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Walking on Air

Catherine Anderson




  PRAISE FOR THE ROMANCES

  OF CATHERINE ANDERSON

  “Catherine Anderson has a gift for imbuing her characters with dignity, compassion, courage, and strength that inspire readers.”—Romantic Times

  Cheyenne Amber

  “Vivid, unforgettable, and thoroughly marvelous.”

  —New York Times Bestselling Author Elizabeth Lowell

  Perfect Timing

  “Very clever, emotional, and totally entertaining. The humor is contagious and the romance is captivating.”

  —Fresh Fiction

  Coming Up Roses

  “An extraordinary novel. Poignant, moving, rich in character, and deeply emotional. A keeper.”

  —Romantic Times

  Lucky Penny

  “Anderson returns to her historical roots with a stirring, beautifully rendered story of the power of family, love, and trust.”

  —Romantic Times (4½ Stars)

  Comanche Magic

  “This is a love story that will take you by surprise, sweep you off your feet, and make you believe in second chances.”

  —Book Chick City

  Here to Stay

  “Another wonderful, very emotional story of the Harrigan family.”

  —Romantic Times

  Indigo Blue

  “A marvelous, moving, poignant, and sensual love story. . . . Ms. Anderson holds her readers spellbound.”

  —Romantic Times

  Early Dawn

  “Never stinting on the harsh reality inherent in the setting, the author tempers the roughness with a powerful love story and remarkable characters.”

  —Romantic Times

  Comanche Heart

  “Riveting, passionate, and powerful . . . everything a romance should be.”

  —Amanda Quick

  “Highly sensual and very compelling . . . a truly spectacular read.”

  —Linda Lael Miller

  “I thoroughly enjoyed [it].”

  —Karen Robards

  Star Bright

  “An emotionally moving and romantic treat that you’re sure to enjoy.”

  —Night Owl Romance Reviews (Top Pick)

  Morning Light

  “This is a story not to be missed. Morning Light delivers on all levels, and is a fantastic read that will touch readers at the very core of their being.”

  —The Romance Readers Connection

  Sun Kissed

  “This smart, wholesome tale should appeal to any fan of traditional romance.”

  —Publishers Weekly

  Summer Breeze

  “The kind of book that will snare you so completely, you’ll not want to put it down. It engages the intellect and emotions; it’ll make you care. It will also make you smile . . . a lot. And that’s a guarantee.”

  —Romance Reviews Today

  My Sunshine

  “With the author’s signature nurturing warmth and emotional depth, this beautifully written romance is a richly rewarding experience for any reader.”

  —Booklist

  Bright Eyes

  “Offbeat family members and genuine familial love give a special lift to this marvelous story. An Anderson book is a guaranteed great read!”

  —Romantic Times (4½ Stars, Top Pick)

  Blue Skies

  “Readers may need to wipe away tears . . . since few will be able to resist the power of this beautifully emotional, wonderfully romantic love story.”

  —Booklist

  Only by Your Touch

  “Ben Longtree is a marvelous hero whose extraordinary gifts bring a unique and special magic to this warmhearted novel. No one can tug your heartstrings better than Catherine Anderson.”

  —Romantic Times (4½ Stars, Top Pick)

  Always in My Heart

  “Emotionally involving, family centered, and relationship oriented, this story is a rewarding read.”

  —Library Journal

  Sweet Nothings

  “Pure reading magic.”

  —Booklist

  Phantom Waltz

  “Anderson departs from traditional romantic stereotypes in this poignant, contemporary tale of a love that transcends all boundaries . . . romantic through and through.”

  —Publishers Weekly

  OTHER NOVELS BY CATHERINE ANDERSON

  “Harrigan Family” Novels

  Morning Light

  Star Bright

  Here to Stay

  Perfect Timing

  Contemporary “Coulter Family” Novels

  Phantom Waltz

  Sweet Nothings

  Blue Skies

  Bright Eyes

  My Sunshine

  Sun Kissed and Sun Kissed Bonus Book

  Historical “Coulter Family” Novels

  Summer Breeze

  Early Dawn

  Lucky Penny

  The Comanche Series

  Comanche Moon

  Comanche Heart

  Indigo Blue

  Comanche Magic

  Other Signet Books

  Always in My Heart

  Only by Your Touch

  Coming Up Roses

  Cheyenne Amber

  Catherine Anderson

  A VALANCE FAMILY NOVEL

  Walking on Air

  SIGNET

  Published by the Penguin Group

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  New York, New York 10014

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  First published by Signet, an imprint of New American Library,

  a division of Penguin Group (USA) LLC

  Copyright © Adeline Catherine Anderson, 2014

  Excerpt from Perfect Timing copyright © Adeline Catherine Anderson, 2013

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  REGISTERED TRADEMARK—MARCA REGISTRADA

  ISBN 978-1-101-61121-0

  PUBLISHER’S NOTE

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

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  Contents

  Praise

  Other Novels by Catherine Anderson

  Title page

  Copyright page

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Epilogue
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br />   Excerpt from PERFECT TIMING

  This book is dedicated to my three grandsons, Joshua Anderson, Liam Anderson, and Jonas Anderson. Each of you has, in your own way, filled my life with gladness, and I consider it a privilege to be your nana.

  Chapter One

  Random, Colorado, 1880

  Gazing at the woman he’d just bedded, Gabriel Valance strapped on his double-holster gun belt, tested each Colt .45 to be sure it slipped easily from the leather, and then tied the thongs that kept both weapons firmly seated low on his hips.

  Grinning sleepily up at him, the young but experienced prostitute murmured, “Merry Christmas, gunslinger. It was nice to have a true gentleman pay me a visit for once.”

  When was the last time anyone had referred to him as a gentleman? Gabe couldn’t remember. He glanced at her again, feeling a familiar compassion. This woman lacked the hard edge he’d seen in most working girls. If she considered him to be cut from fine cloth, Gabe shuddered to think what caliber of man she normally entertained.

  “Yeah,” he said. “I guess it is Christmas Day, isn’t it? Merry Christmas.”

  She nodded. “I can remember better ones. But thanks.” She sat up, letting the sheet fall from her small, well-formed breasts. She reached up to push her brown hair out of her eyes, and for an instant he thought he saw the glint of tears. He wondered how life had turned her down the path of selling herself and condemned her to spending Christmas in a shabby room that smelled of a succession of men she didn’t love.

  Ambivalence rose within Gabe at the thought of Christmas and all the traditions of worship associated with the holiday. In a vague way, he believed in God, but as a kid, he’d never been taken to church or even taught to pray. The celebration of Christ’s birthday each year had barely made an impression on his hardscrabble existence. Christmas was a time for people with homes, families, and faith. Gabe, born to a prostitute who’d died young and sired by a gambler who had acknowledged him only after death, had grown into adulthood as a street orphan, stealing garments from clotheslines to stay warm, sleeping in hidey-holes to remain dry, and scavenging for food to keep from starving. In his experience, only other folks lived in regular homes with families who cared, and did things like celebrate Christmas.

  For some reason, the whore’s wishing him a merry Christmas triggered a queer sense of something lost. Well, he’d learned long ago not to dwell on might-have-beens. He knew that people exchanged gifts at Christmas, and he could at least make one person happy today. The girl had asked him for two dollars, a high rate even in cities. He slid a hand into his pocket, brought out a five-dollar gold piece, and handed it to her. As she thanked him, her voice tight with some emotion he couldn’t identify, he fished out two gold eagles and casually laid his hand on the top of her dresser to release the coins. She’d find them later, after he’d gone. Maybe she’d get herself a new dress. Better yet, maybe she’d purchase a stage ticket and get out of this hellhole town in search of a better life.

  Not that other towns would necessarily offer better. In his younger days Gabe had believed that something sweeter existed just beyond the next bend in the trail, but after thirty-three years of disappointments, he’d finally come to accept that it was a grim old world, and a goodly number of folks who walked the earth with him were as hard put to find happiness as he was.

  He didn’t look back as he left the shabby enclosure and stepped out onto the landing, which was sheltered by only a shingled roof that connected the brothel rooms to the tavern next door. A nice bit of civility, Gabe thought with a grimace. The fine gents of Random, Colorado, could frequent the bar, have a few social drinks, and then sneak like thieves in the night to the upstairs rooms, where all semblance of respectability vanished as they unbuckled their belts. Then, of course, to avoid explaining the expenditure to their wives, a lot of them tried to cheat the whores out of their fees when it came time to pay. That was a fine gentleman for you, long on looks and short on honor. Now that Gabe came to think of it, he didn’t take it as a compliment to be compared to one of the bastards.

  He stood on the landing, staring at the snow falling just beyond the boardwalk. The flakes melted the instant they landed on the packed-dirt street, but judging by the thickness of the downfall, Gabe guessed the ground would be white within a couple of hours. The upstanding citizens of Random would be pleased to get snow on Christmas. Personally, Gabe thought snow was about as much fun as chiggers in his boot socks, but then, he’d never really celebrated Christmas properly. He’d glimpsed the festivities only through windows, and the way his life was playing out, that was how it would stay. No decorated tree, no wonderful smells coming from an oven, no gaily wrapped gifts. Gunslingers didn’t get to enjoy things like that, and he’d learned long ago to curl his lip at all the folderol and pretend he wanted no part of it.

  As he started down the steps, he heard a whisper of rushed movement under the stairwell. Stopping dead, he hovered his hands over the butts of his Colts before he continued down the steps. As he neared the boardwalk, he grasped the railing to vault over it and drop to the ground beside the staircase. On edge, he leaned low to peer into the deep shadows not yet illuminated by light of day, still an hour or so away. Narrowing his eyes, Gabe quickly made out a huddled form on the ground—a ragamuffin boy who sat with his thin back pressed into the corner created by the two exterior walls of the tavern and the brothel. The child clutched his arms around his knees in a pitiful search for warmth.

  Memories blackened Gabe’s mind, for he’d spent many a cold night as a small child under the stairwell that led up to his mother’s room—a room where she’d been nice to the gentlemen, frequently abused for her trouble, and, more times than not, had earned too little to feed her child, let alone herself. To this day, Gabe had no idea what kind of sickness had taken her. He’d been—what?—five or six when she died. Much too young to understand death without some adult to explain it to him. A man in a black frock coat had tromped up the stairs, followed by two male helpers, and they had carted Gabe’s mother away on a board, her body covered by a sheet, one of her arms dangling. Gabe could remember yelling out, “Where are you taking my mama?” And the man in black, whom Gabe now realized had been the undertaker, turned to say, “She’s gone, boy.” Gone? Gabe could still see his mother, her slender arm and delicate hand swinging like a wet rag. What did gone mean? How could she be gone when Gabe could still see her, plain as day?

  Nobody had visited Gabe’s shadowy, damp hiding place below his mother’s room to explain that his mother had died. Over the next few days, an older prostitute named Priss had occasionally tossed him a hunk of bread, saving Gabe from starvation, until he’d finally come to understand that gone meant his mother wasn’t going to return. She would never again wait until all the men stopped knocking at her door and then sneak him upstairs into her room. Her gentle arms would never again hug him close. The endlessly long, cold nights would never again end in her bed, which had been dry and warm even though it reeked of the countless men who’d lain between the sheets. There would be no more bits of food to make his belly stop gnawing. No loving hands to brush his black hair from his eyes. Gabe’s world had ended as if someone had obliterated it with a stick of dynamite.

  Maybe it was those memories that prompted Gabe to bend at the waist to get under the stairwell. The boy cowered against the wall, shrinking inside his tattered clothing. Even in the dimness, Gabe could see that the kid’s oversize wool jacket was so full of holes that only a few threads held it together. Gabe crouched a distance away, recalling all too clearly how much he’d come to fear adults when he’d been a kid on the street.

  “Hey,” he said, trying to smooth the gruffness from his voice. “What’re you doing down here?”

  “Nuthin’.”

  Nuthin’ made sense to Gabe. Long ago, he would have answered the same way. “Where’s your mother?”

  The boy had dark, dirty hair that fel
l over his face in oily hanks. With a jerk of his head, he indicated the upstairs rooms. “She used to work up there. Then she went off with some cowpoke, sayin’ she’d come back for me. I’m still waitin’.”

  Gabe had a bad feeling that the kid’s mama was gone coon, a cowboy’s way of saying gone forever. Maybe the mother had taken sick. Or maybe she’d hooked up with some bastard who’d injured her so badly she couldn’t return. In the end, the woman’s fate didn’t matter. She’d left a child behind, and Gabe understood just what that meant for this boy. The hell of it was, Gabe was powerless to intervene. He couldn’t take on a kid to raise, even though the idea had some appeal. Because of his father’s belated sense of responsibility as he lay dying, Gabe had been left a heap of money back in Kansas City, enough that, after selling all of his sire’s fancy gambling houses, he could live in high cotton for the rest of his life. Sadly, circumstances had never allowed him that luxury. For one, he didn’t know how to live fancy, and second, his reputation as a gunslinger kept him on the trail, trying to avoid upstarts who wanted to make a name for themselves. All Gabe had at any given moment was his horse, a saddle, two trail blankets, a little dry food in his bags, and enough coin in his pocket to lie over in some out-of-the-way town until he got the itchy feeling that always told him it was time to move on. Then, if he was lucky—and he wasn’t always—he could slip away, ride the trail hard, and spend some time in another town before some man, young or old, called him out into the street. That was no life for a kid. Gabe’s existence could end abruptly, and then what would happen to the youngster? Besides, Gabe didn’t want this boy’s death on his conscience, if the child got between him and a bullet.

  The thought made Gabe shudder. He’d been in Random for only a month, but he was already getting that itchy feeling. Tomorrow, with Christmas over and the shops in most towns along the trail open for business again, he’d be moving on. It didn’t matter to him that it was the dead of winter, or that he had only the brim of his Stetson to keep the snow from slipping under the collar of his coat. But a boy couldn’t endure such harsh conditions.