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  I swear I haven’t had sex in so long, I’ve been revirginized. I can’t even remember what feeling good feels like. I haven’t wanted to. I like feeling fucking bad. So I look up now, and I see him, and the memory of that big, thick cock slides and ripples through me.

  I dislike the tingly insecurity it gives me. I dislike it a lot.

  He sweeps the crowd with one long, long stare. “You all want some music tonight, huh?!” he asks in a low voice, the question as intimate as if he’d whispered it to each of us.

  “KENNA!!” Women are sobbing beside us.

  “Then let’s hit it!” He lifts one fist in the air, and a drum beats in the background. He starts pumping his fist high, the drum following an identical answering sound. He rolls his hips and lifts his head to the cloudy sky, making a slow humming noise from deep in his throat that sounds like . . . sex.

  While the orchestra noise begins building again, the symphony gathers momentum. From slow and melodic, it heads toward something noisier and crazier. My pulse is somewhere in the stratosphere by the time the rhythm feels absolutely wild, when suddenly two men pop up on a platform from under the stage, striking their electric guitars to an explosion of lights that simulate fireworks. They’re the other two lead members—Jax and Lexington. Daddy’s boys, and identical twins. They got the funding for their first performance from their own Daddy Warbucks, and now the three leads need nothing from anybody.

  Mackenna starts singing in a voice that is low and raspy and sexy as fuck. I hate him. How fluid his muscular body is. How it oozes testosterone. How dancers join the three men onstage, dressed in formal black-and-white men’s suits. I even hate the way they tear off their suits to reveal their black-painted skin that makes them look sleek as panthers.

  Melanie is so enraptured; her lips are parted and she’s gaping. I swear, the electric, primal, and animal way these three men move up onstage is something to behold; the three are being irreverent with their bodies but reverent to their music.

  My body is in an uproar. I have purposely not been a music girl for years. Mainly to avoid listening to any song of his by mistake. But now his voice is on every fucking speaker. It reverberates in my bones, awakening some strange pain inside me along with an extra truckload of anger.

  The concert continues like some form of exquisite torture. The band prolonging not only my torment but the torment of every spectator waiting anxiously to hear their most recognized song. And then . . . it happens.

  Finally, Mackenna starts singing “Pandora’s Kiss,” the breakout song that topped the Billboard charts and hit #1 on iTunes for weeks:

  Those harlot’s lips

  To taste and torment me

  Those little tricks

  That tease and torture me,

  Ooooooooh, oh, oh, OH

  I shouldn’t have opened you up, Pandora

  Ooooooooh, OH, OH, OOOH

  You should’ve remained in my closet, Pandora

  A secret I will forever deny

  A love that would one day die

  Ooooh, OH, OH, OH

  I should’ve never kissed . . . those harlot’s lips . . . Pandora

  Rage bubbles up inside me full force.

  “Now?” Melanie keeps asking me.

  I. Loathe. Him.

  “Now?” she asks again.

  I loathe him. He’s the only boy I’ve ever kissed. He took kisses that meant everything to me and turned them into a joke of a fucking song. A song that turns me into some sort of Eve, torturing and teasing him to sin. He is the sin. He is the penitence, the hell, and the devil, all in one.

  I reach into my bag, nicely tucked under my poncho, and grab the first thing I find.

  “Now,” I whisper.

  Before Mackenna knows what hit him, Melanie and I have sent three tomatoes and a couple of eggs flying through the air.

  The orchestra music isn’t enough to drown out his muttered “fuck,” audible through the microphone.

  His jaw clamps and he yanks the mic down over his chin as he jerks his eyes around to find the source of the attack. I feel delirious when I see the genuine anger on his face. I squeal, “The rest!” and grab the remaining things we brought and just keep throwing. Not only at him, but at anyone who tries to get in the way—like the stupid dancers who rush to protect him. One of them makes a whimpering noise as an egg hits her face, and Mackenna jerks her back by the arm so he can take the hits himself, his furious eyes trying to find us in the crowd.

  Then I hear Melanie shout, “Hey! LET GO, asshole!”

  My arms are yanked behind me, and I’m suddenly shoved and pulled out of my place and down the aisle.

  “Let go of us!” Melanie cries, struggling as two burly guards drag us away. “If you don’t let go of me right now, my boyfriend’s going to find your home and kill you in your sleep!”

  The guard yanks me back harder, and I catch my breath as pain rushes up my arm.

  “Asshole,” I hiss, but I don’t even bother to struggle. Melanie’s getting nowhere and I know it.

  “She knows them! She knows the band! Who do you think he was singing about just now, asshole?” Melanie kicks into the air. “She’s Pandora! Let us fucking go.”

  “You know Mr. Jones?” one guard asks me.

  “Mr. Jones!” I scoff. “Seriously! If Mackenna’s a mister, I’m a unicorn!”

  They seem to chuckle among themselves as they lead us past more security, around the stage, and to a small room in the back. One guy starts speaking into a radio as he unlocks the door.

  Melanie struggles and tries to kick out, but the enormity of what could happen starts settling on me, and I grow quiet.

  Holy. Shit. What have I done?

  “You don’t have to look so happy, dickface. My boyfriend will find your home too and kill you next!” she tells the other guard.

  They yank a door open and shove us inside. I stumble as I take a step, fighting for some dignity as I wiggle free of his grip. “Let go,” I grit, and he finally releases me.

  The radio transmitter on his hip emits a sound. A voice says something I can’t make out, but it sounds a lot like cursing.

  “Remove these,” one of the guards commands, pointing at our ponchos.

  I pry the plastic off my body and Melanie does the same, then we watch helplessly as they strip us of the bags we’d hidden underneath the ponchos.

  Melanie groans when they set our things on a table to the side. Cell phones. Two more tomatoes. Car keys.

  “Wow. You guys can’t take a little joke now, can you?” Melanie asks them with a haughty little scowl.

  I close my eyes and try to quell the panic rising in me.

  Fuuuuck. What was I thinking?

  I haven’t done anything this reckless in years.

  And it felt good.

  Also wrong. Very, very wrong.

  But good. Great, in fact.

  Hell, I can still picture the pissed, disbelieving look on Mackenna’s face. It gave me intense pleasure. Orgasmic pleasure. But now the intense feeling I’m experiencing is more along the lines of paralyzing fear.

  What if the guards call him into the room to ask if he does, indeed, know me?

  What if I have to stand here in this small stuffy room and look at him from thisclose!

  I feel sick to my stomach. Later, Melanie’s going to want explanations. Big-time explanations, more than what I’ve told her so far. She’s going to have to tell Greyson what happened, and he’s going to want to know everything, because these stupid security guards messed with his girl. I don’t even know if I can explain to her the kind of past Mackenna and I share. January 22: the day I unfailingly get drunk and don’t bother to even see the light of day—I’d sworn to myself I’d never discuss that day. But Melanie and Greyson? They will want me to open my box of secrets. Of me and Mackenna Jones.

  Hot, wet mouths melding . . .

  Him, pushing into me, stretching me, taking me, loving me . . .

  Promises.

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sp; Lies.

  Loss.

  Hatred.

  The kind of hatred that’s only born of an intense, out-of-this-world love that went woefully wrong.

  What am I going to say to him if I see him?

  What am I going to do?

  Please god, don’t punish me by making me look at him thisclose.

  I pace and pray, pace and pray while Melanie studies her nails, the wall, and me, sighing with the bored confidence of someone who knows she’s getting out of here intact. If I see Mackenna, I really doubt it’ll be so easy. My stomach’s already in knots, and I’m having the most awful urge to vomit right now.

  The concert seems to last forever. One of the guards comes and goes while the other opts to stand a few feet behind Melanie, standing all military-like, as if waiting for something.

  Oh god, please let that something not be Mackenna.

  I’m wearing off a layer of my boots’ soles when, a century later, the door swings open and a chubby man in a suit and tie steps in. My blood pools in my feet from my nervousness. Lionel “Leo” Palmer, the band manager. I saw his face and interview in this morning’s paper, but I have to say he looked much happier in that picture.

  He glares at us—Melanie glaring back, me standing motionless—and his hands make meaty fists at his sides.

  “Have you any idea what you just did?” he grits out, chubby cheeks blazing red. “How long we could keep you two cozy in a fucking lady prison? What kind of fucking fans are you?”

  “We’re not fans,” Melanie says.

  The door swings open and the twins, in all their male glory, join the melee. They look intimidating all the time, but now—with their blond hair, odd-color eyes, and perfectly pissed-off scowls—they’re a force to be reckoned with.

  I can’t breathe.

  “Who the fuck are these bitches?” the one with the snake tattoo demands.

  “I’m getting to that, Jax,” Lionel says.

  So the other one must be Lexington. He charges forward and looks at me, eyebrow piercing and all, then he looks at Melanie. He points his index finger, swinging it from her to me. “I hope you two have a lot of money, because one of our dancers is injured. If she’s screwed up for Madison Square Garden—”

  “Don’t worry, Pandora, Greyson will take care of this,” Melanie says easily.

  “Pandora,” Lionel repeats suddenly. He grows still, his eyes sliding back to me. “Your friend called you Pandora. Why?”

  “Because it’s my name? Duh.”

  I’m in the middle of rolling my eyes when the door swings open and a figure fills the space. I don’t think my heart is beating anymore. I feel like someone is strangling me and punching me on the inside.

  Mackenna.

  A few feet away.

  In the same room as me.

  Bigger and manlier than ever.

  He kicks the door shut behind him. He’s wearing aviators, so I can’t see his eyes, and ohmigod, I hate him with a passion. I came here to hurt him, but I’m so overcome by my anger, I can’t seem to do anything but stand here with my breath getting trapped in my lungs, my heart squeezing in my chest, my body trembling as all my suppressed anger bubbles up inside me.

  He is tall and dark, and the remains of a red gooey liquid trickle down his chest.

  But what a perfect chest, and then that thin trail of hair that leads the way from his navel to his dick. Tight leather pants mold to his bulging thighs. A bulging cock too. I swear girls might think he sticks a loaf of bread down his pants, but I can assure you that fucker is real. As huge as his fucking ego, and I remember it used to get as hard as his fucking head.

  Not everyone can pull off a buzz cut, or a diamond stud earring, but he has a perfectly shaped head that makes you want to curl your hands around it and trace the curves with your lips. The diamond glints almost menacingly in his right ear, and when he takes off the sunglasses with an angry jerk, I see his brilliant, furious silver eyes, and I swear that it feels like coming home.

  To a home that was wrecked, and burned, and there’s nothing left, but it’s still your home.

  How fucked up is that?

  God, please let him not be real. Let this be a nightmare. Let him be on the other corner of the world while I hate him safely from my corner in Seattle.

  “She’s fucking Pandora?” Lionel asks Mackenna.

  When Mackenna’s hard jaw only tightens, Lionel turns slowly around to study me. My brain is a tangle of confusion because Mackenna is staring straight at me like he can’t believe I’m standing here.

  I can barely take his steely gaze. I thought this night would give me closure. That I could make him feel in front of his fans like I felt when he left: humiliated. Instead he stands there, every inch the rock god, even with tomato puree on his chest. He owns the room, carrying that unnamable X factor that nobody can pinpoint but that he has in spades, that tells you he owns this room and everyone in it.

  And that fact only serves to piss me off further.

  “Lionel,” he says in a low, warning tone.

  Just one word makes Lionel ease back. Now nothing stops Mackenna from staring straight at me.

  My face burns as I remember how I loved him. Deep, hard, completely.

  Don’t think about that. You hate him now!

  “Nice hair.” He shoves his glasses into the belt loops of his pants.

  His voice, oh god.

  His eyes run down the length of my hair, and Melanie offers, “I suggested she add a little spirit to her hair, so at least she looks happy.”

  He doesn’t even look at Melanie. He looks at me in the most intense way, specifically the pink strand in my hair, waiting for me to answer. I loathe that pink strand, but not as much as I loathe him.

  “Nice tights,” I return, and gesture to his leather pants. “How’d you get into them? From the top of a building and with a pound of butter?”

  I refuse to let his chuckle move me, but I feel it run down my legs as he starts approaching. “No need to use butter anymore. These pants are a part of me.” He holds my gaze helplessly trapped. “Like you were a part of me once.”

  He’s coming closer, and every step affects me. My cheeks burn. The gall of him to remind me. I’m so angry. Years of hurt simmer in me. Of loneliness and betrayal.

  “Fuck you, Mackenna.”

  “Already done, Pandora.” His eyes burn with equal fury as he takes a tomato from the table and surveys it with glinting gray eyes. “Is this for me too?”

  “That’s right. All. Yours.”

  His lips curl in derision as he tosses it up like a ball and easily catches it, all the while watching me.

  “Your show is so bad, Melanie and I felt we had to give your fans some real entertainment.”

  He runs his eyes across my face, studying me. “Yeah, by humiliating the fuck out of me.”

  I can’t stand the way he looks at me, his eyes tracing the same path. My eyebrows, my nose, my lips, my chin, my cheekbones. He makes me wonder if I looked at the wrong mirror today, as if there’s something even remotely interesting to see. I swear nothing prepared me for having his eyes on me again. Nothing. I want to get out of here so fast, he won’t even see my butt as I go.

  “Let me go, Mackenna.”

  “All right, Dora. But first a parting gift.” Saying my least favorite nickname, he crushes the tomato in one fist, then lifts his hand, dropping little pieces of it over my head, watching me as I gasp and the juice spreads down my face and the side of my neck.

  “There you go,” he croons, his smile wolfish as he works his fingers into my hair to make the juice seep deeper. When I struggle to pull free, he grips the back of my head and presses his nose to my ear, making me tense to stifle a shudder. “You just pissed off my entire fucking band. Do you realize the kind of charges we’re going to press?”

  Yes, I do. My mother is a lawyer, so I have a pretty good idea.

  So why did I think the fact that he deserved it gave me a free pass to be reckless tonigh
t?

  Fuck me.

  He’s got me fucked.

  And he’s so close. I’m strangely paralyzed as his lips move by my ear, causing an unwanted quiver down my legs. My nipples hurt all of a sudden and my body is in some strange contracting mode.

  “Are you suicidal, or just looking to leave home? Because trust me, jail won’t be much of an improvement.”

  “And your fucking face isn’t much improved with the egg facial I gave you.”

  His friends, the twins, explode in laughter, but Mackenna doesn’t.

  He surveys me with ill-concealed anger, and somehow I have an acute memory of the last time I looked into those slate gray eyes. His heavy stare and the touch of his tongue on mine zipping like white-hot lightning through my body. Him moving, his hands on my hips, holding me beneath him while I thrash. His groans telling me how much he likes being inside me.

  It hurts. The sight of him hurts.

  I didn’t expect it to.

  As if my proximity has just triggered the same memories in his mind, he blatantly studies my body, his gaze lingering on my breasts, my mouth—a gaze hot and tactile and making me squirm—before he focuses back on my face as he speaks to the others.

  “I’ll take care of the damages,” I hear him say, those eyes still on me, ruthless and calculating as if he’s just come to a decision. “And I’ll settle accounts with her directly.”

  “Ha! You’re settling nothing with anybody here,” Melanie scoffs.

  He lets out a cold male chuckle and pins his attention on her. “What’s your name, Barbie?”

  “Melanie Meyers, asshole.”

  “Leave her alone—” I start, but he cuts me off with a hand and tells the guards, “Escort Barbie to her car.”

  “Dream on, pink wig. I won’t leave without Pandora!”

  “This goth is seriously Pandora?” one of the twins finally asks. “Our Pandora? She was supposed to be a myth, dude.”

  There’s a tense silence as every one of his team members looks at Mackenna. And I can’t help but notice with a prick in my chest that Mackenna looks none too pleased in a manner suggesting he’d hoped some eighteen-wheeler had run me over at some point, burying his secret.