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Until Friday Night, Page 7

Abbi Glines


  pointless those words were? He couldn’t do anything for me. He couldn’t make this better.

  “He’s been sick for about eighteen months,” I finally said, knowing it was the right thing to do. “The past couple months he’s gotten really bad. Doctors sent him home because there’s nothing else that can be done.”

  Brady closed his eyes tightly and inhaled sharply through his nose. I waited for him to speak. I wasn’t sure I could tell him anything more. I didn’t want to talk about it.

  When he opened his eyes, he looked at me. “Why didn’t you tell us . . . or me at least? This isn’t something you have to go through alone. We’d have been there for you.”

  I felt Maggie’s fingers gently brush against my hand. She was silently trying to encourage me.

  “I didn’t want to accept it or talk about it. Telling y’all made it real. I needed to keep going like it wasn’t real. But now . . . I can’t keep doing that. Things aren’t good. It’s bad now,” I explained.

  He needed to understand why I’d left him in the dark about something so major in my life. He’d been my best friend since we were six. I knew he didn’t understand this and my not telling him. But it was how I needed to cope. “What can I do?” Brady asked, looking pained.

  Before there wasn’t anything he could do. But now he was standing between something . . . or someone I needed. Someone who could help me.

  “Let me be friends with Maggie. Just friends. She’s helped me in ways no one else could.”

  I glanced over at her and saw her eyes had gone wide. She hadn’t expected that. It made her gorgeous face cute. For the first time in a long time I felt like laughing.

  “You want to be friends with Maggie?” Brady asked, sounding confused. “I don’t understand.”

  He wouldn’t. But she didn’t talk to him. He didn’t know how the sound of her voice could soothe an ache. He didn’t know having someone to talk to who understood the pain I was going through was exactly what I needed. I didn’t need to talk to him or any of the guys. They didn’t get it. Only Maggie.

  Then You Shouldn’t Be So Damn Pretty

  CHAPTER 13

  MAGGIE

  I watched Brady’s face as he stood there staring at me, then staring at West as if he hadn’t heard him correctly. I had to admit, I was just as surprised. West wanted to be my friend. Because I helped him. Like no one else could.

  My chest felt warm, and there was a funny flutter in my stomach.

  “You wouldn’t understand. No one does. Except for Maggie. She’s helped me a lot the past few days. Having her to talk to is what I need right now.”

  The flutter turned into birds flapping around in my stomach. I had to remember West had said, “Just friends.” He hadn’t said, I’d like to kiss her again.

  He was hurting, and he liked talking to me. That was all this was.

  “She . . . uh . . . she doesn’t talk,” Brady said, glancing at me with an apologetic look on his face.

  I waited. I didn’t want West to tell Brady that I talked to him. But then how else did he explain wanting to be my friend?

  “She has her own way of communicating, and that’s enough,” West replied.

  I wanted to sigh in relief. If my aunt Coralee knew I was talking to West, she’d be trying to get me to talk to her.

  Brady pressed his lips together then nodded. “Okay. Yeah . . . if you want to be friends I’m okay with that. But just friends. Don’t—” He paused, and I felt West tense beside me.

  “She’s safe with me. I respect her, and I also won’t let anyone else hurt her,” West said with firm determination in his voice.

  The birds in my stomach started up again. He wanted to be friends. I could do that. I wanted that. I needed that too.

  Brady appeared to believe him. “Good. Well, you want to come inside? Mom made chocolate cake.”

  “Yeah.” West looked down at me. “You like chocolate cake?”

  I hesitated then nodded. I didn’t want to interfere in Brady’s life, but West wanted me there, and I wanted to be there for him. This side of West wasn’t anything like I expected. He wasn’t cruel or hard. He wasn’t putting up a façade for anyone. This was the guy I wanted him to be when he kissed me that time at the field.

  “Then let’s go get a slice of Coralee’s. It’s delicious.”

  Brady looked confused, but he turned and headed inside. West nodded for me to follow Brady, and as I did, West fell into step beside me.

  I could eat some cake with West then go up to my room and leave Brady alone with his friends. That way I made both boys happy while still protecting myself. No matter how much I wanted to be there to help West because I knew what it was like to do this alone, I wouldn’t let my guard down completely.

  Brady walked inside and headed for the den. Aunt Coralee stepped into the hallway from the kitchen and smiled when she saw West. It was a sad smile but also one that said she was happy to see him. I knew she was worried about him.

  “West, sweetheart, it’s so good to see you. I missed you this summer. You’re not around enough.” She went straight to him and hugged him, then pulled back and looked at me. “You’re back from your walk,” she said, sounding pleased. “Now you’ve burned some calories, you want to have a slice of chocolate cake with me in the kitchen?”

  “She’s actually going to go have some cake in the den with us,” Brady informed his mother.

  Aunt Coralee’s eyes went wide, then she smiled brightly. “Well, okay. That’s wonderful. I’ll bring some fresh milk and two more glasses in there.” She turned and hurried back to the kitchen.

  “I think that just made her day,” Brady whispered, glancing back at me.

  And this time I smiled. Because he was right. She was happy, and that made me smile.

  West’s hand slid behind my back, and he led me into the den where the guys I was used to seeing around Brady were lounging on sofas and beanbags, while a couple were shooting hoops at a basketball hoop on the wall.

  “Maggie!” Nash said the moment he turned around from taking a shot and saw me standing there. It was the first time he’d spoken to me since I’d sent him that text. I guess the shock of seeing me in here made him forget he was ignoring me.

  West kept his hand on my back as he moved me into the room toward the table.

  It was obvious Brady hadn’t told the other guys about West’s dad. None of them looked at him like they were worried about him or like they didn’t know what to do. I was relieved for him. He had just faced Brady and Aunt Coralee. He needed a break before he faced the rest of them.

  “So, Maggie’s here . . . with West,” Nash said because no one else was saying anything.

  Brady turned and looked at all of them. “Maggie and West are friends. Just friends. And I’m good with that.” There was an awkward silence, and West pulled out a chair for me to sit. Once I was seated he looked at his friends and teammates who were still watching the three of us like they weren’t sure what to think.

  “She’s my friend. Deal with it,” he informed them, then sat down close to me. He leaned his head toward mine. “Sorry they’re acting like idiots. I don’t normally have girls who are friends. And you were completely off-limits because of Brady. So they’re trying to figure out what’s up.” I nodded. I understood that. Although right now all I really wanted was to run off to my room.

  “Here’s more milk and cake,” Aunt Coralee announced. The guys went back to watching TV and talking. I didn’t turn around to see if Nash was still playing basketball or staring at us.

  “She doesn’t eat enough. Make sure she finishes the whole thing,” she told West as if she knew we were friends now and the idea tickled her pink.

  “Yes, ma’am,” he replied, taking the plates from her hands and putting one in front of me.

  When she left the room, West smiled down at me. “You need to relax. You look like I’m forcing you to sit here beside me. They’ll get over it soon enough. I swear.”

  I ti
lted my head down to hide my mouth from everyone else. “I know,” I replied quietly. “I just hate being stared at.”

  He chuckled and moved his fork to get a bite of cake. “Then you shouldn’t be so damn pretty.”

  The birds in my stomach were back. How was I supposed to eat now?

  Do You Have Regrets?

  CHAPTER 14

  WEST

  Maggie had slipped off to her room when we started watching last week’s game tape. I had been so relaxed watching the plays and talking about where we messed up and where we needed to tighten up that I missed her leaving.

  I hadn’t gone after her—I knew she had wanted to escape. I could tell by the look on her face. She’d only been staying for me.

  But now my head wasn’t on the game anymore. I was thinking about my dad and the fact I’d been gone too long. I wanted to get back home and check on things. Talk to him even if he didn’t talk back. I’d found that didn’t matter anymore. I just needed to be near him.

  The end was coming, and it wasn’t going to be easy.

  I stood up and walked over to Brady and then whispered I was heading home and told him to text me Maggie’s phone number. The guys were so wrapped up in watching the game, they didn’t notice or say anything about me heading out early.

  I wasn’t in my truck yet when my phone dinged. Brady had sent me her number. I’d almost expected him to tell me to get it from her myself. But he trusted me with her. I’d make sure I deserved that trust.

  It helped just knowing I could call and hear her voice if I needed to. And I wondered if the sound of my voice helped her? She’d been through something virtually alone. Could I be for her what she was for me?

  I opened the truck door and glanced up at her window. She was sitting in the window seat, her knees tucked up under her chin, watching me. I lifted my hand to wave, and she did the same. Then I held up my phone and put it to my ear and pointed at her.

  Just to be sure she understood, I quickly texted her.

  It’s me. Brady gave me your number. If I call, will you answer?

  I pressed send then looked back up at her. She glanced down at her phone and I watched as she typed something. When her face lifted again to look down at me, my phone dinged.

  Yes. If you need me, I’ll answer.

  That was enough. I nodded and climbed into the truck to drive home and face my reality. I would sit and talk to Dad. I’d tell him about watching the game with the guys. And I’d tell him about Maggie. He’d like her.

  When I opened the door to the house, it was quiet. The hospice worker was gone for the day. I locked up and headed inside. There was a note on the table from Momma telling me that she had made me a sub sandwich and left it in the fridge along with a fresh gallon of sweet tea. Dad had asked for her, so she had gone to lie down beside him.

  I wasn’t hungry. I’d eaten two slices of cake earlier, and now knowing I wouldn’t get to talk to Dad tonight, I didn’t feel much like eating. But Momma would worry if she checked the fridge in the morning and saw the sandwich still there. So I fixed a tall glass of iced tea and took the sandwich and drink with me up to my room. I’d try to eat some before I went to sleep. If not, I’d make sure she never saw it wasn’t eaten.

  I set my food down then walked quietly up the hall to stand outside my parents’ bedroom door and listen. There was silence. My dad used to snore, but he never did that anymore. He slept so quietly now. I used to lie in my bed at night, covering my ears, wanting him to stop snoring so I could fall asleep. These days I found myself wishing for his snoring. Just so I’d know he was still breathing.

  My heart clenched at the idea of my dad no longer breathing. The panic and pain that came with that thought squeezed my throat, making it hard to inhale. I moved away from their door and went back to my room so I didn’t disturb my mother. Closing my door behind me, I placed both hands on the door to hold myself up as I hung my head and gasped for air.

  I was going to lose him.

  I knew that, but damn, it hurt so bad.

  Every time I let the facts sink in, my emotions began to lose their grip. I felt my body tremble as tears blurred my eyes. How was I going to make it through life without my dad? I needed him. We needed him.

  I managed to inhale sharply, and I coughed to clear my throat before pushing off from the door and walking over to my bed to sink down onto it. My phone pressed against my leg where I’d stuck it into my pocket.

  Maggie’s face entered my thoughts, and without thinking about it, I pulled my phone out and scanned the contacts for her number.

  She answered on the second ring.

  “Hello,” she said softly.

  It was late, but I knew the guys wouldn’t have left Brady’s yet.

  “Were you asleep?” I asked.

  “No. I’m still sitting right where you saw me last,” she replied.

  I closed my eyes and pictured her up there in that window. Lost in her thoughts. In her solitude. She had spent so much time the past two years locked inside herself. Not talking to others. I didn’t like to think about it. The idea of her being alone hurt me. I understood it, but I wished I’d been able to be there for her the way she was for me. Maybe now I could be that friend she needed. Just like she was mine.

  “Did you ever have times when you couldn’t breathe? When the pain was so intense, it squeezed your throat and held on tight?”

  “Yes. It’s called a panic attack. I had them a lot. I haven’t since I moved here, though.”

  So I wasn’t losing my mind. This was normal. “How did you deal with them?”

  She sighed. “I didn’t at first. Once, I even passed out from not breathing. But I learned to think about something that made me happy. That gave me peace. I refused to let the pain control me. And the squeezing would ease up, and I could breathe again.”

  She gave me peace. She was the only thing that had given me peace in a long time.

  “Are you afraid to close your eyes at night?” I asked her.

  “Yes. Because I know the nightmare will come. It always does.”

  “Me too. I’m afraid he won’t wake up tomorrow,” I replied.

  She was quiet for a moment. We both sat there and listened to the other breathe. Oddly, it was enough.

  “One day that is what will happen, West. And it will be incredibly hard. But what you can do now is make the most out of the time you have left. Talk to him even if he can’t talk back. Hold his hand. Tell him everything you want him to know. So when he’s gone you don’t have regrets.”

  Her mother had been taken from her without warning. And so had her father with his horrible, sick act. She’d lost it all just like that. She was right. I had time to make sure I didn’t have regrets.

  “Do you have regrets?” I asked, already knowing the answer. I could hear it in her voice.

  “Yes. So many,” was her soft reply.

  I couldn’t imagine sweet Maggie having anything to regret. She was kind and gentle. It was hard to think of her being anything less than perfect.

  “I’m sure you were the daughter every mother wanted,” I assured her. “I know yours had to have been very proud of you.”

  She didn’t reply at first, and I was afraid I was making her talk about it too much. I had been focusing on her pain to forget mine. I hadn’t been careful enough.

  “Two hours before my mother died, I told her she was ruining my life,” Maggie said, then let out a bitter laugh. “Because I wanted to go to a party that my friend was having at her house, and my mother didn’t feel like there was proper adult supervision there. I wanted to go so bad. I had thought her not letting me go was the end of the world. The worst thing that could happen to me. If I had only known two hours later that I’d lose her . . . that I would find out what the worst thing that could ever happen to me truly felt like.”

  I closed my eyes and felt her regret heavy inside me as if it were my own. She had been a fifteen-year-old girl wanting to grow up. She had been acting out like all
teenagers did. Hell, I had my fair share of screw-ups. It was just so fucking unfair that she’d lost her mother that way before she could fix it. Before she could apologize and make it right.

  “She knew you didn’t mean it,” I told her, feeling like the words were inadequate. But I didn’t know what else to say.

  “I hope so. But it will always be my biggest regret,” she replied.

  I Was a Liar. Fantastic.

  CHAPTER 15