DOWN
SARAH DOWLING
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Down / Sarah Dowling.
Poems.
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For Jesse, for making me feel this way
Everybody looks alike
and acts alike,
and we’re getting more
and more that way.
I’VE GOT TO TELL YOU
I’m talking Cause I really
can’t tell me are you grey
Say Cause I really Tell me
I’m not
If I can’t tell I hope I’m talking
listen Cause I really need Tell me are you
really Tell me are you lonely
I’m not And Is it wet, Is it Cause
If I If I
can’t tell you’re real I hope that we’ll Oh
Boy see I shouldn’t let you but
Won’t you If you tell you know
Cause I really Tell me are
you that somebody Cause I’m
not but just Say yes You
can’t tell me Are you
talking you shouldn’t but if I
if I let you go We talk
But don’t know see if I promise you then
Can you
SUNSHINE HONEY
I’ve got yes. I’ve got this. I’ve got anxious. I’ve got
serenity. I’ve got our existence. Of course disarray never
included us. I’ve got sunshine. I’ve got an occupying
attention. I may refer to, must inherently. I’ve got any. I’ve
got any compulsive relationship, Sunshine.
Sunshine on a cloudy day, on a method. On expressed or
implied. Not a thing or a person. On a cloudy day it will
never be morning. On it. Cloudy in the way that we do
this. Cloudy day talking, better for us. I’ve got one sexual
method, described by forms of histories, of aesthetics.
When made present. When it’s by the explicit. When it’s
cold, that relentless energy outside their excesses of sex.
Outside their lives. It’s cold outside and when it’s linked.
When it’s the trembling cold outside the world.
I’ve got the month. I may by relentless excesses present
the explicit. I’ve got their lives of us. The month of method
and talking. The month of this it. Of course their energy
would. The month it were day. I must refer. I’ve got disarray.
May inherently. I’ve got the month to do a thing described.
I guess, or person. I guess sex. I guess an expressed or
implied relationship. You’d say very compulsive. I guess
histories. I guess any form of sexless method. You’d say
not occupying I guess attention. You’d say that never
included us.
What could make this aesthetics. What could make me feel
that. Make me many. Make me better. What could make me
sexless and sexual. Make me feel we. Make me feel made.
Make me feel us. Make me feel matter. Make me feel this,
for one. What could make me feel this commotion, this
relationship to energy. What could make me feel this way.
I’ve got so much occupying. I’ve got a thing or person. I’ve
got so much inherently. Not histories, never expressed or
implied. I’ve got relentless. Honey, in the way. So much
that an attention to forms. I’ve got so much disarray. I’ve
got so much talking. I’ve got so much excesses. Honey
included many of us. Honey, of course I’ve got that. I’ve
got compulsive, got so much sexual.
The bees envy us. The bees of any sex. The bees of any
means. The bees of any method. One made a matter of their
lives. May, for us and for envy. Method and present. We do
this better. The bees, sexless. It was Monday night. The
bees, aesthetics, me.
I’ve got described. I’ve got the explicit. I’ve got the same
state of trepidation. A sweeter song might be suffering,
described by their energy. I’ve got a relationship. A sweeter
song must refer, occupying anything. A sweeter person or
sex, inherently that us. Sweeter, it pleases me. I’ve got all
the forms of not.
Sweeter than the histories, than this relentless sexual
aesthetics. Than never. The birds included to matter. The
birds, a one, many of us. Expressed or implied excesses.
The birds talking. The way that an attention may present the
trees by disarray. In the trees, any method, the birds. In the
trees, we do.
Well, I guess very compulsive. I guess for us. Well, I guess
and for their explicit lives. I guess the method. Well, I guess
and I, sexless. You’d say sexless, of course. You’d say
nevertheless I guess we are part of this disorientation.
What could make me feel made. What could make me
better. What could make disarray. This way, forms. This
way of may not, never. This way of a relationship. What
could make me feel we, that us. Very occupying method,
attention. What could make me feel anything. This way or
any person. What could make this a matter. Feel this one.
Feel this expressed. Feel in the way of that attention. Feel
this included, talking to us of it.
I don’t need or implied. I don’t need histories of excesses.
I don’t need no explicit lives. And for sex, of course, I don’t
need us. I don’t need any present. I don’t need no money
and any compulsive energy. Money described by their
relentless method. I don’t need no aesthetics. I don’t need
no, inherently money.
Fortune or refer. Fortune or a sexual I. Fortune or it strikes
eleven. Fortune or their. Fortune or sexless, this sexless
many. Fortune or a certain pace and rhythm. Fortune to this
stabbing pulsebeat. Fortune or a relationship to a sexual
better. Fortune or fame occupying that method made us.
I’ve got by. I’ve got all the forms of matter. I’ve got all
implied. Baby, that one included sex for us. I’ve got all the
riches and for any person or thing. Not in the way of
attention to excesses. I’ve got all it was ten o’clock. I’ve got
their very method. I’ve got all the disarray. Baby, we refer.
One man can claim the explicit talking. One man can claim
aesthetics. One man, never a course of expressed histories.
Claim lives of this sexless it, I, us. One man described by
many. One man must. One man can, may present one man,
relentless and compulsive. One man can claim energy. One
man can do any, inherently sexless.
Well, I guess each critical approach. Well, I guess to the
kind of contact. Well, existing, I guess between people.
Between peoples. I guess refer. I guess a relationship
included sex. I guess this described an occupying method.
You’d say sexual. You’d say forms made compulsive. I
guess you’d say better that any person may I guess present
their histories.
What can make this matter. What can make me feel us.
Make me feel this method. What can make attention to
excesses. What can make explicit disarray. What can make
a relentless course we must do. Make me feel the very
aesthetics expressed or implied. What can make me feel this
in their lives of talking. This way that one inherently I, or
thing. This way, not sexless, never sexless. Would that it
were. This of us, by many. Make me feel this and any
energy, for us and for it.
I think everybody
should be a machine.
I'VE GOT TO TELL YOU
Can you Can you Can you Can
I promise you If we talk and you know
I don’t know if I
shouldn’t tell but if
I let you You can’t I’m talking Are you
I’m not lonely just Is it, Is it Say yes
or say no Cause I really Tell me are
you wet Oh
Boy Won’t you If you tell you know
that I shouldn’t let you but
If I let You can’t tell I’m proud I hope
I’m not Is it Is it Cause I really
Tell me are you that
somebody listen Cause I really Tell me are
you can’t
tell I’m talking if that’s
difficult I hope I’m not
lost just Say Is it Cause I really Tell me are you that
somebody Cause I really You can’t
tell I’m talking further
EVERYONE SLEEP
Sometimes I’m the sentimental songs I enjoyed when I was
a teenager liking youLike the buses glow like clouds and I
am a lonely hawk in a skyThat flies andYou were my hold
you in my heart with a very real prey (my prey) sat there
and told my friend how I felt
Right now I’m the ones I played when I experienced a
girlFor the first time liking things is like a promiseIf there
is a place further fromThen we’ll keep it dry the maroon
robe you know that one of these days (days) were numerous
and today I sat there and told my friend how I felt
Sometimes I’m the first time I realized they were written
in a language of snow goneUp from their calling I did
not yet speak because you do the same thing every timeWe
were in the place further from me I beg you do not goBut
see tears (tears) that sat there and told my friend how I felt
Right now I realized too quickly that I think I’ve been
holding backThis yes again being all over the time you do
mornings in my heart with a very secret place (place)
further from me I beg youProbably shouldn’t tell you how
I’ve got to tell you always how I sat there and told my
friend how I felt
Sometimes I imagined being thrown from a plane over my
prey (prey) likeIt’s because you pick me up at the parking
lot was crowded with a language I did not yet speak and I
stood up right nowUp the block while everyOne of these
days when you are alone I sat there and told my friend
how I felt
Right now I’m not on a plane though and for days (days)
everything was waiting againWith lunch in my mouth the
tea I’ll be coldIf you tell the world I’ve got to tell you the
buses glow and further from this hawk was in a sky I did
not yet see but sat there and told my friend how I felt
Sometimes I was in the same car over and over and liking
sleep you knowOh that nothing can see tears that seem to
prey (prey) that think yesAgain being all over everybody
although I never weep I’m trusting youWith mornings in a
sky a place further from me if I let this if I tell you I beg
you do not go talking and telling my friendIt’s you
I think everybody
should like everybody.
BURY IT
m-hm
bury it
and then you’re not even
sure I // I think if
well
well
If something // something is either
the burial is gonna have to be //
m-hm
gonna be safe
or maybe even // maybe you can
but it doesn’t seem
possible m-hm
Well,
I really // I really
don’t know
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BURY IT
and then you’re not even
sure if it’s
um if // if
it can probably be put in
reasonably // reasonable
f
or what
well
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If something // something
You see but the only problem is
the burial m-hm
and you cannot
at least I don’t think
I can or maybe
even // maybe
but it doesn’t
Well I suppose it’s
really // I really don’t
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