Burning Books
Sharon Gerlach
Table of Contents
Epilogue
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Book One
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Book Two
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Book Three
Book Four
Book Five
Book Six
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
ALSO BY SHARON GERLACH
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, organizations, places, events, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
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Published by Kindle Press, Seattle, 2017
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This book is dedicated to Winter, for her unwavering support and limitless friendship.
CONTENTS
Start Reading
Book One
1
2
3
4
Book Two
1
2
3
4
5
Book Three
1
2
3
4
5
Book Four
1
2
3
4
Book Five
1
2
3
4
Book Six
1
2
EPILOGUE
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
ALSO BY SHARON GERLACH
The smoke has cleared;
The mirrors have shattered.
I stand behind enemy lines,
An unwitting patriot of an unholy land.
—s.g.
∞1∞
The exterior of the bookshop didn’t look promising, not that Molly McKinley had expected much from the Beemer Lane address in Queen Anne. They had followed the clue of an aging bookplate, glued to the free endpaper in a first-edition copy of To Kill a Mockingbird, and now stood before a forgotten warehouse, staring dubiously at a weathered wood sign hanging from a decorative iron bracket by chains:
GERARD’S RARE BOOKS
721 Beemer Lane
“I’ve never heard of this place.”
Her twin, Magnus, snorted in response.
“Seriously, Magnus, we’ve been collecting books most of our lives. How is it we’ve never heard of this place?”
“I don’t know. I saw the bookplate and thought we should check it out. Maybe Mom and Dad knew about it but just never brought us here.”
It was Molly’s turn to snort. “If they never brought us here, that should tell you something.”
“Are we going in or not? The wind’s going right through me.” He turned up the collar of his wool peacoat as a gust of March wind hit them from behind, laced with tiny darts of icy raindrops.
The wind curled around the shop sign, making it sway and the chains creak. Molly stepped onto the first crumbling concrete step and jumped as the shop door burst open and a tall, thin man barreled out, glancing furtively around. He glowered when he saw them, stuffed his brown-paper-wrapped package into the depths of his overcoat, and hurried away.
“That’s a good sign.” Magnus sounded relieved.
“How do you figure?”
“Only a true bibliophile would be so annoyed that his favorite shop was discovered by others. That”—he motioned to the man—“was a true bibliophile.”
Molly watched the man with narrowed eyes as he strode across the parking lot and around the corner, hunched against the wind. Odd. He hadn’t seemed annoyed as much as he had seemed afraid to be seen.
Magnus took the steps in three strides and opened the door, waiting with a grin for his sister to precede him. Another odd character, Magnus was, and entirely unreadable despite the fact that he was her twin. As he was prone to black, depressive moods and unfathomable melancholy, his good cheer today made her swallow her suspicions about the shop. The door closed behind them without even the benefit of a tinkling bell to alert the shopkeeper of their presence. The sales desk to their left was vacant. A large brass hand bell sat beside an antique iron register, waiting to summon help should they need any.
Magnus motioned to the desk and said in a hushed voice, “Is it just me, or are you curious about all the books on shelves behind the counter?”
There were many, wrapped in brown paper, waiting for their new owners to claim them.
“Not really. If I saw what they are, I’d probably want them, and that would just be pointless, since it appears they’re already sold. Come on, let’s have a look at what’s not sold.”
Unlike its dilapidated exterior, the interior of Gerard’s Rare Books was cozy and immaculate. Thick carpet patterned in rich brown-and-gold tones cushioned their footfalls. The gold hue carried to the wall, making the rows of walnut stacks stand out. As if they needed anything to highlight them other than the selection of books crammed cheek by jowl upon each shelf. And what a selection: Coptic bound, long-stitch bound, limp-vellum bound. Even, unless her eyes deceived her, a secret Belgian binding.
“Molly!” Magnus elbowed her in case his whisper didn’t carry. “I think those books over there are bound with skin. Do you think it’s human?”
She leveled her best now let’s not overreact look at him. “I doubt it. Usually only witches’ grimoires are bound in human skin. I don’t think you’ll be finding grimoires in a respectable shop like this.”
“Oh, so now it’s a respectable shop?” He gave the shelf a wide berth as they ventured farther inside.
The warehouse had no exterior windows to let in damaging light. Instead, handsome copper piercework shaped like Gothic lancet windows hung at even intervals. Between each, in an effort to ward of claustrophobia, arched insets in the wall were painted with incredibly detailed scenes: pastoral landscapes, mountain views, castles in the clouds. Can lights in the ceiling lit the spaces between the metal stacks, coming on automatically as they entered a row. Wall sconces over each of the painted arches lit the main aisle so that they could see the tastefully engraved signs that labeled each section. Each stack was capped with a small table to leave discarded selections.
“Where do we even start?”
Magnus didn’t reply. Molly looked up to find him halfway down the main aisle. He paused at a stack, read its label, and disappeared into the row.
Not as picky about the topics of her collectibles, Molly stepped into a row. The natural oils from her fingers could damage delicate, precious bindings, so she let her eyes peruse the volumes as she pulled on a pair of white cloth gloves. Here and there she spied a familiar title, which relieved her—she hadn’t recognized many so far. If a title was too obscure, she would have no idea what a fair price would be without intensive research.
She waited for a book to pique her interest. None had when Magnus appeared at her side and tugged on her arm.
“Molly, come look at this.”
“In a minute. I’m still looking.”
He scanned the titles in front of her. “I don’t recognize any of these. Come on—you have to see these. You won’t believe it.”
He looked so earnest and excited, and because today was finally a happy one for him after weeks filled with dark despondency, she followed him out of her row and down the aisle to where he’d amassed a generous stack of books on the discard table.
“You shou
ldn’t have taken so many off the shelves.” The seven slim volumes appeared to be a series. Six were bound in gold-embossed emerald-green leather, the seventh in rich red.
He cast a covert look around the shop and gestured at a selection of similarly bound slim volumes. “These are the only ones I’ve been able to take off the shelves, period.”
At the skeptical purse of her lips, he reached past her shoulder and hooked a sturdy spine with his finger, tugging gently. The book didn’t move. Molly tried the one next to it, and the next one. Neither of those budged. Finally, she laid her hands on the tops of several and tugged. None even wiggled. Were they glued? But what rare-book expert would treat such valuable artifacts so shabbily?
She stared at the books, fear coiling through her, mingling with anxiety as she looked at the books he’d been able to remove. “What are those about? Who wrote them?”
“Apparently, no one. See for yourself.
Molly lifted the cover of the topmost book. No endpaper, no frontispiece, no title page. Gold leaf embossed the covers in decoration, but no words identified title, author, or publisher. She fanned the pages, stopping at a random one, but the words inside made no sense to her.
“Turn to the back,” he whispered, fearful as well as excited.
Obediently, Molly turned the book over and opened the back cover. Her breath caught in her throat as she brushed her finger over her name, printed in the back in a perfect Garamond-style font. She raised her gaze to meet her twin’s. His eyes were huge in a face that suddenly looked ill.
“Open the others.”
By the last volume, she’d practically ripped open the covers, unmindful of causing damage. Why was her name in all of these, printed on the glued half of the back endpaper? Savagely, she yanked open the back cover of the red book and read Magnus McKinley.
“Why are six mine and only one yours?”
“I don’t know. Why are our names in any of them?”
She laid the red book down on top of the green volume, resting her gloved hand on them. Her mind whirled. Simple curiosity dictated they should take them home. Not only should they take them home, they should go through every row in this shop to see if there were other volumes with their names in them. It wouldn’t take long, not if none of the other books would even come off the shelves.
Her decision made, she said, “I think we should buy them and go,” just as Magnus said, “I think we should leave them and get the hell out of here.”
They stared at each other, and then at the stack of books upon which Molly’s hand still rested. The other books on the small table, discarded by previous patrons, seemed to telegraph a warning: Someone was able to remove us as well, but they left without claiming us. Do the same. Leave your books, and don’t look back. Some journeys are not worth the price of travel.
Molly scooped the books from the table and marched to the sales counter. Magnus trailed behind her, his whispered protests all but inaudible for all the attention she gave them. She more than desired these books; she needed them. Needed them more than air to breathe or water to drink, more than food or shelter or safety.
The shopkeeper stood at the sales counter, an older man with a face one forgot the moment one looked away. He wrapped the books without speaking—the six green volumes together and the red one separate. He named a price, and Molly said, “That’s fair,” even though she couldn’t remember what he said.
Magnus hovered at her elbow, tugging at her arm, trying to pull her away from the books, until the shopkeeper said in a quiet, stern voice, “You chose this, Magnus.” Magnus fell still and quiet beside her.
The books delivered to them—six to Molly and one to Magnus—Molly tucked her purchase into her purse and looked up, surprised to find they had left the shop and were standing in the drizzling Seattle rain. Had she paid? Had she even thanked the shopkeeper? The memories wouldn’t come.
Magnus tucked his paper-wrapped parcel under his arm and looked as though he were going to be sick. “Can we go home now, Molly?”
One glance at his face, and her mental fog dissipated. His skin was cold and clammy under her hand. She stared at her bare fingers for a moment. Where had her white gloves gone? Then Magnus shuddered. She tucked his free arm through hers and led him away to the car.
∞
She convinced Magnus to take a bath to help him relax and sent their housekeeper, Annis, up with a cup of peppermint tea to settle his stomach. While he was engaged, she took her books to her armchair by the fire, unwrapped them, and stood them on the accent table beside her chair. In the bright lamplight, she could now make out the gold-embossed numbers on the spines of each book. A serialized novel, perhaps. But when she flipped through the pages, the words seemed to swim in her mind, sentences fragmenting, clauses scattering, letters and punctuation a whirling chaos of curling marks on the page.
She closed the cover and set the books down. The strange compulsion to own the books had faded to a pulse of distant desire. Now, she was able to speculate on the books’ origin. Perhaps they were gifts that their parents had commissioned before their deaths, and when no one came to claim them, they had been given away or sold. The elder McKinleys had been notable collectors, and as each came from a family of wealth, they’d had the resources at their disposal not only to procure an extensive collection of rare books, but to have special editions custom-made as gifts.
Their parents were more than a year in their graves now, taken in an automobile crash that had almost claimed Molly as well. Sometimes she wondered if her worry for Magnus’s well-being had singlehandedly brought her back from the brink of death. Her injuries had been extensive and dangerous, and her recovery had taken months, although she couldn’t remember the worst of it, as she’d been burning with fever caused by severe sepsis. Taking care of Magnus was her most important task now. Keeping his daily routines free of stress and strife kept him on a cheerful, even keel and drove back the ever-present depression he endured. What she had suffered for a brief period didn’t seem significant compared to her twin’s lifelong mental illness.
Magnus came down a while later, clad in casual clothes and looking better. Really, peppermint tea worked wonders, although he always threw a fit about drinking it. He sat on the sofa adjacent to her chair and set his still-wrapped book on the coffee table in front of him, staring at his hands, which dangled between his knees.
“I think we should return the books to the shop.”
The distant drumbeat of desire pulsed into flaring need. Molly lay a protective hand over her stack of books. “I really want to keep mine.”
“Why? Is the story that good?”
“I don’t know. When I open them, I can’t seem to read them. I must be tired; a good rest will set things right. I can never read when I’m overly tired; the words just never make sense.”
“I have a bad feeling, Molly. They feel like a trap. They make me sick. I don’t want to have them here.”
She scrutinized him closely. His restored health had been a trick of the dim light. Here in the lamplight, aided by the glow of the gas fire behind her, his face was wan and drawn.
“All right,” she agreed quietly. A disquieting anxiety gnawed at her stomach.
He smiled in relief. “Thanks, Molly.” Glowering at his book, he snatched it from the table. “I wonder what it’s even about.”
“Do you think maybe Mom and Dad had custom gifts made for us, and when they never came to claim them, they ended up in that bookshop?”
“I suppose. Although you’d think something this expensive in terms of time, craft, and materials would be paid for in advance. Whoever made them would have shipped them to us after they . . . after they died.”
He still had a hard time dealing with their parents’ deaths. Aware of the burden his illness solely dropped upon his sister’s shoulders, he struggled with guilt and shame.
“They are handsome books,” Molly agreed. “Here, let me see yours.”
He handed it over. Molly carefull
y removed the paper wrapping and turned it over in her hands, examining the cover. Fine leather, dyed blood red. Gold embossing, but no numbers on his. Like hers, there was no title or author’s name, either. The front and back endpapers were plain but fine paper. Perhaps twenty pages made up his book. She paged through, looking for words.
“It’s blank.”
“What?” He uncoiled from the sofa and moved behind her chair, leaning over her shoulder to see.
As though on cue, Molly’s heartbeat sped up, and her breath quickened. Her yearning for a normal twin relationship always made her nervous and uncertain around her untouchable brother. So closed off, so tormented. She longed to smooth the worry from his face, to reach inside him and soothe the anxiety in his soul.
“Well, that’s that,” he said after she had shown him several blank pages. “I’ll just stick it on the bookshelf, and if you run out of things to write in, you can use it.” He sounded relieved. He crossed the room and stopped abruptly.
“There should be room on one of the higher shelves.”
He turned back toward her, the relief replaced with dread, the book held open. “There are words on this page.” His fingers shook as he leafed through the rest of the book. “Only on this page. But . . . they make no sense, Molly.”
“The sentences aren’t coherent?”
“There’s just one, and it’s coherent. It just makes no sense.” He came back to his sofa, perching on the edge of the cushion, the book bent open so wide the spine had to be cracking. Molly winced mentally, keeping the scowl off her face with superhuman effort. It seemed she was always censuring Magnus for one thing or another, and if one listened to him tell it, it was more than just “seemed.” Haranguing, he called it, or, when he was in a particularly dark mood, “always believing the worst of me.”
“Are you going to read it, or are you going to leave me burning with curiosity?”
His hand smoothed over the open pages, leaving behind damaging oils, no doubt. But she bit back a reminder that, depending on Magnus’s mood, could be considered a censure. She tried not to envision a slick of body oil soaking into the paper as he sat, lost in thought, the weight of his hand bending the spine further.
