Nobody paid him any heed as he moved silent and unseen amongst them. Any that happened to catch his eye, simply bowed their shaven heads until their chins were resting on their chests and waited patiently until he passed. They were his children; the vagrants and outcasts, the crazy ones, those cast aside by the fable and fallacy of the old world. They had come to him of their own accord and made him their spokesperson without prompt, and as such, he had pledged to do their bidding. As a new order, they would feast on the flesh of the old tyrants and pick their teeth with the bones that were left.
Eventually, the corridor led him to a thin staircase which he walked down confidently. Back in confines of his own chamber in the basement, Tidus shut the door and lit a candle. This far down, the darkness lay thick against the fabric of the building, filling the corners like freshly poured latex. He quickly removed his clothing, picked up the sharp, ornate blade from the small table against the wall, and stepped into the centre of the room, where some markings had been daubed in black paint on the floor.
The cold of the concrete bit at his back as he lay down, stretching his arms and legs to either side of him in a star shape. Then, one by one, he relaxed every muscle in his body, starting with the toes on his feet and finishing with his face.
“Vincit qui se vincit. He conquers who conquers himself,” he muttered, as he drew the blade sharply across his stomach, pushing down hard enough to ensure that it sliced all the way through the skin.
His abdomen began to throb immediately, burning bright like fire. He closed his eyes, sucking in another deep breath. This time, as he blew out slowly through his mouth, he concentrated on his heart rate, slowing it in time with the palpitations of the cut. The laceration was a big one—he could tell by the amount of blood spilling down his sides—but he had needed it to be. In order to allow him the clarity to channel the energy into firm decipherable communication, he needed to be in a totally submissive state; a complete detachment from his human form. Pain was his guide to that place, the key to the sacred plane. Remnants of the light from the candle pumped behind his eyelids. Thoughts crowded in like people at the scene of an accident, pressing in on all sides, visions of faces, inexplicable beings, but he ignored them, pushing from the centre, clearing the layers one at a time, zoning in on the pain until there was only it and nothing else; nothing but the white flames of the earth and the steady pulse that emanated from the core of his body and the centre of everything else.
Soon the visions would come. He could feel them swirling in the ground beneath him, pressing into the skin of concrete beneath his back, waiting until the right time to show their faces. He already knew that the blight was coming, and now, he needed to be ready.
Epilogue
The motorway had given rise to several small towns along the route, but the stopovers had been brief and only out of necessity. Everywhere they went, from one encampment to the next, the atmosphere was always the same: drawn, battle-weary faces from the few survivors that remained told stories of the horrors, hardship, and famine of the new world.
“There it is,” Tanner said, gesturing to the skyline. He now walked with a slight stoop and one arm hung limply at his side.
Juliana stopped to wipe the film of rain from her forehead, squinting her eyes against the deluge. Ahead of them lay the outline of the city known to all as the Refuge.
“I hope this is what you say it is,” she said, looking over the grey outline grimly. From where she was stood now, the entire place looked as dead as a graveyard. No lights or fires could be seen anywhere amongst the shadows. “Because it don’t look like much.”
Tanner shrugged. “Can’t be any worse than where we’ve just come from.”
Juliana said nothing as she glanced behind at Doyle who was still pushing the barrow, his head down, steps slow and methodical. He had said little since the prison. On arrival, it had taken all that she could muster even to set a foot inside, but once she had, the feelings of horror soon gave way to something which felt strangely familiar. The three of them had clung together to search through the cells, checking all of the partly eaten and decomposing bodies that they came across. A few of the faces she had recognised, but Doyle must have known them all, and he had been quiet throughout. At the end, there had been no sign of Anabelle, or Sarah, or anybody else of worth for that matter—not alive anyway. The place was a tomb; a mausoleum drenched in blood and shrouded in death, and they had left quickly.
“Ready?” she said to Doyle as he pulled up next to them both and dropped the handles of the barrow with a grunt.
The big lad flashed tired eyes with a look that showed a complete lack of care. He nodded, but remained silent, steadily shaking the aches from his hands.
“Right,” she said with a defiant roll of the shoulders, and without looking back, she strode on in the direction of the Refuge.
The End
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Thank you for reading The Human Zoo series. I do hope you’ve enjoyed it so far.
Kolin