I Don't Wanna Be with You

I Don’t Wanna Be with You

  By Jason Wallace

  ******

  Published by:

  I Don’t Wanna Be with You

  Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace

  I don’t wanna be with you.

  You left me here,

  Cut in two,

  And now, I’m so afraid

  Of you really wanting to come back home.

  This all alone kind of life

  Has finally been a bit alright,

  Far better than anything, back then, I always knew

  When we were promising all of time or two.

  You did nothing but wrong, but that’s o.k., too.

  I’m so fine on my own, here, without you, so don’t come or go.

  You’re not welcome, and if that’s selfish, you know what you can do.

  You’ve lost it. You’re locked up, imprisoned in your own Hell,

  You made yourself.

  I was never anything you wanted to have to have.

  You’re fake. Face it. You make

  Me hate it, every time I ever have to think of you.

  I was well past this pastime, the last time

  You ever said, “I love you.”

  You leave me so much not knowing what to do,

  But I do know I don’t wanna be with you.

  After years of heartache and pain,

  Sleepless nights, and going bitterly insane

  And much more since you left me here, in shame,

  You’d think you’d, at least, get over the blame, but

  Maybe, you did, and that’s why you aren’t as mad

  As you used to be.

  I am and have been, since then, still the same.

  I loved you more than I could ever say.

  You were the one that I hated to see walk away.

  I’ve had to relive it all, frame by frame, and

  Everyone you had behind my back, name by name.

  If you, at all, wanna be with me,

  You need to know this one thing, and it is nothing new,

  Of all the ones I could ever pick, I don’t wanna be with you.

  Our love

  Was on its last leg

  Before you left and let

  All of it slip on down the drain.

  I’d had enough of your rough cuts,

  Slicing me up and stabbing me deeper

  To watch my pain.

  I held on

  For so long,

  Hoping it wouldn’t be so strained and stained

  With all of the abscess, the cold mess, regrets,

  And forgetting how to say

  Anything more than the worst words,

  Any thoughts of what would only hurt,

  Never wishing for any more than getting on, day by day.

  You call me up to say that me, you love.

  You want me back, no matter that

  You were the one that spewed out so much hate.

  It’s too late, and there is no memory to get to me.

  I can’t wait

  Until your misery and your missing me

  Get to be anything that lets you know

  What it’s like to feel so left alone and wasted away.

  You don’t have to ask me to know it’s true…

  You’re the last on my list, and I don’t wanna be with you.

  After years of heartache and pain,

  Sleepless nights, and going bitterly insane

  And much more since you left me here, in shame,

  You’d think you’d, at least, get over the blame, but

  Maybe, you did, and that’s why you aren’t as mad

  As you used to be.

  I am and have been, since then, still the same.

  I loved you more than I could ever say.

  You were the one that I hated to see walk away.

  I’ve had to relive it all, frame by frame, and

  Everyone you had behind my back, name by name.

  If you, at all, wanna be with me,

  You need to know this one thing, and it is nothing new,

  Of all the ones I could ever pick, I don’t wanna be with you.

  I’m begging please,

  Don’t you remember me.

  Don’t put me in your agony

  And build me up like you wish I’d be.

  I don’t know what it is you heard,

  I’m nothing anymore.

  Yet, I’m better than I was before,

  But I’m not out of your league. I’m out of your world.

  After years of heartache and pain,

  Sleepless nights, and going bitterly insane

  And much more since you left me here, in shame,

  You’d think you’d, at least, get over the blame, but

  Maybe, you did, and that’s why you aren’t as mad

  As you used to be.

  I am and have been, since then, still the same.

  I loved you more than I could ever say.

  You were the one that I hated to see walk away.

  I’ve had to relive it all, frame by frame, and

  Everyone you had behind my back, name by name.

  If you, at all, wanna be with me,

  You need to know this one thing, and it is nothing new,

  Of all the ones I could ever pick, I don’t wanna be with you.

  After years of heartache and pain,

  Sleepless nights, and going bitterly insane

  And much more since you left me here, in shame,

  You’d think you’d, at least, get over the blame, but

  Maybe, you did, and that’s why you aren’t as mad

  As you used to be.

  I am and have been, since then, still the same.

  I loved you more than I could ever say.

  You were the one that I hated to see walk away.

  I’ve had to relive it all, frame by frame, and

  Everyone you had behind my back, name by name.

  If you, at all, wanna be with me,

  You need to know this one thing, and it is nothing new,

  Of all the ones I could ever pick, I don’t wanna be with you.

  I Don’t Wanna Be with You

  By Jason Wallace

  ******

  Published by:

  I Don’t Wanna Be with You

  Copyright © 2015 by Jason Wallace

  I don’t know how to be abused.

  I learned from the best, and you had the rest

  To use, all of them, everyone.

  All I want from anyone

  Is for them to not be anything like you.

  I wish I could just erase your face,

  Hit some button that says, “undo,”

  But I can’t, so here it is. I’m really through.

  Leave me like I’m a road on which you can no longer go.

  I’m the past. I’m the last that really wanted you,

  But I don’t wanna be with you.

  I don’t wanna be with you.

  I don’t wanna be us again, in some “some day” or two.

  I don’t wanna be alone,

  But I don’t wanna be so thrown away.

  I don’t wanna be your “another day.

  I don’t wanna be with you.

  I don’t want…

  I don’t want…

  I don’t wanna be with you.

  Everything Bad

  When did it all go wrong

  I can barely even breathe

  Even after all this time

  I can sometimes clearly see

  That we were never meant to be

  All along

  Not that it was something I ever believed

  How can one person

  Be som
eone else's destiny

  How can someone leave

  And leave you so weak

  When you used to be so strong

  He was always the one

  When it was all said and done

  After years with me

  You went running back to him

  You two weren't together that long

  And you knew

  He never wanted you

  He still told me he would never be tied down

  But he took you

  From my house to his

  And gave up ten years

  Of what I thought was friendship

  By taking

  Everything I had

  And together

  You two are...

  Everything Bad

  You never seemed to care

  Just who you hurt

  I thought I was first

  The one you needed in your life

  The one to make you smile

  Everything you promised yourself

  Because you couldn't have someone else

  You ran from him to me

  Because he told you

  I was all you would need

  He urged me to take you

  And make a life with you

  And years down the road

  Watching rivers of tears

  As they flowed

  So much I went blind

  And completely lost my mind

  You ran away from here

  Because you were living in fear

  Of never realizing the feelings

  You thought you'd given up

  And he stirred back up

  He was always the one

  When it was all said and done

  After years with me

  You went running back to him

  You two weren't together that long

  And you knew

  He never wanted you

  He still told me he would never be tied down

  But he took you

  From my house to his

  And gave up ten years

  Of what I thought was friendship

  By taking

  Everything I had

  And together

  You two are...

  Everything Bad

  He must have lied to you

  Like you lied to me

  Because he still stole you

  As you pretended

  That you tried to be

  Working on us

  I was stupid to trust

  And now I know

  Everything was a show

  And everything was done

  He was always the one

  When it was all said and done

  After years with me

  You went running back to him

  You two weren't together that long

  And you knew

  He never wanted you

  He still told me he would never be tied down

  But he took you

  From my house to his

  And gave up ten years

  Of what I thought was friendship

  By taking

  Everything I had

  And together

  You two are...

  Everything Bad

  And everything and everyone

  I thought I could trust

  Though you both hurt me for years

  And lied so many times

  That I never felt I knew

  Either one of you

  I want to move on

  But the law doesn't allow

  Moving on for so long

  If we never said I do

  I might be over you

  I might be stronger now

  He was always the one

  When it was all said and done

  After years with me

  You went running back to him

  You two weren't together that long

  And you knew

  He never wanted you

  He still told me he would never be tied down

  But he took you

  From my house to his

  And gave up ten years

  Of what I thought was friendship

  By taking

  Everything I had

  And together

  You two are...

  Everything Bad

  Evermore

  I couldn't make you

  Love me

  Your love had to fade

  I told you

  We could make it all work

  But you just wouldn't wait

  I still...

  Wanted you to stay

  But I guess

  What you felt

  Turned into hate

 

  I couldn't get you

  To love me

  Evermore

  You placed

  Others above me

  What did you...

  Do that for

  Feelings don't last

  And the past,

  It will haunt you

  It doesn't always matter

  That someone wants you

  Evermore

 

  I wouldn't force you

  To do what

  You don't wanna do

  But you convinced me

  So many times

  To give

  More chances to you

  Then when I asked you

  To give me the same

  You said you couldn't

  And had to go away

  I can't help it

  If I scream your name

 

  I couldn't get you

  To love me

  Evermore

  You placed

  Others above me

  What did you...

  Do that for

  Feelings don't last

  And the past,

  It will haunt you

  It doesn't always matter

  That someone wants you

  Evermore

 

  I couldn't make you

  Love me

  If it's not in the cards

  What I had in mind...

  It's too hard

  You turned back

  When we'd made it so far

  So good

  Would it ever do

  Did you believe

  That I loved you

 

  I couldn't get you

  To love me

  Evermore

  You placed

  Others above me

  What did you...

  Do that for

  Feelings don't last

  And the past,

  It will haunt you

  It doesn't always matter

  That someone wants you

  Evermore

 

  I can't make you

  Adore me

  Like you once did

  Despite all you did for me

  You must admit

  You knew it would end

  The wounds couldn't mend

  And you'd find your way out

  I can't say I'll see your face

  All of time could never replace

  The feelings I have

  The love that I know

  We both have had our doubts

  I guess they showed

 

  I couldn't get you

  To love me

  Evermore

  You placed

  Others above me

  What did you...

  Do that for

  Feelings don't last

  And the past,

  It will haunt you

  It doesn't always matter

  That someone wants you

  Evermore

 

  We may be together

  Never again

  But I will love you

  Evermore

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