Something That I Told You

Something That I Told You

  By Jason Wallace

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  Something That I Told You

  Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace

  I don't think I told you

  But I would give my life

  To hold you

  If only once

  Could you ever allow it

  Since I can't do it...

  Now that...

  The miles we have between us

  Aren't any shorter

  But only seem to keep us

  Wishing so much it's hurting

  And can we get through the next few months

  Til it could happen

  Before I lose my mind

  And I find

  It's not somethin I could have and

  It's not somethin open

  But so difficult that all this pain

  And all this hoping

  Is all in vain

  And I don't think I can take it

  Because my heart is so slowly breaking

  And I need so badly to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  If everyone stays out of our business

  And only accepts it like meant it

  Maybe it won't be so bad

  But the time it is taking

  Is making me so lonely that I'm aching

  And all the waiting

  Is worth it all the while but I'm

  Too sad right now to smile

  Because the loneliness I'm hating

  And I know that we'll be together

  Whether it makes sense to them or not

  But time seems it's standing still

  And if I don't hold you soon

  I'm afraid it will seem I never will

  I would give anything in this world to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  Why is waiting so damn painful

  Dragging on and on

  Until I feel

  My mind is gone

  Will it all come back and remain,

  All... I could ever do

  Is spend a while

  Missing you

  In denial

  That wishing you

  Were here right now isn't killin me

  Waiting so unwillingly

  Because not that I don't want you now

  But knowing the wait is way too long somehow

  We have to make time for us some day soon

  Forget how hard that is

  So I can give in to give in to you

  I would give anything it takes to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  You worry I might not accept your past

  Like you haven't tried to forget it fast

  But you don't get that I know that

  That's the old you

  I would do anything just to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  Is it anything I ever told you

  I'll say it from a mountain top

  If I could hold you

  If that's not something that I told you

  I'll still shout it out from every place

  Just so maybe I could see your face

  And maybe I can have one taste

  Of the lips I long to know, you

  Know I would give the world to hold you

  But if that's something I haven't told you

  You will know it soon

  So, Now You

  I could only ever want

  To have you

  To kiss you

  But you're out of sight

  Far from me tonight

  But I would give anything

  Just to be with you

  And no one else will do

  I've been somethin I should never be

  But if you want to know if I love you

  You know I still do

  And no one else could be above you

  Or ever close to enough to

  Make me wanna change

  How you make me feel, too

  I'm sorry if I ever doubt you

  I wonder sometimes just how you

  Put up with what I've done

  But I can't be without you

  Or live with myself if I allow you

  To regret me

  No one else could ever get me

  The way I know you know me

  So now you

  Must decide if I'm worth it

  The pain, the hurt, the anger

  The care, the love, the first kiss

  I don't want us to go back

  To bein strangers

  I only ever want to show you

  I'm not like what you've known

  I know you

  Have been hurt so much it's still painful

  So you

  Have to fight this fight or give up

  Put up with a screw up

  Forgive so you can never forget me

  And hopefully never regret me

  I only hope I can let me

  Do things right again

  Never look back so then

  You can always be happy you met me

  I'm sorry if I ever doubt you

  I wonder sometimes just how you

  Put up with what I've done

  But I can't be without you

  Or live with myself if I allow you

  To regret me

  No one else could ever get me

  The way I know you know me

  So now you

  So now you

  Can learn to love me stronger

  Knowing it will get better

  And know I want my doubts

  To be no longer

  I'm sorry I ever had them

  If we don't give in

  We can't win

  I don't want us ever

  To not be together

  I'm sorry if I ever doubt you

  I wonder sometimes just how you

  Put up with what I've done

  But I can't be without you

  Or live with myself if I allow you

  To regret me

  No one else could ever get me

  The way I know you know me

  So now you

  So now you

  Can please forgive me

  I want to give you

  Everything that makes life worth living

  You think I fulfill your dreams

  But I only pray I can

  Sometimes it somehow seems

  That I'm too much of a man

  Always questioning something

  Never fully accepting

  Not realizing what I have

  Always second guessing

  I'm sorry if I ever doubt you

  I wonder sometimes just how you

  Put up with what I've done

  But I can't be without you

  Or live with myself if I allow you

  To regret me

  No one else could ever get me

  The way I know you know me

  So now you

  So now you

  So now you

  Know how sorry I'm feeling

  But please know I'm always willing

  Trying to be what you need

  And never in between

  What you've had and what you're wanting

  So now you

  So now you

  Can please forgive me

  A Whole Lotta Beautiful

  I got someone new to hold

  The hand of a long lonely man,

  Sittin’ by me, beside me, lookin’

  Like a whole lotta beautiful.

  We could take a drive

  On this do nothin’ kinda night,

/>   Ride through the countryside,

  See through the dark before we park,

  Get a bit farther than where we are,

  Knowin’ that when the mood hits us with all its might,

  Nothin’ could be wrong because

  It’s been only just completely right.

  My jacket’s in the back; it

  Could never leave me cold

  Cuz I got you, a whole lotta beautiful.

  I could ask you where you’ve been

  My whole life

  Until this moment, now,

  But I won’t because I don’t

  Care – what, where,

  Or even how that led to this

  Or what life used to hold.

  I could never miss the least of it.

  I got you for a while, and it’s always full

  Of a whole lotta beautiful.

  This crisp air,

  Your long hair,

  Your soft kiss,

  Your sweet lips, fingertips

  Running down my arm again,

  Everything the night brings,

  The right things

  That leave me lost in a whirlwind,

  And I don’t wanna go back to when

  I never knew

  A girl that could make me choose

  Between nothingness and this absence

  Of all my cares in a world where

  I feel so incomplete, without any sense.

  You know it’s you, the most wonderful,

  And you’re only a whole lotta beautiful.

  I could ask you where you’ve been

  My whole life

  Until this moment, now,

  But I won’t because I don’t

  Care – what, where,

  Or even how that led to this

  Or what life used to hold.

  I could never miss the least of it.

  I got you for a while, and it’s always full

  Of a whole lotta beautiful.

  You’re a whole lotta beautiful,

  More than a little more

  Than the one I’ve been waiting for,

  All I could have hoped in a helpless moment of

  Chaos in my mind, no longer sure of much anymore

  Except that you’re the best, better than any of the rest before,

  You’re the one out of so many that’s worth the risk

  Of losing and being turned loose after such a toll

  Because you’re a whole lotta beautiful.

  I’ll give up

  When my time’s up.

  So little lasts forever.

  If you’ve had enough,

  You can say enough,

  And I’ll try to understand

  Why we can’t be together.

  I won’t complain; I hope I don’t.

  I know this time is like it’s somethin’ that I stole,

  Not really for me with such a whole lotta beautiful.