He cocked his head. “Secrets?”
“You know, just everyday secrets, like don’t tell Mama stuff.”
“That makes sense,” he said.
I don’t know what made me want to tell Detective Kennedy this, maybe it was because Daddy was dead and I figured his secrets died with him, or maybe it was because Daddy never told me this secret, I figured it out myself, or maybe, plain and simple, I felt like I owed him something since he didn’t send me to jail, but I said, “Oliver Lane wasn’t Daddy’s real name.”
Detective Kennedy sat back, wiped his sandy hands on his swim trunks, and stared at me in disbelief. “What?”
“Do you remember the name?”
“Peter Ares,” I said.
“Well, I’ll be,” he said. “Where is this shoe box now?”
“Under my bed.” Then I smiled, coyly, and said, “I’ll have to show you sometime.”
Because even I must admit, without truth behind them, words are just a bunch of letters.
Acknowledgments
I am forever grateful to the novelist Ann Hood for her unwavering support, mentorship, and especially her encouragement. Fifty pages of this novel were initially workshopped in November of 2011 at Spannocchia, a sustainable farm in Tuscany, Italy, where Ann holds an amazing writing conference, and it was she who encouraged me to complete it. Thanks to the Wildacres Writing Workshop and the Tin House Summer Writers Workshop. Special thanks to the Bread Loaf Writers’ Conference for its continual dedication to giving established and aspiring writers alike the time, space, and context in which to live their passions and dreams, and to the University of Washington’s MFA in creative writing program for not only being stellar, but also for sticking with me while I juggled my educational requirements with the completion of this novel. I am grateful to all the professors and workshop leaders I’ve worked with over the years, including David Bosworth, Stacey D’Erasmo, Lynn Freed, Jane Hamilton, Ursula Hegi, Anne LeClaire, Joyce Maynard, Whitney Otto, Ron Rash, Helen Schulman, Karen Shepard, David Shields, Maya Sonenberg, Helena Maria Viramontes, and Shawn Wong. So many people had a hand in the development of this novel. Initial input from the members of my small, but so large, North Carolina writing group—Kristin Sherman, Toccoa Switzer, and Ann Tsoa—was invaluable, as were the late-night “craft” talks with them and conference roomies Ari Gonzalez Asendorf and Margaret Burton, and the healing and manifestation powers of my dear friend Roma Gutierrez. Thanks to my fellow MFA candidates Tina Cachules, Mickie Centrone, Morgayne O’Neill, Matt Perez, Tyler Scowcroft, Rachel Shields, and Dave Thomas for their input on portions of this novel during workshop. I owe so much to my husband, David. I can’t imagine any partner being more supportive, understanding, and loving of another during the many “absent” hours associated with the writing process. Thanks also to my daughter, Madi, for continually bringing love and light into my life. As a single mom for many years, it often felt like it was just she and I against the world. And heartfelt thanks to my publicist, William Heus; my marketer, Judy Jacoby; my agent, Mitchell Waters, my biggest cheerleader and by far the best agent in the entire world; and my editor, Jenny Jackson, not only for her editorial wisdom and tireless commitment to making this book the best it could be but also for her seeming innate ability to make the editorial process engaging, enriching, and enjoyable.
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