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<<Yeah, all right, that too. It was great, and completely guilt free. I picked him up, remember? What more could a girl with my kind of responsibilities want? He was someone who was never going to try and interfere with my duties as the Lord of Ruin. Politics simply didn’t interest him.>>
<<A husband would be preferable to a casual lover. Someone who is always there for you.>>
<<You’re my husband.>>
<<You love me, and I love you; it could never be anything else since I gave birth to you. But you are still human, you need a human companion. Look at voidhawk captains, the perfect example of mental symbiosis.>>
<<I know. Maybe I’m just feeling jealous.>>
<<Of the Norfolk girl? Why? You know how many lovers Joshua has had.>>
<<Not of her.>> Ione looked at Joshua’s profile as he stared out of the living room’s big window. <<Of me. Me a year ago. The old story, you never know what you have until it’s gone.>>
<<He is right next to you. Reach out. I am sure he needs comfort as much as you.>>
<<He’s not there, not anymore. Not my original Joshua. Did you see that flying he did? Gaura’s memory of the Lagrange stunt nearly gave me a heart attack. I never realized just how good a captain he is. How could I ever take that away from him? He lives for space, for flying Lady Mac and what that can give him. Remember that last argument we had before he left for Lalonde? I think he was right. He’s achieved his métier. Flying is sequenced into his genes the way dictatorship is in mine. I can’t take that away from him any more than he could take you away from me.>>
<<I think you may be stretching the metaphor slightly.>>
<<Maybe. We were young, and we had fun, and it was lovely. I’ve got the memories.>>
<<He had fun. You are pregnant. He has responsibilities to the child.>>
<<Does he? I don’t think mothers require a big tough hunter gatherer to support them nowadays. And monogamy becomes progressively more difficult the longer we live. Geneering has done more to change the old till death do us part concept than any social radicalism.>>
<<Doesn’t your child deserve a loving environment?>>
<<My baby will have a loving environment. How can you even question that?>>
<<I do not question your intentions. I am simply pointing out the practicalities of the situation. At the moment you are unable to provide the child with a complete family.>>
<<That’s very reactionary.>>
<<I admit I am arguing on the extreme. I am not a fundamentalist, I simply wish to concentrate your thoughts. Everything else in your life has been planned and accounted for, the child has not. Conception is something you have done all for yourself. I do not wish it to become a mistake. I love you too much for that.>>
<<Father had other children.>>
<<Who were given to the Edenists so that they would be brought up in the greatest possible family environment. A whole world of family.>>
She almost laughed out loud. <<Imagine that, Saldanas became Edenists. We made the transition in the end. Does King Alastair know about that?>>
<<You are ducking the issue, Ione. One child of the Lord of Ruin is brought up with me as a parental, the heir. The others are not. As a parent you have a responsibility to their future.>>
<<Are you saying I’ve been irresponsible conceiving this child?>>
<<Only you can answer that. Were you depending on Joshua to be a stay-at-home father? Even then you must have known how unlikely that was.>>
<<God, all this argument just because Joshua looks moody.>>
<<I am sorry. I have upset you.>>
<<No. You’ve done what you wanted to do, made me think. For some of us it’s painful, especially if you’re like me and hadn’t really considered the consequences of your actions. It gets me all resentful and defensive. But I’ll do the best for my child.>>
<<I know you will, Ione.>>
She blushed at the tenderness of the mental tone. Then she leaned against Joshua. “I was worried while you were gone,” she said.
He took a sip of his Norfolk Tears. “You were lucky. I was scared shitless most of the time.”
“Yes. Lagrange Calvert.”
“Jesus, don’t you start.”
“If you didn’t want the publicity, you shouldn’t have sold Lady Mac’s sensor recordings to Collins.”
Ione squinted at him. “So I gather.”
“I meant: it’s hard to refuse that kind of money. Especially given my situation. The fee I got from Terrance Smith isn’t going to cover Lady Mac’s repairs. And I can’t see the Lalonde Development Company ever handing over the balance on our contract, given there isn’t a Lalonde left to develop anymore. But the money I got from Collins will cover everything, and leave me happily in the black.”
“Not forgetting the money you made on the Norfolk run.”
“Yeah, that too. But I didn’t want to break into that, it’s kind of like a reserve I’m holding back for when everything settles down again.”
“My hero optimist. Do you think the universe is going to settle down?”
Joshua didn’t like the way the conversation was progressing. He knew her well enough now; she was steering, hoping to angle obliquely into the subject she wanted to discuss. “Who knows? Are we going to finish up talking about Dominique?”
Ione raised her head from his shoulder to give him a puzzled glance. “No. What made you ask that?”
“Not sure. I thought you wanted to talk about us, and what happens after. Dominique and the Vasilkovsky line played a heavy part in my original plans from here on in.”
“There isn’t going to be an after, Joshua, not in the sense of returning to the kind of existence we had before. Knowing there’s an afterlife is going to tilt people’s perception on life for ever.”
“Yeah. It is pretty deep when you think about it.”
“That’s your considered in-depth analysis of the situation is it?” For a moment she thought she’d gone and wounded him. But he just gave a gaunt smile. Not angry.
“Yeah,” he said, quiet and serious. “It’s deep. I had three bloody narrow escapes inside two days on that Lalonde mission. If I’d made one mistake, Ione, just one, I’d be dead now. Only I wouldn’t, as we now know, I’d be trapped in the beyond. And if Shaun Wallace was telling the truth—and I suspect he was—then I’d be screaming silently to be let back in no matter what the cost or who had to pay it.”
“That’s horrible.”
“Yes. I sent Warlow to his death. I think I knew that even before he went out of the airlock. And now he’s out there, or in there—somewhere, with all the other souls. He might even be watching us now, begging to be given sensation. The trouble with that is, I do owe him.” Joshua put his head back on the silk cushions, staring up at the ceiling. “Do I owe him big enough for that, though? Jesus.”
“If he was your friend, he wouldn’t ask.”
“Maybe.”
Ione sat up and reached for the bottle to pour herself another measure of Norfolk Tears.
<<I’m going to ask him,>> she told Tranquillity.
<<Surely you are not about to ask for my blessing?>>
<<No. But I’d welcome your opinion.>>
<<Very well. I believe he has the necessary resources to complete the task; but then he always has. Whether he is the most desirable candidate still presents me with something of a dilemma. I acknowledge he is maturing; and he would not knowingly betray you. Impetuosity does weigh against him, however.>>
<<Yes. Yet I value that trait above all.>>
<<I am aware of this. I even accept it, when it applies to your first child and my future. But do you have the right to make that gamble when it concerns the Alchemist?>>
<<Maybe not. Although there might be a way around it. And I have simply got to do something.>> “Joshua?”
“Yeah. Sorry, didn’t mean to go all moody on you.”
“That’s all right. I have a little problem of my ow
n right now.”
“You know I’ll help if I can.”
“That’s the first part, I was going to ask you anyway. I’m not sure I can trust anyone else with this. I’m not even sure I can trust you.”
“This sounds interesting.”
She took a breath, committed now, and began: “Do you remember, about a year ago, a woman called Dr Alkad Mzu contacted you about a possible charter?”
He ran a quick check through his neural nanonics memory cells. “I got her. She said she was interested in going to the Garissa system. Some kind of memorial flight. It was pretty weird, and she never followed it up.”
“No, thank God. She asked over sixty captains about a similar charter.”
“Yes, Tranquillity and I believe it was an attempt to confuse the intelligence agency teams who keep her under observation.”
“Ah.” Instinct kicked in almost immediately, riding a wave of regret.
This was big-time, and major trouble. It almost made him happy they hadn’t leapt straight into bed, unlike the old days (a year ago, ha!).
For him it was odd, but he was simply too ambivalent about his own feelings. And he could see how she’d been thrown by his just-old-friends approach, too.
Sex would have been so easy; he just couldn’t bring himself to do it with someone he genuinely liked when it didn’t mean what it used to. That would have been too much like betrayal. I can’t do that to her. Which was a first.
Ione was giving him a cautious, inquiring look. In itself an offer.
I can stop it now if I want.
It was sometimes easy for him to forget that this blond twenty-year-old was technically an entire government, the repository of state, and interstellar, secrets. Secrets it didn’t always pay to know about; invariably the most fascinating kind.
“Go on,” Joshua said.
She smiled faintly in acknowledgement. “There are eight separate agencies with stations here; they have been watching Dr Mzu for nearly twenty-five years now.”
“Why?”
“They believe that just before Garissa was destroyed she designed some kind of doomsday device called the Alchemist. Nobody knows what it is, or what it does, only that the Garissan Department of Defence was pouring billions into a crash-development project to get it built. The CNIS have been investigating the case for over thirty years now, ever since they first heard rumours that it was being built.”
“I saw three men following her when she left Harkey’s Bar that night,” Joshua said, running a search and retrieval program through his neural nanonics. “Oh, hell, of course. The Omuta sanctions have been lifted; they were the ones who committed the Garissa genocide. You don’t think she’d … ?”
“She already has. This is not for general release, but last week Alkad Mzu escaped from Tranquillity.”
“Escaped?”
“Yes. She turned up here twenty-six years ago and took a job at the Laymil project. My father promised the Confederation Navy she would neither be allowed to leave nor pass on any technical information relating to the Alchemist to other governments or astroengineering conglomerates. It was an almost ideal solution; everyone knows Tranquillity has no expansionist ambitions, and at the same time she could be observed continually by the habitat personality. The only other alternative was to execute her immediately. My father and the then First Admiral both agreed the Confederation should not have access to a new kind of doomsday device; antimatter is quite bad enough. I continued that policy.”
“Until last week.”
“Yes. Unfortunately, she made total fools out of all of us.”
“I thought Tranquillity’s observation of the interior was perfect. How could she possibly get out without you knowing?”
“Your friend Meyer lifted her away clean. The Udat actually swallowed inside the habitat and took her on board. There was nothing we could do to stop him.”
“Jesus! I thought my Lagrange point stunt was risky.”
“Quite. Like I said, her escape leaves me with one hell of a problem.”
“She’s gone to fetch the Alchemist?”
“Hard to think of any other reason, especially given the timing. The only real puzzle about this is, if it exists, why hasn’t it been used already?”
“The sanctions. No …” He started to concentrate on the problem.
“There was only ever one navy squadron on blockade duties. A sneak raid would have a good chance of getting through. That’s if one ship was all it took to fire it at the planet.”
“Yes. The more we know about Dr Mzu, the less we understand the whole Alchemist situation. But I really don’t think her ultimate goal can be in any doubt.”
“Right. So she’s probably gone to collect it, and use it. The Udat has a fair payload capacity; and Meyer’s seen combat duty in his time, he can take a bit of heat.” Except … Joshua knew Meyer, a wily old sod, for sure, but there was one hell of a difference between the occasional mercenary contract, and annihilating an entire planet of unsuspecting innocents. Meyer wouldn’t do that, no matter how much money was offered.
Offhand, Joshua couldn’t think of many (or even any) independent trader captains who would. That kind of atrocity was purely the province of governments and lunatic fanatics.
“The use of it is what concerns me the most,” Ione said. “Once it’s been activated, governments will finally be able to see what it can actually do. From that, they’ll deduce the principles. It’ll be mass-produced, Joshua. We have to try and stop that. The Confederation has enough problems with antimatter, and now possession. We cannot allow another terror factor to be introduced.”
“We? Oh, Jesus.” He let his head flop back onto the cushions—if only there was a stone wall to thump his temple against instead. “Let me guess. You want me to chase after her. Right? Go up against every intelligence agency in the Confederation, not to mention the navy. Find her, tap her on the shoulder, and say nicely: All is forgiven, and the Lord of Ruin would really like you to come home, oh, and by the way, whatever your thirty-year plan—your obsession—was to screw up Omuta we’d like you to forget it as well. Jesus fucking Christ, Ione!”
She gave him an unflustered sideways glance. “Do you want to live in a universe where a super-doomsday weapon is available to every nutcase with a grudge?”
“Try not to weight your questions so much, you might drown.”
“The only chance we have, Joshua, is to bring her back here. That or kill her. Now who are you going to trust to do that? More to the point, who can I trust? There’s nobody, Joshua. Except you.”
“Walk into Harkey’s Bar any night of the week, there’s a hundred veterans of covert operations who’ll take your money and do exactly what you ask without a single question.”
“No, it has to be you. One, because I trust you, and I mean really trust you. Especially after what you did back at Lalonde. Two, you’ve got what it takes to do the job, the ship and the contacts in the industry necessary to trace her. Three, you’ve got the motivation.”
“Oh, yeah? You haven’t said how much you’ll pay me yet.”
“As much as you want, I am the national treasurer after all. That is, until young Marcus takes over from me. Did you want to bequeath our son this problem, Joshua?”
“Shit, Ione, that’s really—”
“Below the belt even for me? Sorry, Joshua, but it isn’t. We all have responsibilities. You’ve managed to duck out of yours for quite a while now. All I’m doing is reminding you of that.”
“Oh, great, now this is all my problem.”
“No one else in the galaxy can make it your problem, Joshua, only you. Like I said, all I’m doing is making the data available to you.”
“Nice cop-out. It’s me that’s going to be in at the shit end, not you.” When Joshua looked over at her he expected to see her usual defiant expression, the one she used when she was powering up to out-stubborn him. Instead all he saw was worry and a tinge of sorrow. On a face t
hat beautiful it was heartbreaking. “Look, anyway, there’s a Confederation-wide quarantine in effect, I can’t take Lady Mac off in pursuit even if I wanted to.”
“It only applies to civil starflight. Lady Macbeth would be re-registered as an official Tranquillity government starship.”
“Shit.” He smiled up at the ceiling, a very dry reflex. “Ah well, worth a try.”
“You’ll do it?”
“I’ll ask questions in the appropriate places, that’s all, Ione. I’m not into heroics.”
“You don’t need to be, I can help.”
“Sure.”
“I can,” she insisted, piqued. “For a start, I can issue you with some decent combat wasps.”
“Great, no heroics please, but take a thousand megatonnes’ worth of nukes with you just in case.”
“Joshua … I don’t want you to be vulnerable, that’s all. There will be a lot of people looking for Mzu, and none of them are the type to ask questions first.”
“Wonderful.”
“I can send some serjeants with you as well. They’ll be useful as bodyguards when you’re docked.”
He tried to think up an argument against that, but couldn’t. “Fine. Unsubtle, but fine.”
Ione grinned. She knew that tone.
“Everyone will just think they’re cosmoniks,” she said.
“Okay, that just leaves us with one minor concern.”
“Which is?”
“Where the hell do I start looking? I mean, Jesus; Mzu’s smart, she’s not going to fly straight to the Garissa system to pick up the Alchemist. She could be anywhere, Ione; there are over eight hundred and sixty inhabited star systems out there.”
“She went to the Narok system, I think. That’s where the Udat’s wormhole was aligned, anyway. It makes sense, Narok is Kenyan-ethnic; she may be contacting sympathisers.”
“How the hell do you know that? I thought only blackhawks and voidhawks could sense each other’s wormholes.”
“Our SD satellites have some pretty good sensors.”
She was lying; he knew it right away. What was worse than the lie, he thought, was the reason behind it. Because he couldn’t think of one, certainly not one that had to be kept from him, the only person she trusted to send on this job. She must be protecting something, a something more important than the Alchemist. Jesus. “You were right, you know that? The night we met at Dominique’s party, you said something to me. And you were right.”