She Is Not Invisible

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  For Alice, just for being cool

  CONTENTS

  Title Page

  Copyright Notice

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  The First Gate

  The Black Book

  You Never Know

  The Guard Dogs

  The First Page

  The Stray Book

  The Third Gate

  The Right Seat

  The Plane Trip

  The Fizzy Tist

  The Blind Hero

  Who Knows What?

  The Third Page

  One Blind Girl

  One Money Size

  One Weird Dude

  Two Crazy Guys

  The Black King

  354

  The Empty Room

  The Dying Poet

  The Poet’s Home

  The Pious Poem

  And Third Long

  The Human Mind

  The Fatal Idea

  Two Dried Mice

  The Final Clue

  God Plays Dice

  The Wrong Idea

  The Noisy City

  One Giant Leap

  Boy Meets Girl

  Author’s Note

  Also by Marcus Sedgwick

  Copyright

  If a man look sharply and attentively, he shall see Fortune: for though she be blind, yet she is not invisible.

  —Francis Bacon, “Of Fortune,” 1612

  THE FIRST GATE

  One final time I told myself I wasn’t abducting my little brother.

  I swear I hadn’t even thought of it that way until we were on the Underground, and by the time we got to the airport, it was too late for second thoughts, and it was too late to put Mum’s credit card back in her purse.

  It was also too late not to have used that credit card to buy us, Benjamin and me, two tickets to New York, and it was without a shadow of a doubt far too late not to have taken out five hundred dollars from the fancy-pants cashpoint at the airport.

  But I had done all these things, though I passed at least some of the blame on to Mum for letting me help her with online shopping from time to time, as well as telling me most of her PIN numbers.

  However many crimes I’d committed already that morning, I’d done it all for a very good reason, and it must be said that they faded into insignificance next to the thought that I was abducting my brother.

  Benjamin, to his credit, was taking the whole thing as only a slightly strange seven-year-old can. He stood patiently, holding my hand, his Watchmen backpack on his back, silently waiting for me to get myself together. Far from screaming to the world that his big sister was kidnapping him, he was much more concerned with whether Stan needed a ticket.

  I held his hand tightly. We were somewhere in the check-in hall at Terminal 3. It was loud and very confusing and we needed to find the right desk. People hurried by on all sides and I’d already lost track of where we’d come in.

  “Stan does not need a ticket,” I repeated, for the eleventy-eighth time, and before Benjamin could get in his bonus question added, “And, no, he does not need a passport, either.”

  “But we do,” said Benjamin. He sounded a little nervous. If Stan didn’t make the flight I knew Benjamin’s world would probably end.

  “Yes,” I said. “We do.”

  Just then, by coincidence I heard someone walk past talking about a flight to New York, and that started me panicking.

  I took a long, slow breath. Benjamin is utterly wonderful, and I love him deeply, but he does have his moments, and I needed him. I absolutely needed him; if I didn’t, I wouldn’t have abducted him. Not that I had. Not really.

  “We do,” I explained, “because we are real, alive, and human, and Stan—exceptional though he is—is none of those things.”

  Benjamin thought about this for a moment.

  “He is real,” he said.

  “Yes, you’re right,” I said. “Sorry. He is real. But he’s also a stuffed toy. He doesn’t need a passport.”

  “Are you really sure?”

  “I’m really sure. How is he, anyway?”

  Benjamin held a brief conference with Stan. I guessed he was probably holding him by the wing, as usual, in the same way I was holding Benjamin’s hand. We must have looked pretty silly, the three of us. Me, then pint-sized Benjamin, then a scruffy black raven.

  “He’s fine, but he misses everyone.”

  By “everyone” Benjamin meant the menagerie of fluffy creatures and plastic superheroes in his bedroom.

  “We only left them an hour ago.”

  “I know, but that’s just how Stan is. He also says he’s missing Dad.”

  I pulled Benjamin into a walk.

  “Listen, Benjamin. You need to find the desk that says Virgin Atlantic Check-In. Maybe Stan can help. Don’t ravens have excellent eyesight?”

  It was a bit of a gamble but it worked.

  “Virgin Atlantic…” Benjamin repeated. “Come on. It’s right here! Stan, I beat you. Even though you have excellent eyesight.”

  Benjamin started ahead quickly, and I hung on to him, tugging his hand to try to get him to remember how we walk. It’s something we worked out together a couple of years ago and he likes doing it, but I guess he was excited about going on a plane again, and his hand slipped out of mine as he trotted away.

  “Benjamin!” I called, waiting for him to come back.

  It was probably only a second or two but I freaked out and rushed after him, then kicked into a bag or something, and went sprawling full length on the floor.

  Even in the noise of the airport I heard everyone around me go quiet as they watched and I knew I’d made a stunning spectacle of myself. I’d landed with my legs over the bag and my arms flung out in front of me.

  “Am I invisible?” a man said angrily.

  My sunglasses had shot off my face somewhere, and I heard him sigh.

  “Why don’t you look where you’re going? My laptop’s in there.”

  I got to my feet and managed to kick his bag again.

  “For God’s sake,” he said.

  “I’m sorry,” I muttered. “Sorry.”

  I kept my head down as the man unzipped his bag, grumbling.

  “Benjamin?” I said, but he was already back at my side.

  “Are you okay, Laureth?” he asked, pushing something into my hands. “Here’s your glasses.”

  I slipped them on quickly.

  “I’m really sorry,” I said in the direction of the man, and held my hand out for Benjamin to take. “We’d better get a move on.”

  Benjamin took my hand and this time walked with me properly, in our secret way.

  “There’s a queue,” he said, coming to a stop. “It’s only short.”

  The first gate, I said to myself. That’s what Dad would have called it. The first person I had to pass; the assistant at the check-in desk.

  “It’s our go,” whispered Benjamin.

  “Next customer, please!”

  It was the woman at the desk.

  I squeezed Benjamin’s hand, and bent down to whisper back.

  “Wait here.”

  “Why?”

  “You know why,” I said, which gave me the task of walking the few paces up to the desk by myself.

  I was glad it was summer and hot outside, because it looks less weird wearing sunglasses when the sun’s shining, even indoors, but after falling o
ver some grumpy guy’s bag I didn’t want to draw any more attention to myself.

  “Where are you traveling today?” asked the woman, before I was even at the desk.

  I thought about my friend Harry at school. He’s amazing. He’d have tried making a couple of clicks to figure out where the desk was, but I guessed it probably wouldn’t have worked even for him; there was way too much background noise. Besides, there’s always the risk that someone thinks you’re pretending to be a dolphin. Not cool. Instead, I swept my hands up slowly but smoothly, and was very pleased that I’d got the distance almost exactly right. I mean, I banged my shins painfully into some kind of metal foot rail in front of the desk, but I did my best to keep a straight face and plonked our passports on the desk.

  “Er, New York,” I said. “JFK. 9:55.”

  The woman took our passports.

  “Any bags to check in?”

  “Er, no,” I said. “Just hand baggage.”

  I turned and showed her my backpack, and waved a hand toward Benjamin, praying he’d stayed where I’d left him.

  “Short break, is it? Doing anything nice?”

  I told her the truth. What I hoped was the truth.

  “Going to see our dad,” I said.

  She paused.

  “How old are you, Miss Peak?”

  “Sixteen.”

  “And that’s your brother, is it?”

  I nodded.

  “And he’s…?”

  “Oh, he’s seven. It said on the website he can travel with me if he’s five. And he’s seven. And I’m sixteen, so I—I mean we—we thought that…”

  “Oh, yes,” said the woman, “that’s fine, I was just asking. But does the bird have a passport?”

  “I told you!” cried Benjamin from somewhere behind me.

  “It’s okay, love,” said the woman. “I’m joking. He doesn’t need a passport.”

  “He doesn’t need a passport,” I said. Then I felt stupid and shut up.

  “Can I have a look at your bird?” the woman said, over my shoulder.

  “I have to stay here,” said Benjamin.

  “Why does he have to stay there?” said the woman to me.

  Suddenly things were going in the wrong direction.

  “You know,” I said, trying a smile. “Small boys. I mean, he doesn’t have to stay there, but—well—small boys.”

  “Are you okay, Miss Peak?” the woman asked. Her voice was suddenly serious.

  “Oh. Yes. You know. Anxious.”

  “The flight’s not for an hour and a half. You’ve plenty of time.”

  “Oh, no,” I said, feeling more desperate to get away than ever. “I mean about flying. And you know, there’s Benjamin.”

  I heard her laugh.

  “Twins,” she announced. “My boys are such a handful, and just his age. And there’s two of them, so count yourself lucky. Whenever we go on holiday it’s like we’ve declared war on the poor country.”

  I laughed. I thought I sounded really nervous, but the woman didn’t seem to notice.

  “Have a nice flight,” she said.

  She put the passports back on the desk.

  “Boarding is 8:55. Should be gate 35. For your own reassurance it would be sensible to watch for any changes.”

  So then there was just the small issue of picking the passports back up off the counter. I made a gentle sweep across the desk and with relief found them straightaway.

  “Thank you,” I said. “Benjamin. Hold my hand. You know how you get lost so easily.”

  Benjamin came over and took my hand.

  “I don’t!” he protested, and then, since he was being indignant about it, forgot to squeeze my hand to show me which way to go.

  I froze, though what I really wanted to do was get him away from the nice woman’s desk before he could do any serious damage.

  “Which way do we go?” I asked her.

  “Departures is upstairs,” she said. “Escalators are over there.”

  “Benjamin,” I said. “Benjamin? Shall we?”

  But, bless him, by then he was already pulling me away from the desk, in the right direction. He’s remarkably good to me, mostly.

  The first gate had been passed.

  “Are we going to find Daddy now?” Benjamin asked, as we rode up the escalators to Departures.

  “Yes,” I said. “We’re going to find Daddy now.”

  THE BLACK BOOK

  Thing: a word that Mr. Woodell, my English teacher, tells me I use way too much. But sometimes there is no better word to use than thing.

  For example, there are a couple of vital things to know when abducting your little brother, even if you’re not really: thing one, it’s much simpler if he doesn’t know you’re abducting him, and thing two, it makes the guilt easier to bear if you have a really good reason why you’re abducting him.

  I passed both of these with flying colors.

  On thing one, Benjamin was perfect. Old enough to be useful, young enough not to know that you don’t just leave your house early on a Saturday morning to fly to America with your big sister.

  “Isn’t Mummy coming?” he’d asked, when I’d woken him.

  “Mummy’s going to Auntie Sarah’s today, don’t you remember?”

  It was only seven o’clock, and on a Saturday morning at that. Mum had already left, to beat the worst of the traffic to Manchester, she said, leaving me with strict instructions about when to get Benjamin up, what to get him to eat and so on, as if I didn’t do it a lot anyway. When I’m home at weekends and in the holidays I often look after Benjamin because Mum’s shifts can be dead awkward. So she’s not there a lot and Dad—well, Dad’s often away these days. With the fairies, Mum says.

  As for thing two, that had only begun the evening before, when I’d checked Dad’s email for him. Dad pays me twenty pounds a month to check his fan mail and other random communications that come via his website. I’d started doing it for him when he was away on trips, but pretty soon he asked me to check it all the time, since I was doing it so well and since it made him less stressed not to have to read every single one.

  I tell Dad if there’s anything important that he needs to know, and otherwise I send back one of the standard replies that he has saved in a folder on the desktop, always at hand, because ninety percent of the emails fall into one of three categories.

  There’s the reply for “I am an aspiring writer and I would like you to read what I’ve written.” There’s the reply for “I read your book and I loved it; please will you write more.” And there’s the reply for “I have a question for you: Where do you get your ideas from?”

  Of course, the questions are always asked a bit differently, but they’re more or less the same.

  When Dad first told me about the prewritten replies, I was a bit shocked. I told him it was ungrateful of him—after all, he wouldn’t have a job without his readers, the people who actually buy his books. He was silent for a while and then he said, “Yes, Laureth. You’re right.”

  He sighed. “Believe me, it means everything to get letters like these. But I’m just so busy at the moment…”

  I still wasn’t convinced it was the right thing to do, but the idea of some extra pocket money was too much to resist; I’ve always got a list as long as my arm of audiobooks that I want, so I agreed.

  Oh, and there’s a fourth category of emails, which go like this: “I read your book and it sucked. I mean it really sucked. You’re a terrible writer.” Dad’s less keen on those.

  We don’t have a prewritten reply for this category, because Dad says we don’t need to reply to people who aren’t polite. It makes me angry when I open an email like that. I think Dad’s books are really good. Well, most of them. He works so hard on them, and I can’t believe how easy people find it to be mean. It doesn’t happen that often but the first time I got one it made me want to send a totally nasty message back, but then Dad asked me why I’d want to. What would it achieve? He laughed, an empty sort
of laugh, and warned me never to get involved with those sorts of people. He has a friend, another writer, who once replied with a torrent of abuse to an email criticizing her novel. She called the person who’d sent it “an illiterate monkey with nuts for brains,” only she didn’t say nuts. It was all over the Internet the following week and his friend got into no end of trouble for it. She doesn’t get asked to speak at book festivals anymore, for one thing.

  Anyway, I was plugging away through the emails as usual, and cutting and pasting Dad’s replies, adding a little personal touch on the end here and there if I thought it was a particularly nice email, because I know just what Dad would say, and then I came across one that was different. Very different.

  I had VoiceOver turned way up, to almost top speed, so when I heard the subject of the email the first time, I didn’t quite catch it.

  I fumbled around with the settings on the Mac to slow its speech rate down and then played the subject line again.

  The Black Book.

  That grabbed me at once, because the Black Book is what Dad calls his notebook. He has lots of notebooks, hardback notebooks, always the same, and they’re all called the Black Book. He calls them that because they’re white, apparently, and apparently that’s funny, but I don’t really see why.

  As I listened to the message, my skin went cold.

  The email came from someone called Michael Walker, and he said that he’d found Dad’s notebook and had seen the email address inside the cover and wanted to claim the reward that was offered.

  The email finished like this:

  I note that the value of the reward is £50 and so I think I must be right in saying that you’re British. I’d like to enquire what the dollar equivalent would be, should I return your book to you.

  Yours, Mr. Michael Walker

  What made my skin go cold was the word dollar. That probably meant America, I knew. Which was odd, to say the least, because Dad was supposed to be in Europe. In Switzerland.

  Something wasn’t right. Dad’s not the most normal of people you could ever meet, that’s true. But even for him, this was unlikely behavior.

  I went and found Mum. She was in her bedroom, packing to go to Aunt Sarah’s, I guessed.

  “Mum,” I said, “is there anywhere in Europe that uses dollars?”