'Why?'
'Well, I don't know why. Maybe -, 'Throw it out. Will you please do that for me?
I don't want it in the car.'
'I'll put it in back. And as soon as we see the cops, we'll get rid of it one
way or the other. I promise. Okay?'
'Oh, do whatever you want with it!' she shouted at him. 'You will anyway!'
Troubled, he threw the thing in back, where it landed on a pile of clothes. Its
corn-kernel eyes stared raptly at the T-Bird's dome light. He pulled out again,
gravel splurting from beneath the tyres.
'We'll give the body and everything that was in the suitcase to the cops,' he
promised. 'Then we'll be shut of it.'
Vicky didn't answer. She was looking at her hands. A mile further on, the
endless cornfields drew away from the road, showing farmhouses and outbuildings.
In one yard they saw dirty chickens pecking listlessly at the soil. There were
faded cola and chewing-gum ads on the roofs of barns. They passed a tall
billboard that said: ONLY JESUS SAVEs. They passed a cafe with a Conoco gas
island, but Burt decided to go on into the centre of town, if there was one. If
not, they could come back to the cafe. It only occurred to him after they had
passed it that the parking lot had been empty except for a dirty old pickup that
had looked like it was sitting on two flat tyres.
Vicky suddenly began to laugh, a high, giggling sound that struck Burt as being
dangerously close to hysteria.
'What's so funny?'
'The signs,' she said, gasping and hiccupping. 'Haven't you been reading them?
When they called this the Bible Belt, they sure weren't kidding. Oh Lordy,
there's another bunch.' Another burst of hysterical laughter escaped her, and
she clapped both hands over her mouth.
Each sign had only one word. They were leaning on whitewashed sticks that had
been implanted in the sandy shoulder, long ago by the looks; the whitewash was
flaked and faded. They were coming up at eighty-foot intervals and Burt read:
A...CLOUD...BY...DAY ...A...PILLAR...OF FIRE.. BY. . NIGHT
'They only forgot one thing,' Vicky said, still giggling helplessly.
'What?' Burt asked, frowning.
'Burma Shave.' She held a knuckled fist against her open mouth to keep in the
laughter, but her semi-hysterical giggles flowed around it like effervescent
ginger-ale bubbles.
'Vicky, are you all right?'
'I will be. Just as soon as we're a thousand miles away from here, in sunny
sinful California with the Rockies between us and Nebraska.'
Another group of signs came up and they read them silently.
TAKE. . . THIS. . . AND. . . EAT. . . SAITH. . . THE. LORD... GOD
Now why, Burt thought, should I immediately associate that indefinite pronoun
with corn? Isn't that what they say when they give you communion? It had been so
long since he had been to church that he really couldn't remember. He wouldn't
be surprised if they used cornbread for holy wafer around these parts. He opened
his mouth to tell Vicky that, and then thought better of it.
They breasted a gentle rise and there was Gatlin below them, all three blocks of
it, looking like a set from a movie about the Depression.
'There'll be a constable,' Burt said, and wondered why
the sight of that hick one-timetable town dozing in the sun should have brought
a lump of dread into his throat.
They passed a speed sign proclaiming that no more than thirty was now in order,
and another sign, rust-flecked, which said: YOU ARE NOW ENTERNG GATLIN, NICEST
LITTLE TOWN IN NEBRASKA - OR ANYWHERE ELSE! POP. 4531.
Dusty elms stood on both sides of the road, most of them diseased. They passed
the Gatlin Lumberyard and a 76 gas station, where the price signs swung slowly
in a hot noon breeze: REG 35.9 HI-TEST 38.9, and another which said: HI TRUCKERS
DIESEL FUEL AROUND BACK.
They crossed Elm Street, then Birch Street, and came up on the town square. The
houses lining the streets were plain wood with screened porches. Angular and
functional. The lawns were yellow and dispirited. Up ahead a mongrel dog walked
slowly out into the middle of Maple Street, stood looking at them for a moment,
then lay down in the road with its nose on its paws.
'Stop,' Vicky said. 'Stop right here.
Burt pulled obediently to the curb.
'Turn around. Let's take the body to Grand Island. That's not too far, is it?
Let's do that.'
'Vicky, what's wrong?'
'What do you mean, what's wrong?' she asked, her voice rising thinly. 'This town
is empty, Burt. There's nobody here but us. Can't you feel that?'
He had felt something, and still felt it. But -'It just seems that way,' he
said. 'But it sure is a one-hydrant town. Probably all up in the square, having
a bake sale or a bingo game.'
'There's no one here.' She said the words with a queer, strained emphasis.
'Didn't you see that 76 station back there?'
'Sure, by the lumberyard, so what?' His mind was elsewhere, listening to the
dull buzz of a cicada burrowing into one of the nearby elms. He could smell
corn, dusty roses, and fertilizer - of course. For the first time they were off
the turnpike and in a town. A town in a state he had never been in before
(although he had flown over it from time to time in United Airlines 747s) and
somehow it felt all wrong but all right. Somewhere up ahead there would be a
drugstore with a soda fountain, a movie house named the Bijou, a school named
after JFK.
'Burt, the prices said thirty-five-nine for regular and thirty-eight-nine for
high octane. Now how long has it been since anyone in this country paid those
prices?'
'At least four years,' he admitted. 'But, Vicky -'
'We're right in town, Burt, and there's not a car! Not one car!
'Grand Island is seventy miles away. It would look funny if we took him there.'
'I don't care.'
'Look, let's just drive up to the courthouse and -, 'No!'
There, damn it, there. Why our marriage is falling apart, in a nutshell. No I
won't. No sir. And furthermore, I'll hold my breath till I turn blue if you
don't let me have my way.
'Vicky,' he said.
'I want to get out of here, Burt.'
'Vicky, listen to me.'
'Turn around. Let's go.'
'Vicky, will you stop a minute?'
'I'll stop when we're driving the other way. Now let's go.'
'We have a dead child in the trunk of our car!' he roared at her, and took a
distinct pleasure at the way she flinched, the way her face crumbled. In a
slightly lower voice he went on:
'His throat was cut and he was shoved out into the road and Iran him over. Now
I'm going to drive up to the courthouse or whatever they have here, and I'm
going to report it. If you want to start walking towards the pike, go to it.
I'll pick you up. But don't you tell me to turn around and drive seventy miles
to Grand Island like we had nothing in the trunk but a bag of garbage. He
happens to be some mother's son, and I'm going to report it before whoever
killed him gets over the hills and far away.'
'You bastard,' she said, crying. 'What am I doing with you?'
'I don't know,' he said. '
I don't know any more. But the situation can be
remedied, Vicky.'
He pulled away from the curb. The dog lifted its head at the brief squeal of the
tyres and then lowered it to its paws again.
They drove the remaining block to the square. At the corner of Main and
Pleasant, Main Street split in two. There actually was a town square, a grassy
park with a bandstand in the middle. On the other end, where Main Street became
one again, there were two official-looking buildings. Burt could make out the
lettering on one: GATLIN
MUNICIPAL CENTER.
'That's it,' he said. Vicky said nothing.
Halfway up the square, Burt pulled over again. They were beside a lunch room,
the Gatlin Bar and Grill.
'Where are you going?' Vicky asked with alarm as he opened his door.
'To find out where everyone is. Sign in the window there says "Open".'
'You're not going to leave me here alone.'
'So come. Who's stopping you?'
She unlocked her door and stepped out as he crossed in front of the car. He saw
how pale her face was and felt an instant of pity. Hopeless pity.
'Do you hear it?' she asked as he joined her.
'Hear what?'
'The nothing. No cars. No people. No tractors. Nothing.' And then, from a block
over, they heard the high and joyous laughter of children.
'I hear kids,' he said. 'Don't you?'
She looked at him, troubled.
He opened the lunchroom door and stepped into dry, antiseptic heat. The floor
was dusty. The sheen on the chrome was dull. The wooden blades of the ceiling
fans stood still. Empty tables. Empty counter stools. But the mirror behind the
counter had been shattered and there was something else. . . in a moment he had
it. All the beer taps had been broken off. They lay along the counter like
bizarre party favours.
Vicky's voice was gay and near to breaking. 'Sure. Ask anybody. Pardon me, sir,
but could you tell me -'
'Oh, shut up.' But his voice was dull and without force. They were standing in a
bar of dusty sunlight that fell through the lunchroom's big plate-glass window
and again he had that feeling of being watched and he thought of the boy they
had in their trunk, and of the high laughter of children. A phrase came to him
for no reason, a legal-sounding phrase, and it began to repeat mystically in his
mind: Sight unseen. Sight unseen. Sight unseen.
His eyes travelled over the age-yellowed cards thumb-tacked up behind the
counter: CHEESEBURG 35c WORLD'S BEST JOE 10c STRAWBERRY RHUBARB PIE 25c TODAY'S
SPECIAL HAM & RED EYE GRAVY W/MASHED POT 80c.
How long since he had seen lunchroom prices like that?
Vicky had the answer. 'Look at this,' she said shrilly. She was pointing at the
calendar on the wall. 'They've been at that bean supper for twelve years, I
guess.' She uttered a grinding laugh.
He walked over. The picture showed two boys swimming in a pond while a cute
little dog carried off their clothes. Below the picture was the legend:
COMPLIMENTS OF GATLIN LUMBER & HARDWARE. You Breakum, We Fixum. The month on
view was August 1964.
'I don't understand,' he faltered, 'but I'm sure -,
'You're sure!' she cried hysterically. 'Sure, you're sure! That's part of your
trouble, Burt, you've spent your whole life being sure!'
He turned back to the door and she came after him.
'Where are you going?'
'To the Municipal Center.'
'Burt, why do you have to be so stubborn? You know something's wrong here. Can't
you just admit it?'
'I'm not being stubborn. I just want to get shut of what's in that trunk.'
They stepped out on to the sidewalk, and Burt was struck afresh with the town's
silence, and with the smell of fertilizer. Somehow you never thought of that
smell when you buttered an ear and salted it and bit in. Compliments of sun,
rain, all sorts of man-made phosphates, and a good healthy dose of cow shit. But
somehow this smell was different from the one he had grown up with in rural
upstate New York. You could say whatever you wanted to about organic fertilizer,
but there was something almost fragrant about it when the spreader was laying it
down in the fields. Not one of your great perfumes, God no, but when the
late-afternoon spring breeze would pick up and waft it over the freshly turned
fields, it was a smell with good associations. It meant winter was over for
good. It meant that school doors were going to bang closed in six weeks or so
and spill everyone out into summer. It was a smell tied irrevocably in his mind
with other aromas that were perfume: timothy grass, clover, fresh earth,
hollyhocks, dogwood.
But they must do something different out here, he thought. The smell was close
but not the same. There was a sickish-sweet undertone. Almost a death smell. As
a medical orderly in Vietnam, he had become well versed in that smell.
Vicky was sitting quietly in the car, holding the corn crucifix in her lap and
staring at it in a rapt way Burt didn't like.
'Put that thing down,' he said.
'No,' she said without looking up. 'You play your games and I'll play mine.'
He put the car in gear and drove up to the corner. A dead stoplight hung
overhead, swinging in a faint breeze. To the left was a neat white church. The
grass was cut. Neatly kept flowers grew beside the flagged path up to the door.
Burt pulled over.
'What are you doing?'
that looks as if there isn't ten years' dust On it. And look at the sermon
board.'
She looked. Neatly pegged white letters under glass read: THE POWER AND GRACE OF
HE WHO WALKS BEHIND THE ROWS. The date was 27 July 1976 - the Sunday before.
'He Who Walks Behind the Rows,' Burt said, turning off the ignition. 'One of the
nine thousand names of God only used in Nebraska, I guess. Coming?'
She didn't smile. 'I'm not going in with you.'
'Fine. Whatever you want.'
'I haven't been in a church since I left home and I don't want to be in this
church and I don't want to be in this town, Burt. I'm scared Out of my mind,
can't we just go?'
'I'll only be a minute.'
'I've got my keys, Burt. If you're not back in five minutes, I'll just drive
away and leave you here.'
'Now just wait a minute, lady.'
'That's what I'm going to do. Unless you want to assault me like a common mugger
and take my keys. I suppose you could do that.'
'But you don't think I will.'
'No.'
Her purse Was on the seat between them. He snatched it up. She screamed and
grabbed for the shoulder strap. He pulled it out of her reach. Not bothering to
dig, he simply turned the bag upside down and let everything fall out. Her
key-ring glittered amid tissues, cosmetics, change, old shopping lists. She
lunged for it but he beat her again and put the keys in his own pocket.
'You didn't have to do that,' she said, crying. 'Give them tome.'
'No,' he said, and gave her a hard, meaningless grin. 'No way.'
'Please, Burt! I'm scared!' She held her hand out, pleading now.
'You'd wait two minutes and dec
ide that was long enough.'
'I wouldn't -'
'And then you'd drive off laughing and saying to yourself, "That'll teach Burt
to cross me when I want something." Hasn't that pretty much been your motto
during our married life? That'll teach Burt to cross me?'
He got out of the car.
'Please, Burt?' she screamed, sliding across the seat. 'Listen. . .I know. . .
we'll drive out of town and call from a phone booth, okay? I've got all kinds of
change. I just. we can . . . don't leave me alone, Burt, don't leave me out here
alone!'
He slammed the door on her cry and then leaned against the side of the T-Bird
for a moment, thumbs against his closed eyes. She was pounding on the driver's
side window and calling his name. She was going to make a wonderful impression
when he finally found someone in authority to take charge of the kid's body. Oh
yes.
He turned and walked up the flagstone path to the church doors. Two or three
minutes, just a look around, and he would be back out. Probably the door wasn't
even unlocked.
But it pushed in easily on silent, well-oiled hinges (reverently oiled, he
thought, and that seemed funny for no really good reason) and he stepped into a
vestibule so cool it was almost chilly. It took his eyes a moment to adjust to
the dimness.
The first thing he noticed was a pile of wooden letters in the far corner, dusty
and jumbled indifferently together. He went to them, curious. They looked as old
and forgotten a~ the calendar in the bar and grill, unlike the rest of the
vestibule, which was dust-free and tidy. The letters were about two feet high,
obviously part of a set. He spread them out on the carpet - there were eighteen
of them - and shifted them around like anagrams. HURT BITE CRAG CHAP CS. Nope.
CRAP TARGET CHIBS HUC. That wasn't much good either. Except for the CH in CHIBS.
He quickly assembled the word CHURCH and was left looking at RAP TAGET CIBS.
Foolish. He was squatting here playing idiot games with a bunch of letters while
Vicky was going nuts out in the car. He started to get up, and then saw it. He
formed BAPTIST, leaving RAG EC - and by changing two letters he had GRACE. GRACE
BAPTIST CHURCH. The letters must have been out front. They had taken them down
and had thrown them indifferently in the corner, and the church had been painted
since then so that you couldn't even see where the letters had been.