Hold Onto My Heart
Amilee Palmer
Hold Onto My Heart
Teen Girl Poetry
Part One
by Amilee Palmer
Copyright 2014 Amilee Palmer
Preface
This poetry is the product of my young, high school self. I wanted to include all of the dates so you can see how old I was when I wrote each poem. I feel like my age and where I was in my life at those moments (even though you don't have a full story of my life) in time greatly affected the poetry I was writing. It's also interesting to see how much I've grown with my writing over the years and what sorts of sayings I still have a tendency to write. The majority of the poems are about one boy I had this huge crush on but I never would do anything about it because I was so shy. But it's okay... because without that crush and without that boy, these poems may never have happened. This is part one of that composition notebook full of poetry.
-Amilee
I Still Love You 2003
Every day I sit and think
Of how it all came true
It was the best day of my life
The day that I met you
Even though it's fading now
There's not much left to do
I wish you'd come back somehow
Erase all we've been through
I don't know what I did wrong
I don't know what to do
But please don't forget this one thing
I still love you.
**
Untitled 2003
Say to me the words you said,
That stole my heart away.
Tell to me the story,
You told me every day.
Sing to me the song,
You left in my heart.
Read to me the letter,
That tore my world apart.
**
Don't Need You
July 9th 2004
There's nothing you can say
To make me change my mind
I'm gonna walk away
With tears in my eyes
I still love you
But this is what I have to do
I know I can make it
Without a boy like you
You don't control my life
I don't need you
**
I Wish
July 10th 2004
My love,
I wish I had the courage to tell you how I feel
I can't stand to be apart knowing this is real
I wish I weren't so shy that I can't even talk to you
I'm sitting here alone not knowing what to do
I wish that my heart didn't hurt so
Because I love you and you won't ever know
I wish that we could talk and maybe still be friends
Because I know I love you a lot and this can't be the end
**
The Pain
July 10th 2004
I wish that you could make
This pain go away
I love you more and more
Each and every day
I really wish I didn't
But I know I do
There's just no way
To get over you
**
My Fault
July 10th 2004
It hurts to think of you
And know you won't be by my side
I think to myself
And wonder why
I wish I weren't shy
I'd tell you my thoughts
But then I realized the reason we're not together
It's all my fault
**
You
July 10th 2004
You're in my heart
You're in my mind
You're in my thoughts
You're in my dreams
You're everywhere but with me
**
Can you, Will you
July 10th 2004
Can you forgive?
Can you forget?
Can you love?
Will you forgive?
Will you forget?
Will you love?
Forgive me
Forget what I did
Love me
**
My Heart
July 11th 2014
Hold onto my heart
I'm giving it to you
It's fragile
Please don't break it
Tell me you're there
Tell me you'll be by my side
No matter what happens
Tell me you love me
Let me know you won't stab my heart
It's been cut before
It's so hard to believe in forever
But take my heart
I'm giving it to you
**
Okay
July 16th 2004
The tears may fall from my eyes
When I finally hear the lies
No matter how long they fall
It doesn't matter at all
It won't keep me down
I'll get back up
No matter what
I'll be okay
I won't let you stand in my way
**
Untitled
July 18th 2004
Despite what you do
It won't change the way I feel about you
Despite what you say
It won't change what I'm gonna do
And thought the “I'm sorry'” won't bring me back to you
The “I love you's” still mean a lot
But I'll never be able to forgive and forget
**
Untitled
July 18th 2004
I've changed
I've turned
I'm gonna bring you down and burn you
You'd like to think I'll regret it
But I won't
Not after what you did
Not after the lies
And not after the tears fell
You won't change my mind
Not now
Not ever
**
Afraid to Know
August 31st 2003
Although you can't see it
It's deep down inside
I'm fighting not to show it
But it's so hard to hide
This thing called love
Hurts so much
I can feel it run through me
Each time we touch
I don't want to hold on
But I can't let go
My love for you
Is more than I know
I can't come out and say it
But I can't hold back
The love for you
Is trying to attack
Each time at night
While I lie in my bed
Things to say
Run through my head
I wonder if you feel
The same way I do
The only way to know
Would be to ask you
But I'm too shy
So, I sit and smile
Hoping that maybe
You'll come up to me in a while
Sometimes it seems
We were meant to be
But if it's true
We may never see
Sometimes I sit
Sit and cry
I'm always wondering
Wondering why
Why am I afraid
Why am I so scared
It's not like you're far away
You're just over there
What I feel
May never show
Because of me
Too afraid to know
**
Untitled
November 02nd 2003
Like a leaf, caught in your breeze
br /> I can't break free
And you don't realize what you're doing
You don't realize you're drowning me
Like a thorn on a rose, you're cutting my soul
Breaking me down, like pieces of a puzzle
That won't fit together
It's so hard to cope with, harder than you think
Telling me what I have to be
I want to rebel, I want to be me
The leaf has wilted
The rose withered away
And I wait for the day, to let out my feelings
Say all I want to say
**
Untitled
July 21st 2004
Don't deny the
Memories
You can't
Escape
From what you
Should
Have done
The second
Chance
Hasn't come just yet
Waiting seems
Ever-long
Days without him are
Boring
And nights not spent
Talking
On the phone, are spent
Wondering
If you will ever get a
Second chance
Hopeful
You await
You speak, but he
Doesn't reply
You ask yourself
Why
Maybe he's
Over it
Maybe he
Hates you
But you're
Not
Over it
And you
Don't
Hate him
And you won't
Ever
Hate him
Ever
**
Untitled
July 25th 2004
Don't deny what you really feel
This can't get much worse
Don't fake what's in your heart
We know where this may lead
And though it may not work
At least we can say we tried
Don't deny what you really want
Cause I want you to be mine
**
Untitled
July 25th 2004
It's so hard to live my life
Knowing I was wrong
It burns my heart
To know that you're gone
I want to make it right
Though I don't know what I should do
So I'll live my life
Far away from you
I'll never know what it's like
To have you to love
So I pray every night
To God up above
I pray for a second chance
I know I could make it good
But you probably won't come back for me
There's no reason you should
**
Forget
July 25th 2004
I won't forget your sweet smile
It made my heart race
I won't forget those words
They made me feel so loved
I won't forget the nights we talked
There were so much fun
And everything you tried to do
To make me love you
I won't forget
Please don't forget me
**
Untitled
July 26th 2004
Okay... yeah
I adore you
Though, I ignore you
And that, I don't know why
I don't think you'd understand
I don't think I understand
What going on in my mind
And what I never said
Is still inside my head
Waiting for me to talk
I still can't make myself say it
So you turn away
And you've decided to walk
**
Amazing
July 28th 2004
It's amazing how you looked at me
With a twinkle in your eyes
It's amazing how you led me on
Telling me those lies
It's amazing how you said you loved me
And you knew I wasn't aware
It's amazing how you broke my heart
And you don't even care
**
The Story of my Love
July 29th 2004
Why do I let
Everyone pressure me?
Into something
I don't want
Or someone
I don't like, like
Only I know
What I want
And I know where
I can reach him
Technology is so great!
He's just an IM away
And believe me when I say
I really like him
I still get butterflies in my stomach
Just thinking of him
But I feel so helpless
Like there's nothing I can do
But think of him
And the way
It could have been
If only I'd said
How I really felt
But of course
Being afraid
I didn't tell him
I've IM ed him
Once or twice
He didn't reply
Third time's a charm
Right?
Yeah
I could see
But
(There's always another but)
I'm scared
I don't think he still likes me
I don't think he still cares
There'd be nothing worse
Than realizing
Everything I wanted
Everything I could've had
Is gone
On the other hand
He might say something back
He might still like me
Keyword: might
I don't know anymore
I was stupid
To give him up
In the first place
Well
I didn't mean
To give him up
He just left
And stopped talking
To me
But still
Why should he still like me?
It's been a while
And I'm the one
Who acted as if
I didn't like him
Not meaning to though
I might add
Still
He's got no reason
To still like me
Sometimes I wonder
About different things
I wonder if
He still likes me
If he still thinks of me
If he still thinks I'm cute
To the max
(He was very sweet)
And if he'd ever want to try
To make it work
After all we've been through
I want to try
But I'm still scared
To talk to him
And I want to say
I'm sorry
**
Untitled
July 28th 2004
Do I ever cross your mind anymore?
Am I in your heart?
I love you so much
I hate to be apart
But for you to come back
For me to mess up once again
I guess all I'll ever be
Is a friend
**
The Days During the School Year
July 29th 2004
1. Monday, I'm wishing it were Friday.
2. Tuesday, I'm still wishing for Friday.
3. Wednesday, I'm happy because half of the week is over.
4. Thursday, again I'm wishing it were Friday.
5. Friday, I'm bored out of my mind waiting for the bell to ring.
6. Saturday, I'm having fun or doing nothing at
all wanting every day to be Saturday.
7. Sunday, I'm dreading tomorrow wishing it were Saturday again.
**
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About the Author
Amilee Palmer is a twenty-five year old young writer who lives in North Carolina.
She currently works as a waitress at Southern Family Restaurant in Pfafftown, North Carolina. Her interests include writing, playing video games, going to the movies, eating Japanese food, and spending time with her family. Writing is her first love.
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