Before She Was Found
Heather Gudenkauf
A gripping thriller about three young girlfriends, a dark obsession and a chilling crime that shakes up a quiet Iowa town
For twelve-year-old Cora Landry and her friends Violet and Jordyn, it was supposed to be an ordinary sleepover—movies and Ouija and talking about boys. But when they decide to sneak out to go to the abandoned rail yard on the outskirts of town, little do they know that their innocent games will have dangerous consequences.
Later that night, Cora Landry is discovered on the tracks, bloody and clinging to life, her friends nowhere to be found. Soon their small rural town is thrust into a maelstrom. Who would want to hurt a young girl like Cora—and why? In an investigation that leaves no stone unturned, everyone is a suspect and no one can be trusted—not even those closest to Cora.
Before She Was Found is a timely and gripping thriller about friendship and betrayal, about the power of social pressure and the price of needing to fit in. It is about the great lengths a parent will go to protect their child and keep them safe—even if that means burying the truth, no matter what the cost.
Praise for Heather Gudenkauf
“[Not a Sound] kept me reading till the birds started chirping...think Mary Higgins Clark or Lisa Scottoline... Gudenkauf, who identifies as “hearing-impaired,” vividly depicts the obstacles of communicating and sussing out information.”
—The Washington Post
“A thrill ride to be sure, but also a gripping tale of tragedy and redemption. If you haven’t read Heather Gudenkauf yet, now’s the time.”
—Lisa Unger
“Not a Sound is not only a riveting thriller, but it’s a moving portrait of a woman who is stronger than she ever believed possible, against all odds.”
—Lisa Scottoline
“Come for the mystery; stay for the taut suspense, the unique heroine.”
—Kirkus Reviews
“A special thriller with a unique and brilliantly effective hook that I simply could not put down.... Gripped me and held me tight until the very last page—and I’m still shivering.”
—C.J. Box
“[Heather Gudenakuf is] rendering some of the most compelling and likable female characters in print today... Recommended for all fans of psychological suspense, particularly those who enjoy Jennifer McMahon and Jodi Picoult.”
—Booklist
“Masterful... Intelligent... Thought-provoking.”
—Sandra Brown
“An action-packed thriller.”
—Mary Kubica
“Thrilling... Will appeal to fans of Lisa Scottoline and Jodi Picoult.”
—Publishers Weekly
Also by Heather Gudenkauf
The Weight of Silence
These Things Hidden
One Breath Away
Little Mercies
Missing Pieces
Not a Sound
Before She Was Found
Heather Gudenkauf
For my parents, Milton and Patricia Schmida ~
Thank you for teaching me the meaning of home.
Contents
Text Message Exchange Between Jordyn Petit and Violet Crow
Monday, April 16, 2018
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Beth Crow Monday, April 16, 2018
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Beth Crow Monday, April 16, 2018
Thomas Petit Monday, April 16, 2018
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Thomas Petit Monday, April 16, 2018
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Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Interview of Jordyn Petit Pitch Police Department Officer Bree Wilson Thomas Petit–Grandfather of Jordyn Petit
Excerpt from the journal of Cora E. Landry
Beth Crow Monday, April 16, 2018
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Beth Crow Monday, April 16, 2018
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Text Message Exchange Between Clint Phelps Abby Ridgewood and Ryan Maren
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Thomas Petit Tuesday, April 17, 2018
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Beth Crow Tuesday, April 17, 2018
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Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
Text Message Exchange Between Jordyn Petit and Violet Crow
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Beth Crow Tuesday, April 17, 2018
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Interview of John Dover Pitch Police Department Officer Bree Wilson
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Thomas Petit Tuesday, April 17, 2018
Beth Crow Tuesday, April 17, 2018
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Text Message Exchange Between Jordyn Petit and Violet Crow
Text Message Exchange Between Jordyn Petit and Violet Crow
Thomas Petit Tuesday, April 17, 2018
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Beth Crow Tuesday, April 17, 2018
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Thomas Petit Tuesday, April 17, 2018
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Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Excerpt from the journal of Cora E. Landry
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Excerpt from the journal of Cora E. Landry
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Beth Crow Wednesday, April 18, 2018
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Thomas Petit Wednesday, April 18, 2018
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Beth Crow Wednesday, April 18, 2018
Text Message Exchange Between Jordyn Petit and Gabe Shannon
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Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
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Text Message Exchange Between Jordyn Petit and Violet Crow
Interview of Jordyn Petit Pitch Police Department Officer Bree Wilson Robert Peale–Attorney for Jordyn Petit
Beth Crow Wednesday, April 18, 2018
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Interview of John Dover Pitch Police Department Officer Keith Grady
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
Thomas Petit Thursday, April 19, 2018
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Beth Crow Thursday, April 19, 2018
Text Message Exchange Between Nikki Dobric Max Crow Clint Phelps and Ryan Moren
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Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
Five months later
Thomas Petit September 14, 2018
Beth Crow September 14, 2018
Dr. Madeline Gideon September 14, 2018
Sept 14, 2018
Acknowledgments
Before She Was Found - Reader’s Guide
Questions for Discussion
A Conversation with the Author
Excerpt from Not a Sound by Heather Gudenkauf
Text Message Exchange
Between Jordyn Petit and Violet Crow
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br /> Sunday, April 15, 2018
Jordyn:
Going 2 Coras at 6
Violet:
Me, too. Are you going to bring it?
Jordyn:
Yeah
Violet:
R we really doing this????
Jordyn:
Yes! Unless UR 2 scared
Violet:
What if we get caught?
Jordyn:
Just keep your mouth shut and we won’t
Monday April, 16, 2018
12:45 a.m.
The air is cold, but she barely notices. It’s the dark that fills her chest with terror, makes her limbs heavy with dread. But she feels something else, too. Something that she can’t quite name. It reminds her of how she feels the night before her birthday or on Christmas Eve but not exactly the same. Thinking about her birthday and Christmas makes her feel good, warm. This feels more like slowly climbing the ladder to the high dive at the swimming pool or like when the roller coaster at Adventureland reaches its highest peak just before it plunges straight down and she just knows she is going to die.
The train yard, filled with the carcasses of gutted-out buildings, is only illuminated by a wispy, wayward eyelash of a pale moon. She stretches out her neck, tilting her ear toward the tracks, hoping to get a sense as to where the others have gone but all she can hear is the wind whispering through the tall grass.
Too much time has passed. They may already be looking for them. It’s now or never, she thinks nervously. She can do this, if she doesn’t he’ll never show up. That was the deal. Together in the bedroom, door locked, they planned everything so carefully right down to the day and hour.
In her right hand dangles the hawk-billed knife they secreted from a kitchen drawer. Her other arm hangs loosely at her side. At first they considered bringing a crowbar but decided that it was too big, too heavy to lift. This fits her fingers better, feels comfortable, reassuring in her palm. She will use it if she has to.
Over the past month or so he’s written messages, love letters, really. Sweet, sentimental words that if she could, she would tuck inside her secret shoebox filled with lucky coins and heart-shaped rocks found over the years. But he warned her, said they could get in trouble, so instead she memorizes each sentence and murmurs them at night before she falls asleep and it’s almost as if he’s right there with her.
She picks up her pace and moves toward the tracks, dulled and worn down by time and elements. The rail ties are barely visible through the weeds, half-buried sun-bleached bones. She’s breathing hard and suddenly realizes tears are rolling down her cheeks. On the opposite side of the tracks where the last year’s winter wheat stands, unsown and bent like a wizened old man, is a field that in a few months will be filled with alfalfa. There she sees something. He is hidden in the shadows but she knows it’s him. He’s come. He beckons her with a raised hand and her heart leaps.
Out of the corner of her eye she sees a familiar shape sitting on the train tracks, knees tucked beneath her chin. The girl turns her head as she approaches, stretches out her legs, holds her injured arm close to her side. They don’t speak. She trusts her. Of course she does.
The figure in the dry grass tilts his chin as if to say, Go ahead. Do it. I dare you. Her legs are not her own as she approaches, the knife bouncing lightly against her thigh. She stops in front of the girl who stands and smiles crookedly up at her through tears, her small teeth flashing white. Beneath her feet the ground vibrates, warning her of the coming train. She has to hurry; once the engine comes into view it will be too late. He’ll leave.
In the distance a dog barks. The rumble of the train grows louder.
She strikes quickly, without thinking. The cold metal rips through fabric and skin easily. She thought it would be harder, take more effort. The girl looks at her in confusion, presses her fingers to her abdomen and pulls them away. The girl looks surprised to find them wet with blood.
The tracks shiver and shake with the approaching engine. The girl tries to squirm away but she yanks her backward and the slick knife slides through her fingers and to the ground; she slams the girl’s head onto the track, the rusty bolts tearing at the girl’s cheek, the delicate skin below her eye. Again and again she thrusts the girl’s head down until her muscles burn and the girl goes limp. She considers leaving her on the tracks but in a burst of adrenaline she pushes the girl off the rails.
As she breathes deeply, her eyes search for him but he’s gone. He’s slipped back into the tall grass. He can’t leave her behind. He promised. A wail from deep inside tries to find its way out but she finds she can’t make a sound.
The freight train bears down on her with a long mournful cry and she considers staying still, allowing the engine to pull her beneath its iron wheels, but somehow her legs carry her over the tracks. She sees herself pushing through the plumes of winter wheat, painting them red as she brushes by, and finally catches sight of him. He pauses and turns to face her. He looks pleased.
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Excerpt from the journal of Cora E. Landry
Sept. 5, 2017
Today was my first official day of sixth grade and it actually went really well! Middle school is a lot bigger than my elementary school because three dinky towns have to share the building. For once I’m going to school with kids I haven’t been with since preschool.
The good news is I don’t have any classes with Melody Jenkins, who was awful to me during fifth grade. She’s the one who sent the top four lists all around school. I was at the top of each one. Dumbest, ugliest, weirdest, most likely to be a virgin. That last one is just stupid. I tried to not let it bother me but it did. And I only have lunch and one class with Jordyn Petit. Jordyn isn’t as bad as Melody but last year she did tell everyone that I liked Dakota Richter. NOT true!
The best news is that I have lunch and social studies with Gabe Shannon, who I’ve liked forever and I think he might actually like me, too. This summer I helped my mom in the elementary school office where she’s the secretary and Gabe helped his mom set up her kindergarten classroom for the new school year. We hung out a bunch this summer and really got to know each other.
Anyway, I’ve got social studies with Mr. Dover, who is cute and is supposed to be a really fun teacher, and I’m even thinking about going out for volleyball. My mom says that it’s really important to be “a joiner” in middle school in order to discover what I like to do and to meet some new people.
My sister, Kendall, says that this is Mom’s way of saying, Don’t be a loser, Cora. If you don’t make some friends now, you never will. I think that Kendall is probably right. She’s super popular and pretty and outgoing. I mean, I’m not a monster, but I’m definitely not as good-looking as Kendall. I’m pretty much her complete opposite.
The good thing is in middle school everyone who goes out for a sport is on the team. They don’t cut anyone, which is a huge relief because I know I’m going to be terrible at volleyball. My only other option is joining the cross-country team and I can’t think of anything worse than running on purpose. So volleyball, it is. The first practice is tomorrow. Wish me luck—I’m going to need it!
Beth Crow
Monday, April 16, 2018
I’ve been called a lot of things in my thirty-six years: trash, slut, home wrecker. And much worse. All true, I guess, if I’m being completely honest with myself. But one thing I won’t let people get away with saying about me is that I’m a bad mother. Those are fighting words. Just about everything I’ve ever done has been for my two children. I may be stupid when it comes to men but I’m a good mother.
Seven months ago I quit my job as an administrative assistant at an office supply company, loaded our belongings and squeezed a reluctant Violet, a pissed-off Max and Boomer, our basset hound, into our car that was more rust than steel and began the twenty-five-hour drive northeast from Algodon, N
ew Mexico, to Green Bay. The plan was to begin a new life with my boyfriend, Jerry, who moved there to take a job with Proctor & Gamble a few months earlier.
I had some hard selling to do but by the time we reached Kansas City I almost had them convinced that even though we would be giving up Picacho Peak we would get Lambeau Field and the Green Bay Packers. And though we were trading in the Rio Grande there would be Lake Michigan where we could go fishing and water skiing. And though we would miss driving through the Mesilla Valley and seeing the fields of cotton, white, fluffy and soothing against the dusty, dry ground, once in Wisconsin we would have piles of crisp clean snow to build snowmen and have snowball fights.
Max wasn’t buying it but Violet was easier to convince. Always in her own little world, Violet would retreat into her notebook of drawings and stories and a few hours later she’d look up, blinking rapidly as if trying to bring her surroundings back into focus. Max, on the other hand, wanted nothing to do with the move. He was completely content in New Mexico and didn’t even try to hide his hate for Jerry. It’s to Max’s credit that he didn’t say I told you so when the car broke down in the middle of Iowa and Jerry suddenly had a change of heart and got back together with his ex-wife.
Long story short, we stayed in Pitch, a dying railroad town with a population of about two thousand. We were rescued by a nice lady by the name of Tess Petit, who has a granddaughter the same age as Violet.
I know I should answer the phone but for the first time in almost a year a man is beneath me and inside me. Our fingers intertwine and we move as one person. The phone rings and rings and I briefly think of my kids. Violet is spending the night at Cora’s house and Max, I hope, is fast asleep downstairs. Usually Boomer alerts me to the comings and goings of my kids but I have been a bit distracted for the past hour or so. Sam reaches out and cups my face in his palm, his fingers pressing into my cheek, keeping my eyes on his, and I push any thought of my children aside.
Finally, my heart stops galloping and Sam presses his face to my neck, his beard velvety against my skin, and I remember the ringing phone. It’s late. Or early, depending on how you look at it—1:00 a.m. Way too late for any good news.
