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    The Colours of My Heart

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      There’s no poet in Urdu poetry other than Mir Taqi Mir who has a deeper awareness of the individual as the self, the ‘I’ who can’t always be a part of the world of ‘Not I’. There’s this person who listens to no one but himself and of course does his own thing. He’s at no one’s beck and call, not even the beloved’s. Just hear, this Mir:

      It’s very hard for you to find someone like me

      Yet of course, dear beloved, it’s so easy to kill me

      I am the one, do you hear? Who would stop somewhere and die

      Is it that you believe it to my vocation always to wander from street to street?

      The total world-ness of the two worlds sinks and floats here—

      My heart, just a clot of blood, is a flood in itself

      Faiz’s sense of deprivation and complaint does not allow him to reach these heights, but he also doesn’t let slip any opportunity to acknowledge his own importance as an individual. Faiz gives us the strength to not regard ourselves as just ‘a repeated letter on the world’s slate’ (in Ghalib’s phrase) that can be erased by anyone at the whim of his will.

      The poem that Faiz wrote in memory of Iqbal (Iqbal, Nuskha Ha-e Wafa, p. 85) rings true for Faiz himself:

      To our land came a sweet-singing fakir

      And lost in thought, he went away singing his melodies

      The untrodden paths came alive with people

      The dormant fortunes of desolate wine-houses came awake

      There were just a few eyes that actually caught sight of him

      But his song permeated every heart

      Today, when the Word is in danger at the hands of the demagogue, the traducer of the reality of loneliness and pain, when the dignity of the individual is at stake and the freedom of speech much at risk of fast becoming an obsolete concept, we need the poetry of Faiz more than ever before. One is reminded of Eliot:

      The Word within the word

      Unable to speak a word

      Faiz stood for the dignity of man, the holiness of pain, the constructive power of the word and the sanctity of individual belief. He will always be needed, and that is his triumph and our tragedy.

      POEMS SELECTED FROM

      Naqsh-e Fariyaadi

      1

      View (1)

      Doors, windows and rooftops, crushed under the weight of silence

      A stream of pain flowing from the sky

      The story of the moon’s light filled with sorrow and grief

      Roiled in the dust of the highways

      A dim darkness in bedrooms

      The feeble tune of the sitar of existence

      Singing elegies in soft tones

      2

      Beloved, Don’t Ask Me for the Love That Was

      Don’t ask me to love you the way I did before, my love

      I’d imagined life to be bright and glowing because you were in it

      What cared I for sorrows other than the joys of pining in your love?

      It’s your beauty that keeps springtime intact upon the world

      What else remains to be sought in the universe but your eyes?

      I would conquer fate, were you to be mine

      I had thought of it like this, if only like a passing fancy

      There are other sorrows in this world than love

      There are other pleasures than lovers’ meeting

      The dark oppressive shadows of countless centuries

      Woven into the narratives of the wealthy

      Bodies being traded, clandestinely or brazenly

      Roiled in the dust, soaked in blood

      My glance cannot help falling on those things too

      Your beauty remains an attractive proposition, but, no!

      There are sorrows other than love in this world to care for

      Other pleasures than the joy of union with the beloved

      Don’t ask me to love you the way I did before, my love

      3

      Ghazal

      Having Lost the Two Worlds to Your Love

      Having lost the two worlds to your love

      There goes someone after his night of sorrow

      The wine-house deserted, the wine casks and glasses sad

      The spring sulks and refuses to come

      ever since you went away

      We were given a chance to err but just for a few days

      I know the kind of nerve the mighty Creator has!

      The world made me a stranger to your memory

      The sorrows of time turned out to be more alluring than you

      O Faiz! She smiled at me today quite by accident

      Now don’t ask about the schemes spun by my inexperienced heart

      4

      Solitude

      Did somebody come again, sad heart?

      No, nobody

      It must be a wayfarer somewhere, he’ll go away

      The night is past, the stardust begins to dissipate

      The still lamps in the mansions begin to falter

      Weary of waiting, all the roads are now in slumber

      The dusty road, unsympathetic, has clouded all traces of footprints

      Put out the lamps; remove the wine, the jug and the goblet!

      Lock your sleepless doors

      No one, no one’s going to come here now

      5

      A Few Days More, My Love

      A few days more, my love, just a few days

      Breathing the air under the shadow of tyranny

      Suffering cruelty, injustice, weeping some more

      We are doomed, crippled by our inheritance

      With caged bodies and chained emotions

      Imprisoned are our thoughts, and utterances censored

      Just staying alive speaks of our courage

      Is life nothing but the tattered gown of a poverty-stricken man

      On which is added every moment a new patch of pain?

      But tyranny’s term is now due to depart

      A little more forbearance, and our days of complaint are numbered

      In this scorched wilderness of time’s desert

      We have to live, but no longer the same

      We may have to put up with the heavy, nameless tyranny of alien hands

      Today, but not forever

      Misfortune’s dust clings to your radiant body

      Witnesses to youth that lasted but a day or two

      The futile smouldering pain of moonlit nights

      The ineffectual throb of the heart, the call of the despairing body

      A few days more, my love, just a few days

      6

      The Death of the Fires of Love

      Come, let’s celebrate the passing of the passion of love

      Come, let’s burn our hearts with the cold beauty of the moon

      Let’s rejoice in the pangs of separation from the beloved’s frame and figure

      Let’s punish our sight with the sight of the cypress and the rose and the jasmine

      Make the desolate life even more desolate

      Let me heed your advice for once, dear counsellor

      Sheltered again under the hem of spring’s rain

      Soothe and placate the heart at times, shed tears at times

      Untie listlessly the tangled knots of such questions:

      Should I go there, or not go; not go at all or go for real?

      Preach to the heart yet again the doctrine of restraint

      And again avoid testing the resolve to be patient

      Come, for the story of passion has concluded today

      Let us now narrate the tales of love’s ceasing to be

      7

      Speak

      Speak, for your lips are free

      Speak, for your tongue is still yours

      Your upright body belongs to you

      Speak, for your soul still is yours

      Look, how in the blacksmith’s shop

      The embers are hot, the iron glows

      The mouths of the locks are being opened

      Chains lengthen their reach

      Speak, for the little time that you have is sufficient


      Before the death of body and tongue

      Speak, for the truth still lives

      Speak, say all that is to be said

      8

      Iqbal

      To our land came a sweet-singing fakir

      And, lost in thought, he went away singing his melodies

      The untrodden paths came alive with people

      The dormant fortunes of desolate wine-houses came awake

      There were just a few eyes that actually caught sight of him

      But his song permeated every heart

      The kingly fakir is now gone far into the distance

      Once again are the paths of our land plunged into gloom

      His special elegance of mind remembered by a handful

      A couple of his glances and gestures

      Live in the minds of a few loved ones

      But his song resides in every heart

      And there are numerous who still relish

      the flavour of its tune

      All the beauties of the song are immortal

      Its plenitude, its energy, its passion

      The song is hot and piercing, like a whirling blaze

      Its flame can sear the heart of the wind of death

      Like a lamp oblivious of the wild, boisterous wind

      Or like a light of the night’s assembly

      uncaring about the morning’s approach

      9

      Highway

      A long, desolate highway

      Its gaze fixed on the far horizon

      Spreading out its grey beauty

      On the breast of the cold earth—

      Like a grief-stricken woman

      In her desolate home

      Dreaming of her absent lover

      Lost in thought, each part of her body immersed

      in the idea of union

      POEMS SELECTED FROM

      Dast-e Saba

      10

      Poem

      My pen and tablet, all that I had

      Taken away from me

      But what’s there to grieve for?

      For I have dipped my fingers in my heart’s blood

      So what if my lips have been sealed shut?

      I have now put a tongue in

      each and every link of the chain

      11

      My Companion, My Friend

      If I was sure, my companion, my friend

      If I was sure the weariness in your heart

      The sadness in your eyes and the burning in your breast

      Can be dispelled by my comforting words, my love

      Were my words of solace a medic which

      could bring back to life your desolate and extinguished mind

      Washing away the stain of humiliation from your forehead

      and cure your ailing youth

      If I was sure, my companion, my friend

      Day through night, morning through evening

      I would spend whiling away your pain

      Singing to you light, melodious songs

      Of spring, gardens and waterfalls

      Of sunrise, of the moon and the planets

      I would tell you tales of beauty and love

      I’d tell you how

      Unresponsive bodies of proud, snow-moulded women

      Melt under the heat of passionate hands

      How the stable contours of a familiar face

      Change shape in an instant

      How the crystal-bright visage of a beloved

      Flushes red with a sip of the ruby red wine

      How the rose branch offers itself to the flower-picker

      How the night’s mansion becomes fragrant

      I would sing to you, go on singing for you

      Weaving songs for you, always around you

      But my songs are not the cure for your grief

      Melodies may not be surgeons, though they

      can be friends and sympathizers

      Songs may not be lancets, though

      They can be a salve for pain at least

      There’s no help for your affliction but the knife

      And that cruel blood-letter is not in my power

      Not in any earthly being’s power

      Except you yourself, you, only you

      12

      The Dawn of Freedom, August 1947

      This light, smeared and spotted, this night-bitten dawn

      This isn’t surely the dawn we waited for so eagerly

      This isn’t surely the dawn with whose desire cradled in our hearts

      We had set out, friends all, hoping

      We should somewhere find the final destination

      Of the stars in the forests of heaven

      The slow-rolling night must have a shore somewhere

      The boat of the afflicted heart’s grieving will drop anchor somewhere

      When from the mysterious paths of youth’s hot blood

      The young fellows moved out

      Numerous were the hands that rose to clutch

      the hems of their garments

      Open arms called, bodies entreated

      from the impatient bedchambers of beauty—

      But the yearning for the dawn’s face was too dear

      The hem of the radiant beauty’s garment was very close

      The load of desire wasn’t too heavy

      Exhaustion lay somewhere on the margin

      It’s said the darkness has been cleft from light already

      It’s said the journeying feet have found union with the destination

      The protocols of those who held the pain in their hearts have changed now

      Joy of union—yes; agony of separation—forbidden!

      The burning of the liver, the eyes’ eagerness, the heart’s grief

      Remain unaffected by this cure for disunion’s pain

      From where did the beloved, the morning breeze come? Where did it go?

      The street lamp at the edge of the road has no notion yet

      The weight of the night hasn’t lifted yet

      The moment for the emancipation of the eyes and the heart hasn’t come yet

      Let’s go on, we haven’t reached the destination yet

      13

      Ghazal

      The Tablet and the Pen

      I will go on nurturing the tablet and the pen

      I’ll go on recording what the heart goes through

      I’ll go on providing wherewithal to love’s passion

      I’ll keep being kind to the desolation of the times

      No doubt, the harshness of the times will grow even worse

      No doubt, the tyrants will continue to practise tyranny

      I accept the harshness, I bear this torture

      I’ll go on trying to remedy the affliction with every breath

      Long live the wine-house, with the wine’s fiery red colour

      I’ll go on decorating the doors and balconies of holy spaces

      So long as there’s blood in my heart, with my tears

      I’ll go on creating the colours of the beloved’s face

      Her way is unmindfulness, so she’s free to cultivate it

      And I have to voice my longing, so I’ll go on doing it

      14

      Ghazal

      As Soon As the Wounds of Your Memory Begin to Heal

      As soon as the wounds of your memory begin to heal

      I begin to remember you on some excuse or the other

      When the manners of talking about the beloved begin to brighten

      Tresses in every beloved’s chamber begin to be coiffed and made up

      Every stranger seems familiar to me

      When I pass through your street, even now

      Strangers away from home, when they speak of their country

      To the morning breeze, the dawn’s eyes well up with tears

      Whenever they control our speech by stapling our lips

      The atmosphere resounds even more with songs of freedom

      As darkness seals the doors of the prison house, O Faiz

      Stars rise to illuminate the heart

      15

    &nb
    sp; To Your Beauty

      The poet composes salutations to your beauty

      When the colours of someone’s garment are sprinkled on the terrace

      The morning is brightened sometimes, or the afternoon, or the evening

      And if a dress beautifies itself on someone’s elegant stature

      The cypress and the pine in the garden have found fresh grace

      The ghazal began to take shape when the heart dipped the wine glass

      in the reflection of your lips and face

      The poet composes salutations to your beauty—

      So long as the henna’s colour on your palms retains its brightness

      There remains in the world the art of how to love the bride called poetry

      So long as your beauty has its youthful power, the world is kind to me

      So long as you draw breath, the air of our land is our friend

      Even if times are tough and misfortunes extreme

      Your memory sweetens the bitterness of the times

     


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