Behold the Man, Page 4

  For a moment the madman had paused, his mouth opening and closing, as if he could not remember what he was called.

  "Karl," he said at length, doubtfully. It was more a suggestion than a statement.

  "Sounds almost like a Roman name," said one of the legionaries.

  "Are you a citizen?" the officer asked.

  But the madman's mind was wandering, evidently. He looked away from them, muttering to himself.

  All at once, he looked back at them and said: "Nazareth?"

  "That way." The officer pointed down the road that cut between the hills. "Are you a Jew?"

  This seemed to startle the madman. He sprang to his feet and tried to push through the soldiers. They let him through, laughing. He was a harmless madman.

  They watched hi'in ran down the road.

  "One of their prophets, perhaps," said the officer, walking towards his horse. The country was full of them. Every other man you met claimed to be spreading the message of their god. They didn't make much trouble and religion seemed to keep their minds off rebellion. We should be grateful, thought the officer.

  His men were still laughing.

  They began to march down the road in the opposite direction to the one the madman had taken.

  Now the madman was in Nazareth and the townspeople looked at him with curiosity and more than a little suspicion as he staggered into the market square. He could be a wandering prophet or he could be possessed by devils. It was often hard to tell. The rabbis would know.

  As he passed the knots of people standing by the merchants' stalls, .they fell silent until he had gone by. Women pulled their heavy woolen shawls about their well-fed bodies and men tucked in their cotton robes so that he would not touch them. Normally their instinct would have been to have taxed him with his business in the town, but there was an intensity about his gaze, a quickness and vitality about his face, in spite of his emaciated appearance, that made them treat him with some respect and they kept their Sistance.

  When he reached the center of the market place, he stopped and looked around him. He seemed slow to notice the people. He biinked and licked his lips.

  A woman passed, eyeing him warily. He spoke to her, his voice soft, the words carefully formed. "Is this Nazareth?"

  "It is." She nodded and increased her pace.

  A man was crossing the square. He was dressed in a woolen robe of red and brown stripes. There was a red skull cap on his curly, black hair. His face was plump and cheerful. The madman walked across the man's path and stopped him. "I seek a carpenter."

  "There are many carpenters in Nazareth. The town is famous for its carpenters. I am a carpenter myself. Can I help you?" The man's voice was good-humored, patronizing.

  "Do you know a carpenter called Joseph? A descendant of David. He has a wife called Mary and several children.

  One is named Jesus."

  The cheerful man screwed his face into a mock frown and scratched the back of his neck. "I know more than one Joseph. There is one poor fellow in yonder street." He pointed. "He has a wife called Mary. Try there. You should soon find him. Look for a man who never laughs."

  The madman looked in the direction in which the man pointed. As soon as he saw the street, he seemed to forget everything else and strode towards it.

  In the narrow street he entered the smell of cut timber was even stronger. He walked ankle-deep in wood-shavings.

  From every building came the thud of hammers, the scrape of saws. There were planks of all sizes resting against the pale, shaded walls of the houses and there was hardly room to pass between them. Many of the carpenters had their benches just outside their doors. They were carving bowls, operating simple lathes, shaping wood into everything imag-inable. They looked up as the madman entered the street and approached one old carpenter in a leather apron who sat at his bench carving a figurine. The man had gray hair and seemed short-sighted. He peered up at the madman.

  "What do you want?"

  "I seek .a carpenter called Joseph. He has a wifeMary."

  The old man gestured with his hand that held the half-completed figurine. "Two houses along on the other side of the street."

  The house the madman came to had very few planks leaning against it, and the quality of the timber seemed poorer than the other wood he had seen. The bench near the entrance was warped on one side and the man who sat hunched over it repairing a stool seemed misshapen also.

  He straightened up as the madman touched his shoulder.

  His face was lined and pouched with misery. His eyes were tired and his thin beard had premature streaks of gray. He coughed slightly, perhaps in surprise at being disturbed.

  "Are you Joseph?" asked the madman.

  "I've no money."

  "I want nothingjust to ask a few questions."

  "I'm Joseph. Why do you want to know?"

  "Have you a son?"

  "Several, and daughters, too."

  "Your wife is called Mary? You are of David's line."

  The man. waved his hand impatiently. "Yes, for what good either have done me. . . ."

  "I wish to meet one of your sons. Jesus. Can you tell me where he is?"

  "That good-for-nothing. What has he done now?"

  "Where is he?"

  Joseph's eyes became more calculating as he stared at the madman. "Are you a seer of some kind? Have you come to cure my son?"

  "I am a prophet of sorts. I can foretell the future."

  Joseph got up with a sigh. "You can see him. Come."

  He led the madman through the gateway into the cramped courtyard of the house. It was crowded with pieces of wood, broken furniture and implements, rotting sacks of shavings.

  They entered the darkened house. In the first roomevi-dently a kitchena woman stood by a large clay stove. She was tall and bulging with fat. Her long, black hair was unbound and greasy, falling over large, lustrous eyes that still had the heat of sensuality. She looked the madman over.

  "There's no food for beggars," she grunted. "He eats enough as it is." She gestured with a wooden spoon at a small figure sitting in the shadow of a corner. The figure shifted as she spoke.

  "He seeks our Jesus," said Joseph to the woman. "Perhaps he comes to ease our burden."

  The woman gave the madman a sidelong look and shrugged. She licked her red lips with a fat tongue. "Jesus!"

  The figure in the comer stood up.

  "That's him," said the woman with a certain satisfaction.

  The madman frowned, shaking his head rapidly. "No."

  The figure was misshappen. It had a pronounced hunched back and a cast in its left eye. The face was vacant and foolish. There was a little spittle on the lips. It giggled as its name was repeated. It took a crooked step forward. "Jesus," it said. The word was slurred and thick. "Jesus."

  "That's all he can say." The woman sneered. "He's always been like that."

  "God's judgment," said Joseph bitterly.

  "What is wrong with him?" There was a pathetic, desperate note in the madman's voice.

  "He's always been like that." The woman turned back to the stove. "You can have him if you want him. Addled inside and outside. I was carrying him when my parents married me off to that half-man. . . ."

  "You shameless" Joseph stopped as his wife glared at him. He turned to the madman. "What's your business with our son?"

  "I wished to talk to him. I . . ."

  "He's no oracleno seerwe used to think he might be.

  There are still people in Nazareth who come to him to cure them or tell their fortunes, but he only giggles at them and speaks his name over and over again. . . ."

  "Areyou surethere is notsomething about himyou have not noticed?"

  "Sure!" Mary snorted sardonically. "We need money badly enough. If he had any magical powers, we'd know."

  Jesus giggled again and limped away into another room.

  "It is impossible," the madman murmured. Could history itself have changed? Could he be in some other dimension of time
where Christ had never been?

  Joseph appeared to notice the look of agony in the madman's eyes.

  "What is it?" he said. "What do you see? You said you foretold the future. Tell us how we will fare?"

  "Not now," said the prophet, turning away. "Not now"

  He ran from the house and down the street with its smell of planed oak, cedar and cypress. He ran back to the market place and stopped, looking wildly about him. He saw the synagogue directly ahead of him. He began to walk towards it.

  The man he had spoken to earlier was still .in the market place, buying cooking pots to give to his daughter as a wedding gift. He nodded towards the strange man as he entered the synagogue. "He's a relative of Joseph the carpenter," he told the man beside him. "A prophet, I shouldn't wonder."

  The madman, the prophet, Karl Glogauer, the time-traveler, the neurotic psychiatrist manque, the searcher for meaning, the masochist, the man with a death-wish' and the messiah-complex, the anachronism, made his way into the synagogue gasping for breath. He had seen the man he had sought. He had seen Jesus, the son of Joseph and Mary. He had seen a man he recognized without any doubt as a congenital imbecile.

  "All men have a messiah-complex, Karl," Monica had said.

  The memories were less complete now. His sense of time and identity was becoming confused.

  "There were dozens of messiahs in Galilee at the time.

  That Jesus should have been the one to carry the myth and the philosophy was a coincidence of history. . . ."

  "There must have been more to it than that, Monica."

  Every Tuesday in the room above the Occult Bookshop, the Jungian discussion group would meet for purposes of group analysis and therapy. Glogauer had not organized the group, but he had willingly lent his premises to it and had joined it eagerly. It was a great relief to talk with like-minded people once a week. One of his reasons for buying the Occult Bookshop was so that he would meet interesting people like those who attended the Jungian discussion group.

  An obsession with Jung brought them together, but everyone had special obsessions of his own. Mrs. Rita Blen charted the courses of flying saucers, though it was not clear if she believed in them or not. Hugh Joyce believed that all Jungian archetypes derived from the original race of Atlantides who bad perished millennia before. Alan Cheddar, the youngest of the group, was interested in Indian mysticism, and Sandra Peterson, the organizer, was a great witchcraft specialist.

  James Headington was interested in time. He was the group's pride; he was Sir James Headington, war-time inventor, very rich and with all sorts of decorations for his contribution to the Allied victory. He had had the reputation of being a great improviser during the war, but after it he had become something of an embarrassment to the War Office. He was a crank, they thought, and what was worse, he aired his crankiness in public.

  Every so often. Sir James would tell the other members of the group about his time machine. They humored him.

  Most of them were liable to exaggerate their own experiences connected with their different interests.

  One Tuesday evening, after everyone else had left, Headington told Glogauer that his machine was ready.

  "I can't believe it," Glogauer said truthfully.

  "You're the first person I've told."

  "Why me?"

  "I don't know. I like youand the shop."

  "You haven't told the government."

  Headington had chuckled. "Why should I? Not until I've tested it fully, anyway. Serves them right for putting me out to pasture."

  "You don't know it works?"

  "I'm sure it does. Would you like to see it?"

  "A time machine." Glogauer smiled weakly.

  "Come and see it."

  "Why me?"

  "I thought you might be interested. I know you don't hold with the orthodox view of science. . . ."

  Glogauer felt sorry for him.

  "Come and see," said Headington.

  He went down to Banbury the next day. The same day he left 19J6 and arrived in 28 A.D.

  The synagogue was cool and quiet with a subtle scent of incense. The rabbis guided him into the courtyard. They, like the townspeople, did not know what to make of him,

  .but they were sure it was not a devil that possessed him.

  It was their custom to give shelter to the roaming prophets who were now everywhere in Galilee, though this one was stranger than the rest. His face was immobile and his body was stiff, and there were tears running down his dirty cheeks.

  They had never seen such agony in a man's eyes before.

  "Science can say how, but it never asks why," he had told Monica. "It can't answer."

  "Who wants to know?" she'd replied.

  "I do."

  "Well, you'll never find out, will you?"

  "Sit down, my son," said the rabbi. "What do you wish to ask of us?"

  "Where is Christ?" he said. "Where is Christ?"

  They did not understand the language.

  "Is it Greek?" asked one, but another shook his head.

  Kyrios; The Lord.

  Adonai: The Lord.

  Where was the Lord?

  He frowned, looking vaguely about him.

  "I must rest," he said in their language.

  "Where are you from?"

  He could not think what to answer.

  "Where are you from?" a rabbi repeated.

  "Ha-Olam Hab-bah . . ." he murmured at length'

  They looked at one another. "Ha-Olam Hab-bah" they said.

  Ha-Olam Hab-bah; Ha-Olam Haz-zeh: The world to come and the world that is.

  "Do you bring us a message?" said one of the rabbis.

  They were used to prophets, certainly, but none like this one. "A message?"

  "I do not know," said the prophet hoarsely. "I must rest.

  I am hungry."

  "Come. We will give you food and a place to sleep."

  He could only eat a little of the rich food and the bed with its straw-stuffed mattress was too soft for him. He was not used to it.

  He slept badly, shouting as he dreamed, and, outside the room, the rabbis listened, but could understand little of what he said.

  Karl Glogauer stayed in the synagogue for several weeks.

  He would spend most of his time reading in the library, searching through the long scrolls for some answer to his dilemma. The words of the Testaments, in many cases ca-pable of a dozen interpretations, only confused him further.

  There was nothing to grasp, nothing to tell him what had gone wrong.

  The rabbis kept their distance for the most part. They had accepted him as a holy man. They were proud to have him in their synagogue. They were sure that he was one of the special chosen of God and they waited patiently for him to speak to them.

  But the prophet said little, muttering only to himself in snatches of their own language and snatches of the incom-prehensible language he often used, even when he addressed them directly.

  In Nazareth, the townsfolk talked of little else but the mysterious prophet in the synagogue, but the rabbis would not answer their questions. They would tell the people to go about their business, that there were things they were not yet meant to know. In this way, as priests had always done, they avoided questions they could not answer while at the same time appearing to have much more knowledge than they actually possessed.

  Then, one sabbath, he appeared in the public part of the synagogue and took his place with the others who had come to worship.

  The man who was reading from the scroll on his left stumbled over the words, glancing at the prophet from the corner of his eye.

  The prophet sat and listened, his expression remote.

  The Chief Rabbi looked uncertainly at him, then signed that the scroll should be passed to the prophet. This was done hesitantly by a boy who placed the scroll into the prophet's hands.

  The prophet looked at the words for a long time and then began to read. The prophet read without comprehending at first w
hat he read. It was the book of Esaias.

  The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the broken-hearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised, to preach the acceptable year of the Lord. And he closed the book, and gave it again to the minister, and sat down. And the eyes of all of them that were in the synagogue were fastened on him.

  (Luke 4:18-20)

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  They followed him now, as he walked away from Nazareth towards the Lake of Galilee. He was dressed in the white linen robe they had given him and though they thought he led them, they, in fact, drove him before them.

  "He is our messiah," they said to those that inquired.

  And there were already rumors of miracles.

  When he saw the sick, he pitied them and tried to do what he could because they expected something of him.

  Many he could do nothing for, but others, obviously in psychosomatic conditions, he could help. They believed in his power more strongly than they believed in their sickness.

  So he cured them.

  When he came to Capernaum, some fifty people followed him into the streets of the city. It was already known that he was in some way associated with John the Baptist, who enjoyed huge prestige in Galilee and had been declared a true prophet by many Pharisees. Yet this man had a power greater, in some ways, than John's. He was not the orator that the Baptist was, but he had worked miracles.

  Capernaum was a sprawling town beside the crystal lake of Galilee, its houses separated by large market gardens.

  Fishing boats were moored at the white quayside, as well as trading ships that plied the lakeside towns. Though the green hills came down from all sides to the lake, Capernaum itself was built on flat ground, sheltered by the hills. It was a quiet town and, like most others in Galilee, had a large population of gentiles. Greek, Roman and Egyptian traders walked its streets and many had made permanent homes there. There was a prosperous middle-class of merchants, artisans and ship-owners, as well as doctors, lawyers and scholars, for Capernaum was on the borders of the provinces of Galilee, Trachonitis and Syria and though a comparatively small town was a useful junction for trade and travel.