Wrestling With the Devil: A Prison Memoir

  Also by Ngũgĩ wa Thiong’o

  Novels (English)

  The River Between

  Weep Not, Child

  A Grain of Wheat

  Petals of Blood

  Devil on the Cross

  Matigari

  Wizard of the Crow

  Short Stories (English)

  Secret Lives

  Novels (Gĩkũyũ)

  Caitani Mũtharabainĩ

  Matigari ma Njirũngi

  Mũrogi wa Kagogo

  Plays (English)

  The Black Hermit

  This Time Tomorrow

  The Trial of Dedan Kĩmathi (with Micere Mugo)

  I Will Marry When I Want (with Ngũgĩ wa Mĩriĩ)

  Plays (Gĩkũyũ)

  Ngaahika Ndeenda (with Ngũgĩ wa Mĩriĩ)

  Maitũ Njugĩra

  Essays (English)

  Homecoming

  Moving the Center

  Penpoints, Gunpoints, and Dreams

  Decolonizing the Mind

  Something Torn and New (also issued under the title Re-Membering Africa)

  Globalectics: Theory and Politics of Knowing

  In the Name of the Mother

  Secure the Base: Making Africa Visible in the Globe

  Memoirs (English)

  Dreams in a Time of War

  In the House of the Interpreter

  Birth of a Dream Weaver

  Children’s Books (English)

  Njamba Nene and the Flying Bus

  Njamba Nene’s Pistol

  Children’s Books (Gĩkũyũ)

  Njamba Nene na Mbathi ĩ Mathagu

  Bathitora ya Njamba Nene

  Rwĩmbo rwa Njũkĩ

  Allegory (Gĩkũyũ)

  Nyoni Nyonia Nyone

  © 2018 by Ngũgĩ Wa Thiong’o

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  Photographs and sculptures on pages 2 and 241 by Pitika Ntuli

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  To all writers in prisons

  and for a world without

  prisons and detention camps

  O you with bloodshot eyes and bloody hands,

  Night is short-lived,

  The detention room lasts not forever,

  Nor yet the links of chains.

  —Mahmoud Darwish, from “About a Man,” in The Music of Human Flesh, translated by Denys Johnson-Davies

  Contents

  Note to this Edition

  Detention Order

  1.Free Thoughts on Toilet Paper

  2.Parasites in Paradise

  3.Colonial Lazarus Rises from the Dead

  4.The Culture of Silence and Fear

  5.Wrestling with Colonial Demons

  6.Unchain My Hands!

  7.Meditations!

  8.Dreams of Freedom

  9.Sherlock Holmes and the Strange Case of the Missing Novel

  10.Devil on the Cross

  Notes

  Note to this Edition

  This book is developed from Detained: A Writer’s Prison Diary, originally published in 1982, when Kenya was under the reign of terror of a one-person, one-party state, not the case today, as I edit this, in 2017. Considerably shorter and leaner because shorn of many dated historical references and documents, it has allowed focus on the drama of the writing of a novel, Devil on the Cross, in prison. I have also added details on the final fate of the novel, which I had left out in the earlier edition.

  I offer this re-edited version of my experience of survival in a maximum-security prison as a testimony to the magic of imagination. The power of imagination to help humans break free of confinement is truly the story of all art.

  DETENTION ORDER

  THE PUBLIC SECURITY DETAINED AND RESTRICTED PERSONS (REGULATIONS 1966)

  DETENTION ORDER

  In exercise of the powers conferred by regulation 6, (1) of the Public Security (Detained and Restricted Persons) Regulations 1966, the Minister for Home Affairs, being satisfied that it is necessary for the preservation of public security to exercise control, beyond that afforded by a restriction order, over

  NGŨGĨ WA THIONG’O

  (hereinafter referred to as the detained person), HEREBY ORDERS that the person shall be detained.

  . . .

  Date this 29th December 1977

  (D. T. Arap Moi),

  MINISTER FOR HOME AFFAIRS

  Solitary Confinement

  1

  Free Thoughts on Toilet Paper

  1

  It is past midnight, December 12, 1978. Unable to face the prickly bristles of three see-through blankets on a mattress whose sisal stuffing has folded into numerous lumps hard as stones, I am at the desk, under the full electric glare of a hundred-watt naked bulb, scribbling words on toilet paper. I can hear the bootsteps of the night guard, going up and down the passageway between the two rows of cells, which face each other.

  Mine is cell 16 in a prison block enclosing eighteen other political prisoners. Here I have no name. I am just a number in a file: K6,77. A tiny iron frame against one wall serves as a bed. A tiny board against another wall serves as a desk. These fill up the minute cell.

  One end of the passageway is a cul-de-sac of two latrines, a washroom with only one sink and a shower room for four. These are all open: no doors. At the other end, next to my cell, the passageway opens into a tiny exercise yard whose major features are one aluminum rubbish bin and a decrepit tenniquoit-cum-volleyball net hanging from two iron poles. There is a door of iron bars at this opening—between the exercise yard and the block of cells—and it is always shut and locked at night. The block of cells and the yard are enclosed by four double stone walls so high that they completely cut off the skyline of trees and buildings, which might otherwise give us a glimpse of the world of active life.

  This is Kamĩtĩ Maximum Security Prison, one of the largest in Africa. It is situated near three towns—Rũirũ, Kĩambu, and Nairobi—and literally next door to Kenyatta University College, but we could as easily be on Mars. We are completely quarantined from everything and everybody, including convicted prisoners in all the other blocks, except for a highly drilled select squad of prison guards and their commanding officers.

  Maximum security: the idea used to fill me with terror whenever I met it in fiction, Dickens mostly, and I have always associated it with England and Englishmen; it conjured up images of hordes of dangerous killers à la Magwitch of Great Expectations, always ready to escape through thick forests and marshes, to unleash yet more havoc and terror on an otherwise stable, peaceful, and God-fearing community of property owners that sees itself as the whole soc
iety. It also conjures images of Robben Island political prisoners, Mandela among them, breaking rocks for no purpose other than breaking them. A year as an inmate in Kamĩtĩ has taught me what should have been obvious: that the prison system is a repressive weapon in the hands of a ruling minority to ensure maximum security for its class dictatorship over the rest of the population, and it is not a monopoly exclusive to England and South Africa.

  The menacing bootsteps come nearer. I know that the prowling guard cannot enter my cell—it is always double-locked and the keys, in turn, locked inside a box, which promptly at five o’clock is taken away by the corporal on duty to a safe somewhere outside the double walls—but of course he can look into the cell through a small iron-barred rectangular window in the upper half of the door. The barred window is built so as to contain only the face.

  The bootsteps stop. I don’t have to look to the door to know that the guard is watching me. I can feel it in my bones. It is an instinct that one develops in prison, the cunning instinct of the hunted. I take my time, and eventually turn my eyes to the door. The face of the guard fills the whole window: I know nothing so menacingly sinister in its silent stillness as that trunkless face glaring at one through the iron bars of a prison cell.

  “Professor, . . . why are you not in bed?” the voice redeems the face. “What are you doing?”

  Relief! I fall back on the current witticism in the detention block.

  “I am writing to Jomo Kenyatta in his capacity as an ex–political prisoner.”

  “His case was different,” the guard argues.

  “How?”

  “His was a colonial affair.”

  “And this, a neocolonial affair? What’s the difference?”

  “A colonial affair . . . now we are independent—that’s the difference,” he says.

  “A colonial affair in an independent country, eh? The British jailed an innocent Kenyatta. Thus Kenyatta learned to jail innocent Kenyans. Is that the difference?”

  He laughs. Then he repeats it.

  “The British jailed Kenyatta. Kenyatta jails Kenyans.” He laughs again, adding, “Take it any way you like, . . . but write a good petition . . . you might get a hearing this time. . . . Your star shines bright in the sky . . . ex–political prisoner.” He chuckles to himself. “Does ‘ex-’ mean the same thing as ‘late’—hayati?”

  “What do you mean?”

  “Can I say the late political prisoner instead of the ex–political prisoner?”

  The tone tells me that he knows the difference and that he is trying to communicate something. But tonight I feel a little impatient.

  “You know I no longer teach English,” I say to him.

  “You never can tell the language of the stars,” he persists. “Once a teacher, always a teacher,” he says, and goes away laughing.

  In his prison notes, The Man Died, Wole Soyinka aptly comments that “no matter how cunning a prisoner, the humanitarian act of courage among his gaolers plays a key role in his survival.”

  This guard is a good illustration of the truth of that observation. He is the one who in March told me about the formation of the London-based Ngũgĩ Defence Committee and the subsequent picketing of the Kenyan Embassy on March 3, 1978. He enjoys talking in riddles and communicating in a roundabout way. It’s a way of protecting himself, of course, but he enjoys seeing a prisoner grope for the hidden meanings, if any. Tonight, his laughter sounds more direct and sympathetic, or perhaps it is another kind of riddle to be taken any way I like.

  Two guards walk the passageway in turns. One sleeps, the other is awake. At one o’clock they change places. They too cannot get out because the door between the passageway and the exercise yard is locked and the keys taken away. Night warders are themselves prisoners guarding other prisoners. Only they are paid for it and their captivity is self-inflicted or else imposed by lack of alternative means of life. One very young guard—a Standard Seven1 dropout—tells me that his ambition is to be a fighter pilot! Another, a grandfather, tells me his ambition once was to become a musician.

  To hell with the guards! Away with intruding thoughts! Tonight I don’t want to think about guards and prisoners, colonial or neocolonial affairs. I am totally engrossed in Warĩnga, the fictional heroine of the novel I have been writing on toilet paper for the last ten months or so!2

  Toilet paper: when in the 1960s I first read in Kwame Nkrumah’s autobiography, Ghana, that in his cell at James Fort Prison he used to hoard toilet paper to write on, I thought it was romantic and a little unreal despite the photographic evidence reproduced in the book. Writing on toilet paper?

  Now I know: paper, any paper, is about the most precious article for a political prisoner, more so for one, like me, who was imprisoned without trial for his writing. For the urge to write . . .

  Picking the jagged bits embedded in my mind,

  Partly to wrench some ease for my own mind,

  And partly that some world sometime may know

  . . . is almost irresistible to a political prisoner.

  At Kamĩtĩ, virtually all the political prisoners are writing or composing something, on toilet paper, mostly. Now the same good old toilet paper—which had served Kwame Nkrumah in James Fort Prison, Dennis Brutus on Robben Island, Abdilatif Abdalla in G Block, Kamĩtĩ, and countless other persons with similar urges—has enabled me to defy daily the intended detention and imprisonment of my mind.

  A flicker, pulse, mere vital hint

  which speaks of the stubborn will

  the grim assertion of some sense of worth

  in the teeth of the wind

  on a stony beach, or among rocks

  where the brute hammers fall unceasingly

  on the mind.

  I now know what Brutus meant. Writing this novel has been a daily, almost hourly, assertion of my will to remain human and free despite the state’s program of animal degradation of political prisoners.

  Privacy, for instance. I mean its brutal invasion. A warder trails me waking and sleeping for twenty-four hours. It is unnerving, truly unnerving, to find a guard watching me shit and urinate into a children’s chamber pot in my cell, or to find him standing by the entrance to the toilet to watch me do the same exercise. The electric light is on all night long. To induce sleep, I tie a towel over my eyes. This ends up straining them, so that after a month they start smarting and watering. But even more painful is to wake up in the middle of the night, from a dreamless slumber or one softened by sweet illusion or riddled with nightmares, to find two bodiless eyes fixed on me through the iron bars.

  Or monotony: the human mind revolts against endless sameness. In ordinary social life, even the closest-knit family hardly ever spends a whole day together on the same compound in meaningless circles. Man, woman, and child go about their different activities in different places and meet only in the evening to recount their different experiences. Experiments done on animals show that when they are confined to a small space and subjected to the same routine they end up tearing each other apart. Now the Kenyatta government was doing the same experiment on human beings.

  At Kamĩtĩ, we daily see the same faces in the same white prison uniforms we call kũngũrũ; for food, we are on corn and beans in the morning, at noon, and at three o’clock. Our life here goes through the same motions, day in day out, in a confined space of reliefless dust and gray stones. The two most dominant colors in the detention block are white and gray, and I am convinced these are the colors of death.

  The officials cannot have been ignorant of the possible results of these experiments in mental torment: Valium is the most frequently prescribed drug. The doctor expects a political prisoner to be mad or depressed unless proved otherwise.

  There is a history to it. I was told a harrowing story of one political prisoner in this very block but before my time who had had a mental breakdown. The authorities watched him go down the drain, till he was reduced to eating his own feces. Yet the regime kept him in that condition for two
years.

  A week after my incarceration, Wasonga Sijeyo, who has been in that block for nine years but has managed to keep a razor-sharp mind and a heart of steel, eluded the vigilant eyes of the warder then guarding me, and within seconds he told me words that I have come to treasure:

  “It may sound a strange thing to say to you, but in a sense I am glad they brought you here. The other day—in fact a week or so before you came—we were saying that it would be a good thing for Kenya if more intellectuals were imprisoned. First, it would wake most of them from their illusions. And some of them might outlive jail to tell the world. The thing is . . . just watch your mind. . . . Don’t let them break you and you’ll be all right even if they keep you for life, . . . but you must try . . . you have to, for us, for the ones you left behind.”

  Besides being an insurrection of a detained intellect, the writing of this novel has been one way of keeping my mind and heart together.

  2

  I had given myself a difficult task. I would write in Gĩkũyũ, a language that did not yet have a modem novel, as a challenge to myself, a way of affirming my faith in the possibilities of the languages of all the different Kenyan nationalities, languages whose growth as vehicles for people’s struggles and development had been actively suppressed by the British colonial regime (1895–1963) and now its postcolonial successor. I had resolved not to make any concessions to the language. I would not avoid any subject—science, technology, philosophy, religion, music, political economy—provided it logically arose out of the development of the novel’s theme, character, plot, story, and world view. Furthermore, I would use everything I had ever learned about the craft of fiction—allegory, parable, satire, narrative, description, reminiscence, flashback, interior monologue, stream of consciousness, dialogue, drama—provided it came naturally in the development of character, theme, and story. Content—not language and technique—would determine the eventual form of the novel.