My Little Box Full of Love



  My Little Box Full of Love

  By Kennedy Bleu

  Copyright 2012 Kennedy Stone

  The Agony of Love – Love Hurts Poetry

  One + One might = Three

  when we're in the mood 

  when we're in this place

  when the temperature rises 

  and our hearts start to race 

  and in between heavy breathing

  accompanied by low moans

  our body's needing 

  while my mind can't even roam 

  then it all goes wrong 

  it all just stop

  with an imperfection of the song 

  a latex pop

  then he pulled out 

  face full of dread 

  and i never gave a shout 

  when he got up and fled

  All is fair in love and war.

  Love turns the world into a battle field

  The pain in my words I weald

  But mine cut far less than his

  Yet, it’s an enjoyable pain

  And there’s always more when done

  In a fairer world, he/I would be dead

  Because no matter how war comes

  There is always casualties

  Never would have thought it would end like this.

  Never would have thought

  it would end like this.

  Never would have imagined 

  it would be such an evil bliss.

  Never could have guessed

  you felt this way

  Never could have put it together 

  you would have this to say 

  Never would have believed 

  it would end so quick.

  Never would have conjured

  it would give me such a slip.

  Never should have put faith

  in something so young.

  Never should have put loved 

  in something so sing song.

  But if I never opened up

  and gave you my heart

  I would have never known 

  where true love should start

  I think that's why I'm reacting so calm.

  Alphabetized

  This guy told me he could take me away from you, 

  Take me to a better life.

  And in a place where A-Z is prioritized ahead of me

  Being human, simply, I was intrigued at the possibilities 

  Can you honestly blame me, honestly fight an endless war

  Don't give me the crap about being young, Juliet was just a teen 

  Even if the times have changed

  Feelings stay the same

  Give me no signs, but I know when it's time to end 

  He was everything you’re not, when you’re not there for me 

  In for the long run you said you'll be

  Just gave us six months and you pushed me away 

  Kicked my love to the side line

  Looking for a chance to go in 

  Mostly wishing you could give me a little time

  Never wanting to be you only star

  Of course that, to you, was too much to part 

  Putting me further and further away 

  Quietly keeping to myself and

  Resting upon a broken heart 

  So when he came around I happily left you 

  To, without a doubt, be completely a lone

  Understatement of the year, everyone needs somebody

  Very caring, considerate, & always there 

  When life gets too much to bare 

  Xeroxes of compassion don't amount to anything 

  Your only need is a

  Zinnia of emotions from a person to

  Whoever the Me may be.

  He once loved me.

  I’m happy he once loved me

  Once traced my heart with his

  I’m glad he once treasured me

  Once held me highest on a pedestal

  I’m cheerful he once valued me

  Once saw worth in a broken heart 

  But that was then what seems to be a stark evening ago. 

  And, my way, love never seems to go.

  I’m astonished he once cared for me

  Once surprisingly held me close

  I’m ecstatic he once could fit me in

  Once waited on my heart

  I’m happy he once loved me

  Once did this entire list

  But that was then what has to be a heart turns past. 

  And, foolish me, thinking it was going to last.

  From You.

  Sitting here without a reason as to why. But I cry inside every time you say bye. 

  But it doesn’t mean nothing at all.

  Hard to hold on to. If I don’t run I’ll lose you. 

  Feeling like I don’t mean nothing at all.

  You claim you miss, who? Seems that I’m nothing to. You. 

  Treat me like I don’t mean nothing at all. 

  How is it when I’m gone. It just feels so wrong. 

  And you don’t pay attention to nothing at all. 

  I say these words. Reaching only the birds. 

  Because I’ll always get nothing at all. 

  From you.

  Rain Clouds

  Every recognition of her existence 

  by him filling her big black eyes with the 

  shining look of rain falling in wet leaves.

  She does deserve him. She was 

  unaccustomed to being adored by a man in a

  single-minded way. 

  That is adoration was patient and 

  waiting while love or, if you liked, plain 

  sexual passion banged everything about.

  It either should or thought it knew

  too much and it had always left her cold

  and had not involved her heart.

  What sort of woman was she, who only 

  gives away to love under extreme pressure

  and pain?

  Enough

  When you lose someone you love you just can’t cry enough.

  And now I can’t say how you feel, but I sure can say it’s tough.

  When you’re heart walks out the door, you just can’t scream enough.

  And here where it use to beat, it still feels a little rough.

  When you’ve gave all you can, an you still feel like it’s not enough.

  Vodka helps.

  Seems like I can only find love in the comfort of a bottle. It doesn't hurt you, doesn't scar. 

  Seems like I can only find love when the love comes cool and slow. It doesn't leave bad memories of what once was. 

  Seems like I can only find love when its akdoV spelled right. It doesn't seem like I can do anything right now. 

  Seems like my first two glasses are warring off. It doesn't look like I have a full bottle in the house. 

  Seems like I need to go and get four more. It doesn't appear to be a good coping method. 

  Seems like it works, until I run dry. Or think of him.

  Kameron R. Woodard

  Wishing on a star to keep a heart I do not deserve.

  I dare not open my eyes to see if your here. 

  Just reach out my hand to feel if you’re near.

  Trying to tell you I love you, but I can't work up the nerve.

  Deep inside I know you can do better.

  Whether it's because it all seems too perfect.

  Or the weight of your heart is too much and I don't want to break it.

  Seems putting mine back takes forever.

  But I know when you kiss me I lose account for place & time. 

  My breathing gets heavy and
slows. 

  And your heart beat matches mine. 

  All who's been in-love knows how that gets. 

  And I know I tend to get so insecure. 

  Over look big emotions and under look small details.

  But it doesn't matter anymore. 

  His little angel.

  He didn't do it for the love, but for the money. 

  Left our home in search for something "greater". 

  Hit the pavement and start off running. 

  Tried to make it on his own and get it done.

  But the world is big scary and hard. 

  He didn't do it for himself, but for his daughter.

  His beautiful girl he hasn't seen.

  Wanted her to have the best life even without him.

  But what he didn't know was that all she wanted was him.

  And to know she is loved.

  He didn't do it for the chance, but for the opportunity.

  That once in a life time moment to change her whole life. 

  Gave her up and held back the tears.

  Bit his lip and worked his ass off.

  But he always seems to fall short.

  He didn’t do it for the dream, but for the reality. 

  That evil truth of the matter with no silver lining. 

  No sliver of hope that he’ll ever see her smile.

  And closed adoptions never open.

  Diamond or Rhinestone

  Should I allow myself to be a diamond or a rhinestone? 

  From the dude who would give anything to be with me… 

  Who would put me on the highest pedestal… 

  Don’t I deserve to be a diamond? 

  From the dude who doesn’t know what he has… 

  So does that mean I don’t know my worth… 

  Or am I worth nothing just a common rhinestone? 

  Should I stay in a comfortable place and avoid pressure? 

  From the guy who has me by my heart… 

  And squeezes until that agonizing pain… 

  Becomes all I can handle at one point…

  From the guy who wants me… 

  To just let go and give in…. 

  To everything in my heart…

  Unanswered Questions

  Should I try something new?

  Well the same old story freshly spun around 

  Take a chance on cupids lost dance 

  Wonder if hope keeps life from crashing down?

  Should I just wait? 

  Hold off on something I just got out of

  But wouldn’t the best just happen anyway, fate 

  Do you think that last bit is true? 

  Should I do wait everyone wants?

  What everyone who knows me says is best

  But don’t I know myself better than the rest

  Or is that just what people say?

  Should I do what’s best for me?

  But what if I don’t even know what that is 

  Truth be told I’m lost

  But hey, doesn’t the truth set you free?

  Lovers Lies

  I Love You.

  And these are the true lies of our real lives 

  The ones we wake up and say out of habit

  To the faces of people we Love that cut like knifes

  And the blood that soaks through is just the pains advocate 

  I believed when your hand print was still there after you were gone

  That was you showing your Love 

  An you still there meant I would never be alone

  Like a watchful angel from above 

  But hey the devil was an angel too 

  And you would never think someone could fall so far

  Saddest thing you tried to take me with you 

  Now i see you for the Lover you are 

  And just as happily, on me, you left dents 

  I open my eyes and raise my heart 

  Knowing time will lift your prints

  Walking into the sunset apart 

  Love.

  Bi-po-love

  You love me

  Well us

  Maybe it was you

  who was different.

  Me crazy , 

  you also high

  I was addicted to Harmony 

  And you kept running back too

  your first love - crack 

  But we found a way, somehow 

  We try to fight the odds

  But with Harmony wanting to shoot up 

  You couldn't fight 

  the devil in a red dress

  Candace couldn't watch you and Harmony 

  playing in the devils playground 

  Kissing, Shooting, Dazed, Fighting, Shooting 

  Repeat

  I pushed Harmony away 

  But I love you so I let her stay

  Soon I faded and Harmony finished up 

  for me 

  Just play nice in the World of crank 

  Me

  Killing You

  Can you tell me why the roses are red and the violets are blue? 

  Can you tell me why I can't remember him yet I miss you? 

  And can you tell me why you want to pull that trigger? 

  And if you do you'll just be another sorry dead figure. 

  Who let their problems an difficulties keep them down.

  And right now Ima smile because I don't want to frown. 

  Because if I do Ima realize that everything you ever told me was real lies.

  That I should never give up an to just suck it up when life spins me around.

  Because it's just a sad clown.

  Yep, life an it's a stupid joke. 

  An even if you don't think so the punch~line makes me choke.

  An maybe till hope does me in. 

  Because I'm not Batman an can't go to a funeral for a friend. 

  Even though I wish I was in-the-end. 

  An if you decide to be that dead figure. 

  Please don't go down with a pull of a trigger.

  So me first and the last note is for you. 

  An just remember that if you go through, 

  you'll might as well be killing me while you’re killing you.

  I pray to thee.

  I pray to thee, please watch his heart

  No harm entered, around, or found

  Please place over him your own protectoral mound

  And the way left and returned, the same be

  I pray to thee, please watch his hands

  Not idle, worn or tattered 

  Please give him strength that can’t be shattered 

  And able to carry my sorrows for me

  I pray to thee, please watch his feet

  Not tired, but ever tiring and always careful

  Please let them carry him to places unlawful

  And always back to the familiar we

  I pray to thee, please watch his face

  No scratches, wounds, or stress

  Please give him ease of mind always, not at best

  And always a place to put it for he

  I pray to thee, bring him back for she

  Crying wolf

  Hearts do break

  and I must admit

  I found a verse and a chorus

  so I might have been faking it.

  Think I might have only cried just once.

  After all the shows,

  after the boys of summer had gone

  amid all the confusion

  and friends I've been losing

  I always thought from the start

  I'd be the one moving on.

  I guess I'll never know

  Where all the boys of summer will go

  but I'll miss what me made

  and the days were not wasted.

  There are some things I may never know.

  But then that lone tear dried 

  I forgot the question 

  And kept on steppi
ng 

  Not sorry if you couldn't 

  Get me out of your head. 

  Thought I thought about you one. 

  And those days long gone 

  But Memories are forever

  As if I care if 

  When ever I see a sea shell

  I think of you.

  I'm not crying wolf to my heart

  I didn’t need you from the start 

  You were just some summer fling

  And now summers over.

  If I was to cry.

  If one day I was to cry 

  And use heartbreak as the reason why

  My eyes would never dry 

  If for a moment I was to cry 

  Until love and sorrow found an equal tie

  I may never find peace before I die

  If just like you I was to cry 

  That would make two as blue as the sky

  Without a thought to correct life's lie 

  If you let me go and I was to cry

  I would just accept my given pie 

  No questions asked, just our final good-bye

  Confession

  I admit

  I really miss how things used to be

  But I can also admit 

  I've accepted the fact that things have changed

  I admit

  I really miss the way your smell stayed on my clothes 

  But I can also admit

  The smell of hurt stayed around much longer 

  I admit

  Good sex can fix a bad argument

  But I can also admit 

  It doesn't cure a bad relationship

  I admit 

  I miss the way your touch felt

  But I can also admit

  Being off your leash feels so much better 

  I admit 

  Sweet talk late at night was good 

  But I can also admit

  Soft words can hurt too 

  The Happily Ever After

  In reality it’s fruit that kills

  And shoes that don’t fit 

  Frogs making deals and 

  A prince who’s a twit 

  And even the sun sets in 

  Paradise

  And all those fairy tales