some grub for you”

 

  Her face always lights up like the sun in the sky

  You was fucked up to your moms - If she don’t take you back it’s your fault don’t ask her why

  Your pops is cool too

  We always chill. Talk, sit on the porch smokin’ joints, drinkin’ brew

  You was my girl… It was only right to look after them like family

  Fuck all that cryin’ shit - come on now, please spare me

  I know I won’t ever be able to turn my back completely on you

  But we ain’t fresh no more. We ain’t wrapped tight like aluminum foil

  Remember, you’re the one who fucked up all the time we put into this

  But before you go Boo - just gimme one last hug - one last kiss

  POETIC THOUGHT

  Would you be able to exhibit such restraint if a situation like this happened to you?

  YOU CAUGHT ME

  Boo, it just happened. I ain’t mean it

  You know how it is when two people alone and start drinkin’

  It was in the heat of the moment. It happened so fast

  Please don’t think I intended to give him some ass

  Lust was the factor. That played the major part

  Please don’t think I deliberately tried to crush your heart

  I never took for granted all the things you’ve done for me

  I know if we wasn’t together you wouldn’t have like three, four “pharmacies”

  But you know I like the finer things

  Fat ass cars, outstanding wardrobe, bangin’ shoes, diamond rings

  You put me up when family shitted on me

  Said “Fuck ‘em Boo, I’m here for you, look made you a set of house keys”

  Remember the time we almost had a kid?

  Unfortunate circumstances though, five months early out my body the baby slid

  The bond you have with my family is marvelous

  You the only nigga I fucked
wit’ who I knew I could trust

  But as you said, this does lie upon my shoulders

  Guess I got a little more growing up to do - just knew I was older

  I still love you to death

  So many nights I couldn’t sleep ‘till you came home so I could lay on your chest

  I can’t see how you givin’ up on us so easily

  Too many times I’ve been there for you and you there for me

  You caught me. What the fuck can I do? I can’t lie

  Probably go to my moms house, sit in the corner all day, sob ‘till I can’t open my eyes

  Fuck am I gon tell ma duke

  Forgot to tell you, she called the other day told me to tell you thank you for all that you’ve done and she loves you

  You did too much for me spoiling me the way you did

  Gave me more than what I wanted because you already supplied me with what I needed

  You didn’t even want me working, or doing nothing too hard

  Only thing you wanted when you got home was a hot meal and nice massage

  What I do? Comply

  You my man, I love doin’ shit for you - I can’t lie

  But now granting your wishes - I gotta go

  And if there’s ever a chance for us again - call and just say so

  Believe me, I’ll be waiting

  I don’t care how long it takes - I’ll cut off any nigga that I’m dating