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    Nothing by Design

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      the sea-sprayed eagle too.

      No kinsman can console

      or protect a sorry soul.

      In fact, a city dweller

      who revels and swills wine

      far from travel’s perils,

      barely could believe

      how often, wearily,

      I weathered the sea paths.

      The shadows of night deepened,

      snow fell from the north,

      and on the frost-bound earth

      hail fell like the coldest grain.

      For all that, my heart’s thoughts

      pound now with the salt

      wave’s surging; on high seas

      my spirit urges me

      forward, to seek far

      from here a foreign land.

      The truth is that no man—

      however generous

      in gifts, however bold

      in youth, however brave,

      however loyally

      his own lord may attend him—

      is ever wholly free

      in his seafaring from worry

      at what is the Lord’s will.

      No, it is not for him,

      the harp’s song, nor the rings

      exchanged, nor pleasure in women,

      nor any worldly glory,

      nothing but welling waves;

      the longing of seagoing

      man is what he has.

      Groves break into blossom,

      the towns and fields grow fair

      and the world once more is new:

      all of this spurs on

      the man whose mind and spirit

      are eager for the journey,

      who yearns to steer his course

      far across the sea.

      Mournfully the cuckoo’s

      voice cries out in warning,

      the harbinger of summer

      bitterly foretells

      in song the soul’s distress.

      To the wealthy warrior

      blessed with worldly fortune,

      this is all unknown—

      what we face who follow

      the vast and alien way.

      And now my thought roams far

      beyond my heart; my mind

      flows out to the water,

      soars above the whale’s path

      to the wide world’s corners

      and returns with keen desire;

      the lone bird, flying, shrieks

      and leads the willing soul

      to the whale road, and over

      the tumbling of the waves.

      The joys of the Lord can kindle

      more in me than dead

      and fleeting life on land.

      I do not believe the riches

      of this world will last forever.

      Always, without fail,

      of three things one will turn

      uncertain for a man

      before his fatal hour:

      sickness, age, or the sword

      will rip the life right out

      of the doomed and done for.

      So it is for every man:

      the best praise will come after,

      from people who outlive him;

      today, then, he must toil

      against enemies and the Devil;

      undaunted he must dare

      so that sons of men extol him,

      that in time to come his fame

      endures amid the angels,

      and his glory goes on, ceaseless,

      among the celestial hosts.

      The days are dwindling now

      of the kingdoms of this earth;

      there are no kings or Caesars

      as before, and no gold givers

      as once, when men of valor

      performed great deeds and lived

      majestically among

      themselves in high renown.

      Their delights too are dead.

      The weakest hold the world

      in their hands, and wear it out

      with labor, while all splendor,

      like the earth, grows older;

      its noble aspect withers

      as man does everywhere.

      Age creeps up on him,

      his face grows pale; his head,

      gray-haired, bewails old friends,

      sons of princes, already

      given to the earth.

      As his body fails,

      life leaks away, he tastes

      sweetness in things no more,

      nor feels pain, nor can move

      his hand, nor use his mind.

      When a kinsman dies, he wants

      to strew the grave with gold,

      or bury with the dead

      treasures he amassed.

      But no, it cannot be;

      gold once hid and hoarded

      in life is no good now

      for the soul full of sin

      before the force of God.

      Terrible and great

      is the Lord, and the very world

      turns from Him in awe.

      He made the firm foundations,

      the earth’s face and the heavens.

      Foolish is he who does not fear

      his Lord; death comes to him

      though he is unprepared.

      Blessed is he who lives in all

      humility; what comes to him

      in Heaven is forgiveness.

      God gave to him that spirit

      to bow to all His power.

      A man must steer his passions,

      be strong in staying steady;

      keep promises, be pure.

      He must be wise and fair

      with foes as much as friends,

      well-tempered in himself.

      He dreads to see a dear one

      engulfed in flames, yet patience

      tells him to trust the sway

      of Fate, and that God’s might

      is greater than we know.

      Let us ponder where our true

      home is, and how to reach it.

      Let us labor to gain entry

      into the eternal,

      to find the blessedness

      of belonging to the Lord

      joyfully on high.

      Thanks be to God who loved us,

      the endless Father, the Prince

      of Glory forever. Amen.

      VII

      LOST ORIGINALS

      VOICE OF AMERICA

      I sit at my desk

      My life is grotesque.

      —JOSEPH BRODSKY

      1. Open to the Public

      Hard labor? But you’d claim it wasn’t hard.

      You sat in your log cabin, ably sketching

      another cabin, and some chickens scratching

      out their appointed living in the yard.

      A farmhand reading poems by kerosene,

      you plotted carefully the coup d’état

      of yourself, and boiled another cup of tea;

      a well-turned sentence made you feel serene.

      I sit in Russia’s National Library,

      rifling through folders of your private stuff.

      They came easily—or not easily enough,

      illiterate as I am in the very

      language which to you was the first god.

      Your faintly ruled, cheap spiral notebooks hatched

      fresh images, new chickens came unlatched

      from their coop, and from a corner, a man’s head—

      a twenty-something profile. That was yours.

      You doodled, and you knew your keepers well.

      You studied English, though you couldn’t spell;

      you daydreamed in unguarded metaphors.

      Well, here’s one for you, touching and grotesque.

      After you died, a citizen of the States,

      they shipped some furniture of yours in crates

      to Petersburg: your velvet couch, your desk—

      actually two of them—from your South Hadley

      room and a half. Or so your house had seemed,

      those maple floors as slippery as in th
    e dreamed

      Leningrad apartment; brightly, sadly,

      you’d write your parents, who had watched you jammed

      into a taxi, snapped in a photograph,

      and lost forever. Your desk sent here? I’d laugh,

      if it were funny, studying a framed

      Madonna and child, a cat, a Mandelstam,

      an Auden; a pocket-sized address book, still

      open to the last call; your manual

      typewriter, outdated as a ham

      radio no one again can operate.

      The last icon is you. Incredible.

      That’s you in tuxedo tails, with your Nobel,

      in a video that loops as if your fate

      had always been a hero’s. Applause and cheers

      repeat on the TV screen within a house

      that once was your old friend Akhmatova’s:

      hero without a poem for years and years.

      2. Tears at the Fountain House

      Out in the garden, where for years her spies

      chain-smoked while she sat indoors and nearly starved,

      an art show. Wine and cheese are being served.

      Today’s the opening, and a viewer’s eyes

      are free to interpret anyhow, it appears.

      Hung as if on cobwebs, or on memories

      of traumas left unspoken, from the trees

      giant water balloons droop like the tears

      in your poetry that welled and wouldn’t land.

      (Your mother told you weeping was for grave

      occasions: obedient, you were brave.)

      Don’t touch the tears. I brush one with my hand,

      stroll about the grounds, and though I doubt

      you’d love the installation, you’d round up

      some artsy types—high-booted girls and hip

      boyfriends in ripped jeans—and ask them out

      to a smoky bar nearby, if you were here.

      But you never will be. Never came back to grill

      the next generation, shame them, crush their will—

      or that’s how your taunts and teasing, your severe

      quizzing came off, exiled to the warm

      and fuzzy American classroom. Coeds cried.

      You shrugged and tried again: identified

      lines where native speakers missed the poem.

      “Ms. Salter? Andrew Marvell. Tell the class.”

      I heard my heart pound loudly in my head.

      Tell them what? Declaim “An Horatian Ode

      upon Cromwell’s Return …” perhaps? What an ass

      I was—or maybe you were; I wasn’t sure.

      Now it occurs to me: the poem of his

      to recite into these flower beds would be less

      “The Garden” than the twining “Eyes and Tears,”

      where “all the jewels which we prize,” he wrote,

      “melt in these pendants of the eyes”; and “happy they

      whom grief doth bless, that weep the more, and see

      the less.” Lovely; but the tears stayed in the throat,

      or were meted out in rhyming drops of ink.

      Lament was Russian, roughly; in the English

      of Marvell, Hardy, Frost, you got your wish

      for irony’s containments. You could think.

      3. Border Crossing

      You had them in your head—Pushkin, Gogol,

      Dostoevsky. Best memory I ever met.

      Nobody learns by rote now; quotes come out

      from under the patchwork overcoat of Google—

      a development you’d have found unnerving,

      at least until you found some figure for it.

      In Venice, you wrote, “a gigantic china teaset”

      was heard vibrating when church bells were serving

      “on a silver tray” their peals to the “pearl-gray sky.”

      Your mind, a gondola on the lagoon

      of time, skimmed the reflections in your own

      outlandish, errant, metaphysical eye,

      as if everything in the world could be amassed

      on a single page in white with words in black,

      although a tear might drop to it, a “throwback,

      a tribute of the future to the past.”

      Somebody boarded up, because they could,

      the door from your parents’ room to yours. Or yours

      to your parents’; but to me it hardly matters:

      the living border crossing to the dead

      is what I’m after. I stepped onto a plane

      because I could, and joined your friend who’d taken

      snapshots of your departure; though I’m shaken

      to be standing in their one room—mute and plain,

      erased of bed and table, of evidence

      of birthday parties, songs at the piano,

      piled‑up cups and saucers, the radio

      from which state “drivel” flowed like water once—

      I don’t need much, only to turn and walk

      down warped linoleum in the communal hall

      where the black phone still cowers on the wall,

      to see you—overheard—pick up and talk.

      4. Watermark

      The Foundation’s conference room. Tea and coffee,

      biscuits, sugar, brisk handshakes, respect,

      and quick interpreters for the select

      Americans invited to a country

      some of us know little of. Academician

      Likhachev, they tell us, would have liked

      to meet us all. Your fellowships, in fact,

      our conversations here, were his late mission,

      he whose life would closely coincide

      with the twentieth century; who bore the stamp

      of public servant, scholar, and of camp

      prisoner. A miracle he hadn’t died

      at Solovki, where he heard three hundred gunned

      down as he hid, three hundred on the dot—

      he was to be among them, but was not,

      which meant that someone else…The thought-of sound

      reverberates on walls washed with the sun.

      This was his radio. Mid-century relic,

      midsized, ordinary, somehow orphic.

      Likhachev marked it—see the painted line

      dripping down the tuner? That’s the Voice

      of America. Others marked the BBC.

      This was a sign we wanted you to see…

      The hardened teardrop holds its frequency.

      ENGLISH COUNTRY DOLLHOUSE

      Which scholar among the dolls

      that stepped out from this room

      (in volume, like one volume

      of the O.E.D.)

      needed spectacles?

      A wire-rimmed, folded pair—

      like a glossy insect

      crushable in one swat—

      lies lenses-up, not seeing

      but wanting to be seen

      as a letter, a giant B

      for Book, upon a tiny,

      leather-bound, gilt-edged tome

      in which the words must be

      unthinkably minute.

      Are there really words in there?

      The book, after all, is shut.

      If I could step through the glass

      of the museum case,

      I’d shrink myself to fit

      in that empty chair and put

      those glasses on—whereby

      I’d know whatever it was

      I needed to magnify.

      CRUSOE’S FOOTPRINT

      At last he lays his head flat upon the ground, close to my foot, and sets my other foot upon his head, as he had done before; and after this made all the signs to me of subjection, servitude, and submission imaginable, to let me know how he would serve me so long as he lived.

      —DANIEL DEFOE, Robinson Crusoe

      The poet who writes “free” verse is like Robinson Crusoe on his desert island: he must do all his cooking, laundry and darning for himself.

      —W. H. AUDEN


      And Elizabeth Bishop did it, in her “Crusoe

      in England”: though she needn’t have scanned a foot

      in writing it, every step was itself alone

      and demanded whatever served. Sometimes she cast

      her thought in sestinas; found at her typewriter keys

      to set free memories otherwise confined,

      or labored within a villanelle to find

      lost houses, continents, like the geometer Crusoe,

      whose world to map had no scale and no keys;

      who saw the surf wash in, efface his foot-

      print like a sandpiper’s. The melted cast-

      les of sand we’ve made are in the end all one:

      what company we have when we feel alone!

      A solitary stroll on the beach to find

      ourselves rewards us, largely due to the cast

      supporting us from the wings, the backstage crew so

      handy, the believable props, and the foot-

      lights revealing the beaming spectators: keys

      to our happiness, in which the fashionable quais

      Auden wrote of slosh with talk about us alone.

      We’re not, in fact, entirely sorry for the foot-

      note-in-mouth disease of the critics who find

      what was never there in two-dimensional Crusoe.

      Surely he would have liked to attend the cast-

      away party that followed him—the downcast,

      austere “Robinson” poems of Weldon Kees

      the suicide, or Émile by that crank Rousseau,

      who thought he’d bring up a boy on Defoe alone.

      Swiss Family Robinson? There: we’ve defined

      the branching tree-house of writing. Friday’s foot

      is at his master’s head, and at the poet’s foot

      the subject’s breathing: admittedly these are caste

      systems, and guilty as charged, we the jury find.

      No man is an island; we’re more like the Florida Keys—

      a stanza of lines that each began alone.

     


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