Goodbye Love

Goodbye Love

  By Jason Wallace

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  Goodbye Love

  Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace

  I'm glad we

  Finally got some clarity

  The way I acted

  Wasn't fair to be

  And the only thing I wish

  Is to take it all away

  Please understand

  That with all sincerity

  I'm so sorry for being so very mean

  And I know that no words that I can say

  Will ever make you want me again

  Probably not even as your friend

  And that kinda pain

  Is worse than my body could ever feel

  I messed up with the girl of my dreams

  And no matter what anyone else thinks or how it seems

  I knew you were the one I wanted, the only one

  That's ever been so real

  I never meant to hurt you so much

  And if my life was half enough

  To make up for that

  You could take that life away

  Any shred of dignity

  I might have had

  Got erased by this misery

  And I hope you can still

  Find a brighter day

  Forget what I've done to you

  Even though this thing is through

  I still want to find some words to say

  To tell you that I'm not what you think I am

  The good ones are so far and few

  And none could compare to you

  But so fast I no longer fought the fears

  That have built inside so many years

  And all I can do is hope and pray

  That you forgive a wretch like me

  And find someone better who won't let you be

  So unhappy day to day

  So I now must say goodbye to you

  And know that no matter what I do

  I'll be lucky to have anyone even a bit

  As good as what I threw away

  Again Alone

  I have nowhere to go

  No place to be

  The only home that I know

  Is an empty place

  Of Misery

 

  The one that I lost

  Was the best one for me

  I let her leave

  Because of my jealousy

 

  I just could not compete

  If that was reality

  Why would she want me

  If she could have

  Someone who wouldn't

  Melt from the heat

 

  So alone

  I'm turning to stone

  The blood in my veins

  Just spilled on the ground

  And no one's around

  But pain I caused

  For us both

  It's a demon whose face

  Has already shown

 

  I thought being grown

  Meant making mistakes

  But taking the blame

  And erasing the pain

  And when that seed's sown

  Knowing that all that's known

  Is a lesson to learn

  About how not to be

  And what from yourself

  Never again to condone

 

  But a lesson that's learned

  Can come with a loss

  The prize you hold onto

  Slips out of your hands because the cost

  Is more than you feel you can pay

  But at the end of the day

  The regret you let creep in your way

  Is that you've let someone else become burned

 

  So alone

  I'm turning to stone

  The blood in my veins

  Just spilled on the ground

  And no one's around

  But pain I caused

  For us both

  It's a demon whose face

  Has already shown

  On the road to the unknown

 

  This scar I'll have on my hand

  Isn't half as hard as the one I'm bearing inside

  From messing up the greatest thing

  I ever tried

  What maybe just could've been

  Is going to be a thought that

  Comes with the memory

  Of the way this all had to end

  And the lie that I will pretend

  Doesn't get me down

  And make me drown in my sin

 

  So alone, more broken and frozen,

  I'm turning to stone

  The blood in my veins

  Just spilled on the ground

  Spots and drops of red

  Staining as it surrounds

  And no one's around

  But pain I caused

  For us both

  It's a demon whose face

  Has already shown

 

  And I know I'm at fault

  For being again alone

  I can't get how

  What was maybe almost love

  Was at best just a loan

  Recalled and repossessed and cutting

  Straight to the bone

  And when both wounds heal

  I won't have her hand to hold

  Because I am again alone