“You don’t need to humiliate me to have sex with me. I’m yours already.”
“Do as I say. I don’t want any arguments.”
I let my body fall on the loveseat, still trying to grasp what exactly I did to make him crazy-jealous other than arriving home a couple of hours after him. The sun is still up for God’s sake.
“Legs.” He indicates the position he wants me to get into and slides out of his pants and boxers.
“Don’t do it. Please, don’t punish me with sex. I enjoy our sex life, but if you punish me with it, all that will end. It’ll become a price to pay, not a reward to earn, and I don’t want that.” A loud sob punctuates my sentence; a tear rolls down my cheek.
He drops on his knees in front of me, taking my face into his hands. His eyes study me intensely as more tears wet my cheeks as he unzips my dress and tugs it down.
“I’m not punishing you. If I wanted to punish you for the stress you caused me today, I’d put you out the door and out of my life for good. I just want you to understand that I own you. No one else. Not another man, not your friend Shelly, not even yourself. You’re mine and mine alone to take care of and take advantage of. If you’re sure it’s crystal clear to you, you can go ahead and put on your clothes.”
I don’t belong to myself? When has his possessiveness passed the level of madness? Has he always been this way, and only now I’m realizing the truth? A faint voice is echoing in my mind, whispering to me that it’s my fault it’s come to this level. I allowed Matt to use me to his heart’s content. I’ve never voiced the arguments running wild in my head and always encouraged him to exploit and abuse me. Me. Me. Me.
Yes, he’s always had a tendency toward being territorial, but it’s mostly, if not all, my fault that he’s gone beyond insane.
However, old habits are hard to break, like bowing to his wishes and going along with his needs, downplaying my own hurt emotions. Why can’t I for once care about what I want? I want him to hug me and shout out loud his love for me. Even that simple yearning is hard for me to voice.
All I can mouth is, “Matt,” mixed with sobs, but he sees what I need and leans down to brush my lips with his.
“I love you so much, Evie. I’d take a bullet for you. I’d kill for you. But I can’t function without you. I can’t fucking live if you’re gone.”
I feel brave enough to wrap my hands around his neck and pull him into a deeper kiss, crying for our sick, fucked-up love. My mind is as much messed up as his for loving him back, despite the pain he’s throwing at me.
On the other hand, not loving him isn’t an option. He’s the only man who can get my heart beating faster with just the sight of him. I wake up every day yearning for him, count the minutes until he comes back to me from work, and give myself to him in return for deep, throbbing, toe-curling pleasures only he can give me. I cry for the happiness we both could have relished, if he were a little less rigid and a whole lot more trusting.
“Evie, baby. I don’t want you to cry. I want to make you smile and happy all the time.”
“I can’t if you keep on treating me like I’m cheating on you because I will never, ever do that. You’re the only man I’ve ever loved and desired. The only one.”
“Jesus, Evie. Come here.” He scoops me up, settling on the loveseat, and puts me on his lap, allowing me to straddle him. His eyes are glinting with ‘forgive me’s that his mouth never speaks out, but I accept his silent apology anyway and give him my love with tender kisses and greedy touches. He holds his cock and eases into me with a gentle stroke. For the first time in weeks, we don’t fuck. We make love.
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Liv Bennett lives in California with her husband and daughter. Reading and writing erotic romance are her favorite forms of relaxation, in addition to long walks and yoga. She's a social drinker of coffee, but a serious tea addict.
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Books by Liv Bennett
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An Illicit Pursuit (Pat & Zachary)
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Pursuit Series (Taylor & Adam)
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Pleasure Extraordinaire Series (Lindsay)
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Blinding Love Series
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Fatal Seduction Series
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Pleasure Extraordinaire Series (Zane)
Forget Me Not
ZANE (Pleasure Extraordinaire: Part 2)
CH 1 - Sugar and Spice and Everything Nice
CH 2 - The Dread
CH 3 - JULIE
CH 4 - JULIE
CH 5 - The wrong ring
CH 6 - JULIE
CH 7 - Old flame
CH 8 - JULIE
CH 9 - The real scandal
CH 10 - The Payoff
CH 11 – The Breakup
CH 12 - The Temptation
CH 13 - The Loss
CH 14 - The Lover Gone
CH 15 - The Goodbye
CH 16 - The Miracle
CH 17 - The Urgent Need
CH 18 - The Father
CH 20 - The Meeting
CH 21 - The preparation
CH 22 - The Disappointment
CH 23 - The Embarrassing Uncle
CH 24 - The First Time
CH 25 - JULIE
CH 26 - JULIE
CH 27 - JULIE
CH 28 - JULIE
CH 29 - JULIE
CH 30 - JULIE
EPILOGUE
BLINDING LOVE by Liv Bennett
CH 1
CH 2
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