Crossed

  I climb on top of the highest rock.

  “Don’t,” Indie says from below. “You’re going to fall.”

  “Oh,” I say. There is so much to see. Orange rocks and a brown-grassed plain and water and blue mountains. Darkening sky, deep clouds, red sun, and a few small cold flakes of white snow coming down.

  Two little dark figures, looking up.

  Are they looking at me?

  Is it him?

  This far away, there’s only one way to know.

  I point to the sky.

  For a moment, nothing happens. The figure stands still and I stand cold and alive and—

  He starts to run.

  I make my way down the rocks, slipping, sliding, trying to get to the plain. I wish, I think, my feet clumsy, moving too fast, not fast enough, I wish I could run, I wish I’d written a whole poem, I wish I kept the compass—

  And then I reach the plain and wish for nothing but what I have.

  Ky. Running toward me.

  I have never seen him run like this, fast, free, strong, wild. He looks so beautiful, his body moves so right.

  He stops just close enough for me to see the blue of his eyes and forget the red on my hands and the green I wish I wore.

  “You’re here,” he says, breathing hard and hungry. Sweat and dirt cover his face, and he looks at me as though I’m the only thing he ever needed to see.

  I open my mouth to say yes. But I only have time to breathe in before he closes the last of the distance. All I know is the kiss.

  CHAPTER 23

  KY

  Our poem,” she whispers. “Will you say it to me?”

  I put my face close to her ear. My lips brush against her neck. Her hair smells like sage. Her skin smells like home.

  But I can’t speak.

  She is the first to remember that we are not alone. “Ky,” she whispers.

  We both pull back a little. In the fading light I see the tangles in her hair and the tan on her skin. Her beauty always makes me ache. “Cassia,” I say, my voice hoarse, “this is Eli.” When she turns to him and her face lights up I know that I didn’t imagine his resemblance to Bram.

  “This is Indie,” she says, gesturing to the girl who came with her. Indie folds her arms across her chest.

  A pause. Eli and I glance at each other. I know we both think of Vick. This should be the moment we introduce him to them but he’s gone.

  Just last night Vick was alive. This morning he stood next to the stream, watching the trout as it swam. He thought of Laney while the colors flashed and the sun shone down.

  Then he died.

  I gesture at Eli, who stands very straight. “There were three of us this morning,” I say.

  “What happened?” Cassia asks. Her hand tightens on mine and I squeeze back gently, trying to be careful of the cuts I feel carved into her skin. What has she been through to find me?

  “Someone came,” I tell her. “They killed our friend Vick. The river, too.”

  Suddenly I’m aware of how we must look from above. We’re standing here on the plain out in the open for anyone to see. “Let’s get inside the Carving,” I say. In the west beyond the mountains the sun slides low—almost gone—on a day of dark and light. Vick gone. Cassia here.

  “How did you do it?” I ask, drawing closer to her as we slip into the Carving. She turns to answer me, her breath hot on my cheek. We come together to kiss again, our hands and lips gentle and greedy with each other. Against her warm skin I whisper, “How did you find us?”

  “The compass,” she says, and she presses it into my hand. To my surprise it’s the one I made of stone.

  “So where do we go now?” Eli asks, his voice wavering, when we reach the spot where we camped with Vick. It still smells like smoke. The beams of our flashlights catch the silver of fallen fish scales. “Are we still going to cross the plain?”

  “We can’t,” Indie says. “Not for a day or two, anyway. Cassia’s been sick.”

  “I’m fine now,” Cassia tells us. Her voice sounds strong.

  I reach for the chert in my pack to start another small fire. “I think we stay here tonight,” I tell Eli. “We can decide more in the morning.” Eli nods and without my asking begins to gather brush for the fire.

  “He’s so young,” Cassia says softly. “Did the Society send him out here?”

  “Yes,” I say. I strike the chert. Nothing.

  She puts her hand on mine and I close my eyes. The next time I strike, the sparks snap and fly and she catches her breath.

  Eli brings an armful of stringy, tough brush. When he adds it to the fire, it crackles and the smell of sage rises into the night—sharp and wild.

  Cassia and I sit as near to each other as we can. She leans into me and I keep my arms around her. I don’t fool myself that I hold her together—she does that on her own—but holding her keeps me from flying apart.

  “Thank you,” Cassia tells Eli. I can tell from her voice that she smiles at him and he smiles back, barely. He sits in the spot where Vick sat last night. Indie moves to give Eli more space and leans in to see the fire dance. She glances at me and I see a flash of something in her eyes.

  I shift position a little, blocking her view of us with my back and angling my flashlight so that it shines on Cassia’s hands. “What happened?” I ask her.

  She looks down. “I cut them on a rope,” she says. “We climbed into another canyon looking for you before we came back to this one.” She glances at the other two and smiles at them before she leans in more closely. “Ky,” she says, “we’re together again.”

  I have always loved the way she says my name. “I can’t believe it either.”

  “I had to find you,” she says. She slips her arms around me, underneath my coat, and I feel her fingers on my back. I do the same. She’s so slight and small. And strong. No one else could do what she’s done. I pull her even closer, the ache and release of touching her a feeling I remember from the Hill. It is even stronger now.

  “There’s something I need to tell you,” Cassia whispers in my ear.

  “I’m listening,” I say.

  She takes a deep breath. “I don’t have the compass anymore. The one you gave me back in Oria.” She hurries on and I hear the sound of tears in her voice. “I traded it to an Archivist.”

  “That’s all right,” I tell her, meaning it. She’s here. After all of this the compass isn’t much to have lost along the way. And I didn’t give it to her to keep for me. I gave it to her to have for her own. Still, I’m curious. “What did you get in the trade?”

  “Not what I expected,” she says. “I asked for information about where they were taking Aberrations and how to get there.”

  “Cassia,” I say, and stop. That was dangerous. But she knew that when she tried it. She doesn’t need me to tell her.

  “The Archivist gave me a story instead,” she tells me. “At first I thought he’d cheated me and I was so angry—all I had left to get me to you were the blue tablets.”

  “Wait,” I say. “Blue tablets?”

  “From Xander,” she says. “I kept them because I knew we’d need them in the canyon to survive.” She looks at me and misreads the look on my face. “I’m sorry. I had to decide so quickly—”

  “It’s not that,” I tell her, grabbing her arm. “The blue tablets are poison. Did you take any?”

  “Only one,” she says. “And I don’t believe they’re poisoned.”

  “I tried to tell her,” Indie says. “I wasn’t there when she took it.”

  I breathe out. “How did you keep moving?” I ask Cassia. “Have you eaten?” She nods. I pull out some of the flat bread from my bag. “Eat this now,” I say. Eli reaches into his bag and holds out a piece of bread too.

  Cassia takes the food from both of us. “How do you know the tablets are poisoned?” she asks, her voice still doubtful.

  “Vick told me,” I say, trying not to panic. “The Society always told us that if there was some ki
nd of disaster the blue tablet would save us. But it’s not true. It stops you instead. And then you die if they don’t come to save you.”

  “I still don’t believe it,” Cassia says. “Xander wouldn’t give me something that could hurt me.”

  “He must not have known,” I say. “Maybe he meant for you to use the tablets for trade.”

  “If it was going to work, it would have by now,” Indie says to Cassia. “You must have walked through it somehow. I’ve never heard of anyone doing that. But you wouldn’t stop until we found Ky.”

  We all look at Cassia. She’s thinking something through, her eyes thoughtful. Sorting information. She’s looking for facts to explain what happened, but the only one she needs I already know: She is strong in ways even the Society can’t predict.

  “I only took one,” she says softly. “I dropped the other. And the paper that came with it.”

  “The paper?” I ask.

  Cassia looks up, as if she’s just remembered that we’re there. “Xander hid little pieces of paper with notes printed on them inside the tablets. They’re little scraps of information from his microcard.”

  “How?” I ask. Indie leans forward.

  “I don’t know how he managed to do any of it—steal the tablets or put the messages inside,” Cassia says. “But he did.”

  Xander. I shake my head. Always playing the game. Of course Cassia didn’t leave him behind completely. He’s her best friend. He’s still her Match. But he made a mistake in giving her the tablets.

  “Will you give them back to me?” Cassia asks Indie. “Not the tablets. Only the scraps.”

  For a moment I see something flash in Indie’s eyes. A challenge. I don’t know if she really wants the papers or if she just doesn’t want to be told what to do. But then she reaches into her pack and pulls out the foil-backed packet. “Here,” she says. “I don’t need any of it anyway.”

  “Can you tell me what they said?” I ask, trying not to sound jealous. Indie darts a look at me and I know I haven’t fooled her.

  “Just things like his favorite color and his favorite activity,” Cassia says gently. I know she heard the false note in my voice, too. “I think he must have known that I never looked at the microcard.”

  And just like that, my worry is gone—swallowed back up—and I’m ashamed of myself. She came all this way to find me.

  “That boy in the other canyon,” Indie says. “When you said he’d waited too long, I thought you meant that he’d waited too long to kill himself.”

  Cassia covers her mouth with her hand. “No,” she says. “I thought he’d waited too long to take the tablet and it didn’t save him.” Her voice falls to a whisper. “I didn’t know.” She looks at Indie, horrified. “Do you think he knew? Did he mean to die?”

  “What boy?” I ask Cassia. So much has happened to us while we were apart.

  “A boy who ran with us into the Carving,” Cassia says. “He’s the one who showed us where you went.”

  “How did he know?” I ask.

  “He was one of the ones you left,” Indie says bluntly. She moves back from the dying fire. The light barely reaches her face. She gestures at the canyon around us. “This is the painting, isn’t it?” she asks. “Number nineteen?”

  It takes me a moment to realize what she means. “No,” I say. “The land looks alike, but that carving is even bigger than this one. It’s farther to the south. I’ve never seen it but my father knew people who had.”

  I wait for her to say something else, but she doesn’t.

  “That boy,” Cassia says again.

  Indie curls up to rest. “We have to forget about him,” she tells Cassia. “He’s gone.”

  “How are you feeling?” I whisper to Cassia. I sit with my back against the rock. Her head rests on my shoulder. I can’t sleep. What Indie said about the tablet wearing off could be true, and Cassia seems strong, but I need to watch her all the way through the night to make sure she’s all right.

  Eli stirs in his sleep. Indie stays silent. I can’t tell if she sleeps or listens, so I speak quietly.

  Cassia doesn’t answer me. “Cassia?”

  “I wanted to find you,” she says softly. “When I traded for the compass, I was trying to get to you.”

  “I know,” I say. “And you did. Even if they cheated you.”

  “They didn’t,” she says. “Not completely, anyway. They gave me a story that was more than a story.”

  “What story?” I ask.

  “It sounded like the one you told me about Sisyphus,” she says. “But they called him the Pilot, and it talked about a rebellion.” She leans in close. “We’re not the only ones. There’s something called a Rising out there. Have you heard of it before?”

  “Yes,” I say, but nothing more. I don’t want to talk about the Rising. She said we’re not the only ones as though that were a good thing, but all I want right now is to feel like we are the only ones in the camp. The Carving. The world.

  I put my hand along her face, against the curve of her cheek that I tried before to carve in stone. “Don’t worry about the compass. I don’t have the green silk anymore either.”

  “Did they take that, too?”

  “No,” I say. “It’s still up on the Hill.”

  “You left it there?” she asks, surprised.

  “I tied it to a branch on one of the trees,” I say. “I didn’t want anyone to take it away.”

  “The Hill,” Cassia says. For a moment we are both silent, remembering. And then she says, with a teasing note in her voice, “You never said the words of our poem to me earlier.”

  I lean closer to her and this time I can speak. I whisper, though part of me wants to shout. “Do not go gentle.”

  “No,” she agrees, her voice, her skin soft in that good night. And then she kisses me hard.

  CHAPTER 24

  CASSIA

  Watching Ky wake is better than a sunrise. One moment, he’s still and down deep, and the next moment I can see him returning out of the dark, coming to the surface. His face shifts, his lips move, his eyes open. And then his smile, the sun. At the same time that he bends down to me, I reach up and am warmed as our lips meet.

  We talk about the Tennyson poem, and how we both remembered it, and how he saw me reading it in the woods back in Oria. He’s heard that it was a password before; out here when he was young, and, more recently from Vick.

  Vick. Ky talks in a soft voice about his friend who helped him bury and about the girl Vick loved named Laney. Then, in a voice hard and cold, Ky relates the story of his escape and how he left the other villagers. He shines a merciless light on himself and his own actions. But what I see is not who he left but who he brought with him. Eli. Ky did what he could.

  I tell him about Indie’s version of the Pilot and more about the boy who vanished into a different canyon in the Carving. “He was looking for something,” I say, and I wonder if the boy knew what was behind the Society’s wall in the other canyon. “And he died.”

  Last of all, I tell Ky about the blue-marked Anomalies on top of the Carving and how I wonder if they could have been part of the Rising.

  Then we fall silent. Because we do not know what happens next.

  “So the Society’s in these canyons,” Ky says.

  Eli’s eyes widen. “They’re in our coats, too.”

  “What do you mean?” I ask, and Ky and Eli tell us about the wires that keep us warm and take our data.

  “I ripped mine out,” Ky says, and I realize that explains the tears in the fabric of his coat.

  I glance at Eli, who looks defensive and folds his arms over his chest. “I left mine like it is,” he says.

  “Nothing wrong with that,” Ky says. “It’s your choice to make.” He glances at me, asking what I will do.

  I smile at him as I pull off my coat and hold it out. He takes it in his hands and looks at me standing in front of him as if he still can’t believe what he sees. I don’t look away. A smile crosse
s his lips, and then he puts the coat out on the ground in front of him and slits the fabric with swift, sure movements.

  When he finishes, he gives me a tangle of blue wires and a small silver disc.

  “What did you do with yours?” I ask him.

  “We buried them,” he says.

  I nod, and begin to dig in the dirt to leave mine, too. When I finish I stand up. Ky holds out my coat and I slip back inside of it. “You should still be warm,” he says. “I didn’t move any of the red wires.”

  “What about you?” Eli asks Indie.

  She shakes her head. “I’ll stay like you,” she says, and Eli smiles a little.

  Ky nods. He doesn’t seem surprised.

  “What happens now?” Indie asks. “I don’t think we should try to cross the plain after what happened to your friend.”

  Eli flinches at her bluntness, and Ky’s voice, when he speaks, sounds tight. “That’s true. They might come back, and even if they don’t, the water out there is poisoned now.”

  “We pulled out some of the poison, though,” Eli says.

  “Why?” Indie asks.

  “To try to save the stream,” Ky says. “It was stupid.”

  “It wasn’t,” Eli says.

  “We didn’t get enough of them out to make much of a difference.”

  “We did,” Eli says stubbornly.

  Ky reaches inside his pack and rolls out a map, a beautiful thing with colors and markings. “We’re here now,” he says, pointing to a spot at the edge of the Carving.

  I can’t help but smile. We are here, together. In this wide, wild world, we’ve managed to meet again. I reach out my hand and trace my finger along the path I took to get to him until my hand meets his on the map.

  “I was trying to find a way to you,” Ky says. “I wanted to cross the plain and get back to the Society somehow. We took some things from the farmers’ township for trade.”

  “That old abandoned settlement,” Indie says. “We came through it too.”