Beneath This Man (This Man Trilogy), Page 22

  I choke on my toast and he frowns. Is he serious? I’m not telling him!

  ‘What’s so shocking about wanting to know what you’re going to be doing?’ he pouts.

  I swallow my toast. ‘Oh, nothing,’ I chew a bit more, ‘if I thought you were genuinely interested and not planning a trampling mission.’ My voice is dripping with sarcasm.

  ‘I am genuinely interested.’ He looks hurt.

  I’m not falling for it. ‘I’ll meet you at Baroque at one. I’ve still got to ring Kate and advise her that you’re gatecrashing our ladies’ lunch.’

  ‘She won’t mind. She loves me.’ he says confidently.

  ‘That is because you bought her Margo Junior.’ I remind him.

  ‘No, it is because she told me so.’ He’s so smug.

  ‘When?’

  ‘When we were out,’ He pushes my hair from my face. ‘The night I showed you how to dance. The night you got completely k-lined.’

  ‘K-lined?’ I ask around my toast.

  ‘Drunk.’ he mouths.

  I scoff. ‘Kate must have been drunk too.’ She wasn’t as drunk as me, but that would be difficult. She was well on her way, though – not that it would matter. Kate wouldn’t tell anyone she liked them if she didn’t, and she certainly wouldn’t say she loves them, even if it is a term of endearment.

  ‘Not just then.’ He scoops his finger in the jar and thrusts it under my nose. I screw my face up and he smirks before licking it off himself.

  ‘When then?’ I ask casually, taking another bite of my toast. He’s doing this on purpose.

  ‘At The Manor.’ He tosses it in the air like it’s the most natural thing in the world for Kate to be at The Manor.

  My jaw hits the marble counter. I remember Kate went to The Manor on Saturday night and I remember Jesse being called away late Saturday night. It must have been then. She didn’t go into details when I asked her. Fun is what she had said and she didn’t elaborate further. I definitely wasn’t going to push it after her contemptuous reaction to my questioning.

  ‘What was she doing at The Manor?’ I try to sound casual, but by the look on his face, I’ve failed.

  He smiles. ‘That is none of our business.’ He jumps up from the stool and chucks his empty jar in the bin. ‘I’ve got to scram.’

  ‘Scram?’

  ‘Like, skedaddle…go…leave.’ He winks at me, and I pool on the stool in a soppy mess. He’s in a good mood this morning, all roguish and playful. I love him. Easygoing Jesse is becoming a more regular visitor these days.

  ‘I’ve decided that maybe lunch isn’t such a good idea. I don’t want Kate to think we’re joined at the hip.’ I turn away from him and carry on eating my toast in the most blasé manner I can muster. It’s hard when my man is bristling and snarling behind me.

  He grabs me, and I squeal as he flips my around and walks me to the wall, pinning me under his delicious body with my toast still in my hand. His eyes are uncertain and I almost feel guilty… almost.

  I know what’s coming.

  I fight to conceal the grin that’s tickling the corners of my mouth as he bends, leans into me and rolls his hips up so I get a full on stroke at my core. I moan in pure, sneaky satisfaction.

  ‘You didn’t mean that.’ he says, sliding his hand over my stomach, down towards the apex of my thighs.

  ‘I did.’ I challenge, and then jerk as his thumb slips over my sensitive flesh. Oh God, I will never get enough of him.

  ‘Someone is going to be quick.’ he muses, as he continues to ride me with his hand. I sigh, savouring his talented touch working me. ‘Don’t play games with me, Ava.’ He withdraws his hand and steps back from me.

  WHAT!

  I want to yank him back and shove his hand down below. What the hell is he playing at? I look at him, all what-the-hell, and he smirks at me.

  ‘I’m already late because I wanted to make sure you ate. If I knew you were going to play games with me, I would have fucked you first and feed you after.’ He steps in and makes a point of grinding his ever loving hips against me, moaning in my ear. ‘One o’clock.’ he whispers, before he bites into my suspended toast and pulls away. ‘I love you, lady.’ He looks at me with utter smugness.

  ‘You don’t.’ I snap. ‘If you did, you wouldn’t abandon me halfway to orgasm.’

  ‘Hey!’ he yells. He looks pissed. ‘Don’t ever question whether I love you. It’ll make me mad.’

  I try and plaster an apologetic look on my face, but in my unexploded state, I’m struggling to convince my brain to do anything other than yank him back into me and make him sort me out. He’s turned on, I can see. How is he walking away?

  ‘Have a nice day.’ His eyes soften as he leans down and rests his lips on my cheek. ‘I’m going to miss you like crazy, baby.’

  Oh, I know he will. But it’s only six hours until our lunch date. He’ll live.

  Once I’m ready, I make my way down, clinking on my heels through the foyer as I delve through my bag for my sunglasses.

  ‘Morning, Ava.’ I hear Clive call to my back.

  ‘Morning,’ I slip my shades on and emerge into the sunshine, coming to an abrupt halt when I spot John leaning against his Range Rover.

  Really?

  He lifts his glasses up and shrugs his big shoulders at me. Oh good, he thinks this is stupid too, but I need my car today so I can collect my stuff from Matt’s after work.

  I walk over. ‘John, I can drive to work.’ I say on a tired tone.

  ‘I don’t think you can, girl.’ he rumbles. What’s he talking about? ‘Your car’s being valeted.’ He shrugs again and slides behind the wheel. I swing around and see an army of men cleaning my car.

  Oh, for God’s sake. I drag my keys from my bag and find my car key missing. Later, I will be explaining to Mr Control Freak that snooping through a woman’s handbag – and phone, come to think of it – is bloody rude. Why didn’t he consult me on this? This is bad news. I could ring Kate. She’ll take me. I dial her.

  ‘Yo!’ She’s chirpy.

  ‘Hey, can you take me to Matt’s after work to get my stuff?’ I spit my request out as fast as I can.

  ‘Sure.’

  ‘Great, see you for lunch. Oh, by the way, Jesse is coming.’ I hang up and jump in next to John. He is wearing his usual ensemble of black suit and black shirt. How many black suits can one man have?

  ‘Do you think he’s unreasonable and challenging?’ I ask casually, flipping the visor down to put some lip gloss on.

  ‘Yes, girl,’ he rumbles. ‘But, like I said, only with you.’

  I drop my hand into my lap and look over at John, who is tapping the steering wheel as usual. ‘So, he doesn’t behave like a madcap at work then?’

  ‘Nope.’

  I frown. ‘He’s easygoing?’

  ‘Yep,’

  I sigh heavily, just so John knows that I want more than that. ‘Why?’

  He looks at me, dazzling me with his white teeth, and I catch a glimpse of the illusive gold one. ‘Girl, don’t be too harsh on the crazy mother fucker. He’s never cared before you.’

  I sit back in my seat and listen to John commence humming to match his taps. Jesse can’t have never cared for anything. He’s thirty seven.

  ‘How old is he?’ I ask on a smile, earning myself another dazzler from John.

  ‘He’s thirty seven. But you know that now, don’t you, girl?’

  Oh no!

  I die a thousand deaths on the spot and turn a thousand shades of red. I forgot Jesse had to be rescued. I bet John got a right eyeful. I start laughing to myself when I think of what John must have walked in on – a bedroom, with one naked God handcuffed to the bed, a diamante embellished vibrator, my new black lace underwear sprawled on the floor and the aforementioned naked God making holes in the wall with said vibrator. I bet John thought it was hilarious and Jesse obviously explained how and why he ended up handcuffed to the bed.

  I’m beyond embarrassed.

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bsp; We make the rest of the journey in silence, except for John’s humming. I can’t look at him. He drops me off at Berkeley Square and I run to my office to escape my discomfort, giving him a quick wave over my shoulder. How am I ever going to face him again?

  I wander to my desk and see Sally at the filing cabinet. She looks suicidal. The high neck, polyester blouse is back and the fire cracker nail polish has disappeared. It is definitely as I expected. Men are such wankers. I elect not to mention it, she won’t appreciate it.

  ‘Morning, Sally.’ I try not to sound too upbeat. She lifts a heavy head and offers a small smile before returning to her filing. I feel bad for her. ‘Where is everyone?’ I ask. She shrugs. Oh, this is bad, so I resign myself to shutting up and getting on with things.

  My morning is very productive. I finalise a few accounts and update myself on all of my live clients. At twelve forty five, I leave for lunch.

  I enter the bar and spot Kate at our usual table. She scowls at me as I approach. ‘Your telephone etiquette needs some work.’ she snipes.

  I had been rather abrupt this morning, but I was too busy dealing with my challenging man to worry about telephone manners. ‘I’m sorry.’ I sit down and come face to face with a big glass of wine. ‘Fuck! Kate, get rid of it!’ I shove it to her side of the table.

  She gives me daggers. ‘I thought you might need it.’

  Yes, I really do, but Jesse will be here soon and what would it look like if I’m sat here slurping wine? That would be cruel and extremely thoughtless. I make a grab for Kate’s glass and she throws herself on it.

  ‘Kate, he’ll be here soon.’

  ‘Hey! Put the wine down!’ she demands in a stern voice. ‘He’s not my boyfriend.’

  I can’t believe she’s doing this. How inconsiderate of her. She refuses to let go, and I glare at her as I release her glass. She picks it up and takes a long swig while watching me.

  ‘You cow!’ I toss at her, and she grins around the rim. I grab my wine and down the lot in one foul swoop. Kate bursts into laughter. Oh God, that was good. It’s been almost two weeks since I’ve had a drink which is an all-time record for me. I let out a long, satisfied gasp.

  ‘You did need it.’ Kate confirms the obvious.

  ‘Yes. And probably another.’ I sulk. Guilt washes over me at my weakness and I look over my shoulder before running to the bar to deposit my empty. I feel like a delinquent child. ‘Oh, and don’t tell Jesse you love him. It makes his head swell.’ I moan as I sit back down.

  She laughs. ‘Shall I pick you up at six from your office?’

  Yes, let’s get this conversation out of the way before Jesse gets here. ‘Is that all right?’ I know it will be, but after her reprimand on telephone manners, I feel like I should make the effort.

  ‘Sure it is. Have you spoken to Matt?’

  ‘Yeah, he’s expecting me, but Jesse doesn’t know I’m going and it has to stay that way.’ I say warningly. Kate raises her eyebrows but says nothing. ‘He’ll trample.’ I shrug. I think that wine has gone straight to my head. I feel woozy. ‘How’s Sam?’ I ask.

  ‘He’ll be here soon. I thought, as you had landed Jesse on me this morning, I would see if he wanted to join us too.’ She says it like Jesse joining us is the only reason for her inviting Sam. I know different.

  ‘Hey, do you know what’s happened with Victoria and Drew?’ I ask eagerly. Kate must know something.

  Her eyes widen. ‘Oh, you won’t believe it!’

  ‘What?’ I sit forward, completely rapt with the obvious sign of dirt to dish.

  ‘Drew asked her to go to The Manor. Little prissy was not impressed!’ Kate is delighted, but I’m suddenly filled with dread.

  If Victoria knows about The Manor, does that mean she knows who owns The Manor? Did Drew tell her everything? Has she done the math? Oh good God, I pray not. She isn’t the most clued up of girls, but if she has worked it out, then there would be no doubt that she has told Tom. This is getting beyond tricky. Tom hasn’t mentioned it, though, and that would be one big, juicy discovery for Tom to get his teeth into. Maybe she is stupid. I hope so because the last thing I need is Tom and Victoria on my case and spouting off around the office.

  ‘What do you want to eat?’ Kate asks, snapping me from my worrying thoughts.

  ‘I’ll have a BLT on granary, please.’

  ‘What about Jesse?’

  I frown to myself. I have absolutely no idea. I don’t even know what any of his favourite foods are. ‘Ask if they have peanut butter.’ I shrug.

  ‘Peanut butter?’ She screws her face up in distaste. I’m with her there. ‘Oh, here he is.’ Kate tips her glass in the direction of the door, and I turn to look. I sigh in appreciation, as does Kate when Sam follows in behind him with Drew. She’s playing her feelings for Sam down, I know she is.

  Jesse plants a chaste kiss on my cheek, and then pulls over a chair from another table for himself. He sits down next to me, slightly facing me, resting his hand on my knee. The warmth of his palm spreads up my leg, smacking me straight between the thighs. He does me no favours when he slowly strokes and squeezes, strokes and squeezes.

  ‘You took my car keys.’ I narrow accusing eyes on him.

  ‘Everyone okay?’ he asks, ignoring me and starting to circle his thumb on the inside of my thigh. I glance at him, finding he’s smiling, knowing damn well what he’s doing. I try and pull my leg away but he has none of it. He flips me a little scowl and an extra squeeze, his way for saying; whenever and wherever.

  ‘I’m good.’ Kate chirps. Yes, she’s good now Sam’s here. ‘I’m ordering. What’s everyone having?’ She gets up.

  Everyone throws their order at her and she disappears to the bar, leaving me with the men.

  Jesse leans into me. ‘You’ve had a drink.’

  I tense. ‘It was an accident.’ I blurt.

  ‘I don’t mind you having a drink if I’m with you, Ava.’ He turns his attention back to the boys. He doesn’t mind? I shake my head to myself.

  I sit happily and watch Jesse be completely normal with Drew and Sam, talking about sports, mostly extreme, and generally carrying on like any normal man would. This is easygoing Jesse. He laughs with them, his eyes twinkling, keeping his hand exactly where it is. I smile to myself. It’s a pleasure to see, and then he glances over at me and winks, and I want to straddle his hips and eat him alive.

  ‘So, how is Victoria?’ Kate chucks the question at Drew casually as she takes her seat back up, and everyone looks at him. She is such a shit stirrer.

  ‘Don’t ask.’ He takes a swig from his bottle of beer. I notice no one else seems to be uneasy about the whole alcohol presence. Am I handling this all wrong? ‘She’s sweet, but God, she’s got to lighten up.’ he adds.

  I recoil in my chair. Drew’s lightening up comment is a bit harsh, especially if he’s hit her with an invitation to The Manor. He can’t knock her for being skeptical. ‘Why did you ask her to go?’ I blurt the question before my brain engages. Isn’t it obvious why he asked her? Jesse gives me a sideway glance, and I feel my face burning up.

  Drew shrugs. ‘It’s who I am, it’s what I like.’

  ‘Amen.’ Sam says and raises his bottle.

  My eyes bulge slightly at his openness with Kate’s presence, then I notice Kate stiffen slightly. I look at her questioningly, but she pretends she hasn’t seen me and chinks Sam’s bottle with her glass. Sam grins at her and my eyes widen further. She’s had some action at The Manor!

  Holy fucking shit!

  I glare at her, but she still refuses to look at me. Does Jesse know this?

  ‘Anyway,’ Drew continues, ‘I’ve got to make the most of it. Get to thirty five and it’s a slippery slope down to a saggy arse and man boobs. I’ll think about a woman who loves me for me and not for my body when I need to.’

  I feel Jesse tense next to me, and I look at him, but he’s refusing to look at me too. He’s thirty seven, but there’s most certainly no saggy arse or m
an boobs on him. I shift my legs and cross one over the other, prompting him to tighten his grip. Out the corner of my eye, I see his lips form a straight line.

  ‘Well, I’ve only got nine years left, so I’d better get my fill.’ Kate says sardonically.

  My jaw drops. I can’t believe she has just openly said that. My eyes are wide, my mouth gaping. It’s obvious I’m shocked. I’m sat around a table in a normal bar, in normal London, with normal people and they’re all talking about The Manor likes it’s a perfectly regular set-up. No, not normal people. How can they be? These three men have all dabbled and now Kate has been dragged to the dark side too. I need more wine. What the fuck is going on?

  ‘It hits us women worse than you lot.’ Kate continues, waving her wine glass in the general direction of the men. I catch Sam winking at her, which only confirms for sure that she’s definitely had some action. I want to drag her out of the bar and demand she explains herself. I’m not sure this is a good thing, even though Kate insists it’s just fun. I can see she is playing this down.

  ‘Is that what happened to you, Jesse?’ I ask coolly, taking a sip of my water.

  His hand shifts up my thigh slightly, and I clench my legs shut. ‘No.’ He turns to me. ‘Do you think I’m lacking in the body department?’ He arches an expectant eyebrow at me.

  What a stupid question if ever there was one. ‘You know I don’t.’

  He grins. ‘So, I’m still your God?’

  I flush and scowl at him at the same time. ‘You’re an arrogant God.’ I mutter.

  He leans in and wraps his palm around my neck, dragging me towards him and hitting me with a completely over-the-top kiss. Despite my surroundings, I let him take me. As usual, my mind goes blank and nothing else exists, except for Jesse and his power over my entire being. Swallowed, swamped, taken…

  When he finally releases me, I look at the others, suddenly hugely embarrassed at his blatant display of affection. There is a chorus of mushy vocals and one vomiting gesture. It’s Jesse. I look at him and he grins, then pulls me into his arms.

  ‘Seriously, you guys.’ Kate scorns. ‘Here’s the food, so enough with the sloppy shit.’