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    Learning To Love

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      (February 28)

      After the abandonment of the Norway foundation Dom J. may be likely to try a hermitage for several – or a group of hermits in other words – in Edelin’s Valley. In so far as this would imply a community, organization etc., I would be against it. Better individual hermits depending directly on the main community.

      March 1

      Why not do real theological work in the afternoons, especially this Lent, now that there is less pressure to finally finish off the things I had unwisely promised to write? Real work of theological reflection and construction?

      Once again – there is no question that all my conflicts and problems can be traced in the end to lack of faith. That is also to say that they are all intended as means of purifying my faith by driving me to it as to the last and unique resort. Solitude makes this particularly clear. I must live in and by THE Truth, not merely by this or that truth, this or that “explanation,” this or that ideal, or system. Hence importance of the Bible and the Eucharist above all!

      March 2

      At least a flash of sanity: the momentary realization that there is no need to come to certain conclusions about persons, events, conflicts, trends, even trends toward evil and disaster, as if from day to day and even from moment to moment I had to know and declare (at least to myself): This is so and so, this is good, this is bad; we are heading for a “new era” or we are heading for destruction. What do such judgments mean? Little or nothing. Things are as they are, in an immense whole of which I am a part, and which I cannot pretend to grasp. To say I grasp it is immediately to put myself in a false position, as if I were “outside” it. Whereas to be in it is to seek truth in my own life and action, by moving where movement is possible and keeping still when movement is unnecessary, realizing that things will continue to define themselves and that the judgments and mercies of God will clarify themselves – and will be more clear to me if I am silent and attentive, obedient to. His will, rather than constantly formulating statements in this age which is smothered in language, in meaningless and inconclusive debate, and in which, in the last analysis, nobody listens to anything except what agrees with his own prejudices.

      End of February – Marie Tadié started acting up again. Even though it has been arranged that she deal directly with publishers or w[ith] abbot, she is still trying to get through to me and bombard me with her interminable complaints and accusations. The best solution is to take her as a further reason for cutting down on publication – at least of books etc, that require to be translated in Europe. Rather – continue writing in freedom and peace, without a view to immediate publication

      – discreet dissemination of work

      – publication in magazines and out of the way places, perhaps limited editions

      – an infrequent full-length book for Doubleday. One in five years would be plenty!!

      [ – to have disgrace in the heart.

      Remember that you must meet God …

      and what do I want with humankind?]

      Not popular, but exactly right for me!

      Fear of man and fear of God cannot coexist in one heart!

      “The wise follow the path of non-assertion and teach without words.”

      Lao Tzu.

      March 6

      Beauty and necessity (for me) of solitary life – apparent in the sparks of truth, small, recurring flashes of a reality that is beyond doubt, momentarily appearing, leading me further on my way. Things that need no explanation and perhaps have none, but which say: “Here! This way!” And with final authority!

      It is for them that I will be held responsible. Nothing but immense gratitude! They cancel out all my mistakes, weaknesses, evasions, falsifications.

      They lead further and further in that direction that has been shown me, and to which I am called.

      APPENDIX C

      A Postscript

      April 1966

      The work of writing can be for me, or very close to, the simple job of being: by creative reflection and awareness to help life itself live in me, to give its esse an existant, or to find place, rather, in esse by action, intelligence and love. For to write is love: it is to inquire and to praise, or to confess, or to appeal. This testimony of love remains necessary. Not to reassure myself that I am (“I write therefore I am”), but simply to pay my debt to life, to the world, to other men. To speak out with an open heart and say what seems to me to have meaning. The bad writing I have done has all been authoritarian, the declaration of musts, and the announcement of punishments. Bad because it implies a lack of love, good insofar as there may yet have been some love in it. The best stuff has been more straight confession and witness.

      April 14, 19661

      This note appears in Notebook CI, 1966 March-April-May-June-July (The George Arena Research Library, Syracuse University Syracuse, New York).

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      Abdesalam, Sidi

      Absurdity

      Actuelles I (Camus)

      Addams, Charles

      Adler, Renata

      Adolfs, R.

      Agenda

      Agonia (Unamuno)

      Airtight Cage, The (Lyford)

      Alban, Bro

      Alberti, Rafael

      Allah

      Allchin, Donald

      Almad al’, Alawi

      Altizer, Thomas J.J.

      America article

      American Catholicism

      Amery, Carl

      Anastasius, Fr.

      Angela of Foligno

      Anti-Christ

      “Apologies to an Unbeliever” (Merton)

      Apostolic Delegate

      Arab refugees

      Artaud, Antonin

      Ascension Day (1967)

      Ash Wednesday (1966)

      As I Lay Dying (Faulkner)

      Athanasius of Alexandria

      Athonite Hesychasm

      Atomic physics

      “Aubade on a Cloudy Morning” (Merton)

      Auden, W. H.

      Augustine, Fr.

      Auschwitz

      Autobiography of Malcolm X

      Autobiography (Muir)

      Aziz, Abdul

      Aztecs

      Babin’s Options

      Bachelard, Gaston

      Baez, Joan

      Barth, Karl

      Bear, The (Faulkner)

      Beatles, The

      Beckett, Samuel

      Bellow, Saul

      Benedict, Bro.

      Benedict, Ruth

      Benet of Canfield

      Benzon, Ernst

      Berrigan, Dan

      Berryman, John

      Birthday (Merton’s)

      Black Power

      “Black Revolution” (Merton)

      Bly, Robert

      Bohr, Niels

      Book of the Green Man, The (Johnson)

      Book of Hours

      Book of Job

      Book of the Poor in Spirit (Tauler)

      Boone, Andy

      Boone, Gerald

      Bouyer, Louis

      Bowles, Paul

      Bowling, Webb

      Browne, Russell

      Bubonic Plague

      “Buddhism and the Modern World” (Merton)

      Buddhist meditation

      Buddhist nun burning

      Bunting, Basil

      Bursitis, (Merton)

      Burton [Stone], Naomi

      Burtt, E. A.

      Cables to the Ace (Merton). See “Edifying Cables.”

      Callistus, Fr.

      Camara, Archbishop Helder

      Campbell, Will

      Camus, Albert: anti-eschatology of, commitment of, L’État de siège of, on ethic of quantity, L’Homme révolté, of, Renegade of, on revolt and resistance, study of, The Myth of Sisyphus by

      “Cancer Blues” (Merton)

      Capitulation (Amery)


      Caraco, Albert

      Cardenal, Ernesto

      Carlisle, Olga

      Carroll, Joe

      Castle (Kafka)

      Catholic Aggiornamento

      Catholic Church

      Catholic Digest

      Catholic poetry

      “Catholic renewal,”

      Catholic Worker

      Cecile de Bourbon, Princess

      Celan, Paul

      Center at Santa Barbara

      “Certain Proverbs Arise Out of Drems” (Merton)

      Chadwick, Nora

      Chaigne, Hervé

      Chakravarty, Amiya

      Chaque homme dans sa Nuit (Green)

      Char, René

      Chateaubriand, François Auguste René

      Chatham, Monsignor

      “Cherokee Park” (Merton)

      Chilean Mass, The

      China

      Chinese cultural revolution

      Chow, Napoleon

      Christ

      Christ of Faith

      Christian charisma

      Christianity

      Christmas (1966)

      Chrysogonus [Waddell], Fr.

      Church Against Itself, The (Ruether)

      Churchill, Winston

      Church of the monastery

      Church of the monastery altar

      Cistercian life

      Civil Rights bill (1964)

      Civil Rights movement

      Clamence, J. B.

      Cleaver, Eldridge

      Clement, Bro.

      Clergy retreat

      Collectanea

      Columban, Dom

      Commonweal

      “Communauté, de l’Arche” fast

      Compassion

      Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander (Merton)

      Conscience correspondence

      Consciousness

      Constellations

      Contemplative life

      Contradictions

      Conversion, (Merton)

      Cool Millennium, The (Syke)

      Corman, Cid

      Cornell, Julian

      Cornell, Tom

      Cosmology

      Council Decree on Religious

      Courier Journal

      Cousins, Norman

      Creativity and Tao (Chang Chung-Yuan)

      Cross Currents

      Cultural revolution (China)

      Curns, Eileen

      Cuthbert, Bro.

      Dana, Doris

      Daniel, Yuli

      Dante

      Darío, Ruben

      Davenport, Guy

      Davis, Fr. Charles

      “Day of a Stranger” (Merton)

      Death

      Decisions

      Deer watching

      De Gaulle, Charles

      Delta Council Speech of (Faulkner)

      De Lubac, Henri

      Denoncourt, Leo

      Derby Day (1967)

      Desert Fathers

      Desnos, Robert

      Detachment

      Dialogue on the Soul and Passions (John Solitary)

      Discipline

      Dishonesty

      Distraction

      Doherty, Frank C.

      Dommergues, Pierre

      Donnelly, Sally

      Dreams

      Dreams (Merton)

      Du Bay, William

      Duckett, Eleanor

      Dumont, P. Charles

      Duncan, Robert

      Dupont, E. I.

      Dylan, Bob

      “Eastbournc” poem (Montale)

      Easter Sunday (1966)

      Ecumenical movement

      “Edifying Cables” (Merton)

      Egyptian monasticism

      Eiseley, Loren

      Elegies

      Eliot, T.S.

      “Emergent Plan” (Chakravarty)

      English Philosophy Since 1900 (Warnock)

      Epstein, Brian

      Erotic love

      Esctasies

      Eshleman, Clayton

      ESP

      Essays, Speeches and Public Letters (Faulkner)

      Essays (Williams)

      L’État de siège (Camus)

      Eudes, [Bamberger] Fr.

      Evans, Illtud

      Evolution and Hope (Benzon)

      Fadiman, Clifton

      Faith

      Faith and Violence (Merton)

      Fall (Camus)

      Fasting

      Faulkner, William

      Ferry, Ping W.H.

      Feuillets d’Hypnos (Char)

      Finbar, Bro.

      “Fire and the Hearth, The” (Faulkner)

      Firmament of Time, The

      Fitzsimmons, Jim

      Flavian, [Burns] Fr.

      Flavian’s hermitage

      Floersh, Archbishop John

      Foi et Violence

      Ford Gladys

      Ford, Jack

      Ford, Josephine

      Foretich, Bro. Dunstan

      Francis, St.

      Frederic, Dom

      Freedgood, Anne

      Freedgood, Sy

      Freedom project (1964)

      Frost, Robert

      Futility

      Gabriel, Dom

      Gamow, George

      Garaudy, R.

      Gardiner, Margaret

      Garfunkel, Barry

      Geist, Peter

      General Chapter

      Gerdy, Bob

      “Gerontion” (Ransom)

      Gethsemani community: damage by Dom James to, dream about fire at, reflections on, sad state of

      Ghetto rioting

      Giles, Bro.

      Gillet, Dom Ignace

      Ginsberg, Allen

      God: Dom James’s image of, gratitude for M. to, hearing, justification doctrine and, light to know, as love, love for, Marxist Catholic dialogue on, Moslem vision of, offering oneself to, revelation of

      “God-is-dead” theology

      God’s “alien work,”

      God’s kingdom

      Gonzales, Conchita

      Gospel According to St. Matthew, The (film)

      Gospel for Atheists (Hromadka)

      Goss-Mayr, Hildegard

      Gould, A.

      Goulet, Denis

      Govinda, Laura

      Great Society

      Green, Julien

      Gregorio, Dom

      Grenier, Jean

      Griffin, Gregory

      Griffin, John H.

      Grimes, William

      Guardini, Romano

      Guilt

      Gullick, Etta

      Gullicks

      Hamilton, William

      Hammer, Carolyn

      Hammer, Victor

      Handelinan, Dr.

      Harper’s

      Harvesters, The (Pavese)

      Hausherr, Irenée

      “Hearing God

      Heidbrink, John

      Heisenberg, Werner

      Helsinki peace conference

      Hennacy, Ammon

      Hermitage (Flavian’s)

      Hermitage (Hilarion’s)

      Hermitage (Merton’s): Dom James’, visit to, gratitude for, Mass at, as model to others, prayer in the primitive state of, reflections on life in, vocation through. See also Merton, Thomas, Solitary life

      Hermit life

      Hernandez, Miguel

      Hesse, Hermann

      Hesychasm

      “Highway 61” (Dylan)

      Hilarion, Fr.

      Hippie movement

      Hiroshima

      Holloway, Jim

      Holy Week (1967)

      “Homage to Mistress Bradstreet” (Berryman)

      Homo Militans (Meerloo)

      Hoover, J. Edgar

      Hopelessness

      Hromadka, Josef Luk

      Hudson Review, The

      Hunt, John

      Hutchins, Robert

      Hymn for Vigils

      I Always Obey My Nurse (Merton)

      Idesbald, Fr.

      The Idiot (Dostoievsky)

      Ignace, Dom

      Ignorance

      Illusions

      Innocence

      Intelligible World The (Nishida)


      “Interior man,”

      Isaac of Stella

      Ishi

      “Ishi: A Meditation” (Merton)

      Israel

      Israel-Arab war

      Israeli Jews

      James, Dom [Fox]: advises Merton to break with M., anger with Merton by, censoring of mail by, complaints about mail censoring of, control of, damage to community by, decides to retire to hermitage, “experimental” foundations and, forbids Merton to contact M., forced isolation of Merton by, image of God by, Latin American foundation and, leaves for Rome, lectures Merton, letters, questionnaire of, letter to Merton from, Merton gives written commitment to, Merton’s reflections on, nature of, postcards to the community from, punishment given to Merton by, relationship between Merton and, ridicule by, treatment of Bro. Ralph by, visit to hermitage by

      Jerome

      Joachim, Dom

      Joan of Arc, St

      Job

      John Baptist, Fr.

      John, Fr. [Loftus]

      John the Solitary

      Johnson, Lyndon Baines

      Johnson, Ronald

      Jones, David

      Jones, Penn

      Jones, Rufus

      Journal of My Escape from the Nazis

      Journal to New Directions

      Jubilee (Merton)

      Jude, Bro.

      Judgment

      Junayd, Au’l Qasim

      Justification doctrine

      Kafka, Franz

      Katallagete

      Kavanaugh, Fr. James

      Kelly, Robert

      Kennedy, John F.

      Kilburn, David

      Kilian, Bro.

      King, Winston

      Klee, Paul

      Klu Klux Klan

      Koenig, Cardinal

      Kosygin, Aleksey

      Krolow, Karl

      K., Sister

      Kubyba starvation

      La Dehesa hermitage

      Laetare Sunday (1966)

      “La Sorgue” (Char)

      Latin American foundation

      Latin American poets

      Laughlin, James

      Lawler, Justus George

      Lax, Robert

      Leclercq, Dom Jean

      Lee, Laurie

      Lent (1966)

      Letters from Mississippi (ed. by Martinez)

      Letters to a Young Poet (Rilke)

      “Letter to a Wound” (Auden)

      Levi, Peter

      Lévi-Strauss, Claude

      Life article

      Light in August (Faulkner)

      Liscano, Juan

      Literature

      Little Brothers of Jesus

      Liturgy

      Loftus, Fr. John

      London Observer, The

      London Times

      Loneliness

      “Long Call Is Made Out of Wheels, A” (Merton)

     


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