put to death by every available method until such time as he convincingly apologizes
for his action to the American people. Court stands adjourned. Lord in heaven, do I
have a headache."
They wasted no time. At five o'clock in the morning, Jerry had barely fallen
asleep. Perhaps they monitored this, because they promptly woke him up with a brutal
electric shock across the metal floor where Jerry was lying. Two guards-- this time
Russians-- came in and stripped him and then dragged him to the execution chamber
even though, had they let him, he would have walked.
The prosecutor was waiting. "I have been assigned your case," he said, "because
you promise to be a challenge. Your psychological profile is interesting, Mr. Crove.
You long to be a hero."
"I wasn't aware of that."
"You displayed it in the courtroom, Mr. Crove. You are no doubt aware-- your
middle name implies it-- of the last words of the American Revolutionary War
espionage agent named Nathan Hale. 'I regret that I have but one life to give for my
country,' he said. You shall discover that he was mistaken. He should be very glad
he had but one life.
"Since you were arrested several weeks ago in Rio de Janeiro, we have been growing
a series of clones for you. Development is quite accelerated, but they have been
kept in zero-sensation environments until the present. Their minds are blank.
"You are surely aware of somec, yes, Mr. Crove?"
Jerry nodded. The starship sleep drug.
"We don't need it in this case, of course. But the mind-taping technique we use on
interstellar flights-- that is quite useful. When we execute you, Mr. Crove, we
shall be continuously taping your brain. All your memories will be rather
indecorously dumped into the head of the first clone, who will immediately become
you. However, he will clearly remember all your life up to and including the moment
of death.
"It was so easy to be a hero in the old days, Mr. Crove. Then you never knew for
sure what death was like. It was compared to sleep, to great emotional pain, to
quick departure of the soul from the body. None of these, of course, is particularly
accurate. "
Jerry was frightened. He had heard of multiple death before, of course-- it was
rumored to exist because of its deterrent value. "They resurrect you and kill you
again and again," said the horror story, and now he knew that it was true. Or they
wanted him to believe it was true.
What frightened Jerry was the way they planned to kill him. A noose hung from a
hook in the ceiling. It could be raised and lowered, but there didn't seem to be the
slightest provision for a quick, sharp drop to break his neck. Jerry had once almost
choked to death on a salmon bone. The sensation of not being able to breathe
terrified him.
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"How can I get out of this? " Jerry asked, his palms sweating.
"The first one, not at all," said the prosecutor. "So you might as well be brave
and use up your heroism this time around. Afterward we'll give you a screen test and
see how convincing your repentance is. We're fair, you know. We try to avoid putting
anyone through this unnecessarily. Please sit."
Jerry sat. A man in a lab coat put a metal helmet on his head. A few needles
pricked into Jerry's scalp.
"Already," said the prosecutor, "your first clone is becoming aware. He already
has all your memories. He is right now living through your panic-- or shall we say
your attempts at courage. Make sure you concentrate carefully on what is about to
happen to you, Jerry. You want to make sure you remember every detail."
"Please," Jerry said.
"Buck up, my man," said the prosecutor with a grin. "You were wonderful in the
courtroom. Let's have some of that noble resistance now."
Then the guards led him to the noose and put it around his neck, being careful not
to dislodge the helmet. They pulled it tight and then tied his hands behind his
back. The rope was rough on his neck. He waited, his neck tingling for the sensation
of being lifted in the air. He flexed his neck muscles, trying to keep them rigid,
though he knew the effort would be useless. His knees grew weak, waiting for them to
raise the rope.
The room was plain. There was nothing to see, and the prosecutor had left the
without turning his entire body. He was sure it was an observation window. They
would watch, of course.
Jerry needed to go to the bathroom.
Remember, he told himself, I won't really die. I'll he awake in the other room in
just a moment.
But his body was not convinced. It didn't matter a bit that a new Jerry Crove
would be ready to get up and walk away when this was over. This Jerry Crove would
die.
"What are you waiting for?" he demanded, and as if that had been their cue the
guards pulled the rope and lifted him into the air.
From the beginning it was worse than he had thought. The rope had an agonizingly
tight grip on his neck; there was no question of resisting at all. The suffocation
was nothing, at first. Like being under water holding your breath. But the rope
itself was painful, and his neck hurt, and he wanted to cry out with the pain; but
nothing could escape his throat.
Not at first.
There was some fumbling with the rope, and it jumped up and down as the guards
tied it to the hook on the wall. Once Jerry's feet even touched the floor.
By the time the rope held still, however, the effects of the strangling were
taking over and the pain was forgotten. The blood was pounding inside Jerry's head.
His tongue felt thick. He could not shut his eyes. And now he wanted to breathe. He
had to breathe. His body demanded a breath.
His body was not under control. Intellectually, he knew that he could not possibly
reach the floor, knew that this death would be temporary, but right now his mind was
not having much influence over his body. His legs kicked and struggled to reach the
ground. His hands strained at the rope behind him. And all the exertion only made
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his eyes bulge more with the pressure of the blood that could not get past the rope;
only made him need air more desperately.
There was no help for him, but now he tried to scream for help: The sound now
escaped his throat but at the cost of air. He felt as if his tongue were being
pushed up into his nose. His kicking grew more violent, though every kick was agony.
He spun on the rope; he caught a glimpse of himself in the mirror. His face was
turning purple.
How long will it be? Surely not much longer!
But it was much longer.
If he had been underwater, holding his breath, he would now have given up and
drowned.
If he had a gun and a free hand, he would kill himself now to end this agony and
the sheer physical terror of being unable to breathe. But he had no gun, and there
was no question of inhaling-- and the blood throbbed in his head and made his eyes
see everything in shades of red, and finally he saw nothing at all.
Saw nothing except what was going through his mind, and that was a jumble, as if
his consciousness were madly trying to make some arrangement that would eliminate
the strangulation. He kept seeing himself in the creek behind his house, where he
had fallen in when he was a child, and someone was throwing him a rope, but he
couldn't and he couldn't and he couldn't catch it, and then suddenly it was around
his neck and dragging him under.
Spots of black stabbed at his eyes. His body felt bloated, and then it erupted,
his bowel and bladder and stomach ejecting all that they contained, except that his
vomit was stopped at his throat, where it burned.
The shaking of his body turned into convulsive jerks and spasms, and for a moment
Jerry felt himself reaching the welcome state of unconsciousness. Then, suddenly, he
discovered that death is not so kind.
There is no such thing as slipping off quietly in your sleep. No such thing as
being "killed immediately" or having death mercifully end the pain.
Death woke him from his unconsciousness, for perhaps a tenth of a second. But that
tenth of a secdnd was infinite, and in it he experienced the infinite agony of
impending nonexistence. His life did not flash before his eyes. The lack of life
instead exploded, and in his mind he experienced far greater pain and fear than
anything he had felt from the mere hanging.
And then he died.
For an instant he hung in limbo, feeling and seeing nothing. Then-- a light
stabbed at his eyes and soft foam peeled away from his skin and the prosecutor stood
there, watching as he gasped and retched and clutched at his throat. It seemed
incredible that he could now breathe, and if he had experienced only the strangling,
he might now sigh with relief and say, "I've been through it once, and now I'm not
afraid of death." But the strangling was nothing. The strangling was a prelude. And
he was afraid of death.
They forced him to come into the room where he had died. He saw his body hanging,
black-faced, from the ceiling, the helmet still on the head, the tongue protruding.
"Cut it down," the prosecutor said, and for a moment Jerry waited for the guards
to obey. Instead, a guard handed Jerry a knife.
With death still heavy in his mind, Jerry swung around and lunged at the
prosecutor. But a guard caught his hand in an irresistible grip, and the other guard
held a pistol pointed at Jerry's head.
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"Do you want to die again so soon? " asked the prosecutor, and Jerry whimpered and
took the knife and reached up to cut himself down from the noose; in order to reach
above the knot, he had to stand close enough to the corpse to touch it. The stench
was incredible. And the fact of death was unavoidable. Jerry trembled so badly he
could hardly control the knife, but eventually the rope parted and the corpse
slumped to the ground, knocking Jerry down as it fell. An arm lay across Jerry's
legs. The face looked at Jerry eye-to-eye.
Jerry screamed.
***
"You see the camera?"
Jerry nodded, numbly.
"You will look at the camera and you will apologize for having done anything
against the government that has brought peace to the earth."
Jerry nodded again, and the prosecutor said, "Roll it."
"Fellow Americans," Jerry said, "I'm sorry. I made a terrible mistake. I was
wrong. There's nothing wrong with the Russians. I let an innocent man be killed.
Forgive me. The government has been kinder to me than I deserve." And so on. For an
hour Jerry babbled, insisting that he was craven, that he was guilty, that he was
worthless, that the government was vying with God for respectability.
And when he was through, the prosecutor came back in, shaking his head.
"Mr. Crove, you can do better than that.
"Nobody in the audience believed you for one minute. Nobody in the test sample,
not one person, believed that you were the least bit sincere. You still think the
government ought to be deposed. And so we have to try the treatment again."
"Let me try to confess again."
"A screen test is a screen test, Mr. Crove. We have to give you a little more
experience with death before we can permit you to have any involvement with life.
This time Jerry screamed right from the beginning. He made no attempt at all to
bear it well. They hung him by the armpits over a long cylinder filled with boiling
oil. They slowly lowered him. Death came when the oil was up to his chest-- by then
his legs had been completely cooked and the meat was falling off the bones in large
chunks.
They made him come in and, when the oil had cooled enough to touch, fish out the
pieces of his own corpse.
He wept all through his confession this time, but the test audience was completely
unconvinced. "The man's a phony," they said. "He doesn't believe a word of what he's
saying."
"We have a problem," said the prosecutor. "You seem so willing to cooperate after
your death. But you have reservations. You aren't speaking from the heart. We'll
have to help you again."
Jerry screamed and struck out at the prosecutor. When the guards had pulled him
away (and the prosecutor was nursing an injured nose), Jerry shouted, "Of course I'm
lying! No matter how often you kill me it won't change the fact that this is a
government of fools by vicious, lying bastards!"
"On the contrary," said the prosecutor, trying to maintain his good manners and
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cheerful demeanor despite the blood pouring out of his nose, "if we kill you enough,
you'll completely change your mind."
"You can't change the truth!"
"We've changed it for everyone else who's gone through this. And you are far from
being the first who had to go to a third clone. But this time, Mr. Crove, do try to
forget about being a hero."
They skinned him alive, arms and legs first, and then, finally, they castrated him
and ripped the skin off his belly and chest. He died silently when they cut his
larynx out-- no, not silently. just voiceless. He found that without a voice he
could still whisper a scream that rang in his ears when he awoke and was forced to
go in and carry his bloody corpse to the disposal room. He confessed again, and the
audience was not convinced.
They slowly crushed him to death, and he had to scrub the blood out of the crusher
when he awoke, but the audience only commented. "Who does the jerk think he's
fooling?"
They disemboweled him and burned his guts in front of him. They infected him with
rabies and let his death linger for two weeks. "They crucified him and let exposure
and thirst kill him. They dropped him a dozen tirnes from the roof of a one-story
building until he died.
Yet the audience knew that Jerry Crove had not repented.
"My God, Crove, how long do you think I can keep doing this?" asked the
prosecutor. He did not seem cheerful. In fact, Jerry thought he looked almost
desperate.
"Getting a litt
le tough on you?" Jerry asked, grateful for the conversation
because it meant there would be a few minutes between deaths.
"What kind of man do you think I am? We'll bring him back to life in a minute
anyway, I tell myself, but I didn't get into this business in order to find new,
hideous ways of killing people."
"You don't like it? And yet you have such a natural talent for it."
The prosecutor looked sharply at Crove. "Irony? Now you can joke? Doesn't death
mean anything to you?
Jerry did not answer, only tried to blink back the tears that these days came
unbidden every few minutes.
"Crove, this is not cheap. Do you think it's cheap? We've spent literally billions
of rubles on you. And even with inflation, that's a hell of a lot of money."
"In a classless society there's no need for money."
"What is this, dammit! Now you're getting rebellious? Now you're trying to be a
hero?"
"No."
"No wonder we've had to kill you eight times! You keep thinking up clever
arguments against us!"
"I'm sorry. Heaven knows I'm sorry."
"I've asked to be released from this assigrunent. I obviously can't crack you."
"Crack me! As if I didn't long to be cracked."
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"You're costing too much. There's a definite benefit in having criminals
convincingly recant on television. But you're getting too expensive. The
cost-benefit ratio is ridiculous now. There's a limit to how much we can spend on
you."
"I have a way for you to save money."
"So do I. Convince the damned audience!"
"Next time you kill me, don't put a helmet on my head."
The prosecutor looked absolutely shocked. "That would be final. That would be
capital punishment. We're a humane government. We never kill anybody permanently."
They shot him in the gut and let him bleed to death. They threw him from a cliff
into the sea. They let a shark eat him alive. They hung him upside down so that just
his head was under water, and when he finally got too tired to hold his head out of
the water he drowned.
But through all this, Jerry had become more inured to the pain. His mind had
finally learned that none of these deaths was permanent after all. And now when the
moment of death came, though it was still terrible, he endured it better. He