The Bridge to Holy Cross

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  Tatiana and Alexander

  A Novel

  Paullina Simons

  Once again for my grandfather and grandmother,

  ninety-eight and ninety-four, who still plant cucumbers and grow flowers and live happily ever after,

  and

  for our good friend Anatoly Studenkov,

  still as ever left behind in Russia, who does not.

  And in the moonlight’s pallid glamour

  Rides high upon the charging brute

  Head held high ’mid echoing clamour

  The Bronze Horseman in pursuit.

  And all through that long night no matter

  What road the frantic wretch might take

  There would pound with ponderous clatter

  The Bronze Horseman in his wake.

  —Aleksandr Pushkin

  Contents

  Epigraph

  Prologue

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  Book One

  The Second America

  Chapter One

  IN THE DARK EVENING, in a small fishing village that…

  Chapter Two

  TATIANA STUMBLED OUT OF bed and walked to the window.

  Chapter Three

  MATTHEW SAYERS APPEARED BY Alexander’s bed at around one in…

  Chapter Four

  TATIANA TRIED TO READ to improve her English while she…

  Chapter Five

  THEY CAME FOR HIM a few hours into the night.

  Chapter Six

  TATIANA WAS SITTING BY the window, holding her two-week-old baby…

  Chapter Seven

  HE HEARD VOICES OUTSIDE, and the door opened.

  Chapter Eight

  EDWARD CAME IN TO check on Tatiana in the middle…

  Chapter Nine

  WHEN ALEXANDER OPENED HIS eyes—did he open them?—it was still…

  Chapter Ten

  THERE WAS SOMETHING UNDENIABLY comforting about living and working at…

  Chapter Eleven

  JULY HAD GONE BY, and August, too, and September. Seven…

  Chapter Twelve

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  “MAJOR!”

  Chapter Thirteen

  FINALLY, ON A SUNDAY in late October, Tatiana agreed to…

  Chapter Fourteen

  SLONKO WAS DEAD, BUT nothing was resolved about Alexander’s fate.

  Chapter Fifteen

  ALEXANDER WAS ESCORTED TO the rear of the current front,…

  Chapter Sixteen

  ALEXANDER CALLED OUSPENSKY INTO his tent. “Lieutenant, what’s wrong with…

  Chapter Seventeen

  TATIANA AND ANTHONY WERE invited to spend Christmas Eve with…

  Chapter Eighteen

  THE SOVIET MEN WERE still dying at Sinyavino, and the…

  Chapter Nineteen

  THE ROOM IS STARK white. The curtains, white, barely move.

  Chapter Twenty

  LAZAREVO—EVEN THE NAME itself was reminiscent of myth, of legend,…

  Chapter Twenty-One

  TATIANA COULDN’T LEAVE ALEXANDER’S medal alone. Couldn’t leave Orbeli alone.

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  THEY HAD STOPPED NEAR the woods in eastern Poland and…

  Book Two

  The Bridge to Holy Cross

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  IN LUBLIN, ALEXANDER’S TROOPS rested and liked it so much…

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  Chapter Twenty-Four

  “WHERE ARE WE GOING?” Vikki said. “And why? I don’t…

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  DEEP IN THE DENSE thick forest of the mountains, a…

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  EDWARD LUDLOW CAME THROUGH the double doors of the hospital…

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  ALEXANDER SLEPT, SITTING UP against the tree with Pasha’s head…

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  ON NEW YEAR’S DAY, Tatiana went across the bay with…

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  PERHAPS THEY WERE RIGHT in what they said about Colditz.

  Chapter Thirty

  IN APRIL THE AMERICANS and Russians swarmed over Germany, and…

  Chapter Thirty-One

  THE AMERICANS LIBERATED COLDITZ in April after three days of…

  Chapter Thirty-Two

  ON THE LOWER EAST Side, Tatiana, Vikki, and Anthony were…

  Chapter Thirty-Three

  THE TRAIN WAS STOPPED, once, twice, fifteen times along the…

  Chapter Thirty-Four

  TATIANA AGREED TO GO to dinner with Edward. Vikki looked…

  Chapter Thirty-Five

  ALEXANDER DIDN’T KNOW WHAT month it was when the train…

  Chapter Thirty-Six

  TATIANA WAS PUTTING ANTHONY to bed when he suddenly said,…

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  Chapter Thirty-Seven

  NEW YEAR’S DAY. TATIANA, as usual, went ice skating in…

  Chapter Thirty-Eight

  “COME ON, LET’S GO out,” Vikki said petulantly. “What are…

  Book Three

  Alexander

  Chapter Thirty-Nine

  TATIANA WENT TO GERMANY on faith.

  Chapter Forty

  MARTIN WANTED TO START the next day. Tatiana said no.

  Chapter Forty-One

  THE NEXT MORNING THEY woke at six. At seven, housekeeping…

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Praise

  Other Books by Paullina Simons

  Credits

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  PROLOGUE

  Boston, December 1930

  ALEXANDER BARRINGTON STOOD INfront of the mirror and adjusted his red Cub Scout tie.

  Rather, he wasattempting to adjust his Cub Scout tie, because he couldn’t take his eyes off his face, a face uncharacteristically glum. His mouth was turned down. His hands were fidgeting with the

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  gray-and-white tie, unable to do a good job, to day of all days.

  Stepping away from the mirror, he looked around the small room and sighed. It wasn’t much, a wood floor, drab brown-branch wallpaper, a bed, a nightstand.

  It didn’t matter about the room. It wasn’t his room. It was a rented room, a furnished rented room and all the furniture belonged to the landlady downstairs. His real room was not in Boston but back in Barrington, and he had really liked his old room and hadn’t felt the same way about any other room he had lived in since. And he had lived in six different rooms since two years ago when his father sold their house and took Alexander out of Barrington.

  Now they were leaving this room, too. It didn’t matter.

  Rather, that’snot what mattered.

  Alexander looked in the mirror again. He came up flush to the mirror, stuck his face against the glass and breathed out deeply. “Alexander,” he whispered. “What now?”

  His best friend Teddy thought it was the most exciting thing in the world, Alexander’s leaving the country.

  Alexander couldn’t have disagreed more.

  Through his partly open door, he heard his mother and father arguing. He ignored them. They tended to argue through stress. Presently the door opened and his father, Harold Barrington, came in.

  “Son, are you ready? The car is waiting for us downstairs. And your friends are
downstairs, too, waiting to say goodbye. Teddy asked me if I would take him instead of you.” Harold smiled. “I told him I just might. What do you think, Alexander? You want to trade places with Teddy? Live with his crazy mother and crazier father?”

  “Yes, because my own parents are so sane,” said Alexander. Harold was thin and of medium height. His one distinguishing feature was a resolutely set chin on a broad, square-jawed face. At the age of forty-eight his light-brown, graying hair was still thick upon his head, and his eyes were intense and blue.

  Alexander liked it when his father was in a good mood because then the eyes lost some of their seriousness.

  Pushing Harold out of the way, his mother, Jane Barrington, strolled in, wearing her best silk dress and white pillbox hat, and said, “Harry, leave the boy alone. You can see he’s trying to get ready. The car will wait. And so will Teddy and Belinda.” She smoothed out her thick, long dark hair arranged under the hat. Jane’s voice still carried traces of the lilting rounded Italian accent that she had not been able to lose since coming to America at seventeen. She lowered her voice. “I never liked that Belinda, you know.”

  “I know, Mom,” said Alexander. “That’s why we’re leaving the country, isn’t it?” He watched them in the mirror. He looked most like his mother. In personality he hoped he was more like his father. He didn’t know. His mother amused him, his father confounded him. “I’m ready, Dad,” he said.

  Harold came over and put his arm on Alexander’s shoulder. “And you thought Cub Scouts was an adventure.”

  Cub Scouts was plenty for me. “Dad?” he asked, looking not at his father but at his own reflection. “If it

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  doesn’t work out…we can come back, right? We can come back to—” He stopped. He didn’t want his father to hear his voice crack. Taking a steadying breath, he finished, “ToAmerica ?”

  When Harold didn’t reply, Jane came up to Alexander, who now stood between his parents, his mother in small heels three inches taller than his father, who was a good foot and a half taller than Alexander.

  “Tell the boy the truth, Harold. He deserves to know. Tell him. He is old enough.”

  Harold said, “No, Alexander. We are not coming back. We are going to make the Soviet Union our permanent home. There is no place for us in America.”

  Alexander wanted to say that there had been a place forhim . Alexander had a place in America. Teddy and Belinda had been his friends since they were all three. Barrington was a tiny, white-shingled, black-shuttered town with three steepled churches and a short main street that ran four blocks from one end of town to the other. In the woods near Barrington, Alexander had had a happy childhood. But he knew his father didn’t want to hear it, so he said nothing.

  “Alexander, your mother and I, we are absolutely sure this is the right thing for our family. For the first time in our lives, we are finally able to do what we believe in. We are no longer paying lip service to the communist ideals. It’s easy to propound change while living in absolute comfort, isn’t it? Well, now we are going to live what we believe. You know it’s what I fought for my whole adult life. You’ve seen me.

  And your mother, too.”

  Alexander nodded. Hehad seen them. His father and mother arrested for their principles. Visiting his father in jail. Being unwelcome around Barrington. Being laughed at in school. Constantly getting into fights for his father’s principles. He had seen his mother stand by his father’s side, picketing and protesting with him. The three of them had gone to Washington D.C. together to parade communist pride in front of the White House. They were arrested there, too. Alexander had spent a night in a juvenile detention center when he was seven. But on the plus side, he was the only boy in Barrington who had been to the White House.

  He had thought all that was sacrifice enough. And then he had thought that breaking with their family and giving up the house that had been the Barrington homestead for eight generations was sacrifice enough.

  He thought that living in small rented rooms in busy and dusty Boston while disseminating the socialist word was sacrifice enough.

  Apparently not.

  Frankly, Alexander was surprised by the move to the Soviet Union, and not happily surprised. But his father believed. His father thought the Soviet Union was the place where they would finally belong, where Alexander would not be laughed at, where they would be welcomed and admired instead of shunned and ridiculed. The place where they could build their life up from “meaningless” and make it “meaningful.”

  Power was to the toiling man in the new Russia, and soon the toiling man would be king. His father’s belief was enough for Alexander.

  His mother pressed her painted red mouth on Alexander’s forehead, leaving a bright greasy pucker, which she then rubbed off—not well. “You know, don’t you, darling, that your father wants you to learn the right way, to grow up the right way?”

  A little petulantly, Alexander said, “This is really not aboutme , Mom—”

  “No.” Harold’s voice was adamant. His hand never left Alexander’s shoulder. “This isall about you,

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  Alexander. You’re only eleven now, but soon you will become a man. And since you have only one life, you can be only one man. I’m going to the Soviet Union to make you into the man you need to be.You , son, are my only legacy to this world.”

  “There are plenty of men in America, too, Dad,” Alexander pointed out. “Herbert Hoover. Woodrow Wilson. Calvin Coolidge.”

  “Yes, but not good men. America can produce greedy and selfish men, prideful and vengeful men.

  That’s not the man I want you to be.”

  “Alexander,” said his mother. “We want you to have advantages of character that people in America just don’t have.”

  “That’s right,” said Harold. “America makes men soft.”

  Alexander stepped back from his parents, never taking his eyes off his solemn reflection. That’s what he had been looking at before they came in. Himself. He was looking at his face and wondering,when I grow up, what kind of a man am I going to be ? Saluting his father, he said, “Don’t worry, Dad. I’ll make you proud. I’ll be ungreedy and unselfish, unprideful and unvengeful. I’ll be as hard a man as they come.

  Let’s go. I’m ready.”

  “I don’t want you to be a hard man, Alexander. I want you to be a good man.” Harold paused. “A better man than me.”

  As they were walking out, Alexander turned around and caught himself in the mirror one last time. I don’t want to forget this boy, he thought, in case I ever need to come back to him.

  Stockholm, May 1943

  I am on a stake, thought eighteen-year-old Tatiana, waking up one cold summer morning. I cannot live like this anymore. She got up from the bed, washed, brushed her hair, collected her books and her few clothes, and then left the hotel room as clean as if she had not been in it for over two months. The white curtains blowing a breeze into the room were unrelenting.

  Inside herself was unrelenting.

  Over the desk there was an oval mirror. Before Tatiana tied up her hair she stared at her face. What stared back at her was a face she no longer recognized. Gone was the round baby shape; a gaunt oval remained over her drawn cheekbones and her high forehead and her squared jaw and her clenched lips.

  If she had dimples still, they did not show; it had been a long time since her mouth bared teeth or dimples.

  The scar on her cheek from the piece of the broken windshield had healed and was fading into a thin pink line. The freckles were fading too, but it was the eyes Tatiana recognized least of all. Her once twinkling green eyes set deep into the pale features looked as if they were the only ghastly crystal barriers between strangers and her soul. She couldn’t lift them to anyone. She could not lift them to herself. One look into the green sea, and it was clear what raged on
behind the frail façade.

  Tatiana brushed her shoulder blade-length platinum hair. She didn’t hate her hair anymore.

  How could she, for Alexander had loved it so much.

  She would not think of it. She wanted to cut it all off, shear herself like a lamb before the slaughter, she

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  wanted to cut her hair and take the whites out of her eyes and the teeth out of her mouth and tear the arteries out of her throat.

  Tying the hair up in a bun on top of her head, Tatiana put a kerchief over it, to attract as little attention as possible, though in Sweden—a country full of blonde girls—it was easy to become lost in the crowd.

  Certainly she had become that.