CHAPTER XXIX
THE GARDEN
Soon now we would be able to travel; but whither, and for what purpose?I began to shrink from the thought of change. This wild world was enoughfor me. So long as we might eat and sleep thus, and so long as I mightnot lose sight of her, it seemed to me I could not anywhere gain inhappiness and content. Elsewhere I must lose both.
None the less we must travel. We had been absent now from civilizationsome three weeks, and must have been given up long since. Our party musthave passed far to the westward, and by this time our story was known atLaramie and elsewhere. Parties were no doubt in search of us at thattime. But where should these search in that wilderness of the unknownPlains. How should it be known that we were almost within touch of thegreat highway of the West, now again thronging with wagon trains? Byforce of these strange circumstances which I have related we wereutterly gone, blotted out; our old world no longer existed for us, norwe for it.
So I would sit at night, nodding under the stars, and vaguely dreamingof these matters, and things came to me sweetly, things unknown in ourignorance and evil of mind, as we live in what we call civilization.They would become clear underneath the stars; and then the dawn wouldcome, and she would come and sit by me, looking out over the Plains atthe shimmering pictures. "What do you see?" she would ask of me.
"I see the ruins of that dome known as the capitol of our nation," Isaid to her, "where they make laws. See, it is in ruins, and what I seebeyond is better."
"Then what more do you see," she would ask.
"I see the ruins of tall spires, where the truth was offered by boldassertion. I see the ruins of religion, corrupt because done for gain.
"I see houses also, much crowded, where much traffic and bartering andevil was done, much sale of flesh and blood and love and happiness,ruin, unhappiness. And what I see now is far better than all that."
"And then--" she whispered faintly, her hand upon my sleeve, and lookingout with me over the Plains, where the mirage was wavering.
This was my world. But she, looking out over the Plains, still saw withthe eye of yesterday. Upon woman the artificial imprint of heredity isset more deeply than with man. The commands of society are wrought intoher soul.