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they didn’t know shit. Still, he’d let them believe that they’d 22
helped him. What did he care after all? The only thing that mat-23
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had any doubts at all, he just had to think of Kate. Only the glasses 30
were wrong. It still annoyed him, to see her like that. But perhaps 31
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The phone rang. Barely awake, Kate rolled over and picked it up.
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“Hi!” It was Tara, sounding energetic and alert, as if she’d been 5
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“What time is it?” Kate asked groggily.
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late.
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on Tara’s words.
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“Liked him fine,” Tara repeated. “Well, coming from you that’s 1
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son to tell Tara about the lingering conversation over coffee that 4
followed, about Douglas’s fascinating tales of his recent trip to the 5
Himalayas, about his promise to be in touch. She didn’t want to 6
get Tara’s hopes up. Besides, she wasn’t sure how she felt. She’d had 7
a much better time than expected. Even the crazy ordeal with tick-8
ets had somehow added to Douglas’s appeal. Still, he wasn’t her 9
usual type. She’d just have to wait and see.
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“Is Hercules your real name?”
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Kate heard an exasperated sigh behind her. She felt a quick tug 23
on her scalp followed by the sound of scissors. Wings of dark brown 24
hair fluttered into her sheet-draped lap.
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“Kate, you know I can’t talk when I work.” Hercules’s voice was 26
aggrieved. “How would you like it if someone tried to talk to you 27
while you were writing a brief?”
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Kate surveyed the room, a shabby loft on the Lower East Side.
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calm of Hercules’s studio was a welcome break. She could do with-32
out the gloom, though. Only the palest haze of light made its way 33
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his eyes on the lookout for stray locks of hair. He was somewhere 2
in his late thirties, with a mane of graying dark curls and a hawk-3
like nose. He called himself a sculptor. His recent efforts, from 4
what Kate could see, involved the mutilation of retro toys. Every-5
where you looked, there they were: an elaborately built Lincoln 6
Log cabin sawed in two and splashed with red paint; a brunette 7
Barbie doll, her hourglass figure skewered on half a dozen knitting 8
needles; a shattered plastic Sno-Kone machine pieced together 9
with electrical tape. If this was Hercules’s calling, Kate thought, it 10
was good that he’d kept his day job.
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with hair. Soon after she started work, Kate had noticed the Sam-13
son bob. After a summer spent studying for the bar exam, her hair 14
had fallen well below her shoulders. She’d toyed with the idea of 15
keeping it long but quickly changed her mind. Long hair, she con-16
cluded, was less professional. Besides, why stand out when the al-17
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twelve-hour days, her hair still kept its swing. How Hercules had 23
come to be Samson’s stylist of choice, Kate had no idea. She’d al-24
ways meant to ask, but Hercules’s strictly enforced no-talking pol-25
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think about today. If only she could flip through a magazine, that 29
would keep her occupied. But reading was out of the question.
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rupted the stillness he required. “What about breathing?” Kate had 32
asked, the day of her very first cut. Hercules had ignored the ques-33
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sheet that had shielded Kate’s clothing and handed her a mirror.
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Kate tossed her head from side to side, watching the graceful swish 2
against her cheeks. “Hair with an attitude,” Andrea called it.
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“Stunning as always,” Kate said. She hopped down from the 4
chair and dug around in her purse for money. Hercules worked on 5
a cash-only basis.
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Kate was pulling on her black parka when she thought of her 7
question again.
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“Hey, Hercules?”
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“Yeah?” He’d moved over to the loft’s kitchen area, where he 10
was stirring a large pot on a gas-fueled range.
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“How’d you end up cutting hair for a bunch of lawyers? It 12
doesn’t really seem like your style.”
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Hercules snorted. “No, but it’s more my style than what I was 14
doing before.”
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“Which was?”
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Hercules turned to face Kate, his upper lip curled back from his 17
teeth. “I was a paralegal at Samson & Mills.”
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Kate took an involuntary step back. “You’re joking.”
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the rent.”
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“That’s incredible. So how’d you go from that to this?”
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moved to the city, sometimes I’d cut friends’ hair. I’m an artist, you 24
know. I keep my eyes open. I always sort of had a knack for it.
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sort of . . . friendly with. We used to joke around and shit. She was 27
cool. Anyway, she was working on this big case and hadn’t had a 28
haircut for months. I was hassling her about it. She claimed she 29
didn’t have time. I offered to do it right then and there. It was 30
really late, probably after midnight. I ran out to an all-night drug-31
store and picked up some scissors. Came back and gave her a cut.
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money. And I hated that fucking place. So I quit and started doing 2
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“That’s a great story. Who was it that got you started?”
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“What?” Hercules seemed disconcerted.
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firm?”
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“No, no. Well, she was until . . .” A wary expression had come 8
into Hercules’s eyes.
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“It was Madeleine. Madeleine Waters.” Crossing his arms, he 10
looked squarely at Kate, as if daring her to react.
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“Really, ” Kate said, then stopped. Suddenly, for no particular 12
reason, she felt a terrible uneasiness. Quickly, she began to talk, 13
trying to hide her discomfort behind a barrage of words. “It’s so aw-14
ful about what happened to her, isn’t it? I’d never worked with her 15
until recently, but I’d always heard that she was a great lawyer. And 16
beautiful, of course. But . . . I would never have guessed that you 17
cut her hair. It was so wavy and tousled looking.”
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stepped in.
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“I hadn’t cut Madeleine’s hair for a long time,” he said. “She got 21
this perm thing going a few years back. Said she wanted a change.”
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on the TV news. Of course. Her hair had been cut short in that 24
picture, short and smooth. Just like her own hair now.
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Hercules seemed to have regained his bearings. “Man, it’s really 26
awful about her being killed. I read about it in the papers. She was 27
a nice lady. Really nice. Not like those other freaks. I don’t know 28
what she was doing there.”
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she’d noticed earlier. She stared at it in horrible fascination. The 31
doll’s wild dark hair spread out from her head like a storm cloud 32
about to burst. Her staring eyes took no notice of the knitting nee-33
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in Kate’s mind. Madeleine Waters’s body, multiple stab wounds, a 1
tide of black hair that must have framed her head just as . . .
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for her gloves.
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flicker of shadow on the concrete steps — caused Kate to glance 10
up. There, from the top of the stairwell, Hercules was looking 11
down. She tried to catch his eye, to wave, but he seemed not to no-12
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eccentric. But that was before Madeleine’s murder. Before she’d 20
known that they’d worked together. Now, she wasn’t sure what to 21
think. Again, she thought of the ravaged doll, a plastic correlate to 22
Madeleine’s real-life death.
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bubble bath, then added a second dose. Tonight she was going 25
to relax. She flipped on the radio — always set for NPR — and 26
let the restful strains of classical music filter through her rooms.
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Then she headed for her bedroom bookshelf in search of some-28
thing to read. What would it be tonight? Jane Austen? Stephen 29
King? Marissa Piesman? Glancing across a row of books, her eyes 30
fell on an unfamiliar volume. Sexual Harassment of Working 31
Women. The book Madeleine had given her just before she was 32
killed. She’d brought it home that night to look over. But in the 33
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Sitting down on the side of her bed, Kate folded back the book’s 4
red-and-black cover. Flipping through the first few pages, she no-5
ticed frequent pencil underlinings. Sexual harassment, most broadly 6
defined, refers to the unwanted imposition of sexual requirements in the 7
context of a relationship of unequal power. A pretty standard defini-8
tion by now. And then, a few pages later: The legal argument ad-9
vanced by this book is that sexual harassment of women at work is sex 10
discrimination in employment.
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cation date: 1979. A generation ago in legal terms, written before 13
the Supreme Court recognized sexual harassment as a cause of ac-14
tion. If she recalled correctly, this was a seminal work, outlining 15
much of the doctrine later accepted as law. Curious, she flipped 16
through the text. Being at the mercy of male superiors adds direct eco-17
nomic clout to male sexual demands. . . . As work becomes degraded by 18
mechanization and routinization, it becomes defined as “women’s 19
work.” . . .
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of the large pieces of litigation in which Samson specialized. Thou-23