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    Storm for the Living and the Dead

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      Charles Bukowski,

      dear boy,

      the game is ending and you

      never got

      past midfield,

      punk.

      fact

      I have 90 thousand dollars

      in the bank

      am 50 years old

      weigh 280 pounds

      never awaken to an alarm clock

      and am closer to God

      than the

      sparrow.

      blues song

      pardon the territory of my grieving—

      it’s improper I know,

      maybe even

      hostile

      but the bacon’s burning

      the bacon’s burning

      tall nights

      armed with machineguns

      circle my dizzy and cowardly

      bed

      the

      bacon’s

      burning

      so let’s wipe our silly

      arses

      pretend that we are pleasurable

      meaningful things

      isn’t that the tune

      to try to beat

      the dirtiest trick of them

      all?

      fat upon the land

      all these,

      fat upon the land

      teaching English at the universities

      and writing

      legless

      headless

      bellybuttonless

      poetry

      knowing where to apply for the

      grants and

      getting the grants and

      more grants

      and writing more

      handless

      hairless

      eyeless

      poetry

      all these,

      fat upon the land

      have found a hiding place

      and have even achieved wives to

      attach to their ninny

      souls

      these,

      take paid trips

      to the islands

      to Europe

      Paris

      anywhere

      in order

      it is said

      to gather

      material

      (Mexico, they simply run to on their

      own)

      while the jails are overcrowded with the

      mislaid innocent

      while the hunkies go down

      in the mines

      while idiot sons of the poor

      are fired from jobs

      these

      wouldn’t dirty their hands and

      souls on

      these,

      fat upon the land

      join at the universities

      read their poems to

      each other

      read their poems to

      their students

      these,

      pretend wisdom and

      immortality

      control the presses

      fat upon the land

      as the jail-lines form for half-dinners

      while 34 hunkies are trapped in a

      mine

      these

      board a boat for a south sea island

      to gather an anthologized

      poetry of

      friends

      and/or

      appear at anti-war demonstrations

      without ever knowing what

      any kind of war

      is

      fat upon the land

      they are drawing a map of our

      culture—

      a division of zero,

      a multiplication of

      senseless

      grace

      “Robert Hunkerford teaches English at

      S.U. Married. 2 children, pet dog.

      This is his first collection of

      verse. He is presently working on a

      translation of the poems of

      Vallejo. Mr. Hunkerford was awarded

      a Sol Stein last year.”

      these,

      fat upon the land

      teaching English at the universities

      and writing

      neckless

      handless

      ball-less

      poetry

      such is the manner and the way

      and why the people

      do not understand

      the streets

      the verse

      the war

      or

      their hands upon the

      table

      our culture is hiding in the lace dreams of

      our English classes

      in the lace dresses of our English

      classes

      American classes

      is what we need

      and American poets

      from mines

      the docks

      the factories

      the jails

      the hospitals

      the bars

      the ships

      the steel mills.

      American poets,

      deserters from armies

      deserters from madhouses

      deserters from strangling wives and lives;

      American poets:

      ice cream-men, necktie-salesmen, corner paperboys,

      warehousemen, stockboys, messengerboys,

      pimps, elevator operators, plumbers, dentists, clowns, hot-

      walkers, jockeys, murderers (we’ve been hearing from the

      murdered), barbers, mechanics, waiters, bellboys,

      dope-runners, boxers, bartenders, others others

      others

      until these arrive

      our land will remain

      dead and ashamed

      the head guillotined off

      and speaking to the students

      in English II

      this is your culture

      but not

      mine.

      love song

      I have eaten your cunt like a peach,

      I have swallowed the seed

      the fuzz,

      locked in your legs

      I have sucked and chewed and tongued and

      swallowed you,

      have felt your whole body jerk and twist as

      one

      machinegunned

      and I made my tongue into a point

      and the juices slid down

      and I swallowed

      maddened

      and sucked your whole insides out—

      your entire cunt sucked into my mouth

      I bit

      I bit

      and swallowed

      and you too

      went mad

      and I drew away and kissed

      then your belly

      your bellybutton

      then slid down inside your white flower legs

      and kissed and bit and

      nibbled,

      all the time

      once again

      those wondrous cunt hairs

      beckoning and beckoning

      as I held away as long as I could bear

      then I leaped upon the thing

      sucking and tongueing,

      hairs in my soul

      cunt in my soul

      you in my soul

      in a miracle bed

      with children screaming outside

      while riding on skates

      bicycles at

      5 P.M. in the afternoon

      at that wonderful hour of

      5 P.M. in the afternoon

      all the love poems were written:

      my tongue entered your cunt and your soul

      and the blue bedspread was there

      and the children in the alley

      and it sang and it sang and it sang and

      it sang.

      poem for Dante

      Dante, baby, the Inferno

      is here now.

      I wish you could see

      it. for some time

      we’ve had the power to

      blow up the earth

      and now we’re finding

      the power to leave

      it. but most will have to

     
    ; stay and

      die. either by the Bomb

      or the refuse of stacked-up

      bones

      and other emptied containers,

      and shit and glass and smoke,

      Dante, baby, the Inferno

      is here now.

      and people still look at roses

      ride bicycles

      punch time clocks

      buy homes and paintings and cars;

      people continue to

      copulate

      everywhere, and the young look around

      and scream

      that this should be a better place,

      as they’ve always done,

      and then gotten old

      and played the same dirty game.

      only now

      all the dirty games of the centuries

      have added to a score that seems almost

      impossible to right.

      some still try—

      we call them saints, poets, madmen, fools.

      Dante, baby, o Dante, baby,

      you should see us

      now.

      the conditions

      presently, under the conditions of the sun

      my world is ending.

      marked by the worm,

      haggled by a world population

      that has no reference to me.

      presently, under the conditions of the sun

      my world is ending.

      my friends, it has hardly ever been

      a kind time.

      I’ve shown courage, drunkenness and

      fear.

      the heart continues to work

      through unquestionable terror.

      under the conditions of the sun

      I make ready to lay down

      the labor, the pain and whatever

      honor is left.

      29 chilled grapes

      the process of learning is devious

      all these windmills

      all this bloody transition

      plugged sinks

      toilet-paper minds

      love’s lie, that naked whore

      dogs with more souls than Pittsburgh millionaires

      wrecked men who thought grace more eternal than cunning

      the process of living is too short and too long

      too long for the old who never find out

      too short for the old who found out

      too soon for the young who never know

      too much for the young who find out

      the process of continuing is possible

      with the aid of alcohol or dope or sex

      or gold or golf or symphony music,

      or deer hunting or learning to dance the funky chicken

      or watching a baseball game or betting on a horse

      or taking 6 hot baths a day

      or hanging it onto yogi

      or becoming a baptist or a guitar player

      or getting a rubdown or reading the comics

      or masturbating or eating 29 chilled grapes

      or arguing about John Cage or going to the zoo

      or smoking cigars or showing your pecker to little girls in the park

      or being black and fucking a white girl

      or being white and fucking a black girl

      or walking a dog or feeding a cat or screaming at a child

      or working a crossword puzzle or sitting in the park

      or going to college or riding a bicycle or eating spaghetti

      or going to poetry readings or giving poetry readings

      or going to a movie or voting or traveling to India or

      New York City or beating somebody up

      or polishing silverware or shining your shoes

      or writing a letter or waxing your car

      or buying a new car or a throw rug

      or a red shirt with white dots

      or growing a beard or getting a crewcut

      or standing on the corner sweating and looking wise

      the process of continuing is possible.

      the process of learning is devious

      all those without hope

      and never knowing it

      the wildflower is the tiger who runs the universe

      the tiger is the wildflower that runs the universe

      and those mad and incomparable human creatures with roach souls

      that I am beckoned to love and hate and live among,

      these must truly someday vanish

      in the dinosaur strength of their ugliness

      so the sun will not feel so bad

      so the sea can throw off the ships and oil and shit

      so the sky can clear of their mean greed

      so night can be told from day

      so that treachery can become the palest of anachronisms

      so that love, which probably began it all, can begin again

      and last and last and last and last and last and last and

      last and last and last and last

      burning in water, drowning in flame

      carbon copy people

      choosing clothes and shoes and objects

      carbon copy people

      walking in and out of buildings,

      seeing the same sun

      the same moon,

      reading the same paper

      looking at the same programs

      having the same ideas,

      sleeping at the same time,

      arising at the same time,

      eating the same food,

      driving the same cars down the same freeways

      carbon copy people

      with carbon copy children

      in carbon copy houses

      with carbon copy Christmases and New Years

      and birthdays and lives and

      deaths

      and lawns and dishwashers and rugs

      and vases and loves and copulations, and

      they have carbon copy dentists and

      carbon copy mayors and governors and presidents

      all seeing the same sun and the same moon,

      o carbon copy coffins

      o carbon copy graves

      o carbon copy funerals

      under the same moon,

      the carbon copy grass the frost

      the carbon copy tombstones,

      the carbon copy laughter

      the carbon copy screams

      the carbon copy jokes

      the carbon copy poems

      the carbon copy carbon copy

      madmen and drunks and dope fiends and rapists

      and cats and dogs and birds and snakes and spiders,

      there is too much of everything all alike,

      I have fingers and there are fingers everywhere,

      if I enter a door I must exit a door,

      I have shit and there is shit everywhere,

      I have eyes and there are eyes everywhere,

      I have nightmares and there are nightmares everywhere,

      if I sleep I must awake,

      if I fuck I must stop fucking,

      if I eat I must stop eating,

      I can’t do anything I want to,

      I am locked into a repetition of sameness . . .

      I am burning in water

      I am drowning in flame

      I am released into sugar clouds that piss vinegar,

      but so are you and so are they and so are we,

      ant thoughts and ant struggles

      against a dynamo of alikened contortions,

      help help help help help help help

      I scream the carbon copy help against the carbon copy sky,

      that all this carbon and cardboard contains blood and pain,

      even love and history and hope,

      that’s the hitch, or is it a trick?

      how can we know? the carbon copy psychiatrists and preachers

      and philosophers tell us carbon copy things . . .

      death? is there death? perhaps the gate swings open

      and we are welcomed by roasted and tortured angels

      where we are finally gypped into an insufficient Eternity,


      a gag worse than Life . . .

      wouldn’t that be shit?

      to get away from men like gearshifts and women like

      horsemeat, only to

      unfold into worse? o,

      think then of the angered suicides

      the dead heroes of dead wars . . .

      the run-over children,

      the saints burnt at stake—

      all of them short-changed, rolled, doped,

      sold into a slavery worse than snot

      sing your deaths sing your deaths sing your

      deaths, sing your life, sing

      life, this isn’t any

      good, this isn’t any

      good. good god, I forgot to put a

      carbon under this

      paper . . .

      a cop-out to a possible immortality:

      if we can’t make literature out of our

      agony

      what are we going to do with

      it?

      beg in the streets?

      I like my minor comforts

      just like any other

      son of a

      bitch.

      well, now that Ezra has died . . .

      well, now that Ezra has died

      we are going to have a great many poems written

      about Ezra and what he meant and who he

      was and how it went

      and how it still is with

      Ezra gone.

      well, I was shacked with this alcoholic woman

      for 7 years

      and I kept packing home the Cantos through the

      door, and she kept saying,

      “For God’s sake, you got POUND again? You know

      you can’t read him. Did you bring any

      wine?”

      she was right. I couldn’t read the Cantos.

      but I usually brought the wine

      and we drank the

      wine.

      I don’t know how many years I packed those

      Cantos back and forth from the downtown public

      library

      but they were always available in the shelves of

      the Literature and Philology section.

      well, he died, and I finally went from wine to

      beer; I suppose he was a great writer

      it’s just that I’m so lazy in my reading habits.

      I detest any sort of immaculate strain,

      but I still feel rather warm for him and Ernie

      and Gertie and James J., all that gang

      gripping to world war one

      making the 20’s and 30’s available

      in their special way; then there was world war 2,

      Ezra backed a loser and got 13 years in with the

      loonies, and now he’s dead at 87 and his mistress is

     


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