A Good Marriage, Page 2

“Don’t worry. No matter what the prosecution’s strategy, they can’t keep you in Rikers on an assault charge, not under these circumstances. We’ll get you the right lawyer, and they’ll appeal the denial of bail.”

  “Lizzie,” Zach pleaded. “You are the right lawyer.”

  I was not. I was the wrong kind of lawyer, without the right connections. It also wasn’t an accident that I’d never worked a homicide case, and I planned to keep it that way. But even taking that whole issue aside, my life was already out of control: the last thing I needed was to get mixed up in some old friend’s shitshow. And, if nothing else, Zach’s situation sounded like exactly that.

  “Zach, I’m sorry, but I—”

  “Lizzie, please,” he whispered, sounding frantic now. “I’ll be honest, I am fucking terrified. Could you maybe come down and see me at least? We could talk about it?”

  Damn it. I was not representing Zach, no matter what. But his wife was dead, and we were old friends. Maybe I could go see him. It might even be easier for Zach to accept why I couldn’t be his lawyer if I told him face-to-face.

  “Okay,” I said finally.

  “Great,” Zach said, sounding way too relieved. “Tonight? Visiting hours are until nine p.m.”

  I checked the clock: 7:24 p.m. I’d have to move fast. I looked again at the draft letter on my computer screen. Then I thought of Sam, waiting at home for me. Now I wouldn’t be at the office late like I said I’d be. Maybe that was reason enough to go see Zach at Rikers.

  “I’m on my way,” I said.

  “Thank you, Lizzie,” Zach said. “Thank you.”

  Grand Jury Testimony

  LUCY DELGADO,

  called as a witness the 6th of July and was examined and testified as follows:

  EXAMINATION

  BY MS. WALLACE:

  Q: Ms. Delgado, thank you for being willing to testify.

  A: I was subpoenaed.

  Q: And thank you for complying with that subpoena. Were you at a party at 724 First Street on July 2nd of this year?

  A: Yes.

  Q: And how did you come to be at that party?

  A: I was invited.

  Q: By whom were you invited?

  A: Maude Lagueux.

  Q: And how do you and Maude Lagueux know each other?

  A: Years ago our daughters were in the same kindergarten class at Brooklyn Country Day.

  Q: This party is an annual event, is it not?

  A: I don’t know.

  Q: You don’t know?

  A: No.

  Q: Let’s try this another way. Have you been to this party in previous years?

  A: Yes.

  Q: What happens at this party?

  A: Um, socializing, eating, drinking? It’s a party.

  Q: An adult party?

  A: Yes. Kids aren’t invited. Anyway most of them are away at sleepaway camp or summer immersion or whatever. That’s the point of the party. Sleepaway Soiree, get it?

  Q: I do. And does sexual intercourse take place at these parties?

  A: What?

  Q: Does sexual intercourse take place on the upstairs floor during this party?

  A: I have no idea.

  Q: You are under oath. You do recall that, correct?

  A: Yes.

  Q: I’ll ask the question again. Does sexual intercourse take place on the upstairs floor during the Sleepaway Soiree at 724 First Street?

  A: Sometimes. Not actually on the floor. There are beds. It’s a regular house.

  Q: Have you ever engaged in sexual intercourse during these parties?

  A: No.

  Q: Have you had sexual relations of any kind during these parties?

  A: Yes.

  Q: With your husband?

  A: No.

  Q: With somebody else’s husband?

  A: Yes.

  Q: Did others engage in similar behavior?

  A: Sometimes. Not everyone and not all the time. It’s not that big of a deal.

  Q: Partner-swapping wasn’t a big deal to the people at this party?

  A: Partner-swapping sounds so, I don’t know, purposeful or something. This was only for fun. Like a joke, sort of. A way to blow off some steam.

  Q: Did you see Amanda Grayson at the party on July 2nd?

  A: Yes. But I didn’t know who she was at the time.

  Q: How did you learn that you’d seen her?

  A: The police showed me a picture of her.

  Q: They showed you a picture of Amanda Grayson and asked if you had seen her at the party?

  A: Yes.

  Q: And where did you see her?

  A: In the living room. She bumped into me and spilled wine down my shirt.

  Q: When was that?

  A: I think around 9:30 or 10:00 p.m. I don’t know exactly. But I was only at the party until 11:00. So sometime before then.

  Q: Did you see her again after that?

  A: No.

  Q: How did she seem when you saw her?

  A: Upset. She seemed upset.

  Q: Upset like crying? Or angry?

  A: Scared. She seemed really scared.

  Q: Did you speak with Maude Lagueux at the party that night?

  A: I was going to talk to her, but when I went over, it seemed like she and her husband Sebe were arguing about another woman.

  Q: Why do you say that?

  A: Because I heard Maude say something about “naked pictures of her,” and she was really, really angry. I mean, I’ve never seen her like that.

  Q: Thank you very much, Ms. Delgado. You may step down.

  Amanda

  SIX DAYS BEFORE THE PARTY

  “What do you think?” the decorator asked, waving her manicured hand around Amanda’s office at the Hope First Initiative. There was the brand-new tailored orange couch, the gray wool rug with wide white stripes, and the absurdly expensive end tables, handcrafted by some Williamsburg woodworker.

  When Amanda glanced up, the decorator—a tall, determined woman with hawkish features who wore only draped clothing in various shades of gray—was looking at her, waiting for a response. There was a right thing to say at this moment. Amanda had no idea what it was, but when she didn’t know exactly what to say—which was often—she had found that selecting just a few good words could make up for a lot.

  Luckily, Amanda had been collecting good words ever since she and her mom used to snuggle side by side in one of the oversize corduroy beanbags in the children’s section of the St. Colomb Falls Library. That ended when Amanda was eleven and her mom got sick and died all within a few weeks—lung cancer, even though she’d never smoked a single cigarette. After that, Amanda wasn’t sure she’d ever be able to go back to the library. But then, there she was, only days later, still needing someplace safe to be.

  The sour librarian had come out of nowhere with a pile of books for Amanda the second or third time she was there alone. She didn’t ask about Amanda’s mom. She’d just said with a wrinkled frown: “There are these.” Then she slapped the fat stack down—Lord of the Flies, Catcher in the Rye, Little Women. After that, the librarian’s special deliveries became a regular thing. In the end, it was from those books that Amanda’s best words came. And so they were her words; Amanda needed to remind herself of that sometimes. She’d read those books. That part of her was real.

  And right now, the decorator was still waiting.

  “It’s splendid,” Amanda ventured finally.

  The decorator beamed, admiring her own handiwork. “Oh, Amanda, what a way to put it. I swear, you are my most delightful client.”

  “Splendid?” Sarah had appeared in Amanda’s office door, arms crossed, looking beautiful as always with her smooth olive skin, sharp dark brown bob, and huge blue eyes. “Easy, Jane Austen. It’s a couch.”

  Sarah came in and flopped down on it for emphasis, patting the spot next to her. “Come on, Amanda. Come sit. It’s your couch, not hers. You should at least test it out.”

  Amanda smiled and went to sit next
to Sarah. Despite her very petite frame, Sarah was an imposing figure. Amanda always felt much stronger next to her.

  “Thank you for all your help,” Amanda said to the decorator.

  “Yes, bye now.” Sarah waved dismissively.

  The decorator’s mouth pinched at Sarah, but when she stepped toward Amanda, she smiled brightly and kissed her on both cheeks. “Amanda, you feel free to call me if you need anything else.”

  “Buh-bye,” Sarah said again.

  The decorator snorted before turning on a tall, thin heel and striding for the door.

  “Nothing more galling than an asshole like that insisting you must spend fourteen thousand on a stupid couch she could never afford herself,” Sarah said once she was gone. She was looking down at her phone to finish a text, probably to her husband, Kerry. The two texted nonstop, like teenagers. “And that lockjaw? People who are actually fancy never try that hard. You know that, right?”

  Sarah had been raised in a struggling, single-parent home outside Tulsa, but Kerry’s family was heir to a button fortune. Like, actual buttons, apparently. It had been dramatically misspent by recent generations, so that Kerry didn’t end up inheriting much of anything, but Sarah had spent plenty of time around his very moneyed older relatives.

  “Zach hired her. She’s apparently very well known,” Amanda said, looking around. “I do like the things she picked out.”

  “Oh, Amanda. Forever the diplomat.” Sarah patted Amanda’s knee. “You never will say anything negative about anyone, will you?”

  “I say negative things,” Amanda protested weakly.

  “Just very, very quietly,” Sarah whispered. Then she shrugged. “Hey, I could probably learn to hold my tongue more. You should have heard me ripping into Kerry this morning.” Sarah looked off, considering for a moment. “Though, in my defense, he is too old and paunchy for bright-red Air Jordans. He looks ridiculous. And I’ve seen some of the guys he plays with in that pickup game of his. They are young and in shape and attractive and very not ridiculous. Come to think of it, you want to come watch with me? There was this one with these blue eyes and a little bit of a beard …”

  Amanda laughed. “No, thank you.”

  Sarah loved to joke openly about attractive men who were not Kerry. She could because her marriage was so rock solid. Sarah and Kerry had three beautiful boys and had been married for ages. They’d met in high school—Kerry the football star, Sarah the cheerleader. They’d even been prom king and queen, something Sarah seemed slightly embarrassed by, but also very proud of.

  Sarah sighed. “Anyway, I think Kerry was actually hurt when I wouldn’t let up about the shoes. There is a line, even when it’s all in good fun. Sometimes I forget where it is.”

  Sarah was forceful, it was true. She demanded Kerry do this, that, and the other thing—fetch their sons, clean the leaves clogging the storm drain on the corner, help Amanda change that light bulb above their front door. Kerry grumbled sometimes, sure—the leaves, especially, he thought were the city’s problem—but it was always with affection. Like he enjoyed their back-and-forth. Amanda found the entire thing baffling and enviable.

  “I think Kerry likes you exactly the way you are,” Amanda said. “Besides, I’m sure Zach would love for me to be as assertive as you. I’d be able to handle everything here at the foundation so much better.”

  “Yes, but then Zach would be stuck coming home to my harpy ass. Let’s face it, neither your husband nor I would survive a single night together.”

  They both burst out laughing at the thought, leaving Amanda feeling breathless and flushed.

  She did love Sarah. Only four months into her time in Park Slope, and Amanda was already so much closer to her than she’d been to any of the women in Palo Alto, who’d ruthlessly guarded their perfection like starving dogs. Sarah was no Carolyn, of course; it was impossible to compete with that kind of history. But Sarah didn’t have to compete with Carolyn. There was plenty of room for both friends in Amanda’s life.

  Sarah was an invaluable help with the foundation, too. A former educator, fellow Brooklyn Country Day mom, and president of its PTA, Sarah knew the ins and outs of the tangled New York City education system. Sarah hadn’t worked since before her own children were born, but she’d agreed to take the job at the foundation as assistant director because she wanted to lend a hand. Over Sarah’s objections, Amanda had insisted she be paid generously.

  It would have been worth any amount of money not to have to deal with the foundation alone. Having grown up disadvantaged herself, Amanda believed deeply in the foundation’s mission—providing scholarships that allowed needy middle-school students to attend some of New York City’s best private schools. But running the Hope First Initiative was very stressful. And Amanda needed to get it right. After all, it had been Zach’s brainchild.

  Zach’s parents—a pair of Poughkeepsie crack addicts—had abandoned him when he was nine. After that, he’d bounced from foster home to foster home. Zach had told Amanda all about it shortly after they met, how growing up in the shadow of swanky Vassar College he’d always known there was more to life. And he’d wanted it. All of it.

  And so, Zach had gone out and grabbed it. At the age of fourteen, he began working an illegal overnight shift stocking supermarket shelves to earn enough for the requisite testing and applications to boarding schools. He was admitted to three, including Deerfield Academy, which he attended on full scholarship. From there, he’d gone on to Dartmouth, then a dual JD/MBA from Penn. Amanda had found it all so very impressive. She still did.

  Once he and Amanda were together, Zach had shot up the corporate ladder, too, at start-up after start-up in California—Davis, Sunnydale, Sacramento, Pasadena, Palo Alto. Amanda gave birth to Case in Davis, and he was four when Zach decided that if he wanted to really get somewhere, he’d have to create something himself. It was then that ZAG, Inc. was born. (ZAG as in zigzag and also Zach’s initials, plus the A; he didn’t have a middle name.) Within five years, ZAG, Inc. was worth hundreds of millions of dollars. But Amanda was not surprised when Zach resigned and stepped away, saying he was ready for something new. He’d always been a big proponent of challenging himself. Whatever the finer details of the new company Zach had started in New York—they never talked about the minutiae of his work—Amanda was sure it would be a big success, too.

  “Why must my husband text to ask what we’re having for dinner in the middle of the day?” Sarah huffed, punching out another text. “It’s not even lunchtime. He should have better things to do.”

  Amanda’s office phone rang. She startled, but made no move to answer it, even when it rang a second time.

  “Um, you are aware we don’t have a receptionist yet?” Sarah asked. “That phone isn’t going to answer itself.”

  “Oh, right.” Reluctantly, Amanda moved to her feet on the third ring and headed for her desk. She picked up the phone. “Amanda Grayson.”

  There was no response.

  “Hello?”

  No answer. In an instant, dread all but overwhelmed her.

  “Hello?” Amanda asked one more time. Still, there was nothing except that familiar sound in the background. Heavy, horrible breathing. Her gut twisted.

  “Who is it?” Sarah asked from the couch.

  There was only a series of zeroes on the caller ID. Amanda slammed down the phone.

  “Whoa, killer!” Sarah called out. “What did they say?”

  “No. Nothing. Sorry, I don’t even know why I hung up like that. There was no one there.” Amanda smiled, but it was not a good smile. She needed to change the subject. “It’s just—Case being so far away, it’s putting me on edge. I even had this ridiculously awful dream last night. I was running through the woods, barefoot, sticks cutting my feet. I think I was trying to save Case from something. God knows what.” When Amanda looked at Sarah, her eyes were already wide, and Amanda hadn’t even mentioned the most disturbing parts—the blood that had been all over her, and she’d bee
n wearing something, a fancy dress, a wedding dress even; and then Norma’s Diner, from her hometown, appearing out of nowhere like some haunted house in the middle of the woods. Who dreamed such strange, awful things? Certainly not Sarah. “Obviously, it was just a nightmare. But every time the phone rings, I am worried it’s Case’s camp.”

  Amanda knew that Case was safe at camp. She just felt unmoored without him. The only time he’d ever been away this long was when he’d been hospitalized with food poisoning as a toddler, and even then Amanda had slept in the hospital with him.

  Sarah’s face softened. “Well, that I do understand.” She came over to lean against the desk beside Amanda. “I always chew off all my fingernails when camp starts. Until I get that first letter, actually. And you’re dealing with a new camp. My boys usually go every summer to the same place.”

  “You worry, too?” Amanda asked.

  Sarah’s youngest son, Henry, was in Case’s class, which was how she and Amanda had met. Sarah was one of those blasé mothers who always had everything so under control no matter what new disaster her sons careened into. And there were a lot of disasters.

  “Don’t let this tough exterior fool you!” Sarah exclaimed. “It’s just easier for me if I don’t let myself think about it—out of sight, out of mind. It’s like the ‘come in and see us’ message from Country Day I got about Henry right before the school year ended. You wanna know what I did?”

  “What?” Amanda asked, on the edge of her seat. What she wouldn’t have done for one ounce of Sarah’s bravado.

  “I ignored it. Did not even respond. Can you imagine?” Sarah shook her head as though she was disgusted with herself, but really she seemed a little pleased. “Honestly? I couldn’t deal. I needed a break from everything kid-related. Of course, now we have this emergency PTA meeting tonight. So I guess the joke’s on me.”

  “What emergency meeting?” Amanda asked.

  “Come on, I told you. Remember? The contact list has been compromised!” She pressed her flattened palms to her cheeks and widened her eyes for a second, then smirked. “I know that Brooklyn Country Day isn’t one of those loosey-goosey progressive schools. We all love rigor and discipline and structure. That’s why we send our kids there. But honestly, you’d think the Country Day parents were all in witness protection or the CIA or something. They are losing it.”