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Reason to Believe

Roxanne St Claire




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  PROLOGUE

  * * *

  FROM: [email protected]

  SUBJ: you don’t fool me

  DATE: 01.19

  great show tonight, ari. you did it all, sweetheart. you threw out bait and reeled in fish like the pro we both know you aren’t. you even got that bald fool to cry over his dead cousin. fucking amazing, that’s what you are. all sparkles and smiles, TV’s darling. you might get a raise. then you can move out of that little house and get a big mansion like all the other phony deadtalkers who hit the big time. oh, yeah, i know where your house is, ari. i’ve been there. 9302 hillside avenue. right above the place where john belushi died. but you know that. you probably talk to him all the time, don’t you? ha ha.

  it’s only a matter of time until the truth is out, ari. you’re a fake. how long can you fool everyone? not much longer. your days are numbered. then the truth will be out and you will be finished.

  CHAPTER ONE

  * * *

  HOW COME SCIENTISTS could build a fully functioning laboratory eighty miles above the earth, but couldn’t figure out a way to fix the L.A. freeway system? Chase Ryker had been on both, and the space station ran smoother than the 405—whose bumper-to-bumper congestion extended onto another freeway and all the way into Burbank.

  He finally whipped the Porsche into the studio lot and announced himself to the guard, though he wasn’t scheduled to arrive until the next day.

  “You’re on the list,” the young man said. “Tomorrow’s list.”

  “I’ll wait at Ms. Killian’s trailer,” Chase said with the authoritative tone he’d perfected in the military.

  The guard looked dubious, checking Chase’s ID a second time as if this had never occurred at his gate before. “Listen, I can’t let you go to her trailer, but this’ll get you into sound stage four and you can sit in the audience.” He held out a bright red pass.

  Good man. He shouldn’t let anyone go to Arianna Killian’s dressing trailer, especially after dark. Security like this made his job easier. But could he push the kid? “I’m not that interested in the show, and I have an appointment.”

  “For tomorrow,” the guard said. “Anyway, her show is great. People wait eighteen months to get tickets. You won’t believe it.”

  No, he wouldn’t—that was certain. “All right. Thanks.” He took the map of the lot the guard offered and waited for the mesh gate to open.

  Chase slid the map behind the visor, not needing it. He’d memorized the layout of the MetroNet studios, along with the roads in and out of the hillside neighborhood where Arianna Killian lived, the gym where she did Jnana Yoga, the natural-food restaurants she frequented, and the Santa Monica home of her widowed father that she visited almost every week. There wasn’t much he didn’t know logistically about the TV psychic, and he’d learned all of it on the plane down from San Francisco that morning. A photographic memory helped a lot in his job.

  Another guard let him into the sound stage where the black and red logo for the show Closure hung over the door. Chase declined to sign a taping release, which the guard noted but didn’t question. Good thing. He had no intention of being on camera.

  When a perky college-aged page took him to the audience seating area, he made a mental note that there was no metal detector to spot the Glock 19 that rested on his hip, hidden by a sports jacket. How many other people in this room packed? He scouted the crowd as the young lady escorted him to an empty seat at the end of the third row.

  “There’s nothing in the back?” he asked.

  “Oh, you’ll like it up here,” she assured him. “You have a better chance of getting her attention. Who are you here to talk to?”

  “The host.”

  “I mean, who have you lost? Who do you want Arianna to talk to?”

  “No one.”

  That earned him a surprised look. When she walked away, he covertly checked out the audience. These weren’t the celebrity-starved tourists who waited to see Jay Leno down the road. All around him, the audience wore expressions that ranged from expectation to raw pain. Many held hands, a few mumbled prayers.

  All of them were there because they actually believed in the chance to have that final chat with someone on the other side. They all wanted closure. Talk about exploiting a ripe market.

  Suddenly the stage blackened and a lonesome piano hit a few slow notes. When the lights came back up and the New Age music died down, the sound stage had two occupants—one, he had to admit, quite riveting.

  No doubt about it, the woo-woo girl was pretty.

  Not stunning by the extreme standards of Los Angeles, where even the garbage collectors harbored dreams of stardom. But she had an earthy, wild beauty that came as much from the playful glimmer in her emerald green eyes as the cascades of copper waves that fell over her shoulders.

  “David,” she said, leaning toward the young man sitting across from her. “Don’t look so serious. This is supposed to be totally fun.” She trilled the totally and added a saucy wink. “I promise.”

  David damn near melted.

  She wore a wireless mic clipped to the V-neck of a buttercream-colored sweater that amplified her soft, feminine voice, and soft, feminine cleavage. All part of the carefully crafted package that had made her a media favorite. Charming, witty, adorable Arianna the TV psychic. But underneath the clingy clothes and sweet curves, despite the whimsical curls and the musical laugh, he’d bet there was a very shrewd businesswoman who knew exactly how to exploit human frailty.

  The male guest on the set nodded, leaving his handprint impressions on the leather armrest when he released his grip and wiped his palms on his trousers.

  “Are you ready, David?”

  “Oh, I’m ready,” he said. “I’ve been ready for two years.”

  “Okay, then.” Arianna closed her eyes and inhaled deeply. “Let’s talk to Mary Jo.” A long moment of silence passed before she opened her eyes, a hint of a smile so sweet and subtle it had to be practiced a zillion times in front of a mirror. A smile that could sell anything. Even the idea of talking to the dead.

  “She wants you to know that she appreciates what you’ve done for her dog.”

  Oh, brother. For this, he left the side of a Nobel scientist doing top-secret research on particle physics? But that was the nature of his job. And he’d do this one exactly like he’d done every other assignment: thoroughly.

  She clasped her hands, twirling a ring on the left middle finger, her face serene and trancelike. “I’m getting something . . . with food. In the kitchen. Did Mary Jo like to cook?”

  “God, yes. She was an amazing cook.”

  Arianna held up her hand as though to silence him, but of course that just made it look like she was getting all her info from poor dead Mary Jo, when all she was doing was playing an elaborate game of Twenty Questions that would lead her exactly where she wanted to go.

  Did Mary Jo like to cook? That basically covered half the female population. Talking to the dead, according to the quick research he’d done this morning, was little more than a sophisticated form of Q&A and black magic.

  He’d also learned that Closure had been running on MetroNet for eight months, and judging by the cost of a minute’s worth of advertising, plenty of people were tuning in to witness strangers have those last few words with the dearly departed. Of course, who wouldn’t pay big bucks for that last conversat
ion? Even he could think of a few things he’d like to say to someone now gone.

  The thought hit him hard, and he forced himself to concentrate on the woman he’d come to watch.

  “Mary Jo wants you to know that . . .” She tilted her head up, no doubt to look like she was hearing voices from the grave, but it gave the camera a nice view of her face, oval and symmetrical, with a slightly upturned nose and a little cleft in her chin. A television face, smoothed by the hand of a makeup artist. She wore the creamy color from head to designer toe, no doubt to give her an angelic, ethereal look. It worked.

  “There’s definitely something about the dog . . .”

  “Skippy. Our spaniel. She adored him.”

  “Skippy.” She cooed the name, as if the animal were right there begging for a treat. Then her expression turned compassionate and she leaned closer to David. “Was Skippy with her when she passed?”

  David looked down, nodded, fighting tears. She reached over and touched his hand. “She wants you to be happy.”

  The reading took fifteen excruciating minutes, but by the time she was done, David was persuaded that his dead wife condoned, even supported, his next marriage.

  Arianna Killian was a fraud, no doubt about it. Charismatic, infectious, and really, really good at her game. But as fake as her cinnamon hair and long eyelashes.

  When David joined his family, who all shared tearful, happy hugs, Arianna stood. The lighting changed, the atmosphere grew charged. All around him, people leaned forward, stared at her, silently mouthed words.

  They all wanted to get picked. They all wanted their chance at closure.

  Psychics who claimed to talk to the dead had been around for centuries, but few had turned the parlor game into a business this big. And very few, Chase thought as he watched the silk of her slacks slide over narrow hips and slender legs with every step, made it look so good.

  Or fun. She bantered with an audience member. She made a joke to the cameraman following her. She teased, winked, giggled, and then, without warning, she stopped.

  Not far from his section, her body language changed from lighthearted to serious. She began to scan the seats, giving him a chance to notice that under all that makeup, she probably had a dusting of freckles. And her curls had thin strands of gold woven into the red, just enough to look like she’d been sprinkled with glittery bronze.

  She placed her hands on her hips and bit gently on a full lower lip. “Is there a . . .” She frowned, searching for a word. “A pilot here?”

  He fought the urge to draw back in surprise at the bizarre, but lucky, guess.

  A man one row in front of him sat up straighter. “I have a pilot’s license,” he said eagerly. “You must want me.”

  Thank God there was a sucker in every crowd. Or in this case, in every seat.

  She regarded the man for a moment, her eyes narrowed in thought, her index finger tapping the dip in her chin. “I don’t think so. It’s over here.” Her gaze moved to Chase’s section. “Something like a pilot? I’m getting . . .” She played with her ring again, as into the part as any method actor. “Someone inside a missile? A rocket? Is that possible?”

  Years of training response control allowed him to maintain an absolutely blank expression. Someone had gotten to her first. They had to have.

  “I see a person sitting at what looks like the controls of a plane . . . but he’s on his back.” She looked his way, massaging her temple, shaking her head as though nothing made sense.

  And son of a bitch, it didn’t.

  “He’s wearing a helmet, a visor.” She shot a demanding look at the crowd. “And I’m seeing something . . . military or quasi-military.”

  A young lady in the other side of the audience stood. “Ari, my sister was killed when her helicopter went down in Iraq.”

  She glanced toward the slightly desperate voice, but gave her head a definitive shake and returned to a study of the people around Chase.

  “No, it’s not a woman. And it’s not a helicopter.” She raked a hand through her curls, messing the stylist’s careful work, but her practiced expression said she didn’t care. “Is it a rocket ship?”

  That elicited a light, surprised laugh from everyone.

  Everyone except Chase.

  “Something’s definitely wrong,” she continued.

  Yes, it was. Very wrong. Who told her he was coming? Who briefed her? There was no other explanation.

  “There’s an explosion. A fire. It’s so hot. Hotter than—things are actually melting.” She burned the crowd with a frustrated look. “Surely this is coming from one of you.”

  Chase mentally swore, running through every possible paradigm for how she could have gotten this information. There were a few ways—none of them feasible. Or appealing. Or possible.

  She had no way of knowing he’d be in the audience, or who he was.

  Their gazes locked and for a minute, he thought he’d sworn out loud. The man next to him turned, and the licensed pilot a row down swiveled to get a look. He could feel the power of numerous stares, but none as direct or unwavering as Arianna Killian’s.

  “Sir? Have you lost someone in a fire? Someone in the military, perhaps?”

  She wanted a nod, some simple assent, and then she’d make a few more educated guesses, ask an open-ended question, redirect the information if she didn’t like what she heard. She would hunt and peck, blinding any skeptic with a dazzling smile and pretty green eyes, until she hit a mark. She already knew way more than was possible.

  “No,” he answered, emotionless.

  “I’m getting three initials. STS,” she said, as though she didn’t hear the denial. “Someone you lost? Someone you cared about?”

  Could she know his name? His face? Could she know that every space shuttle mission started with the same three letters? Highly improbable, screamed the pragmatic scientist who resided firmly inside him. But possible.

  “These initials mean something to you, don’t they?”

  Blood roared like an afterburner in his head. Still, he said nothing. It was not the time or place to reveal himself to her, and he’d obviously made a strategic error in coming here.

  “I’m getting a lot of blue,” she told him, taking slow, deliberate steps closer. “But not sky blue. A dark royal blue. Is that a uniform?”

  He didn’t nod, didn’t move. But he could tell she was reading a response in his eyes. Yeah, she was way past good at this.

  “This is someone sitting . . . where you should have been, isn’t it?”

  Chase felt his fingers tighten around the armrest of his seat. Just like the poor bastard who’d started the show twenty minutes earlier.

  Yes, someone had been sitting, launching, and dying . . . where he should have. Gone because Chase was doing something so . . . trivial.

  “You can tell me.” Her eyes were warm and inviting. He imagined most men did exactly what this woman wanted. But he wasn’t most men.

  “Save yourself the trouble, Ms. Killian,” he said softly, and cocked his head toward the anxious pilot in the row below him. “Try someone who believes.”

  “He wants to tell you something,” she continued, undeterred by his suggestion. “About the . . . incident.”

  Incident. She even used the right euphemism, as NASA did. He maintained a blank expression as she climbed the two steps to his row, vaguely aware of the red light of the camera over her shoulder, the black lens pointed at his face. Her wide green eyes speared him with a look so intense, it felt like she was peering right into his soul. Which, damn it, she was.

  “I didn’t sign a release,” he said quietly.

  A smile tipped her lips. “He doesn’t care. He’s here.”

  “Ms. Killian.” He leaned forward and put his hand over the microphone, brushing her warm skin with his knuckles. “You can stop now. I’m only here to observe.”

  Her laugh was as soft and feminine as her perfume. “Sorry, but Michael’s not.”

  The name hit him lik
e a lead slug. “Good guess,” he said coolly, letting go of the mic. “One of the most common names in America.”

  “But not a common man.”

  “We don’t have a release for that seat.” The announcement, heavily accented and harsh, came from a dark-haired woman wearing a headset and waving a clipboard as she marched across the set. “You can’t do a reading unless he’s signed a release.”

  Arianna straightened slowly, giving Chase’s arm a gentle squeeze. “He wants to tell you something,” she whispered. “He wants you to have closure.”

  Chase opened his mouth to speak, but she put her fingers to his lips, the warm touch surprising him.

  “Don’t fight it. Closure is good, it’s healing.”

  He didn’t need to be healed, and gave her a hard look that he hoped sent that message.

  As she walked away, he decided someone had definitely briefed her. It was the only explanation for her having such private, personal, and painful information.

  The only explanation that fit into his absolute knowledge of what was—and what wasn’t—possible.

  He had to get out of there.

  He slipped out of his seat to head backstage and do what he’d been hired to do.

  CHAPTER TWO

  * * *

  “WHAT THE HELL were you thinking with that guy, Ari?” The clipped Australian accent matched the snap of Carla Lynch’s high heels across the sound stage.

  “Sometimes I don’t think, Carla. I go on instinct. That’s the whole idea of the show, right?” Arianna remained facing away, one hand down her bodice, the other up her sweater as she snaked the microphone pack free.

  “It was a waste of time and tape, neither of which are free.”

  Arianna handed the mic to a waiting grip before turning to the production assistant who didn’t have a clue what a boundary was, and how not to overstep it. “You are also responsible for making sure that every person in the first five rows has signed a release, Carla. Then I can choose who I will read and who I will not.”