Justification … just as if I’d never done anything wrong, and just as if I’d done everything right. And a promising future ahead—all because of what someone else had done for me. I now treasured this concept, because it felt as good as anything I had ever experienced.
As we were leaving the hill, Lynn’s hand in mine, I looked back again at the row of graves, and was reminded of the pain it took to get me where I was. I had mourned them adequately, however, so now I took some comfort from the appropriateness of their final resting place. The Rabins, Darien, and the children were laid above a future home of BASS, symbolizing the fact that their lives and deaths, one way or another, had paved the way for the future. And though their passing from this world was the worst thing that had ever happened to me, I knew that it would somehow be a part of everything good that happened in the world to come.
All week the discordant notes of Mozart’s Hostias and Sanctus had been playing in my head like a broken record. But today, for the first time, the sanguine strains of Benedictus were breaking through. It seemed that my soul was determined to finish the masterwork, like the ghostwriter of old, not willing to let it end with a sad refrain.
This day full of tears was the dying composer’s last line.
But tomorrow full of hope is the one I want to add.
Acknowledgments
About the Author
DAVE SWAVELY is a published author of four nonfiction books. He lived in the beautiful Napa Valley for ten years and now resides in lovely Chester County, near Philadelphia. This is his first novel, and the sequel, Kaleidocide, will also be published by Thomas Dunne Books.
This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, organizations, and events portrayed in this novel are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously.
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Cover design by Ervin Serrano
Cover photographs by Collaboration JS / Arcangel Images and Shutterstock
ISBN 978-1-250-00149-8 (hardcover)
First Edition: November 2012