Blur (Blur Trilogy)
Steven James
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CONTENTS
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DEDICATION
PROLOGUE
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN
CHAPTER EIGHT
CHAPTER NINE
CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CHAPTER TWELVE
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CHAPTER NINETEEN
CHAPTER TWENTY
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
CHAPTER THIRTY
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
CHAPTER FORTY
CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
CHAPTER FIFTY
CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
CHAPTER SIXTY
CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
CHAPTER SIXTY-FOUR
CHAPTER SIXTY-FIVE
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
“Men are so necessarily mad, that not to be mad would amount to another form of madness.”
—Blaise Pascal, seventeenth-century philosopher and mathematician
To Susanna and Meg
PROLOGUE
Daniel held up a blanket so that it hung vertically above his bed. Stacy stood beside his desk, her back to the wall. He noticed that she was tapping her fingers nervously against her leg.
“Alright,” he said. “Imagine that everything on your side of the blanket is reality. Those are the things you can see, taste, feel, whatever. The things that are really there. Everything on my side of the blanket is . . .”
“Just imaginary.” She finished his thought for him. “All in your head.”
“Right. Now, from what I’ve found out in the last week, most people have a pretty thick blanket—barrier—that’s in their minds that helps them know which side they’re on.”
She was watching him carefully; if he didn’t know better, he’d say warily.
“So we can tell what’s real and what’s not,” she said.
“Exactly. But now imagine that the blanket is a shower curtain or something and you can see through it, but everything on the other side is blurry. So you’d know the other side is there—”
“But you’d be able to tell which side was which.” Stacy sounded slightly relieved. “You’d see the difference.”
“Yes.”
“And that’s you?”
A pause. “No. Not quite.” He dropped the blanket. “It’s gone.”
“The blanket is?”
“Yes.”
“Completely?” She’d moved almost imperceptibly farther from Daniel.
He nodded. A moment passed.
Stretched thin.
“Does that scare you?” he asked her.
She didn’t answer but said instead, “But can you tell this is real? That I’m really here, in front of you, right now?”
“Yes,” he said.
But he wasn’t sure. He wasn’t sure about anything.
Not since realizing he was going insane.
CHAPTER
ONE
ONE WEEK EARLIER
The first blur occurred at Emily Jackson’s funeral.
At 3:54 p.m., thirty minutes before it happened, Daniel Byers was staring out the car window, watching deep shadows pass across the pavement as his father drove along the pine- and birch-enshrouded northern Wisconsin county highway. A handful of autumn leaves skittered along the road ahead of them. The sky was steel blue.
Though it was still September, it’d already snowed twice. Most of the snow had melted, but a few stubborn patches remained in the corners of the forest where the sun never reached. More snow would be coming soon. Winter was not kind to this part of the state.
“Are we almost there?” Daniel spoke softly, without looking away from the window.
Silence from his father.
“Dad?”
“The church is just past Highway 14. Fifteen minutes m
aybe.”
Outside, an intricate web of leaves passed overhead. Wisped into light. Merged into shadow again.
“How’s your headache?” his father asked. “Gone?”
Daniel didn’t want to worry him. “It’s okay,” he lied.
Get ready. You’re about to see the body.
He suddenly felt cold and turned up the heater in the car.
It didn’t seem to help.
13 MINUTES BEFORE THE BLUR
His father slowed down as they approached the Beldon Road Community Church parking lot.
“Don’t worry,” he told Daniel. “We won’t stay long.”
Daniel didn’t know what to say. How do you deal with the fact that a girl who went to your high school, who you saw walking down the hall just a few days ago, is now dead?
They pulled into the lot. “Did you hear me, Dan?”
“Yeah.”
“We won’t stay long.”
“Okay.”
It felt a little weird coming to a church. He and his dad had only attended church twice since his mom left them six months ago—once for Easter and then the week after, as if they were about to start a new habit but never quite got enough momentum to carry things through.
The parking spaces closest to the building were filled, so his father eased into a spot near the back of the lot, then turned off the engine. After an awkward moment, he stated the obvious: “We’re here.”
Neither of them moved.
At last his dad rapped the steering wheel twice, then said, “Okay, then.”
He eased his door open.
“I hardly even knew her, Dad.”
His father hesitated.
“I know.” He was still seated in the car but had one foot on the pavement. “But it’s important to be here.”
Daniel had never even officially met Emily Jackson, hadn’t even known her name until the news story hit. After all, he was a junior and she was a freshman, so it didn’t really make sense that he would know her very well. The thing was, he really was sad she’d drowned, he really was—and yet, in a way, he felt vaguely guilty that he wasn’t sadder.
Emily Jackson.
A girl who was easy to miss.
He’d seen what happened whenever she entered the cafeteria and sat at a table. Suddenly, the other kids who were already there would remember something else they needed to do and would get up one at a time and leave. Or when a group of kids was talking in the hallway and she approached them, they would tighten up their circle so there wouldn’t be any place for her.
And so she would walk past. Alone.
He didn’t think they did it on purpose, treated her like that, it was just the way kids are sometimes.
Whenever he saw her, she was always alone.
And now she was dead.
A girl nobody seemed to want to be around when she was alive.
But now there was a parking lot full of cars.
Now everyone was coming to see Emily.
Now that she was dead.
11 MINUTES BEFORE THE BLUR
Daniel and his father crossed the parking lot and walked toward the church. He caught himself noticing what was in people’s cars as they passed them—the fast-food wrappers and water bottles on the floors, the pet hair on the back seats, the baby toys and backpacks. For some reason everything seemed to be registering in his mind more than usual. More than ever.
An older man with bristly white hair who was leaving the building nodded to Daniel’s father. “Sheriff.”
“Tony.”
Daniel recognized him: Mr. Kettner, the man who announced their home football games. Now he said, “I’m sorry about this, son. I know she went to school with you.”
Daniel wasn’t sure how to respond. “Thank you,” he managed to say.
Mr. Kettner hesitated for a moment, as if he were wondering what he should say next. At last he told Daniel’s dad, “Good of you to come.”
“We thought it was important.”
Mr. Kettner let out a small sigh. “Tragedy, though. What happened to her.”
“Yes, it is.”
Though brief, the conversation seemed like it had already gone on too long, and no one really knew where to take it from there. “Alright, then. We’ll see you later, Sheriff.”
“Alright.”
“Daniel,” Mr. Kettner said with a nod. It was his way of saying good-bye.
“Good-bye, Mr. Kettner.”
As he ambled away, Daniel’s dad said softly once again, “We don’t have to stay long.”
Thank you, Daniel thought.
“Yeah,” he said.
And they walked up the steps of the church.
CHAPTER
TWO
A dozen men and women stood clustered in three groups just outside the front doors and as Daniel passed them, he heard them talking:
“She looks good.”
“Yes, she does.”
“And the flowers are nice.”
“She would have been so glad to see you here.”
It struck him how strange it was for people to be saying things like that.
Emily couldn’t possibly look good, not after spending two days at the bottom of Lake Algonquin. And what difference did it make one way or the other what the flowers looked like? Didn’t these people understand that the girl lying next to those flowers was absolutely and forever dead? And why would Emily have been glad to see a crowd of people she barely knew? Why, when they’d ignored her while she was alive?
So did you. You never talked to her. Not once.
A wash of guilt.
Daniel passed through the entryway and into the church.
All around the sanctuary, his friends and other kids he recognized from school were standing uneasily beside their parents.
Some of the guys looked anxious; others, like Brad Talbot, looked bored. All of them looked out of place, though—the guys wearing their fathers’ ties, the girls dressed in dark, drab clothes that made them look much older than they were.
The air smelled of pinewood and old books.
Someone was playing a piano.
High overhead, dust floated through the air and passed across the streaks of sunlight slanting through the tall, narrow windows. It gave everything an unearthly, ethereal feel.
His friends, even the other guys from the football team, looked so fragile. So wounded. Some of the girls were crying, and so were some of the guys—but Daniel could tell they were trying their best to hide it. A lot of the kids were looking at him, like they did on the field when they were waiting for him to call the next play.
It made him uncomfortable.
Out there, he knew what to do, how to read the defense, how to respond. Here, he had no idea.
He avoided their gazes.
Daniel’s headache seemed to be getting worse. He rubbed his thumb hard against his temple, but it didn’t help.
Politely, his father excused himself and made his way to the back corner of the church to talk to Mr. McKinney, one of the teachers from Beldon High, leaving Daniel alone.
Everything around him was hushed. Even the piano music coming from the front of the church seemed to be hollower, fainter than it should have been.
He saw the casket positioned near the piano.
You ignored her.
No, you just didn’t know her. There’s a difference.
Trying to shake the thought, he glanced to the left, where it seemed like there weren’t so many people. Near the last pew, Stacy Clern, a girl who’d just transferred to his school, stood beside a woman who Daniel assumed was her mother.
Stacy was pretty, but not beautiful. Dark brown hair. Gentle eyes. And unlike the giddy, airheady girls he seemed to attract like flies, Stacy seemed like the kind of real, down-to-
earth girl he’d actually be able to connect with.
In fact, he’d wanted to ask her out ever since he’d first seen her around school, but he’d never quite gotten up the nerve to do it. On a football field or a basketball court he was fine—no problem figuring out what to do there. But stick him next to a girl like Stacy and he would fumble around all day for the right things to say.
From where he stood he couldn’t tell if she’d been crying, but she looked really sad and he wanted to go and talk to her, tell her that things were going to be alright, but he couldn’t figure out exactly what he might say. And he doubted he’d have the nerve to say anything at all once he got there.
Finally, he nodded to her and she offered him a small nod back.
A line had formed, leading to Emily’s corpse.
Everyone was moving in slow motion, like animated shadows, circling and hovering around each other in tight bunches. Everything people said was lowered to a whisper.
You should have talked to her.
Somehow it seemed both unnatural and natural to feel guilty for not having talked to Emily. But he felt like he needed to do this thing now, to see her one last time. Maybe to redeem himself in some way for not knowing her better. Maybe paying his last respects—whatever that actually meant—would help to quiet the murky shame he felt crawling through him.
Daniel got in line.
CHAPTER
THREE
8 MINUTES
There were sixteen people in front of Daniel Byers, and he was standing right behind the guy who took their team photos. One of the other girls from his class, Nicole Marten, handed him a church bulletin. The makeup all around her eyes was smeared.
“Thanks,” he said.
“It’s so sad, isn’t it?” Daniel had known Nicole for six years, in a friendship that had been pretty close but had never moved into anything beyond the just-being-friends stage. “I mean, how could this happen?”
“Yeah,” he replied. “I don’t know.”
She brushed away a stray tear, and then, without warning, she leaned against Daniel’s shoulder and gave him a small hug. It made him feel a little conspicuous but he didn’t pull away. He put his arm around her for a moment, then she backed up, rubbed at her eyes again, gave him a faint smile, and left to deliver more bulletins.
