Miss Perfect
If she wants to leave
I can only let her
What can I do to fight it
But only say
Whatever
She's my angel
And I know that I'm afraid
But I would beg her to stay if I could
Her face is such beauty
Such perfection
I stare til I'm almost blind
But all of my affection
May not be doin me
Any good
And I know I can't hold on
Like I should
She's miss perfect
Perfect for me in every way
But I'm so concerned
That I no longer hear her say
She wants me anymore
And I don't know what for
I'm afraid
Usually when I'm lonely
She has the greatest timing
Telling me she loves me
She always reminds me
Of everything I could ever want
Or need
But now, oh now
She's holding out
And I can't figure what went wrong
All the doubts are comin back
And stayin so strong
And it's hard to help it
And maybe it's selfish
But I've been wondering so long
If everything she needs is right here with me
She's miss perfect
Perfect for me in every way
But I'm so concerned
That I no longer hear her say
She wants me anymore
And I don't know what for
I'm afraid
Every time I say her name
I feel like I've found Heaven
And I don't want that to change
But if she's unhappy
I have to let her go
And I know
She's miss perfect
Perfect for me in every way
But I'm so concerned
That I no longer hear her say
She wants me anymore
And I don't know what for
I'm afraid
She's leavin again
Afraid afraid afraid
She won't want me and then
I will have to move on
And be alone
Oh, Miss Perfect
Doesn't think I'm worth it
I am maybe now... on my own
Never
You said it all
With what you said
Though every message
Gets re-read
It's made me so tired now
I want to go to bed
If I could feel alive inside
I wouldn't be so dead
Every time I talk to you
I feel an aching soul and an aching head
I should give it up
I should just move on
I shouldn't listen to you
That's how I do wrong
You know I want you back
Though I don't know why
I'm so sick of games
Too tired to cry
Every empty invitation
Every meaningless contemplation
Every seemingly long conversation
Is a new end to me
You say I'm gonna come your way
I have so much I want to say
It feels like years since I've seen you
Though it's just been days
I gain some hope, I go astray
I lie awake and pray to be saved
From all this does and all this takes
Every time we talk, my heart breaks
I shouldn't text
I shouldn't call
I shouldn't answer
You at all
But I'm afraid
I'm ashamed
I've realized mistakes
And I feel like
None of the past matters so much
As how I still feel
My brain says to let you go
But my heart is screaming for that rush
That I still get
When we touch
And that that's all that's real
I can forgive you for the other guy
I can almost let go of what I took for lies
I think I could still get lost
In your eyes
But I know I can't do any of that
So goodbye
Because you made it plain
And you made it clear
Any ounce of love you had disappeared
I think maybe you want to keep me around
So you know someone wants you
Though he's a puppet; you love it,
But can't let go to let your guard down
If there really existed some little chance
I'd give in and forget all circumstance
I'd once again let you be my everything
I could still ask you to marry me
But that's gone
It's all wrong
You've moved on
And you're not wasting away
Like I am
You're waiting for
Any other man
I want no one else
Yet I can't have you
Your voice hurts as much as your view
I stalk your wall
You stalk mine, too
Every picture is some kind of memory
An image painted in misery
I used to believe maybe
There was a meant to be
And now all I have is a useless heart
Empty and broken, torn all apart
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to
Mourn what we are
And look back
So far back
To what we were and what
We should have been
You were all it took to lure me in
I really did love you
The way I said, the way I meant
But so much inched its way in
Until we're nothing more
Than strangers with secret intent
But for forever and a day
I probably won't let go
I know never
Is too long not to be together
And it's painful more than you know
Because I'm the one that
Knew never before
As in I never meant
To let you walk out the door
And I never said never
When you asked me back
I just didn't answer
And wanted time to face some facts
Now never means to not have you
But to spend each day and night
Wanting to
And thinking about how I have to hold on
Because I can't make myself try
So never as you will
Is how I feel
At least one of us does
So maybe time won't heal
I never want to really say goodbye
But you'll never think of me like
I think of you
And I know why
You never let yourself really think
That I could ever be your anything
Not since you decided you'd never do
Anymore to make me want you
So never say you need me again
You'll never want my heart, my hand, or me as your friend
Just know that never
Means more to me
It means never be hap
py, never free
So I'll never really set you free
Never... free
All You Ever Did Was Pretend
All you ever did was pretend
To be a friend, and in the end,
You just had to spite me
You did it again and again,
Living with no way to begin again
When you walked away, you washed away
Every second of everything of some kind of sentiment,
And it’s frightening
That there is now, once more, someone living for
All of your shallow, false innocence
I can’t forget, after all of this,
Your smile, your playing at love all the while
While I was wishing you were as into me
As I ever was, so in love, so into you, so getting to
Hoping for something more and something
Worth waiting for,
But all the force you poured on me
Was more than the course of this misery
Could bear up against your fake and empty dreams
You professed, all you’d ever actually confess,
Leaving me such a mess, as I know I could never mean anything,
Any kind of memory of happy times past their prime and now vanishing
You burned that bridge
You turned against
Even being friends
Or making some little amends
Don’t come here again
Don’t claim intent
Of going back somehow
To that place you denied and set on fire
And only allowed
To disappear,
To strangle me with fear and these couple of years
Here’s to never knowing
Why I let you into my life when you only ended up going
Every word was a lie
Every pain you placed can’t be erased,
And no matter how much you try,
You’re just all I no longer want but can’t deny
That we had some good times
We had some