She grabs my hand. “Shut the fuck up and just know that I’m here for you.”
The reporter has started to name the victims of the crash. “Lo, what the—“
“Nicholas Lanutti.”
My heart stops. I look up at the screen to see Damon’s picture. No. This can’t be real. I stare at the TV in a catatonic state. This isn’t happening. He can’t be gone. My choice to stay away from him or reach out to him was just ripped away from me. The hole in my heart is now gone, but that is because my heart has shattered. It is in a million pieces and there is no way I will ever be able to fix it.
I run to my room in a frantic state ripping the letter from under my pillow and shredding it into a million pieces. I can’t read it now knowing that whatever it says will haunt me. I collapse in the shards of paper scattering my floor.
I will never get the chance to see him again.
I can never yell at him,or fight with him.
I can never tell him that after all this time……
I love him, too.
Jessie,
If you’re reading this then maybe it means I still have a chance. I love you with every single inch of my soul. Not having you around is like never being able to take a full breath. You are my life, and without you it’s like I’m just going through the motions. I need you more than you could ever imagine and I pray for the day that you will look at me without betrayal in your eyes. It killed me to lie to you like I did, but I did it to keep you safe. I told you when we first met that I wouldn’t be good for you, but I also couldn’t stay away from you. It was like this invisible force was pulling me to you no matter how much I fought it.
I know that I have taken away any faith in people that I helped to restore but don’t shut down again. You are too beautiful inside to shut out the world. If everyone was able to see the girl that I did they would know how amazing you really are. I knew from the very first time I saw you, and you gave me that sideways bitchy look. I know that I don’t deserve your forgiveness, but I’m asking for it anyway. I’m asking for it because without you, I am a ghost of who I used to be. Please consider letting me back in, even if it is only as a friend. I need your smile, and your sarcastic personality back in my life. Most of all I just need you.
If you choose to wait to read this letter until further down the road, then I need to warn you. Something will happen to make you think I’m gone. Don’t believe it. There are so many things that you don’t understand and I can’t explain to you in a letter. I will always be around and waiting. Waiting for the day I see a shred of hope for us. Waiting to finally be whole again.
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Playing With Fire (Guarded Hearts Series #1)
Fighting To Survive (Guarded Hearts Series #3)
Surrender To Me (Surrender #1)
Breaking Free
About The Author
Alexis Noelle lives in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, with her husband, three kids, and dog. On top of starting a writing career, she is a full-time student and a full-time mom. She loves to spend her free time with her kids, although she has to hide the computer from them when she is writing!
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Table of Contents
Copyright
Table of Contents
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty One
Chapter Twenty Two
Chapter Twenty Three
Epilogue
About The Author