Poems From the Underground Volume 2, Page 2

How do I live

  Without regretting mistakes

  And having nothing to give

  What is there out there

  That I haven't seen

  Beyond temptation, confusion, and dream

   

  How do I take it

  How can I be

  More than so empty

  More than just me

  Not so helpless

  Not so insecure

  Knowing my life

  Will be better for sure

   

  When will we all be better?!

  When will it all

  Come to an end?!

  Is there a rest 

  From all the tests

  That life makes up

  To make us miserable at best?!

  Can anyone

  Do more than pretend?!

   

  How do I take it

  How can I be

  More than so empty

  More than just me

  Not so helpless

  Not so insecure

  Knowing my life

  Will be better for sure

   

  How do we take it

  How can we be

  More than so empty

  More than just you,

  More than just me

  Not so helpless

  Not so insecure

  Knowing our lives

  Will be better for sure

   

  Who doesn't want 

  To just feel better

  Forever never

  Keeps us together

  Whether we ever

  Get to feel pleasure

  The measure of us

  Is to learn how to trust

   

  How do I take it

  How can I be

  More than so empty

  More than just me

  Not so helpless

  Not so insecure

  Knowing my life

  Will be better for sure

  Will be better for sure

  Maybe more pure

  Let’s Be Friends

  You say you 

  Want us to be friends

  But if I see you 

  With someone else

  I know I'll be

  Losin it

  Once you've loved someone

  Only bein halfway in their life

  Is like takin Heaven away from them

  To put them into Hell

  And you know that ain't right

  So when you stay up at night

  Wonderin why I don't call you

  Stop and think about why

  Because I can't be your friend

   

  When you see the stars so bright

  Know that somewhere out there

  There's somebody else missin you tonight

  Feelin you treated him unfair

  And he didn't want it to end

  When you wish he didn't walk away

  Remember that he did that 

  Because you had to say

  Let's be friends

   

  I used to think

  That you and me

  Were gonna be

  All we said we'd be

  That you would never ever leave

  But you probably say 

  It was me

  All I did

  Was give you a way to back out

  Because I knew all your feelings changed

  You said you had lots of doubts

  And all of a sudden, it felt so strange

  Like we didn't know each other at all

  And to make you stay

  Would make you fall

  Apart so bad

  It would be the end

  But I couldn't take those words

  Let's be friends

   

  When you see the stars so bright

  Know that somewhere out there

  There's somebody else missin you tonight

  Feelin you treated him unfair

  And he didn't want it to end

  When you wish he didn't walk away

  Remember that he did that 

  Because you had to say

  Let's be friends

   

  If you have trouble stayin warm

  Know you gave up

  Two lovin arms

  You'd be held so tight

  You couldn't breathe

  Because no matter what you believe

  That is what you mean to me

  I thought you really were

  The girl of my dreams

  Everything I could ever need

  But when you had problems

  You turned and ran

  Thinkin maybe I wasn't the man

  That you had thought

  God would send

  Though you said it so many times

  But then you said

  Let's be friends

   

  When you see the stars so bright

  Know that somewhere out there

  There's somebody else missin you tonight

  Feelin you treated him unfair

  And he didn't want it to end

  When you wish he didn't walk away

  Remember that he did that 

  Because you had to say

  Let's be friends

   

  If you get lonely tongiht

  Know I'm alone

  But if I could, I might

  Forget what went wrong

  And take you back

  All you'd have to do

  Is simply ask

   

  When you see the stars so bright

  Know that somewhere out there

  There's somebody else missin you tonight

  Feelin you treated him unfair

  And he didn't want it to end

  When you wish he didn't walk away

  Remember that he did that 

  Because you had to say

  Let's be friends

  Let's be friends

  Let's be friends

   

  When you see the stars so bright

  Know that somewhere out there

  There's somebody else missin you tonight

  Feelin you treated him unfair

  And he didn't want it to end

  When you wish he didn't walk away

  Remember that he did that 

  Because you had to say

  Let's be friends

  Let's be friends

  Let's be friends

   

  I have friends enough

  All I really wanted

  Was to be loved

  The Moment Was Here

  If I...

  Could touch your face

  I'd try

  To give you everything

  You ever wanted from me

  But now

  I know...

  I can't see you again

  You took all I had

  And left me torn apart

  And all I can do is waste

  Away from all I've been

  Rot away inside

  And hide the tears I almost cried

   

  When I...

  Realized...

  The moment was here

  That you were almost gone again

  All I could do is let you go

  Give into fear

  And try not to pull you in

  So...

  You left

  You left me with a broken heart

  And nothing left

  So I die...

  Each day a little more

  Until I'm just forgotten

  And festered, blistered flesh

   

  Then I catch

  Myself with a thought of you

  And I don't know what I should do

  Should I be mad

  Or should I just hurt

  Should I feel anything at all

  Should I wish for you to feel w
orse

   

  I want so bad to feel angry

  I want so much to feel somethin more

  Than just tossed aside

  Like I was before

  I want to feel betrayed and pissed

  But I can't, I know cuz I tried

  Emptiness surrounds me

  Shattered, living with the shadow

  Of what I thought I meant to you

  And I can't escape the pain

  I know I have too much that I can't contain

  Weighing me down, tearing me down

  Til I go insane

   

  When I...

  Realized...

  The moment was here

  That you were almost gone again

  All I could do is let you go

  Give into fear

  And try not to pull you in

  So...

  You left

  You left me with a broken heart

  And nothing left

  So I die...

  Each day a little more

  Until I'm just forgotten

  And festered, blistered flesh

   

  I know you have your life to live

  And it's not with me

  It's with someone who can give

  The kind of pain that you caused me

  And make you wish 

  He'd let you be

  The person you know you really are

  Accept you for you

  So you don't fall apart

   

  When I...

  Realized...

  The moment was here

  That you were almost gone again

  All I could do is let you go

  Give into fear

  And try not to pull you in

  So...

  You left

  You left me with a broken heart

  And nothing left

  So I die...

  Each day a little more

  Until I'm just forgotten

  And festered, blistered flesh

   

  If you don't miss me yet

  It's ok, but I wish I'd forget

  What you promised you would be for me

  Everything I could ever need

  But you're selfish and sheltered from reality

  You can't trust or be all to me

  So when you ask if I'll take you back

  I'll hesitate and wait for it to feel real again

  So I know you'll really let me in

   

  When I...

  Realized...

  The moment was here

  That you were almost gone again

  All I could do is let you go

  Give into fear

  And try not to pull you in

  So...

  You left

  You left me with a broken heart

  And nothing left

  So I die...

  Each day a little more

  Until I'm just forgotten

  And festered, blistered flesh

  And I still feel I have nothing left!

  I struggle to find the strength for one more breath!

  There’s Nobody Who Could Love You Better

  You said it was over

  Now time is goin slow

  I can handle... bein alone

  But I still have to know

   

  Why do you play the games you play

  Tellin me you have to make up your mind

  When you know 

  There's nobody who could love you better

  That you will ever find

   

  You said you loved me

  Then took it away

  Sayin one thing once

  And somethin different the next day

  I can't understand it

  I can't make it make sense

  If you don't know what you want

  Then stop pullin me back in

   

  Oh, Why do you play the games you play

  Tellin me you have to make up your mind

  When you know 

  There's nobody who could love you better

  That you will ever find

  He won't love you

  Like I did

  He won't treat you like his queen

  He'll only see you as a kid

   

  If things were different

  And you saw me that way

  Lettin me mean to you

  What you mean to me each day

  It might work out

  It might be right

  But I know I didn't do wrong

  And I know I have that peace tonight

   

  Oh, Why do you play the games you play

  Tellin me you have to make up your mind

  When you know 

  There's nobody who could love you better

  That you will ever find

  But when you're ready

  To come back to me

  I doubt I'll be waitin

  And I doubt you'll really see

  That everything I told you was never a lie

  And all the things I did for you

  I don't have to wonder why

   

  Oh, Why do you play the games you play

  Tellin me you have to make up your mind

  When you know 

  There's nobody who could love you better

  That you will ever find

  Nobody will ever treat you like

  I tried to

  So when I find somebody else

  Don't think it's gonna be you

   

  Oh, Why do you play the games you play

  Tellin me you have to make up your mind

  When you know 

  There's nobody who could love you better

  That you will ever find

  I Hate What My Life Has Been

  I close my eyes

  I say goodbye

  I almost pray for death

  I don't know why

  Should I cry

  I know I have no feeling left

  An empty life

  So full of strife

  Yet afraid to die

   

  I want to believe

  The pain will leave

  I will feel peace again

  I can't help but grieve

  Get no relief

  And know that I can't win

  I might be alright

  If I sleep tonight

  But I hate what my life has been

   

  Forgotten words

  They still hurt

  When I remember them

  I feel cursed

  But it's worse

  When I let someone in

  Only to go 

  Because they know

  Being my friend

  Has a toll

  So heavy

  Because my soul

  Is weighed down with sin

   

  I want to believe

  The pain will leave

  I will feel peace again

  I can't help but grieve

  Get no relief

  And know that I can't win

  I might be alright

  If I sleep tonight

  But I hate what my life has been

   

  I hate what my life has been

  A lot of loss

  Unfair costs

  That I still have to pay

  So much remorse

  But of course,

  I can't say

  I've had it so bad

  That all I've had

  Is bitter days

  But it seems

  That all my dreams

  Have faded away

  I can't be still

  I can't feel

  Any payment's made

  I'm alone 

  With no home

  So now my home is the grave

   

  I want to b
elieve

  The pain will leave

  I will feel peace again

  I can't help but grieve

  Get no relief

  And know that I can't win

  I might be alright

  If I sleep tonight

  But I hate what my life has been

   

  I want to believe

  The pain will leave

  I will feel peace again

  I can't help but grieve

  Get no relief

  And know that I can't win

  I might be alright

  If I sleep tonight

  But I hate what my life has been

  I hate

  That it's too late

  To be whole again

  I hate, yes, I hate

  I hate what my life has been

  Can I Take It All on My Own

  I thought I could do this

  Do it without any pain

  Be your friend

  But it's just not the same

  It's so miserable like this alone

  Every time I see your picture

  I slowly go insane

  And it's all I have known

  Can I take it all on my own

   

  I know one day

  I just may

  Find somebody new

  But I know it...

  It won't be the way

  I wanted

  And I'll still be empty

  Ending all I thought I would have

  I heard everything you told me

  So many times all before

  Now, I feel like I'm livin stoned

  Can I take it all on my own

   

  It's pointless

  It's nothing

  Thinkin of you the way that I do

  I know it's over

  But I didn't see it

  I allowed it because 

  I knew it was the best thing for you

  Any chance I had with you

  I have blown

  Can I take it all on my own

   

  Life's not always about what makes you happy

  It's not always about what 

  Makes any sense

  Sometimes, it's about just gettin by

  And I know any good days I've already spent

   

  What am I doin

  When will it all be good again

  What can make it all feel right

  What can make me forget

  Everything that we knew back then

  This place I live in

  It could never feel like a home

  Can I take it all on my own

  Can I take it all on my own

  Bein lonesome, bein completely alone

  Can I do it one more day

  Can I take it all on my own

  I Had to Do This for You

  Don't think

  I don't care

  Like I did before

  I still do

  About you

  More than I can ignore

  That's not what

  This is

  It's just me leavin you alone

  So you can be

  Finally happy

  Find somebody to give you the life

  That you've never known

   

  The obstacles between us

  Are unfair

  But they are what they are

  You're everything I wanted

  And I still do

  But there is a distance that's just too far

  So don't worry

  But please don't hate me

  I had to do this for you

   

  When I wake up

  I think I'm dreaming

  Because the girl of my dreams

  Is there before my eyes

  An illusion

  So much confusion

  It takes all I have not to cry

  But then I can't help it

  And I'm blinded

  By millions of tears 

  I don't wanna shed

  If you think about it

  The best thing

  I can do for you

  Is to leave so you can forget

   

  The obstacles between us

  Are unfair

  But they are what they are

  You're everything I wanted

  And I still do

  But there is a distance that's just too far

  So don't worry

  But please don't hate me

  I had to do this for you